Crush addiction

Song Chuan went downstairs with his suitcase. He didn't intend to go directly to Linxing. There was no other reason, but he was reluctant to let go. This city where he has lived for 12 years, all his vivid memories are here.

Sometimes it takes courage to even run away.he thinks.

Song Chuan went downstairs to call Liu Yu, but before he connected, two tall figures in black stood in front of him, and one of them said calmly and forcefully, "Mr. Song, Mr. Song wants to see you."

Song Chuan's eyebrows twitched, and he asked subconsciously, "What?"

"Mr. Song is waiting for you, please get in the car."

The two moved aside at the same time. Song Chuan saw the car on the side of the road, and glanced to both sides from the corner of his eye. The two stood in very particular positions, and he had a chance to escape one minute after the other.But Song Chuan didn't think about escaping. Anyway, Song Jikun was his father, and he believed that he wouldn't do anything to him, so he followed them into the car silently.

When the car arrived at the destination, Song Chuan regretted getting in the car so unprepared, because he was taken into the airport and met Song Jikun in the VIP waiting room.

"Where are we going?" Song Chuan didn't beat around the bush, he sat next to Song Jikun.

Song Jikun didn't look at him, his eyes seemed to be recalling, "Xiao Chuan, do you still remember the place where you were born?"

"I only remember the carved bed at home. I always feel terrible to sleep alone." Song Chuan's memory before the age of ten is already very vague, only some scattered details, such as the pond outside the town where he likes to swim, such as the alley The tofu curds sold here are delicious, and his mother is lying on the carved bed dying and telling him to listen to his father in the future.

"I know you blame me. I haven't been a qualified father these years. I didn't teach you well. It's my fault. But, Xiao Chuan, your life is still very long in the future. I hope to make up for the part that I didn't do well. .” Song Jikun turned his head to look at Song Chuan deeply.

Song Chuan stared back at him generously and said, "No need, Yu Chenyuan taught the truth you didn't teach well, and he also did a good job in the part you missed. I don't lack anything, and I don't need you to make up for it."

Song Jikun's words swirled around in his mouth for several times, and finally burst out, "He taught well, so you can like men?"

No matter who says that Yu Chenyuan is not Song Chuan, he can't help turning his face, and Song Jikun is no exception, so he immediately stood up, looked down at Song Jikun and said, "I can still listen to you here, which shows that he is a good teacher. You have no right to criticize him! You should apologize to him for using such a despicable method to tie him up in the Song family!"

Song Jikun rubbed his feet together, and the father and son stared at each other, "I didn't mean that Chen Yuan taught you to like men, it's just that he is too used to you and I let you go too much! Just what you said now These words are enough to show that you are uneducated!"

Song Chuan calmed down and said calmly, "Dad, no matter where you are going today, I will not go with you, and your family affairs have nothing to do with me. From now on, we have nothing to do with each other."

"Bastard!" Song Jikun slapped Song Chuan on the face, and asked, "Are you severing ties with me?"

Song Chuan seemed to be slapped by someone else, turned his head to Song Jikun without changing his expression, and said, "I didn't, it's up to you if you think so."

Song Jikun became completely angry in an instant. No matter in the company or at home, he has always been the one and only one. He can only tolerate Song Chuan again and again, but there is always a limit to tolerance.Immediately, he didn't say anything to Song Chuan, but turned around and walked outside the waiting room.After Song Jikun went out, the two men in black came in. Song Chuan was taken aback for a moment, not understanding what they were going to do. When he realized, he had been stabbed in the neck, and then lost consciousness. His last thought was to scold them all. Eighteen generations of Song Jikun's ancestors.

Song Chuan woke up in the hotel bed, saying that the hotel is actually only better than the guest house at the train station.He sat up and first wiped the place where the needle was pricked on his neck with his hands. It still felt a little painful, and then he saw two unsmiling big men sitting in a small room, and those two were already familiar to him.

"Where's your boss? What time is it?" Song Chuan asked. The ID and mobile phone in his pocket were gone, there was no clock in the room, and the watch was taken off, but the time outside should be still early.

One person replied: "At [-]:[-] in the afternoon, I'll call Mr. Song right away." The person had already exited the room while the other person was staring at him.

"What kind of place is this?" Although Song Chuan asked, he had already guessed where Song Jikun had taken him.

"Sha County is only 10 minutes away from Gaozhen."

Song Chuanxin said that it was as it should be. Although he didn't know what Song Jikun was planning, it was considered intentional to bring him back, even if he couldn't accept the process.When he first arrived at the Song family, he missed that small town every day, and the place where he lived with his mother for ten years. At that time, he saved all the pocket money he got, just to buy a bus ticket. He came back, but after all, he never came back once in 12 years.

Song Jikun walked in swaggeringly. Song Chuan raised his eyes and glanced at him without saying a word. When Song Jikun came to pick him up, his mother had been dead for half a month and had been burned to ashes and buried in the soil. The only memorial was Song Chuan's Black and white photo of the bedside.From Song Chuan's point of view, Song Jikun had no face to see his mother.

"Do you have the strength? Get up and set off." Song Jikun stood at the door and didn't go any further.Song Chuan got off the bed and made a gesture of invitation, Song Jikun smiled disdainfully.

Twenty minutes later, Song Chuan returned to his hometown where he had been away for ten years, and he felt unreal when his feet landed on the ground.He has no nostalgia, no empathy, just feels strange, the place he once missed so much made him feel that he didn't know where he was, as if it was a place that had nothing to do with him, in fact, he was also very sure that he would never come back here to live in this lifetime .

"Do you still remember where your mother's grave is?" Song Jikun asked standing beside him. Song Chuan hummed and took the lead to walk ahead.Song Jikun stopped the two bodyguards who were about to follow, took the sacrificial supplies and caught up with Song Chuan. The father and son walked side by side.

"These two years have really changed a lot." Song Jikun said to himself.

Song Chuan glanced sideways at him, looked towards the town, thinking that the changes were far more than a big one, he could hardly find any traces of the past, the bean curd in the alley, maybe even his pond were gone.While recalling, he climbed up the hillside. Although the town had changed a lot, the layout remained the same. However, Song Chuan started to have a headache on the small road after going up the hill, and he completely forgot the direction.

"This way." Song Jikun reminded, and Song Chuan turned around in surprise.

This time it was Song Jikun who led the way, and it didn't take long before he arrived at the grave in Song Chuan's memory.It was no different from what he remembered, except that it was much older. The cypress tree in front of the grave had grown taller, and the grass on the grave had also grown taller, but it definitely didn't look like it had been neglected for more than ten years.

Song Jikun took out all the money, paper and joss sticks, and lit them in order.Song Chuan squatted on the stone beside the grave, staring at the inscription on the grave and lit a cigarette without saying a word.Song Jikun handed Song Chuan a stack of paper money, "Huh?" He raised his chin to signal Song Chuan to do it.Song Chuan extinguished the cigarette butts on the stone, then squatted in front of the fire, and threw them into the fire one by one.

"For more than ten years, you have nothing to say to your mother?" Song Jikun lowered his head slightly and stared at the fire, without stopping the movement of peeling off the paper.

Song Chuan's hands paused, he looked up at Song Jikun, then turned his gaze to the inscription and said in a low voice, "Mom, I'm fine, don't worry." A bland sentence came out, and his tears burst out violently, isn't it? It's not sad to be wronged, but I can't help crying.

After a long time, Song Chuan said slowly: "My mother has never had a good life in her life. She was gossiped by the neighbors behind her back all day long, but she never complained. She said that her life is not for others to discuss, she I don’t regret giving birth to me, and I don’t regret meeting you.”

After Song Chuan finished speaking, he raised his head and met Song Jikun's gaze. Song Jikun said, "I'm sorry for her, and I'm sorry for you too."

"Dad, let me set off firecrackers." Song Chuan stood up suddenly, and Song Jikun replied, "Be careful."

Song Chuan picked up a large basket of firecrackers on the ground and walked to a place a little further away. He hung the firecrackers on the tree, like a row of red curtains, and had to throw the firecrackers on the ground if there was nothing to hang behind them.Then he squatted down and reached far enough to light the lighter. Seeing that it was lit, he ran back quickly, but the firecrackers didn't go off after running away.

Song Jikun mocked coldly: "It's really useless." As he said that, he strode towards the firecrackers, but before he got close to the firecrackers, there was a loud crackling sound, and he was frightened and froze.Song Chuan laughed so loudly in the back, I'm afraid few people have seen Chairman Song like this.It was rare for Song Jikun to make a fool of himself by not introducing himself. He walked up to Song Chuan and stopped. The father and son stared at the crackling firecrackers together, and neither of them said a word.

The firecrackers went off for half an hour, reverberating over the small town like noise. For those who were no longer there, this was the only thing they could do, but it was meaningless, and no one would feel at ease because of it.

Before leaving, Song Jikun and Song Chuan stood side by side in front of the grave, and Song Jikun said with a serious face: "Song Chuan, in your opinion, I have no right to control you, so now, in front of your mother's grave, tell her yourself , your future plans."

Song Chuan's heart stopped violently, he glanced at Song Jikun lightly, and then turned back to the stele.He knew what Song Jikun wanted him to say, but he couldn't open his mouth no matter what.His mother didn't go to school for a few years, and didn't understand any major principles. She lived a serious life in just thirty years of her life, and never saw such a 'heresy' like a man and a man together.He still remembered that the year before his mother died, the mother and son squatted at the door and stared at the passing elementary school students and asked him if he wanted to find a beautiful wife. She has a son and a daughter, and she takes care of the children at home, and he earns money for her and his wife.

His mother has suffered all his life, and he really can't break her heart after his mother's death.

"So what? Dad, this is not a business where you can negotiate a price." Song Chuan opened his mouth, but what Song Jikun wanted to hear was not what he said.

"You don't even have the courage, do you still have the courage to face the future?"

"What do you want me to say?" Song Chuan snorted nasally.

"Say that you will not marry a wife or have children in the future, and will spend your whole life with men." Song Jikun gaped and gritted his teeth.

"I just want to be with the person I love, regardless of gender."

"You really know how to speak, but you still dare not tell the truth!"

"That's enough. What's the point of forcing me to confess in front of her? She has been pointed at and scolded all her life. Do you have to do this?"

"You also know that she will be sad, so your father will not be sad in front of you? You confessed in front of me without hesitation, have you considered that I will be sad? "

Song Chuan was stunned for a moment, he really didn't think about how Song Jikun would feel when he heard that he was gay, or he subconsciously thought that Song Jikun didn't care about him at all, this was the first time Song Jikun said this to him.

"Dad, it's not that I don't think about it, it's just..." Song Chuan didn't know what to say for a while.

Song Jikun waved his hand, "Needless to say, I'm not unreasonable. There are many other things in life besides love. I've seen many of them over the years. Even if you like a man, you can also marry and have children. It's two different things."

"Are you teaching your son to go out after getting married? Same as you back then?" Song Chuan asked disrespectfully, but Song Jikun laughed, "Otherwise where did you come from?"

Song Chuan had to admit that this answer was brilliant, and if he denied it, it would be tantamount to denying his own existence.Although he didn't agree with Song Jikun's view of love, this day was the most honest day ever between the father and son, and they said everything they could say.

The author has something to say: Although Daddy Song is a scumbag, he is actually a good father, but he just doesn't know how to be a good father!