Crush addiction

Song Chuan was lying on the sofa in the room, staring at the night scene outside the floor-to-ceiling windows with dazed eyes. He had a cigarette in his mouth, and the smoke in the room could almost make the fire alarm go off.In his mind, he recalled the touch of Yu Chenyuan's lips, and the rhythmic movement of his right hand under his body. When his breath was unsteady, the phone rang.

"Hello." Song Chuan's voice changed obviously.

"What's wrong with you?" Yu Chenyuan's voice sounded through the receiver.

Song Chuan adjusted his breathing, but he didn't stop the movement of his hands. The cigarette was still biting his mouth, and he replied, "I'm fine."

"All right?" Yu Chenyuan paused, "What did you tell uncle today?"

"Didn't he tell you everything? Didn't you come to persuade me? Do you think sexuality can be persuaded?"

Yu Chenyuan's voice stopped for another two seconds, "Xiao Chuan, have you ever liked the opposite sex? Even if you had a good impression of your deskmate when you were young."

Song Chuan breathed a sigh of relief, and let it out in Yu Chenyuan's voice. He took a moment to answer: "No, I've only been attracted to one person. A man!"

"Xiao Chuan, this road is not as simple as you think."

"Then what should I do? Pretend to like a woman and go on a blind date? Brother, I have identified that person for the rest of my life. Whether he doesn't like me or wants to marry someone, it won't change."

"Xiao Chuan, you are still young, don't talk so hard, uncle asked me to persuade you, I know this is not a question of persuading you, I just hope you think clearly about what you will face in the future, even if you like men I will I also hope that you can find someone who treats you well, and don’t get stuck in a dead end, and don’t regret it one day.”

Song Chuan squeezed the phone tightly, he really wanted to yell over like this, telling Yu Chenyuan that the person I like is you.After a long silence, he calmed down and replied, "I know exactly what I want, brother, what about you?"

"I, too, know very well." Yu Chenyuan returned without any hesitation, and then asked, "Where are you? Why don't you go home?"

"Hotel, please let me calm down." Song Chuan replied truthfully.

"Which hotel? I'll pick you up tomorrow morning."

After hesitating for a moment, Song Chuan told Yu Chenyuan the name of the hotel, then hung up the phone, and he fell onto the sofa exhausted.He felt that his eyes were gloomy. What was he trying so hard to get into C University?In order to get closer to Yu Chen?But in the end, didn't Yu Chenyuan get farther and farther away from him?It is far from possible for him and Yu Chen to know from the beginning, but he wants to fly moths to the flame.Sometimes it's not that I don't understand feelings, but that even if I understand, I still can't let go.

Song Chuan smoked for half the night again, and when he saw Yu Chenyuan at the hotel entrance the next day, he had a pair of panda eyes.Yu Chenyuan watched him for a while without opening his mouth, he opened the car door and got in the car and called softly, "Brother." His voice was very hoarse.

"Smoking less, your addiction is getting heavier and heavier." Yu Chenyuan frowned.

Song Chuan hummed and didn't look at Yu Chenyuan, he was staring out of the car window all the way.When the car stopped, they were not in the company's parking lot. Yu Chenyuan opened the door and got out of the car, shouting, "Get out of the car, didn't you eat in the morning!"

Song Chuan obediently followed Yu Chenyuan out of the car and entered a shop by the side of the road.He ate silently throughout the breakfast, not because he didn't want to talk, but because Yu Chenyuan frowned when he spoke, his voice was indeed a bit hoarse, and he couldn't help but reflect that he had smoked a bit too much these two days.

Then after arriving at the company, the two devoted themselves to their work, and nothing seemed to change. Yu Chenyuan also had lunch with Song Chuan at noon, and Song Chuan would often knock on the door of Yu Chenyuan's office when he was in doubt.They were no longer together except after get off work. Yu Chenyuan went home, and he went back to the hotel.

Song Chuan stayed in the hotel for half a month, and he and Zheng Jiawei had dinner three times during this half month. Of course, they had dinner, chatted about how to make money, and a few ambiguous jokes, nothing else. As Zheng Jiawei said, they start from the most innocent place.In fact, what Song Chuan is really busy with is the large stack of ledgers brought back by Liu Yu. Liu Yu is not half-heartedly messing around with family money. To the greatest extent, whether a company makes money or not is the best testimony. Of course, the accounts can also be faked, and this is where Song Chuan comes into play.

So Song Chuan was very busy in the past half month, so busy that the company even asked for a few days off, so he had less and less time to meet Yu Chenyuan. On the contrary, he met Song Jikun who couldn't see him once a month, several times.

Song Jikun obviously didn't seek Song Chuan for other reasons, probably no father in this world would accept that his son likes men calmly.In fact, he is not old-fashioned, nor has he seen it before, but this cannot happen to his own son.He knew that Song Chuan had listened to Yu Chenyuan since he was a child, but he didn't want Yu Chenyuan to be sent out by him, and turned around to persuade him not to force that bastard.He stomped his feet angrily, and had no choice but to take the initiative to find his bastard, but after seeing each other and quarreling, the relationship between the father and son dropped to the coldest point in history, and they were close to severing the relationship.

This day Song Chuan came downstairs after get off work, and saw Song Jikun's car parked on the side of the road from a distance. The driver walked straight towards him and said politely, "Mr. Song, Mr. Song invites you to get in the car."

Song Chuan glanced lightly at the car on the side of the road, the windows were closed, but he could imagine Song Jikun's cold face without looking at it. Song Jikun never negotiated with him on an equal footing, but commanded him to change his sexual orientation , in Song Jikun's eyes, it seemed that this was an easy task.

"Mr. Song?" The driver called out again in a low voice, Song Chuan followed him and got into the car, while the driver was waiting outside the car.

"Dad." Song Chuan called.

Song Jikun sat upright and didn't look at Song Chuan, and asked, "Do you have someone you like?" His question surprised Song Chuan, but Song Chuan quickly adjusted his mood and answered: "No."

"Since I don't have one, then you can find me a woman to fall in love with. It doesn't matter whether you get married or not, just correct the problem first." Song Jikun took a breath, and his tone became lighter, "Love is nothing more than sleeping on the same bed, and men and women with eyes closed can also love each other." There is no difference." After he finished speaking, he turned to look at Song Chuan, his expression seemed to say what a big deal it was!

Song Chuan couldn't help the veins popping up on his forehead, and stared fiercely at Song Jikun, "Are you treating my mother the same way?" Song Jikun's face darkened instantly, and Song Chuan continued to question regardless: "She never said no to you, In the end, she told me that she was wrong, that you were right, let me be a filial son. Is that so? Are you right? For you, is my mother also blindfolded and a prostitute?||| There is no difference?" He never said his mother in front of Song Jikun, and he held back these words for 12 years.

Song Jikun lowered his head slightly and endured it for a long time, and finally slapped Song Chuan on the face, cursing: "Bastard, what are you talking about! She is your mother, so she speaks with respect!"

"Respect can't replace her life, nor can it replace the ten years she was accused of being scolded. I have made it very clear. If you recognize me, I can continue to call you Dad. Other than that, it's up to you." After Song Chuan finished speaking, he opened the car door and got out of the car. Song Jikun grabbed him by the shoulder.

"Are you trying to sever ties with me? I have raised you for more than ten years, and you just talk to me like this!" Song Jikun's eyes were red, as if he could burst into flames.

"You raised me?" Song Chuan turned his head and met Song Jikun's gaze, "It was Yu Chenyuan who raised me, not you!"

Song Chuan got out of the car door, and the first thing he saw was Yu Chenyuan standing outside the car. He was speechless for a while, not knowing what to say.And Song Jikun in the car called the driver, and the driver immediately drove away in dust.

"Are you raised by me? At that time, I still had to rely on him to raise you. What should I do to raise you?" Yu Chenyuan asked speciously, but Song Chuan couldn't tell whether he was joking or serious.

"You know what I'm referring to, brother, but this is the only thing I can't bow to him." Song Chuan said very seriously.

Yu Chenyuan slapped him on the back of the head, "Idiot, I really don't understand what you are insisting on! Has someone privately agreed with you for life? Why are you fighting here for nothing?"

Song Chuan looked up at Yu Chenyuan, and seemed to finally understand why he was in a hurry to confess to Song Jikun. Song Jikun was not what he really wanted to confess.

"Do you want to vent?" Yu Chenyuan said.

"What?" Song Chuan was puzzled, Yu Chenyuan directly pulled him to the front of the car and said, "Get in the car."

"Where are you going?" Song Chuan fastened his seat belt and asked Yu Chenyuan who was sitting in the driver's seat.

"climb mountains."

With a short two-word answer, Song Chuan didn't understand where Yu Chenyuan had taken him until he got there.

In Song Chuan's first winter at the Song family, a cousin in the family celebrated his birthday, and Song Chuan went with Song Jikun. The room was full of cousins ​​and cousins ​​gathered together, and the uncle would give out red envelopes after saying a word of congratulations.When it was Song Chuan's turn, he said the words he had thought of, but Tang Shu turned around and left, as if he couldn't see him.He didn't want a red envelope, but he was sad, so he ran out of the restaurant secretly.

That day, Yu Chenyuan's school had to make up lessons, so he came late, and when he arrived, he happened to see Song Chuan squatting on the side of the road in a daze.He went to pick up the child, but saw that Song Chuan was staring with water in his eyes, trying not to let the tears flow out.

"what happened to you?"

"I, I don't care about asking for red envelopes at all."

Yu Chenyuan laughed unconsciously, thinking that the child was so cute and silly, and then he asked, "Then what do you want?"

"I want to make a lot of money, I want to leave here, I want to go home!" Although Song Chuan's preface is inconsistent, the connection is still very logical. You must make money before you can leave and go home. Those who cannot return home, his hometown is thousands of kilometers away from the city.

"Let's go, let's go climbing." Yu Chenyuan skipped the birthday party at his cousin's house that day, took Song Chuan to two buses, and climbed to the top of Nanshan for half an hour.Song Chuan was about to fold the plane, Yu Chenyuan, a good student, gritted his teeth and took out his test paper.Then Song Chuan wrote all his dissatisfaction and ideals on Yu Chenyuan's brand new test paper, and then folded it into a plane and flew out.In the end, Song Chuan said to Yu Chenyuan under the lights of the city's night scene: "Brother, I will take you away when I grow up and earn money. I will support you." At that time, in Song Chuan's eyes, the Song family was not a good person. Feeling that Yu Chenyuan must have been wronged, he also wrote this sentence on the plane and threw it out.

After more than ten years, the road has been repaired to the top of the mountain, and the lights at the foot of the mountain have become more dazzling and bright. The two of them lay on the railing and looked into the distance in the cool breeze.

"Do you want to fold another plane?"

Song Chuan turned his head to look at Yu Chenyuan and smiled, "Did you be punished to stand the next day?" He thought that he had folded all of Yu Chenyuan's test papers into airplanes and thrown them down the mountain.

"No, my deskmate gave me his test paper, and he was punished to stand for a class." Yu Chenyuan said calmly.

"Is your tablemate secretly in love with you?" Song Chuan smiled exaggeratedly.

"Well, he even wrote me a love letter." Yu Chenyuan said quite proudly, but Song Chuan was a little unbalanced. He also wrote a love letter, but he didn't dare to send it out. Yu Chenyuan continued, "He burned the love letter to ashes." Make it for me in coffee and tell me years later."

Song Chuan instantly became hostile to this love rival whose name he didn't even know, "Did you drink?"

"Well, it seems to be drunk." Yu Chenyuan gave an ambiguous answer, and Song Chuan shouted anxiously, "Why can't you drink it after adding that thing? Can you drink it? How can this person do such a stupid thing!"

"Maybe I didn't drink it and I splashed it on his face!" Yu Chenyuan added, and Song Chuan's eyes suddenly sank and asked, "Is he a man?" Won't.

Yu Chenyuan was stunned for a while before saying, "I forgot, it's been more than ten years."

Song Chuan didn't believe it, but he didn't ask any more questions. He kept rubbing his hands in his trouser pockets. He was addicted to cigarettes, but he had been scolded so much recently that he didn't dare to smoke in Yu Chenyuan's face.Then his stomach growled, and the two looked at each other with a smile. Yu Chenyuan gave him a hand and said, "Are you hungry? Let's eat!"

The author has something to say: Ideally speaking, Song Chuan really grew up with his brother~~~ So it is correct to say that it is cultivated~~~~~