Mature Woman Breaking Bent

What is supposed to come will always come, Zhong Xiaoou thought for no reason of the sentence that Mr. Guan said in the bar that night: "If you like women, you can't say it like that?" Even if you want to make people angry, do you still have to say it?She was in a state of confusion, looking at the dishes that came one after another, she had no appetite, so she just put down her chopsticks and said seriously, "Then what exactly are you angry about?"

Gu Ming was choked by her words, and her heart was even more blocked. It seemed that the anger was unreasonable, but she was really unhappy, so she simply said, "Do you think you came to confess to me the night before and kissed me?" I, the next day I went to play with my blind date and take intimate photos, shouldn't I be angry?"

"I......"

"I also don't think I should be angry. There is no reason to be angry." Gu Ming quickly interrupted her without waiting for her answer, "Because I don't think I will like girls, but I just feel a little uncomfortable."

Don't like girls! ! !

Don't like girls! ! !

Don't like girls! ! !

Although she was prepared in her heart, when Gu Ming said it herself, it was like a hand reaching into her heart, twisting and twisting, twisting and twisting! ! !Like a dishcloth that can’t be wrung out on a rainy day, Wei told her early in the morning not to like straight girls, but liking someone will never be constant. The person’s worth is the only choice whether you should like it or not. ah?

Like a jack on her head, she couldn't move, and even the muscles on her face were as stiff as petrified. The confession was caught off guard. She spent the past few days in anxiety. She went to the mountains to play, but she didn't want to think about it. Never thought that this would make Mr. Gu even more angry, this is Chi.Naked rejection, right?

She immersed herself in the dishes in the bowl, no matter what it was, just put it in her mouth as hard as she could. She ate a lot until her mouth was full. The waiter brought a bottle of red wine, and Gu Mingwu drank it by herself. When she woke up, Zhong Xiaoou stopped persuading her, and she didn't bother to persuade her, so she followed suit.

Gu Ming felt a little embarrassed, he had something to say but didn't know what to do, but he seemed to be angry with himself, why was he so unhappy seeing Zhong Xiaoou being so close to other women, is this also a disease?Infected by Guan Yitong's weird flower and Mu Yao's crazy?She has always been sensible, but this matter is not clear.

Zhong Xiaoou raised his glass, looked at Gu Ming with red eyes, touched her lightly, and drank it down, "Thursday night, I don't know what's wrong with me, it seems like a ghost is possessed, I like you, it seems It's only been a few months, but it feels like years have passed, and I've always been afraid that you would know." She drank another glass, drinking the red wine as if it were white wine, and sure enough, some words were hidden in her heart, if it wasn't for the help of alcohol , I will never be able to say it out loud. Now that I know the result, I don’t have to sing a one-man show by myself, and still act like that.

"I'm sorry, if I said I like you and made you feel burdened, I'm sorry." It's not a broken can, but Zhong Xiaoou has always been a person with a true temperament, or he has been hiding it in his heart for a lifetime Don’t even say anything, since you’ve let Gu Ming know about it, let’s just talk about it, “Chi Wei always said that I’m a stickler, and I don’t look back if I don’t hit the south wall. Saying I like you is like a moth to a flame. A good result, I know it, but I can't control myself, my greed is always magnified bit by bit, like a deep swamp, the closer you are, the deeper you sink." She spoke quickly , Word by word, without taking a breath, just afraid that once you stop, you will no longer have the courage to finish all the words behind, "At first when I was in the planning department, it was so difficult to see you every day, and then every time I am so happy to see you, but I have to pretend to be very calm for fear that you will see it. Once or twice, you may not remember it. You seem to be walking silently. When you suddenly appear behind me, my whole heart I'm about to jump out, when my face is burning hot, I can only wait for you to leave and go to the bathroom to wash my face, and that time after you got drunk in the restaurant, I was suddenly at the door of the restaurant, accompanying you on the third ring road After a round trip, I saw that you came home and came here specially to look for you, and now I think of so many things, it's really embarrassing, like an idiot, but it doesn't matter." She breathed a sigh of relief After talking a lot, even she could hear that her voice was shaking like a sieve. She didn't know what would happen after today, and she didn't have the extra brain capacity to think about it.

Gu Ming doesn't know these things, the veins of love, many times, even the parties don't know when it started, how can she know?At that time, she was in prison, how could she have thought that the girl who frequently appeared by her side was doing her best, "I don't know..." She started talking, only to see that Zhong Xiaoou had already returned After drinking a glass, when I don’t know what to say, it seems that I only have to drink. After eight o’clock in the night, the late autumn wind is blocked by the floor-to-ceiling windows of the restaurant. Only the branches in November look very thin, and the wind blows In just a few days, as if in a flash, who would have thought that Zhong Xiaoou, who has always been timid and cautious, would fight himself out in such a night? Disgusting demeanor, the restaurant does not have as comfortable heating as in the north, only the air conditioner is turned on, and the temperature is turned up, everyone's breath is mixed together, as if this means that we have a relationship, and I drank more than two bottles of red wine But it seems that the more she drank, the more she became more sober. Her face gradually became flushed, and Gu Ming was also flushed, making people want to take a bite. Just thinking of that kiss, the 11-year-old's first kiss would be laughed at by many people. She looked at Gu Ming's deep eye sockets, how could she like someone so much?Loved so happily, but also so sad, how precious those days of thinking about her became.

"Mr. Gu, I mean if, if you could like women, would you like me?" She must be drunk, and she must be drunk.

"I haven't thought about such a problem." She rested her chin and felt a little drunk. That drunkenness made people's eyes warm. Why?Why does seeing Zhong Xiaoou like this make me want to cry? "Some time ago, Mu Yao told me that everyone has a Brokeback Mountain in their hearts. I said it was just a promotional line for that movie. Before she told me this, before Guan Yitong came, I knew very little about same-sex love. Little, how can I think that I like a girl one day?"

"That's true. In fact, I think sexuality, including liking a person, shouldn't be changeable? Shouldn't liking be designated as that person? It's not because of what she is or what kind of person she is. It's because she is who she is." She said more and more arbitrarily.

Gu Ming kept shaking her head, "That's not the case. Those who like men like men, and those who like women like women. How can this change?"

Zhong Xiaoou didn't speak anymore, just kept drinking, everything was over, it was so complete, everything was just wishful thinking in the end, she suddenly took down Gu Ming's glass, "Stop drinking, you still have to drink tonight After eating so many spicy things, my stomach hurts again after a while."

Gu Ming was a little dizzy, but it was okay. She wasn't particularly drunk. She just put her head on one hand, put down her usual armor, and asked casually, "Why are you so nice to me?"

Zhong Xiaoou didn't make a sound, just didn't let her drink anymore, and then he was drunk, and whispered: "Because I like you, because I care about you." The more he spoke, the softer he was, the moment he finally stopped, there was a kind of empty sadness, like this Potian, stepping on the dead leaves on the road, chirping and breaking, repeated, just like her heart.

After ordering too much, the two of them didn't eat much food at all. They went to drink and didn't even think about packing. The leftover red oil was embarrassing and dry. She paid the bill and felt a little dizzy when she got up. But she still turned around and waited for Gu Ming. She never wanted to drink. Now both of them drank. Why did the car drive back? She stood by the roadside and called the driver. Gu Ming couldn't stand standing in the night wind Now, when the wind blew, she couldn't help squinting her eyes. Zhong Xiaoou didn't know if she was drunk, so he took her sleeve with one hand and let her lean on his shoulder. Perhaps there was physical contact, and Gu Ming felt a little Embarrassed, he didn't move, and after a while, the driving master came, took the keys, and drove Gu Ming's car over. Zhong Xiaoou said the address of Gu Ming's community, and the two sat in the back row. people.

The nasty winter is coming, Zhong Xiaoou turned her head away, she couldn't hold back the tears, and she kept tilting her head like this, pinching herself desperately, but she still couldn't help it, so she opened her mouth calmly, Breathing mixed with choked sobs, in Chengdu, which was shrouded in mist in late autumn, I walked through streets and alleys, passing by a fruit stand, a brine shop, a bowl of sweet water noodles, and a plate of old mother's rabbit head. The days of getting along with Gu Ming day and night that were snatched by the sky were killed by himself.

She thought sadly, her arm sank, and something soft leaned against her.