song for the city

The white chewing gum stuck to Liang Zhang's hair, covering a large area. It looked like it had been there for a while, and it was almost dried out.

Xiang Pei didn't dare to touch it directly with his hands, but just smoothed out the hair around the gum, and moved away the part that wasn't glued.

He seemed to realize that the posture of the two was too ambiguous, he stepped back, and let go of Liang Zhang's hand.

After being let go, Liang Zhang subconsciously wanted to touch the back of his head with his hand, and Xiang Pei grabbed his wrist in time: "Don't touch it, it's dirty."

The chewing gum that came out of someone's mouth was really dirty. When Liang Zhang thought of this thing hanging on his head, he felt sick in his stomach and almost vomited. He wondered, "How could chewing gum get on my head !"

He couldn't understand it, wondering if there was chewing gum on the wall in the back alley of the bar, but he didn't feel anything.

"I remembered," Xiang Pei's expression became indescribable, "During the fight, I seemed to see a man chewing gum, and then he seemed to spit it out, but I didn't see it clearly."

Liang Zhang desperately covered Xiang Pei's mouth, and said without tears: "It's alright, it's alright, don't remember."

Thinking of the man's chewing gum hundreds of times on his head, which was still mixed with saliva, Liang Zhang wanted to hit the wall to death immediately.

What made Liang Zhang even more collapsed was yet to come.

Xiang Pei stood in the bathroom holding the scissors, looked at Liang Zhang from the mirror, and asked nervously, "Are you sure?"

The bathroom was very dark, but it was enough to show Liang Zhang's reluctance, and Xiang Pei even felt that he could cry in a second.

The chewing gum on his head couldn't be removed, maybe it stayed for too long, anyway, Xiang Pei had tried everything, and in the end there was only one way left, which was to cut his hair, once and for all.

"Let me tell you first, if you cry, I won't hand you the paper." Xiang Pei teased.

Liang Zhang became even more angry, his face was completely black: "Who would cry! You treat me like a three-year-old child?"

Xiang Pei looked at him with an aggrieved expression, and hooked the corners of his mouth: "Xin Yu was crying right then."

Who knows why he mentioned Xin Yu now, it made his mind full of Xin Yu.

"Xin Yu?" Liang Zhang didn't notice that his tone was particularly aggressive, as if he owed Pei money and didn't pay him back.Maybe it was because he was in a bad mood, he didn't have time to restrain his emotions, so he propped himself on the sink sullenly, trying to firmly engrave the appearance of him still with hair in his eyes.

Soon this handsome boy is about to change.

"Well, she used to have very long hair, and she cried a lot when she got her hair cut."

If you don't want to cut it, why do you still want to cut it, and it's not as forced as he is.After hearing this, Liang Zhang was inexplicably unhappy, pouted, and muttered in a low voice: "I'm not a little girl... Forget it, why are you so annoying, I will cut it myself."

He turned around to grab the scissors in Pei's hand, raised his hand to Pei, and said, "You can't see behind."

The space is small, Xiang Pei is close to Liang Zhang, they stand facing each other, Liang Zhang is regarded as trapped in Xiaoyuan by Xiang Pei.

Xiang Pei put his hand on the sink, looked into Liang Zhang's eyes and said, "It's not that I want to turn you into a bald head, what are you afraid of."

Xiang Pei moved two benches over, one high and the other low, he sat on the high one, and Liang Zhang sat on the low one, so it was convenient for him to cut Liang Zhang's hair.

He boasted that his handicraft was good, but Liang Zhang was dubious. He didn't need to cut his long hair, so where could he go to practice his handicraft?

Liang Zhang's hair is very smooth and soft, no wonder it often curls up, and it doesn't always feel combed well.Xiang Pei couldn't hold back a laugh from his lips when he thought of his dumbfounded look.

The person on the low stool in front turned around with a sullen expression: "What are you laughing at?"

He thought that Xiang Pei was fantasizing about his short hair, and then laughed at him.

Xiang Pei shook his head with a suppressed smile, and moved the scissors to Liang Zhang's head.

There were more and more hairs on the ground, every time a new hair fell, Liang Zhang felt a throbbing pain in his heart.

The scissors rubbed against each other and kept wandering behind Liang Zhang's ears.The bathroom was too quiet, Xiang Pei told him not to move around, Liang Zhang could only sit in a daze.

Bored enough to start counting the dots on the pattern on the towel.

Enough of being good, he started chatting with Xiang Pei: "Xiang Pei, I actually envy you."

Xiang Pei's hand stopped and asked, "Do you envy my life like this?" His "this" must mean that it is not very good.

No one ever said they were envious of Xiang Pei, and he really had nothing to envy.Whether it's a cramped, dilapidated hut, or a life that is sometimes so embarrassing that you can hardly afford instant noodles, people can't avoid it.Now who is willing to live in the wind and rain for a bigger dream, but he still insists on doing something stupid in the eyes of adults.

"Your life like this is very good. You can do what you want, form a band, and sing. You sing so well, maybe you can make a record in the future."

"It's too far to say these things now. I started a band because I like it, not because I want to be famous."

Music is the only thing that can whet Xiang Pei's appetite, and the world inside is what he wants to spend his whole life exploring.He doesn't care what others think of him. Maybe many people think that being in a band is self-deprecation, but only Xiang Pei knows that music is his spiritual medicine.

Let's call this a kind of rebellious spirit, although it is a bit insane.

Melancholy, Liang Zhang picked up the hair on the ground and touched it twice, but he didn't think it was a pity.

The cut off hair represents his past, which is destined to be let go, the heaviness that will never return.

"I remember when I was 14, my birthday wish was to die. It was scary, right? Since I can remember, I have been thinking about a question, why am I me, can I die once, and get new parents .They will not force me to attend cram school or interest class, nor will they make me write test papers and workbooks until I vomit."

Recalling this wish in the future, Liang Zhang only felt chills on the back of his neck. He didn't know why he had such extreme thoughts at that time, it was still too naive.

"I have no privacy. My mother dug out all my diaries, and all my friends are under her control. Only one friend escaped her clutches. Of course, I can't have an MP3 to listen to music, and I'm not allowed to rent a disc to watch movies."

"They always say that I am their everything and their world, but I don't feel warmth at all, I just feel suffocated."

Xiang Pei's fingertips brushed Liang Zhang's scalp, and he asked softly, "What happened next?"

"Later? Nothing later, only to swallow tears and grievances in my stomach. I used to think that everyone's childhood was more or less free until I met you."

"Freedom and unrestrained are simply my antonyms."

Sometimes, Liang Zhang wanted to become Xiang Pei, especially Xiang Pei who sang on stage and swayed his fingers on the guitar.

"Sometimes people only see the surface."

"what?"

Xiang Peiji sighed inaudibly, and murmured: "I'm not as free as you think... Hey, why did it become a miserable meeting?"

Liang Zhang tentatively said, "If you can...you can tell me about yourself."

"My father is from Day City, a third-rate writer. My mother is from Nanchuan, she has nothing but skin, and she came to Day City to find her dream of being an actor."

Quite a clichéd love story, where a down-and-out writer meets a beauty who dreams of being a star, and Xiang Guo settles Xiang Pei's mother with two poems, and promises her that he will write a script for her in the future, and let her be the most popular girl. main character.

But the star dream is not so easy to realize. There is no shortage of beauties in the entertainment industry, and there are many beauties with superb acting skills. .Xiang Pei's appearance undoubtedly made things worse, and Xiang Pei's fucking dream was completely broken. Her hatred gradually shifted from Xiang Guo to Xiang Pei, and she looked at her son with hatred in her eyes.

When she was six years old, Xiang Pei's mother couldn't stay in Day City any longer, so she packed her luggage and returned to Nanchuan. After her dream of being an actor was shattered, she randomly found a man with good conditions in Nanchuan to marry. Anyway, she and Xiang Guo had no relationship. , and looks pretty.

When Xiang Pei was in junior high school, Xiang Guo remarried, and his wife did not allow him to bring a bottle of oil, just as they had their own child.

Xiang Guo is obedient, and Xiang Pei is also very sensible.To save him from making a show of reluctance and looking fake to Pei.

These things were rarely mentioned to Pei, and the only people who knew more about them were You Jing and Chen Zhaonan, who had known him since childhood.But to Liang Zhang, Xiang Pei unconsciously confessed everything, and there was a special sense of trust.

"Would you hate them?"

"At first, I hated them, especially when I was at my aunt's house. In the darkest days, I hated them to the core. But when I thought about it later, they were actually quite pitiful."

"Your father may not care about you as much as you think."

Sure enough, Liang Zhang heard the conversation downstairs, and his eyes were a little unnatural to Pei. Liang Zhang hurriedly said: "I didn't intend to see it! I only saw the first half, and I wanted to go to say hello to my uncle, but then I got more and more The more it sounded wrong, I hurried up.”

Xiang Pei didn't think there was anything wrong.

"It's okay, I'm just...I don't see my father once."

"To Pei."

"Ok?"

"You can tell me anything in the future, and I will always listen to you."

Liang Zhang is now a kiwi, with a very tough guy's inch plate on his head.

It has to be said that after his hair was cut short, the advantages of his facial features were magnified infinitely. The original big eyes were modified more profoundly, his eyebrows grew wilder, his forehead was full, his nose was high and sharp, and he was refreshing and handsome .

"Pretty handsome."

Xiang Pei's gaze fell on Liang Zhang's lips again, probably because of an illusion, he felt that it was redder there.

"Really?" Liang Zhang stared straight at the mirror, the him inside was strange and unnatural, "It's not like me anymore."

"Then it's a pleasure to meet you, the new Liang Zhang." Xiang Pei patted the back of his head.

Liang Zhang remembered what Xiang Pei had said on the train: Goodbye by fate, Liang Zhang.It now appears that there was more than just a goodbye between them.

After cutting his hair, there were still a lot of tiny hair debris on his body, so Liang Zhang turned on the shower and wanted to take a shower.

Liang Zhang tidied up his things and was about to step out of the bathroom door.

"Xiang Pei, thank you today." Liang Zhang pointed to his forehead, he only remembered to say the most important thing now.

"It's nothing, I'm quite resistant."

"However, if this happens in the future, I don't need you to stop me. After all, you are still younger than me."

Shrugged to Pei: "Okay, silly."

Liang Zhang's eyes widened, and he made a gesture to hit Pei, then put down his hand, and rushed to Pei with a smile: "Remember to drink the Coke."

"Also, good night to Pei."

He was slightly taken aback by Pei.In a daze, he didn't seem to need his father's hug and his mother's good night anymore.