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Totally unresponsive, unconscious self.

What is he thinking now?Yang Jiugeng, who has never kept secrets in front of him, made Li Weinian feel strongly uneasy for the first time.

Flipping over his hands, Wei Nian finally summoned up the courage to ask, "Why...don't you talk?"

Yang Jiugeng lowered his head and did not answer, slowly breaking his hand out of Li Weinian's hand.Immediately, Yang Jiugeng's two hands stretched out and formed a circle, just like before, gently wrapping the bandage on Li Weinian's wrist, as if he wanted to confirm the beating of the pulse under the gauze, or as if he wanted to warm the wound like blood.Yang Jiugeng's palm was extremely hot, and Li Weinian's wound had just stopped bleeding. If the temperature was too high, it would swell, and even aggravate the bleeding. Yang Jiugeng's temperature applied to his wrist, making his wound a little swollen and painful.But Yang Jiugeng didn't know this, he was just innocent, thinking of those gauzes, those wounds would disappear immediately, and it would be best if he could not see them immediately.Li Weinian was so quietly held by his two hands, but his weak fingers were firmly hooked on Yang Jiugeng's, and his complexion was even paler in Yang Jiugeng's hands, who was already fairer than ordinary people. The whole wrist was so thin that it would break if pinched.

Yang Jiugeng only had unstoppable pain in his heart. He didn't know how to describe it. The pain was like someone cutting his chest back and forth with a saw. The pain was so painful that he couldn't speak.

"Brother, are you... mad at me?"

Li Weinian's voice was timid, with grievance and uneasiness revealed inadvertently.Yang Jiugeng didn't dare to raise his head to look at him. Li Weinian always looked pitiful when he was sick, which made him feel distressed when he saw him.

"No." Yang Jiugeng shook his head.

"Then why don't you talk? You weren't like this before."

"I...I don't know what to say."

"I don't know what to say? Now you have nothing to say to me? Then what are you doing here?"

"No!" Yang Jiugeng raised his head in a daze, seeing Li Weinian's injured expression, he was so anxious that he couldn't speak immediately: "I... I heard from your father that you cut your wrists, I just thought it was impossible! I think it must not be you...but when I came here, I saw you lying here...I...your father also said that you have depression, heart disease, neurasthenia, this disease, that disease, many, many ...I don't know why I haven't seen you for a year, it seems that everything has changed, I can't believe how you can do this, I really... really don't know what to say..."

Li Weinian looked at Yang Jiugeng who was sitting beside the bed talking incoherently, and couldn't bear it anymore, he leaned over and threw himself into his arms, the bottle beside the bed suddenly made a rattling sound.

"Weinian—! Your drip!" Yang Jiugeng was terrified, and immediately wanted to push him away.But Li Weinian held on tightly to his clothes and did not let go, and pressed his head tightly against his shoulder, unable to push it away no matter what.Yang Jiugeng didn't dare to use force on him, he was extremely anxious: "Hands, your hands, needles..."

"It's okay..." Li Weinian moved his arm around Yang Jiugeng's waist: "I'm holding it, it's okay..."

Yang Jiugeng's stiff body slowly relaxed, and finally raised his hand to hold Li Weinian's head and put it against his neck. As soon as he smelled Li Weinian's familiar smell at the end of his nose, his eye sockets became hot uncontrollably.Li Weinian's body was held in his arms, like a fragile porcelain doll, and it had already become so dilapidated and scarred in a place he didn't know.Yang Jiugeng didn't dare to use any strength, he could only hug him so lightly, hearing his weak breathing ringing in his ears, it was so distressing.He really didn't know why Li Weinian suddenly became like this, as if his whole body was weak and weak, dying.

Yang Jiugeng didn't speak, but Li Weinian could feel his hands trembling slightly, and his breathing became short of breath.Yang Jiugeng was sad, he knew that this was the last thing he wanted to see.Burying his head deeper into Yang Jiugeng's arms, Li Weinian's voice was muffled when he spoke again, as if it came from Yang Jiugeng's own chest: "Yang Jiugeng, don't be sad, okay?"

"Then why did you do this?" Yang Jiugeng stroked the soft hair of the boy in his arms, and exerted a little force: "Do you know that I..."

"I know... I know..." Li Weinian said hastily, wrapping his arms around his waist even tighter: "I did it all on purpose... I checked the information, and it's actually not easy to succeed in cutting your wrists." Yes, nothing will happen if you don’t cut your tendon and cut into the artery... I was very careful, I just cut the vein, and I also grasped the measure, and Yuan Lingfei was by the side at that time, I asked him to help me, I always If I am in a coma, he will stop the bleeding and call an ambulance...I know everything, I will be fine, I have planned everything..."

Yang Jiugeng pulled him away violently, holding back the anger that was about to explode: "Li Weinian! Do you know what you are doing! What is going on in your mind! Even if you don't die, your body will collapse Now, you are only half dead now, do you know that!"

Hearing that Wei Nian treated his body like a joke, Yang Jiugeng wanted to get angry very much.But seeing Wei Nian being pulled away, his eyes were tightly closed, but it still couldn't stop the tears from sliding down.That tearful face looked fragile and helpless, so that Yang Jiugeng really didn't have any anger to speak of in front of him, and all that was left was unspeakable distress and annoyance.

"I'm sorry... I know... I don't want you to worry so much, and I don't want to hurt my father..." Weinian could only bite his lip to keep himself from crying.By Yang Jiugeng's side, all his armor was shattered, and all the pain and injuries he had suffered all the time surged, and he was finally knocked down helplessly, revealing all his weakness: "But I can't help it... really can't There is a solution... I have tried my best to work hard, I don't want to go abroad, I don't want to leave, I don't want to go abroad at all... I am really afraid that once I leave, I will never come back! I just want to be that Li Weinian is dead, if he must be taken away... Now Li Weinian is only willing to stay here and live for himself again... Is this not even possible?...I know that I am very bad , very selfish, very cruel, hurting others and myself, being disrespectful to my father, and hurting you too, I don't want to...but I really have no other way...I can't hold it anymore..."

While crying, Li Weinian said, the tears flowed more and more urgently, and the pale face was covered with multiple tear stains.In the end, he almost collapsed from crying, and he was still talking intermittently. Tears flowed into his mouth, choking him to touch his chest and cough, and he couldn't breathe.

Wei Nian's crying continued for a long time, only tears still pouring out quietly.Firmly grasping Yang Jiugeng's sleeves, only in such familiar arms can he let go of all the unscrupulous crying, cry with all his strength, wait until the tears run dry, the strength is exhausted, the pain in his heart Sadness and sadness also seem to flow away with the tears, and the heart that has been washed by tears can stand up again, repair those scars, and become strong again.

"Actually...it's not a serious illness..." Weinian finally raised his head and looked up at him slightly: "I just have myocarditis, which is the same as neurasthenia, and it's all because of being tired from preparing for the exam... Rest for a while. And gastritis, it can be recuperated... Depression is just what the psychiatrists are talking about. I just don't want to talk at home, so they think I have depression. In short... Don't be angry I'm angry, okay..."

Yang Jiugeng looked down at him, Wei Nian's eyes were still shining, looking at him so imploringly, how dare he say "no".

Holding his head and hugging him back into his arms, Yang Jiugeng finally couldn't help but kissed his face: "I've never been wrong with you, how can I be really angry at you. Just stop doing these horrible things , just scare me."

Minian blushed slightly, and looked up at the clock.

Wei Nian had just woken up with slight fainting symptoms, and even lost strength after crying a lot. While talking to Yang Jiugeng, he suddenly fell on his shoulder and passed out.Yang Jiugeng was frightened half to death again, and rang the bell to call the doctor.The doctor came for a checkup, and it was due to fatigue and dizziness. He pointed to Yang Jiugeng and told him that the patient was very weak, and he came here to bother the patient. Responsible blah blah blah.Yang Jiugeng stood obediently in the corridor at the door of the ward for training, nodded and bowed and said yes before sending away the nagging attending physician.

Yang Jiugeng let out a breath when he saw the doctor and the two nurses walking away, and was about to turn around and open the door to go in. In a blink of an eye, he saw a person walking from the other side of the corridor, very familiar.When the man approached and saw that chiseled and majestic face, Yang Jiugeng recognized the man. It was a man whom he hadn't seen for many years——Yuan Lingfei.

Yang Jiugeng put his hand off the doorknob and stood in front of the door of the ward with arms folded waiting for him to come.

Yuan Lingfei walked in front of him, only to see Yang Jiugeng's face was gloomy.

"He fell asleep just now, and the doctor told him not to disturb him." Yang Jiugeng leaned against the door and tilted his head halfway, staring straight at him, with a somewhat hostile tone.

Yuan Lingfei looked in through the transparent window on the door, and when he saw Li Weinian lying on the bed safely, he nodded, then turned back to look at Yang Jiugeng, and said flatly: "I didn't look for him at all. I have something to say to him." you say."

Yang Jiugeng froze for a moment, then raised his eyebrows: "Okay, go over there and talk. Don't disturb him."

After speaking, he turned his head and walked straight to the fire exit at the end of the corridor.Yuan Lingfei sighed slightly and followed.Going all the way to the fire door, Yang Jiugeng pushed open the door and walked into the corner of the stairs. Yuan Lingfei raised his foot and just followed in before he could stop.Yuan Lingfei didn't see what happened at all, he just felt a strong force hitting his face, and then he backed away uncontrollably, and hit the fire door behind him with a bang, making a loud noise.

Before he could stand firmly, the collar was immediately grabbed by someone again.Yang Jiugeng's hand tightly strangled his neck, dragged him back and bumped him against the wall, and roared, "Are you a fucking idiot! Are you a pig! Is that a pig's head on your neck?" What he says is what he says, if he wants to cut his wrists, you just stand by and watch him cut, huh? You don’t have a brain, or your brain is full of shit, don’t you! And you said it’s a friend, you fucking Do you have such a shitty friend! Watch him cut his wrists in front of you! You are so good, you just watch his blood flow like that, if you don’t have time to call an ambulance, if the ambulance can’t come on the way, you are prepared What are you doing, huh? Are you going to cry when everyone is dead!"

Yuan Lingfei's eyes blurred, and his body was thrown against the wall.I only felt a burning pain on my cheeks, and tasted the smell of blood in my mouth, as if the corner of my mouth was broken.Yang Jiugeng, who grew up on the street since he was a child, is not kidding about his brute force. Although he has no skills to speak of, even Yuan Lingfei, who is taller than him, cannot parry that kind of fighting spirit.

Yuan Lingfei raised the back of his hand, wiped the corner of his mouth, and slowly stood up.The eyes of Yang Jiugeng in front of him were blood red, like an enraged cheetah, ready to pounce on his enemies at any time.

At that moment Yuan Lingfei finally understood how different Yang Jiugeng was from him.

Yang Jiugeng's whole person can only be described by the word "bloody". He does things entirely on impulse, without extra consideration, and only adopts the simplest and roughest way to treat people and things.This also gave him absolutely pure emotion without a trace of impurity and action without a trace of hesitation.He doesn't care about beating up the people he hates, and the people he wants to protect must be firmly protected and never let anyone hurt them.

Yuan Lingfei thought of all the things he had spent with Li Weinian for so many years, and asked himself, is his feeling for Li Weinian so pure?Li Weinian is his most cherished friend. He has always regarded him as his younger brother since he was a child. After seeing him again, he feels sorry for his family's misfortune, so he wants to treat him well.But how much did he know about Li Weinian, and how much did he protect him?He still remembered that when he prevented Li Weinian from running away from home, when Li Weinian bit his hand fiercely, his eyes at that moment were exactly the same as Yang Jiugeng's sinister eyes at the moment.

Li Weinian is such a contradictory and somewhat paranoid young man. His sensitivity and seriousness have reached the point where it is difficult for ordinary people to get in touch with. Years of moodiness and reticence.He often can't understand, Li Weinian, a person who is so simple in his study and life, what is he thinking about every day, what kind of world is in his heart?He tried his best to understand him and help him untie his knots, but he could only end in failure time and time again.Suddenly he figured it out, Wei Nian doesn't need those things at all, he just needs such a person, don't ask him anything, don't try to understand him, ignore all people or things that have nothing to do with Li Weinian.As long as it is very pure and simple, stay by his side, accompany him to the end of what he is willing to do, help him block all the harm he will suffer, and stand in front of him with an attitude of giving everything, Li Weinian will also I will give him my whole heart without reservation.

Such a person is Yang Jiugeng.

Yuan Lingfei finally admitted that only Yang Jiugeng can do it, so that he can give all of himself to Li Weinian, and he is strong enough and soft enough to tolerate all of Li Weinian, including his thorns, his pain, his All sad and poignant.

They are like two intertwined vines in the dark. If they are forcibly separated, they can each rely on other trees to grow, but their roots are still firmly tied together underground, warming and nourishing each other. The plants that have grown into the same side-by-side plant are far less sturdy and upright than the big tree next to them, but in the constant wind and rain, as long as one of them has not fallen down, the other can always receive the strength from the other party and be affected by it. shelter.

Yuan Lingfei evoked a smile imperceptibly, and looked straight into Yang Jiugeng's eyes: "Yes, maybe I'm not worthy to be his friend. But he would do all this because of you, if it wasn't for you, he would obediently go abroad with Uncle Jing Going to study, you will never fight for your life like now, you say, who should be beaten more between the two of us?"

"What the hell are you talking about!" The anger in Yang Jiugeng's eyes immediately seemed to burst out, and he rushed forward and strangled Yuan Lingfei's collar again: "Try to say it again! Who caused him to do this! Who forced him to do this? His! Aren’t they all you bloody bastards!”

"Let go." Yuan Lingfei returned to his usual calm and elegant appearance. Although the corners of his mouth were still wounded, he looked at Yang Jiugeng with mature and peaceful eyes: "If you don't want to be confused, you will hurt him more and more." If you come deeper."

Yang Jiugeng looked at him in a daze, and unconsciously loosened his strength: "What do you mean?"

"When I found him, he told me that he didn't really want to commit suicide, but just wanted to fight one last time and bet on his father's soft heart." Yuan Lingfei slowly told Yang Jiugeng clearly word by word: "Cutting the wrist Although it's fake, do you think I would be so stupid to let him do this in front of me? Do you think I really don't know how dangerous it is? I just want to gamble once. I clearly To tell you in vain, suicide is fake, but his depression is real. He said at the time that his father suspected that he had depression and was always worried that he would have negative behavior, so he was giving him mental illness medicine. He just decided to take this opportunity to do his best. But he may not even know what his own situation is."

"If I don't let him do this this time, he will have a second, third time. At that time, it will not be such an act. When it really comes to that time, there is no one by his side. You think the result will be How about it?"

"If you want to know the real facts, find out for yourself."

In the end, Yuan Lingfei left a sentence: "I am here to help Uncle Jing bring you a sentence. He is waiting for you on the sixth floor, which is the psychiatric department of this hospital."

After saying this, Yuan Lingfei ignored him and went straight to Li Weinian's ward.

When Yang Jiugeng went up to the sixth floor from the elevator, he saw a completely different area from other floors in the hospital.This place is like a leisure place with a good environment. The room is separated from the corridor by a whole piece of floor-to-ceiling windows, which is bright and spacious.The purpose of entering is a row of comfortable leather sofas, various magazine racks, bookshelves, a large front desk, several computers are placed side by side on the table, and several nurses come in and out behind the desk.Going further inside, it is a closed room, still separated from the outside by floor-to-ceiling windows, the sofa becomes circular, and circles around the wall of the room, and various magazines are placed on the marble coffee table in the middle.

Yang Jiugeng just stood there.Because he already recognized that the man who was sitting on the sofa with his back to him, talking to a doctor-like man next to him with a stack of materials, was Li Weinian's father.He didn't see Yang Jiugeng walking in, but the young doctor saw him first.Smiling gently at him, he gestured to his father and stood up.Father turned around and saw him, his expression was still gentle and calm, and he walked over: "How is Wei Nian?"

"Sleeping." Yang Jiugeng replied: "The doctor said that he would feel weak and dizzy, so he would often fall asleep and would not wake up in a short time."

Father nodded: "It's hard work for you to take care of him. I'm by the side, Wei Nian won't want to, so I leave time to you, you haven't seen each other for a long time, I think you have something to say." The tone was light, but It makes people feel very sincere.

The doctor also came over, still smiling: "Are you Yang Jiugeng?"

Yang Jiugeng nodded.

As usual, Dr. An reached out his hand and shook hands with Yang Jiugeng solemnly: "Hello, I am Li Weinian's attending psychiatrist. I don't know if I can take up some of your time. I want to talk to you about something related to Li Weinian. Let's talk."

With such a formal tone, Yang Jiugeng really didn't know how to answer for a moment.So I just nodded, feeling a little silly.

Father looked at Yang Jiugeng, his eyes were serious like never before, and it was no longer the tone of the elders to the younger generation: "I think, you should also need to know some things about Wei Nian."

"Then, let's go to the office now." Doctor An led the way.

Yang Jiugeng followed his father into Dr. An's consulting room, and sat down opposite Dr. An across a large desk.

"Three months ago, when Li Weinian came here for the first time for diagnosis and treatment, he behaved differently from ordinary students who have psychological pressure due to exam anxiety. Although some of his symptoms, such as forcing himself to stay up late for a long time, being silent , Rejecting family information and not communicating with parents, etc. It seems to be similar to students facing graduation exams, but the essence is completely different. I found that he is a child who is very in control and very confident in his studies. He is very mature, assertive and independent, so I didn't think he was a person who would worry about exams. So the first time I saw him, I was just as worried as you said to me, Mr. Jing. I thought Li Wei The real psychological problem in [-] was elsewhere."

Dr. An looked at his father with a very professional expression on his face: "I was worried at the beginning that such a mature child usually has his own opinions and will not be easily influenced by his parents, so he will basically reject such things. Psychological diagnosis and treatment. That is to say, they are completely confident in themselves, so they would disdain to communicate with doctors. Besides, Mr. Jing told me that Li Weinian has a serious tendency to be silent, that is, he himself is very repulsive to communicate with others But the strange thing is that as soon as Li Weinian sat down, I asked him to talk to me about his recent life and study. He cooperated very well and took the initiative to tell me many things without my guidance. His The logic of the conversation is clear, and the thinking is very organized. He can even judge what information I need from him and then filter it out and provide it to me. This kind of behavior of deliberately hiding his problems by exposing himself frankly makes me feel that he has psychological problems. It shouldn’t be very simple, it’s a crux hidden deep in his heart, it’s difficult to dig out, but if left alone, it will get worse, so I asked Mr. Jing that you can bring him here regularly diagnosis and treatment."

Father nodded and asked, "Then what is his problem?"

Dr. An smiled, took out a recording pen, and plugged it into the computer: "Actually, at that time, Mr. Jing, you suspected that his family caused him to be autistic, and he had already guessed that you would think so. He himself did not I talked with me a lot about your family with scruples. Under normal circumstances, I would not play the patient's recording for people including family members to listen to, but Li Weinian's situation is a bit special. I thought about it and felt that You should know. Here are some things he said when he came in the second week."?

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?Wei Nian's voice began to come from the computer, his characteristic childish nasal voice, but with a calm voice slowly rang out in this quiet room.Yang Jiugeng and Minian's father sat up straight at the same time, carefully listening to every word that came out of the speaker:

"Actually, whether they divorce or not has nothing to do with me. As long as I can remember, I lived with my grandmother. I was still young and I didn't understand why I could only see my parents two or three times a year. Parents For me at that time, it was not as good as the house above my grandma who liked to give me sweets, and the uncles and aunts who would help my grandma take me to the hospital when I was sick. I still remember when I was sick and had injections, I was very afraid of pain , I didn’t want to get the injection, so the aunt of that family hugged me and sat in the corridor of the hospital, distracting me with toys while letting the doctor finish the injection while I wasn’t paying attention. I’m so envious of the brother of my uncle and aunt’s family He has such good parents, and he is willing to share half of his parents with me. When my grandma goes out to buy vegetables, she is afraid that I will go out and run around, so she always locks the iron gate. Looking at the corridor outside through the iron gate in front of the iron gate, the elder brother upstairs went downstairs and saw me inside the gate, and would bring all the toys to the door of grandma’s house, and play with me through the railing..."

"Then... is your grandma still alive?" This was Dr. An's voice.

"When I was in kindergarten, my grandma passed away, and my parents took me home... I always remember my grandma telling me that before I was born, there was an older brother who was born when I was still in my mother's womb. I already died of illness. When my grandma was sick, my mother came to pick me up. I cried and refused to leave. I hated my grandma, the uncles and aunts upstairs, and my elder brother... No one ever played with me. , Only that elder brother is willing to play with me all the time. But grandma said, in fact, there is also an elder brother in the family, he will accompany me and play with me, and grandma will always be with me and will not leave..."

"But I'm scared... I'm really scared... Mom and Dad are often not at home, and I'm often alone. Every time it gets dark, I can feel that I'm not the only one at home... I sleep every night Every now and then, I feel that there is still someone sleeping in my room. I know, maybe it is the brother my grandmother said, who died before I was born... He still lives in my room... I am very I was afraid, so as soon as my parents came back, I wanted to stay in their room at night. But my father was very fierce at that time. He said very severely that I had grown up and could no longer sleep with my parents. To drive me back to my room... I hated my dad back then, really hated him."

"So, is that why you reject your father so much?"

"No... Later I grew up, went to elementary school, and began to learn to read and write. I like reading very much. Whether it is comic books or short story books, I like it very much. Every time I get a book, I can be alone. It’s not boring to stay for a few hours. My parents thought I was sensible, so they didn’t go home anymore, but I was not so scared at that time, maybe my attention was diverted, although I still felt that someone was always by my side …Do you think it’s strange? It’s that feeling. When I read a book at home alone, I can feel that someone is looking at me all the time. Every time I take a bath, I dare not close my eyes. No, because I always feel that someone is at the door, looking at me. But I got used to it. At that time, I thought maybe it was my brother. He was reluctant to leave, but he would not hurt me or scare me, so Whether I am sleeping, reading a book or taking a shower, I always open the door. I think it is good to have someone to accompany me in a house where I am the only one. Maybe when I am reading, he is also reading with me. My parents do not I remember my birthday, I only remember my brother’s. Every time I get sick, my mother scolds me, saying why I don’t know how to take care of myself, but only torments her. My father is always very strict with me. I can’t do math. , he was very angry and asked me why I was so stupid. I think they are talking about my brother, and I also know that he is very smart when he is just over one year old, and he is recognized as a prodigy in the family. It is a pity that he is not in good health."

Speaking of this, Wei Nian's voice in the recorder smiled softly: "Do you think I'm crazy? I'm telling a ghost story."

"Actually not. Children will have this kind of hallucination. They are afraid of ghosts and the dark. They always feel that there are monsters around. It is also because of the misleading of adults. Some parents like to scare their children that there is a wolf grandma, or something will come to eat children. And so on, children will have the wrong feeling that there are monsters and ghosts in the world. Just like European and American families, children believe that there is Santa Claus since they were young, and they say they have seen it with their own eyes, but in fact it is not. I think so Because your grandmother's words have misled you. This is very normal."

"Maybe... Later, my parents divorced, and I was taken away by my mother. At first we lived in a very dirty and messy rental house. You can't imagine what kind of place it is. When it was dark, the corridors there were already pitch black, and many rooms were deserted, and at night, there was no human voice at all. There was that miserable cat meowing everywhere outside, and people sitting in the room would also feel There was a dark wind blowing over. It was really a scary place. I was not afraid of the dark anymore. At that age, I was already very capable of being a hero in front of my classmates. I have to be afraid... When I come home every day, my mother must not be in the room, so I turn on all the lights before I dare to enter the door. But even the light bulbs are dim, and even a small room cannot be fully lit. I am very afraid of those places where the light cannot shine, and I always feel that there must be something that cannot be approached in such a completely dark place.”

"I dare not go to the toilet, sleep, or sit at the desk to read. I always have to open my eyes to see every corner of the room so that I am not so afraid. Then one day, that There was a car accident at the intersection near the rental house... I saw with my own eyes that a bus and a car of people fell into a big and deep stinky ditch on the side of the road, and then there were screams and screams everywhere. The undead people crawled out of the ditch, covered in blood, some had broken hands, some had broken feet, and some had half their faces gone. Then many corpses were dragged out of the ditch one after another ..."

"I just stood on the side of the road and kept watching. From the moment the accident happened, I stood there until the ambulance came to take away the injured, and the police came to clean up the scene... I knew I should go. The children who came home from school together and stood on the side of the road to watch the excitement were all taken away by their parents, saying that children should not watch such scenes. But no adults cared about me, and I stood beside the dead body and no one paid attention to me. Since then From then on, I knew that in this world, except for your parents, no one could treat you well. Everyone is selfish in their bones, and even gloats about other people's misfortune... From then on, I knew that I Be stronger than anyone in the world, because what they have, I don’t have... Never ask others for help. In the world, there are more people who sprinkle salt, not doctors... These are all me I understood the truth when I was a few years old."

"I can't restrain the fear in my heart. The more I watch, the more frightened I am, but it's like you have to force yourself not to fall asleep in the dark. I just think I must finish watching. Seeing that scene is completely cleaned up, I Just slowly going home..."

"Then that night, I really saw my brother...Maybe it was a hallucination, but I really saw a person who looked like me. He also talked to me..."

"Oh? What did he tell you?"

"Actually, it's nothing. He just told me not to be afraid. Because when I came back from the scene of the accident, I always fantasized about the group of dead people walking towards me from the wall. I looked carefully and saw nothing. My brother said, I didn't do anything wrong. People, even dead people will not harm me, and will not come to me. He said he would stay with me here, and told me to do my homework and sleep obediently."

"So... will you often see your brother around in the future?"

"Sometimes... not very often. But after that, I am not so afraid of the dark. I can sleep well every night. When I go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, I talk loudly, as if my brother is really around Come with me, follow me, I won't be afraid."

"At the time I really believed it...although I never told anyone about it."

"Then why are you willing to tell me again? To be honest, I haven't asked you these things. "

Li Weinian smiled again: "Because I now know that it was all fake. Later, my mother brought me into a new family, and I really had a brother, and that feeling disappeared. I also thought about it. , is it because I am no longer alone in the family, so my brother is relieved of me, so he will not come. But after so long, I already knew that the theory of ghosts and gods is just nonsense, and it is still a matter of personal psychology Trouble. So I said this just to ask you, did I suffer from psychological problems since I was very young?"

Dr. An also smiled: "You can say it so frankly, it has proved that you are very normal. Many people have similar feelings, it is not surprising, because you are always alone at home, so you have this feeling It's not surprising that people will always try to protect themselves when they are afraid."

Li Weinian's voice was silent for a while, and he murmured, "Yeah, that's why I always felt that I was really inferior to Yang Jiugeng..."

"Huh? Who is that?"

"It's the child of the person my mother remarried to."

"Your father seems to have mentioned to me that he is your stepbrother."

"My dad said that?"

"Yes, he said some things between you... He felt very confused. You have a very good relationship, and he thought it was unreasonable."

"Hmm..." Wei Nian's voice was slow, a little hesitant, and no longer as eloquent as before: "He is better than me... Although my parents are often away, they are still by my side, but he... ...his parents divorced when he was four years old and haven't seen his mother since. When I was at his house...his dad was always hitting and yelling at him. I can't imagine parents like that...but He never seemed to care, and never complained