song for the city

Liang Zhang opened his mouth sluggishly, something subtle flowed through his blood, and his skin was itchy, making him bite his fingers.

He never felt ashamed because he liked Xiang Pei, Yin Jing asked him like this, as if it was a sin for him not to feel ashamed, and he would be normal only after being ashamed.

What is the definition of normal and what is abnormal is completely blurred in Liang Zhang's eyes. He tried hard to be normal, but others mercilessly broke his cognition.Liang Zhang understands that normal is just a different definition in everyone's eyes.

Yin Jing knew everything, she must have stayed in the room for a long time, and said a lot to Xiang Pei, Liang Zhang didn't want to guess what they said, every possibility was enough to make him shudder.Liang Zhang used nails instead of teeth, stood closer and asked, "Mom, what did you say to him?"

Liang Zhang actually delusionally imagined that Yin Jing would answer truthfully when he asked a useless question.

Yin Jing grabbed Liang Zhang's sleeve, and the action was a bit rough. Liang Zhang was thrown forward unprepared. He stared blankly at Yin Jing, with an expression clearly eager for Yin Jing's answer, whether it was good or bad. .Yin Jing was extremely annoyed by his behavior, and at the same time chilled, she dragged Liang Zhang forward with difficulty: "Follow me home."

Liang Zhang pushed Yin Jing's hand away: "I want to go up."

"Liang Zhang, have you lost your mind?"

This is the omen before Yin Jing gets angry, her words start to be harsh, her tone rises, her two eyes are wide open, and she wants to swallow her life.

Yin Jing was a head shorter than Liang Zhang, standing in front of him, she seemed somewhat lacking in momentum, Liang Zhang could easily avoid her, but he stabilized his hands and feet as much as possible: "Mom, I'm not out of my mind, and now I'm sober, let me go up," Liang Zhang frowned pleadingly, "Please."

There was nothing to do, but begging might open up a narrow gap in the road ahead. Liang Zhang's voice trembled with fear, and his ending sound was drawn out very long, so as to seek the change of Yin Jing's expression in the gap.

But this kind of begging is obviously useless to Yin Jing, she is not a mother who is easy to soften her heart.

"Shall I call your dad and we'll pick you up together?" she warned.

Liang Zhang thought it didn't matter, even if Yin Jing called the whole family over, he didn't care, the distance to the second floor was very short, it took less than ten seconds to climb up, and it took a second to knock on the door of the room.

"I'm not going back."

Yin Jing's high-heeled shoes stomped on the ground twice, and the road made a crisp sound.

"You don't have to meet him again in the future. We'll talk about it when we go back."

She may have noticed that the tone was too serious and blamed, but Liang Zhang didn't necessarily buy it, so she quickly changed her style and grabbed Liang Zhang's arms on both sides with great magnanimity: "Mom knows that you just made a mistake on the spur of the moment, it doesn't matter, you are still young, you made a mistake can be corrected.”

Liang Zhang immediately felt Yin Jing's sadness and pitiful self-paralysis. Rather than talking to him, Liang Zhang could say that she was comforting himself.

When the two were stalemate downstairs, Xiang Pei came down from the hotel.

He was about to go to the window of the room to smoke, and happened to witness the scene where Yin Jing dragged Liang Zhang forward, and the scene was very funny.Liang Zhang was too tall, and Yin Jing couldn't move it, but he still persisted in grabbing Liang Zhang's clothes with his hands. The lump was crumpled, and Xiang Pei remembered the photos in his pocket, which also changed in Yin Jing's hands. wrinkle.Xiang Pei also thought of Liang Zhang who might become wrinkled, Yin Jing has such a terrible ability.

They were not arguing fiercely. Yin Jing spoke in a very low voice, deliberately suppressing it, and never vented too much from the beginning, so Xiang Pei couldn't hear the content of the conversation clearly, but he could probably guess that Liang Zhang wanted to come up to him. Therefore refused to go.

The filter of the cigarette was wet, Xiang Pei didn't light it, took off the cigarette and put it on the edge of the window, and went downstairs.

When Liang Zhang saw Xiang Pei, he stopped talking and moved his body exaggeratedly, Yin Jing also turned his head.

Yin Jing failed to stop Liang Zhang, and when she came back to her senses, Liang Zhang was already in front of Xiang Pei.She was so embarrassed that she couldn't look directly at the scene of Liang Zhang and Xiang Pei together, and she couldn't even have the courage to lean closer. She was going to call Liang Ansheng.

Liang Zhang didn't lean too close to Pei, leaving a little distance, and asked urgently and calmly, "What did my mother tell you?"

"I didn't say anything, just let me leave you."

Xiang Pei put his hands in his pockets, shrugged his shoulders slightly, and deliberately concealed many details of the conversation, neither the irony nor the humiliation was mentioned.

The statement didn't seem to make Liang Zhang feel at ease. His fingers curled up, and his nails clasped the flesh of his palm hard. From the lines to the blanks, the miniature crescent moon was imprinted. His palm was about to rot.

Xiang Pei couldn't see Liang Zhang's hands behind his back, he breathed indifferently, Liang Zhang panicked more thoroughly, and almost stopped breathing in despair.

Liang Zhang thought about not saying anything at all, just rushing up to hug him and kiss him, which was more effective than any words.

But he can't, Yin Jing is behind him.

"Xiang Pei," Liang Zhang said, "don't want me."

His voice was like broken music, hoarse and out of tune, he stared at Xiang Pei, as if he wanted to burn a hole in Xiang Pei's heart, so that Xiang Pei could not let him go.

"No matter what she said, don't listen, okay?" Liang Zhang said again, and he approached Xiang Pei.

Xiang Pei didn't say yes or no, his eyes suddenly burned hot, like a hot water bottle stuck to them, and the eyeballs seemed to be swollen.

Liang Zhang should be a proud person. He has a good family, good grades, and good looks. Even if he occasionally has a small inferiority complex, he will pass quickly, so he is not good at asking, let alone praying. Every pious hope comes from Xiang Pei.There was really a huge hole in Xiang Pei's heart, and he began to doubt what he could bring to Liang Zhang.

Is it a humble prayer, the confusion of not knowing the future, or pain and struggle.Xiang Pei will not give up his dream of being in a band, so his future will definitely be a long period of ups and downs, and Liang Zhang has no obligation to bear everything with him.

Yin Jing's discovery seemed to uncover the fig leaf, and Xiang Pei got a glimpse of the reality under liking.

"You go home first, deal with your parents and let them calm down."

"I'm scared, Xiang Pei."

Liang Zhang shook his head without blinking his eyes, and spoke too hard, making his voice sound tired.

"What are you afraid of? Your parents will always be your parents, and they won't do anything to you because of it."

"I'm afraid you'll give up," Liang Zhang said bluntly, "I don't want to explain to them, I just want to be with you."

After a few seconds of silence, Xiang Pei whispered, "I'll go back to Day City later, call me, and meet again later."

Liang Zhang had to go, Yin Jing called Liang Ansheng to come over, which would undoubtedly make the situation worse.

Standing on the steps, Xiang Pei waved Liang Zhang's hand, the swing was so small that it was hard for others to see.Liang Zhang was suddenly agitated, and the corners of his eyes were red. He felt Xiang Pei's reluctance, and he felt sad besides peace of mind.

He was lying on the bed in the hotel the day before, Xiang Pei's smell covered up the damp smell of the room, and today, Xiang Pei's smell is completely far away from him, floating to a place where he can no longer feel it.

How can he keep Xiang Pei and hold his taste.

Yin Jing and Liang Ansheng had a big fight over Liang Zhang's education.

All the veins on Liang Ansheng's forehead and neck burst out, and he was so angry that he couldn't control himself. Yin Jing closed the door of the room and quarreled with him fiercely inside. They didn't scream presumptuously during the fight, and Liang Zhang couldn't hear what they said inside. What, only the broken language was spinning in his ears, his head was dizzy, and Xiang Pei didn't reply to his text messages.

Finally, Liang Ansheng came out first, and calmly asked Liang Zhang if he was crazy, or if he was stimulated by something.Liang Zhang answered no in the same calm way, he felt that he was normal, just as normal as thousands of men who like women in the world.

This sentence ignited Liang Ansheng's anger again.

"Normal? Do you think you are normal? Will the world think you are normal? Your friends and classmates will call you a monster, and you don't care?"

"Why do I have to let everyone know?" Liang Zhang asked back.

"It's easy for you to say now, but you will regret it later in life."

Fuck his regrets, why should he regret something that will happen more than ten years later, Liang Zhang thought so.

"But this is the truest me, I just like men..."

Liang Ansheng shook his hand and gave Liang Zhang a loud slap across the face. Liang Zhang was stunned, his cheeks were burning with pain.

"If you dare to talk nonsense again, get out."

Liang Zhang smiled: "Get out? Isn't this what I'm best at?"

Hearing this, Liang Ansheng restrained his emotions a little: "Because you ran away from home, your mother and I were afraid of the future, so we will tolerate you infinitely after you come back, but tolerance has a limit. Liang Zhang, you don't want to Change, we help you change, learn how to return to a normal person.”

Liang Zhang wanted to speak, but Yin Jing came out of the room.

She walked up to Liang Zhang and said softly, "In order not to affect your study, we never told you one thing, but you seem to have grown up, so learn to bear it." She paused, " Grandpa is in the hospital now."

Liang Zhang reacted quickly, and at the same time understood what Yin Jing told him now.

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