fall in love with ghosts

We rushed to Tina's divination house by car in a hurry. When she saw me sweating and restless, she hurriedly asked us: "What's wrong? What happened?"

Just as Qin Zimeng was about to explain something to her, I couldn't wait to plead with her: "Sister Tina, please help me, he only has one day to exist in this world!"

After hearing the ins and outs of the whole thing, Tina unfolded the Tarot cards in her hand one by one, and sighed with frown: "That's right, there's only one day left."

"Tell me, please tell me how to revive Yiran?" My tears dripped down like broken beads, and I felt that I was on the verge of collapse.

"Yang Fan, this is impossible!" Yiran's low and sad voice sounded in my ears, but I still said to Tina desperately, "Tina, I have no one to turn to, I just beg you, please help me." Help me, tell me how can I bring Yiran back to life?"

"It's impossible, Yang Fan!" But... Tina said the same thing as Yi Ran, "The dead cannot be brought back to life, no one can bring the dead back to life, and those panacea that can bring the dead back to life can only be found in myths and legends. In reality, it doesn't exist."

"No! No! There must be a way, there must be a way." I opened my eyes wide and kept crying, He Yiran stood beside me helplessly, looking at me distressedly but didn't know how to comfort me.

"I can't help it, Yang Fan, let's face the reality." Even though Tina looked extremely unbearable, she still had to force me to believe her words, "The person you love is now only a soul, and the body has long been turned into a pile of bones , rotted and turned into mud, it is absolutely impossible to be resurrected no matter what, I can only pray that he can reincarnate as soon as possible."

Such words cut my heart like a knife, making me so painful that I couldn't breathe.

"Tina, don't say that, it's too cruel." Seeing my heartbroken look, Qin Zimeng said to Tina angrily.

"I know it's cruel to say that, but it's the truth, you can't change it, you can only accept it..."

"Yang Fan...Look at me." Yiran supported me who was about to collapse on the ground, and said to me with pain, "You are so sad, how can I go with peace of mind?"

"I don't care! I don't care!" I cried loudly, crying heartbreakingly, "Even if I dedicate my blood and flesh to you, I am willing. If the messenger of the underworld wants to take you away, I will If you want to go together and let him take me away, how can I do it? Can I die? Can I also become a ghost? Then I will die now, let me die!"

After I finished speaking, I desperately struggled to break away from the hand that was holding me, and wanted to bang my head against the wall, but Yiran was so startled that he grabbed me even tighter, Qin Zimeng and Tina also immediately grabbed me, because of extreme sadness, I had no strength for a long time, and after struggling for a while, I finally sat on the ground paralyzed.

"Yang Fan... Do you know what my biggest regret is? I didn't meet you when I was alive, and why did you? Let's give up, stop wasting effort, it's not worth it!"

"No! It's worth it! Everything is worth it! I don't care what you become, whether it's a human or a ghost, an animal or a plant, an angel or a demon, even if it's his alien, I will love you! I will never change until death !"

Tears kept pouring out of my eyes, and in the blurred vision, I only felt that He Yiran was becoming less and less clear, he was as illusory as a wisp of smoke, only Qin Zimeng and Tina were sobbing faintly around him sound.

I raised my hand to wipe away my tears vigorously, and saw that He Yiran had really become blurred. In my eyes, his body became more and more transparent, more and more illusory. I vaguely saw him hugging me, but again I can't even feel his arms...

That was the last day I spent with him, I was not in the mood to go to class, sitting on the bed at home, Ren Yiran hugged me tightly, and I just stared blankly at the clock, usually I always felt that it was going very fast Slow, today, why is it as fast as if you want to fly.

I have thousands of words to express to the boy next to me, but I can't utter a single word, and Ye Fan just hugs me tightly in his arms, without saying anything, I know, he is afraid that I will suicide.I have been crying, and he has been crying. Our tears flowed on the bed sheet. When the transparent tears and red tears were mixed together, they miraculously turned into dark blue, like a blooming blue flower. The seductress blooms melancholy.

In the evening, he suddenly let go of me and began to walk out involuntarily. I ignored my mother calling my name behind me in surprise, and chased him out of the house in a panic. Just after walking out of the house, we met After meeting Qin Zimeng and Ye Jinchen who came in a hurry, Zimeng told me that she also wanted to say goodbye to Yiran, but Yiran's figure was moving so fast that I didn't care about the two friends who were following me , galloping and running forward following his figure, he seemed to be drawn by something, moving in one direction all the time, running for a long time without a break made me feel like my legs were going to break off, but I still Chased him non-stop.

Until he reached the outskirts, in a deserted place, he stopped, turned around and waited for us.

Panting, I ran to him and looked at him in surprise. When I saw red tears all over his face, I finally realized that he was really going to leave me. .

"That's the same... and the same... Don't go!" My voice was shaking uncontrollably, as well as my body, my soul was shaking.

"Yang Fan, it's too late. I still have a lot to say to you, and I want to do many things with you, but it's too late." He Yiran stared at me tearfully, but his figure became almost invisible , "The emissary of the underworld is already standing in front of me, waiting for me."

"What? Where is he?" I looked around, but I couldn't see anything except Qin Zimeng and Ye Jinchen.

"What you can't see, only I can see him." He Yiran said in a low voice while holding my hand, although I can no longer feel him like I used to, "Yang Fan, promise Is one thing okay with me?"

"Also..."

"Promise me, you will live a good life, don't die alone, and find someone who loves you, and be with him for the rest of your life." I tried to open my eyes wide and looked at his increasingly pale face, and those red eyes , I want to engrave his appearance at this moment in my memory forever, "promise me, don't be sad, don't be in pain, although you don't have me, but you have a mother who loves you, and a friend who cherishes you, so be happy Continue to live happily, as if our love is just a dream you have, forget me, promise me, promise me quickly!"

"No, it's the same, I don't want anything, I just want you!" I said in tears, the surroundings were extremely quiet, the moonlight shone on me faintly, and the sound of my crying seemed to have spread far, far away place.

"Yang Fan, please promise me, otherwise I won't be able to die with peace in my eyes!" He Yiran looked at me anxiously, almost pleading, "Do you have the heart to let me die in peace?"

I clearly realized that at this moment, I can do nothing for him except send him on the road with peace of mind: "Okay, I promise you, and the same, I promise you..."

Hearing my promise, Yiran finally showed a smile. After kissing my lips for the last time, I saw his almost nothing figure slowly drifting towards the sky, gradually turning into a piece of white dust and dissipating In the air, disappeared from my field of vision.

Only his familiar warm voice still echoed in my ears for a long time: "I'm sorry Yang Fan...goodbye...Yang Fan...I love you..."

I stretched out a hand to the empty sky, and imagined that I could be held by him again, but time passed by, and he never appeared again. When I realized that he had really disappeared, really It completely disappeared from my life, and I fell to my knees suddenly, crying heartbreakingly.

Qin Zimeng, who was always by my side, wiped away tears, and wanted to come to me to comfort me, but Ye Jinchen stopped her and said with a sad expression: "Give him a little time, let him cry quietly for a while ..."

After a burst of thunder, the sky suddenly began to rain cats and dogs. I just knelt on the ground and let the cold rain hit me. I just lowered my head and looked at the ground in despair. The lonely leaves, tears mixed with raindrops kept falling down, soaked in the soil, I just knelt like that, until I had hallucinations, I saw He Yiran walking slowly in front of me, helped me up, and then Looking at me reluctantly with tears in his eyes, he began to hum a song softly——

Reluctant to leave

one day you will understand

in memory

you are the hardest confession

hardest petting

Reluctant to leave

i think you will understand

time will dilute everything

the love that was engraved in my heart

finally leave

some love lasts forever

think of every night

still surging

still feeling

finally leave

don't come when you say goodbye

Afraid of losing my composure in front of you

I want to leave you the most beautiful love

I finally cried in your arms

All the long-held depression is released

Almost forgot to have too much patience

I can't ignore your existence

still crying in front of you

Still can't let go of all the helplessness

I can hardly bear this love

but willing to bear the hurt alone

……

☆, the final chapter

I don't know how I got home, I don't know how I got back to my room, I went straight to the wardrobe like a walking dead, and opened it, although I knew... that person would never appear in it.

"Son? What's wrong with you?" Mom saw me staring blankly at the empty closet, and kept asking anxiously in my ear, "What's the matter? Why do you look like this?"

"Mom... you go out, I want to be alone for a while..." I didn't look at her, but after replying weakly, I leaned over and sat in the closet, imitating what Yi Ran used to do, with my arm hug your knees.

"What's wrong with you? Yang Fan, tell me quickly, you want to kill me?"

"Mom! Please get out, please get out, and leave me alone!" I yelled to my mother, as the grief of losing a loved one overwhelmed me and made me lose my mind, and she watched in amazement. Looking at me, after standing silently for a while, he finally walked out of my room.

The room is very quiet, I don't have to play music anymore, only the pattering rain outside the window, converging into a sad river in my heart.I just sat alone in the closet, and my mind kept reminiscing about the scenes when we were together like a movie.

From fear and disgust at the beginning, to worry and concern later, to heartbeat and infatuation later, to almost obsessed and inseparable, to the painful parting at the end, every word he said, Every expression I showed, every movement I made, was replayed repeatedly in my heart.Thinking about it, I suddenly remembered that he had attached a video to me and recorded it for me. At that time, he said that I could only watch it when I was allowed to watch it, but before he had time to get his permission, he had already left me. Yes, I immediately wiped away my tears, walked out of the closet and came to the desk, opened the drawer and took out the DV. When I finished watching the video, I burst into tears again...

On the screen, Yiran is taking a selfie with a DV. He first smiles at the camera, then takes a deep breath, as if trying not to look sad, and then continues to smile and say:

"Uh...Yang Fan, I have so many things I want to tell you, such as my satisfaction with the present and my yearning for the future, but I really don't know how to say them all.

"It's lucky to meet you, but I can feel that this luck won't last long, so...it's okay, I just want to say, take care of yourself, be careful not to suffer from heat stroke in summer, and add clothes in time to avoid freezing when the temperature cools down If you have a cold, remember to build a snowman for me when it snows. If you want to say something to me, just tell the snowman that he will convey it to me for you. Remember to wear gloves. Also, don’t be so lazy , I have time to take care of my hair and dress handsomely, so that I can attract others. When I become a doctor in the future, I must be a good doctor who can save lives and heal the wounded. By the way, I cleaned the room for you just now, look at how diligent I am , but in fact you clean it yourself, haha.

"Oh, the last thing is very important. I bought a pair of couple bracelets for the two of us. You know, I have no money, so I had to borrow it from Zimeng when I attached it to you and went to the western restaurant. I bought it with money, remember to thank her for me, and help me return the money to her, Zimeng is a good girl, she will be a friend worth cherishing for the rest of your life, the bracelet is placed on the top of the closet, because I am afraid You found out ahead of time so you hid it, just to give you a surprise, hehe, well, let’s not say more, let’s say three words at the end, I love you!”

After the final confession, Yiran smiled and waved to the camera, and this video ended.

While wiping away my tears, I walked to the closet and stood on tiptoe. I stretched my hand to the top of the closet and got a beautifully packaged jewelry box. When I opened it, there was a pair of couple bracelets inside. One string, the bracelet is very beautiful, shining with intoxicating brilliance, I saw two English letters "YR" engraved on it, I understand that the belt represents the name of Yi Ran, and the other string...is the name of Yi Ran Did you take it away?

I put the bracelet on my wrist, and couldn't hold back my tears again. I wish he could put it on for me, but I already understand that this can only become a fantasy that I will never be able to realize...

A year passed in a blink of an eye. I finished my university studies and officially became an intern. After entering the hospital and completing the first month of internship, it happened to be the anniversary of Yiran's death. On that day, I was dressed in pure black He came to his tomb in formal attire, squatted down, and slowly placed the blue rose in his hand in front of the tomb, then took out a small box from his suit pocket, opened it, and inside was a delicate ring.

"Yeah, do you know what the flower language of the blue rose is?" I put the ring next to the rose, and stroked back and forth on the tombstone engraved with Yiyan's name, "It's rare and precious...do you remember? ? You once asked me to propose to you, but I was not prepared at that time, today, I am here to propose to you formally, same, marry me, okay?"

A tear fell on the proposal ring, and when I was feeling sad alone, the phone rang suddenly, and after I connected, there was a cheerful voice from the other end of the phone: "Hi Yang Fan, I am the editor. Xiao Xu, since "Shadow Lover" was officially released, it has received a lot of attention, I want to congratulate you!"

"Really? Thank you so much." After hanging up the phone, I set my eyes on Yiran's black and white portrait. To this day, his face still makes my heart move, "Yiran, did you hear that? huh? A lot of people love our story."

I kept smiling at him, as if he was always by my side and never left...

40 years later, my youth is long gone, and I, who was still a kid back then, is now an old man in his sixtieth year, with gray temples and a bent back.

On this day, as an honorary professor, the School of Medicine will send a special car to pick me up to give a lecture at the school. There is still some time before departure, so I will go for a walk in the park near my home.

After walking for a while, I stopped and sat on a bench under the tree to rest. I saw a lot of young people playing skateboards nearby, and I couldn’t help smiling. At that time, I inadvertently found a little boy sitting on the opposite bench looking at me with a smile on his face, so I also looked at him, looking at him with a trace of curiosity.

Seeing that I was also looking at him, the little boy suddenly got down from the bench and walked in front of me. Then he blinked his big eyes and said hello to me: "Grandpa, hello!"

Seeing that the child was so polite, I smiled and touched his head, and said, "Hello, kid."

"Grandpa, look!" At this moment, the little boy suddenly raised a hand and pointed to me a string of bracelets on his wrist, "The bracelets on your hands are exactly the same as mine!"

When the bracelet on the boy's immature hand came into my eyes, I was suddenly stunned, because I clearly saw the two English letters "YF" engraved on it, and I touched the bracelet with trembling hands , and then raised his eyes to look at the boy's smiling face, and suddenly felt a sense of familiarity in his eyes.

"Who gave this bracelet to you?" I stared at the little boy in front of me with flickering eyes and asked.

"My mother said that when I was born, I was carried to the crib by the nurses. When they were about to pick me up, they found this bracelet on my wrist." The little boy looked at me with innocent eyes, half knowing She said to me, but my heart trembled violently, "Mom said it was God's will, so she kept the bracelet. I couldn't wear it because I was too young. Today I put it on again for the first time. "

My tears began to roll in my eyes uncontrollably, but I still tried my best to maintain a smile, and asked softly: "Little friend, how old are you?"

"I am ten years old."

I smiled with tears in my eyes, and kept nodding my head. It's great, he didn't suffer in hell, and now, he can finally be a human again...

"Baby, it's time to go!" A young woman's voice suddenly came from a distance. After seeing the woman, the little boy said to me, "Grandpa, Mom is here to pick me up. I have to go."

After finishing speaking, the child turned around and walked towards his mother. I hurriedly stood up and called him: "Wait a minute!"

The child turned around and looked at me with a hint of surprise. I smiled and said to him in a gentle and friendly tone: "Must... be safe and grow up healthy!"

Hearing what I said, the boy smiled innocently again, nodded and waved goodbye to me: "Well, goodbye, Grandpa!"

Then he walked to his mother, took the woman's hand, and left bouncing away, but I looked at that little figure from behind, unable to recover for a long time.Until, I couldn't help hallucinating again, as if after 40 years, the image of He Yiran appeared in front of my eyes again.

He still maintains his 20-year-old appearance, wearing the suit I gave him, with his hands in his trouser pockets, and his handsome figure is unparalleled. At this moment, he is standing ten meters away from me, with a smile in his eyes Looking at me intently, her deep eyes are like sunlight shining down, so beautiful, the corners of her mouth are raised slightly, as if she is talking sweet words to me, making me seem to have returned to the years when my heartbeat and heartbreak were intertwined, so, I also curled up the corners of my mouth and smiled, and looked at him for a long time, a moment is eternity...