look at me

Fu Gangqiang took his driver's license test during the summer vacation of his freshman year at university. In terms of time, he is a veteran driver with 16 years of driving experience.

"Your car is well equipped." Fu Gangqiang lightly turned the steering wheel and drove Bai Chuan's car out of the underground parking lot.

It was rare for Bai Chuan to sit in the co-pilot, turned his head to look at Fu Gangqiang's side face and said, "I bought it at the beginning of last year, and it only drove [-] kilometers."

This car is a scooter he bought after returning to China. The company is just one foot away from home. He will drive home when he is resting, or use it when he goes out occasionally. The car is still brand new.

"The acceleration is fast and smooth." Fu Gangqiang praised: "When I took the co-pilot a few times ago, I felt quite spacious." With Fu Gangqiang's physique and height, it is not difficult to sit in the front seat when taking a taxi. Sitting in the front row, with the top of the head against the hood and unable to straighten the legs, it was very uncomfortable.

"The minister's car was bought when he joined the company?"

Fu Gangqiang nodded: "Yes, it's a bit hot, should we turn on the air conditioner or open the windows?"

Bai Chuan: "I can do anything."

"Then open the window. I've been sitting in the air-conditioned room all day." Fu Gangqiang pressed the windows on both sides, and the refreshing night wind blew in from the window. The summer wind always brings a salty and humid feeling.

Fu Gangqiang continued: "My car was bought with a bonus in the second year of joining the company. It is just a means of transportation. It has been driven for 12 kilometers, so it should be replaced. It consumes fuel."

Fu Gangqiang doesn't pay much attention to food and clothing. He only buys high-end leather shoes and suits for work. He pays attention to leisure and comfort in daily life, how to be comfortable.

The cars of the other ministers and leaders are either Lexus, BMW, or Crown. Only Fu Gangqiang has been driving a mid-range car with energy saving and emission reduction for nearly ten years.

Fu's mother's dislike for his car was palpable. One was the smell of smoke accumulated in the car over the years, and the other was that Fu Gangqiang's soot had scalded several holes on the seat...

The two chatted, the car drove into the main road, and the number of cars on the road gradually increased, all heading in the same direction, the venue for the fireworks festival, the seaside park.

"Bai Chuan, turn on the navigation and see if there is a traffic jam ahead." The speed of the car gradually slowed down, and Fu Gangqiang looked forward. The signal light was still green, but a row of red tail lights was already on at the front.

Bai Chuan turned on the electronic navigation, and sure enough, all the roads ahead turned red, and even the small roads a little further away showed heavy traffic.

"There is a traffic jam ahead."

Fu Gangqiang pondered for a while: "How about going to the Shugang Bridge?"

Bai Chuan: "It's all blocked, and the road on the right is also blocked."

Fu Gangqiang hasn't been to the fireworks festival in recent years, so he forgot that the fireworks festival should start at least two hours earlier, because the road will be blocked, which is even more exaggerated than the morning rush hour at work.

Looking at the remaining distance, according to the current traffic jam situation, the arrival time calculated by the electronic navigation is still one hour, and it is already [-]:[-], and the opening of the fireworks show cannot be caught up.

The fireworks show is divided into two parts. The opening song and dance and the fireworks show will last for an hour and a half. If the two can arrive at [-]:[-], they can still watch the second half.

"We can only wait." Fu Gang said strongly.

The car in front gradually stopped, until the car in front of Fu Gangqiang also stepped on the brakes.

Bai Chuan is not very interested in the fireworks conference. What he is interested in is being with Fu Gangqiang. Whether it is watching the fireworks or sitting quietly in the car, he can do it.

"Minister, if you want to smoke, just open the window." Bai Chuan unbuckled his seat belt and leaned forward from the middle.

Fu Gangqiang: "What do you want?"

Most of Bai Chuan's body was leaned out. The suit jacket was a slim fit, so it was not convenient to carry things, so he managed to get the water from the back seat.

Passed a bottle to Fu Gangqiang: "Here, it will take nearly an hour, so I have to wait."

The car was stuck in a traffic jam, so Fu Gangqiang simply parked in P gear, took the water and unscrewed the bottle cap, and naturally returned the unscrewed water to Bai Chuan: "Drink it."

He took the other bottle in Bai Chuan's hand, unscrewed the cap and took a sip.

"I didn't expect it to be so congested." Fu Gangqiang opened the car window, took out a cigarette and lit it.

"The fireworks seem to start around 45:[-]..." Bai Chuan took out his phone and checked the specific program schedule.

"The song and dance performance is about the same time as the fireworks. If it takes an hour and a half, it should be half and half." Fu Gangqiang recalled.

Bai Chuan clicked on the timetable of the fireworks show, and read the time against it: "It is estimated to be 45:[-], and we can just see it when we arrive. The minister wants to watch a song and dance performance? It seems to be samba this year, and there are promotional photos on the website." " Bai Chuan held up the phone to Fu Gangqiang's direction.

Fu Gangqiang exhaled a cigarette out of the window, and turned to look at Bai Chuan's phone. On the screen, there was a row of smiling dancers wearing exaggerated hats and huge wings behind their backs. One of the three leading dancers was a man. , showing her muscular abs, with golden paint on her face and a confident smile.

"Samba can still be danced by men?" Fu Gangqiang heard for the first time that he didn't often watch singing and dancing programs. Like Fu's father, he only watched language programs during the Spring Festival Gala.

Bai Chuan smiled and said, "Yes, men can dance all kinds of dances now, including pole dancing."

Fu Gangqiang was puzzled: "Is there any woman who wants to watch a man dance a pole dance?" A man is posing in front of a pipe, shaking his hips, women are really interested?

Bai Chuan took back the phone and said casually, "Maybe the customers are not women, maybe they are men."

man?Men watch men dance pole dance?

Although Fu Gangqiang is not open-minded, he still understands what he should understand.

With the rapid development of modern society, people are less and less willing to hide themselves, and they have the right to express their thoughts and sexual orientation.

There are no gay people who are out of the closet around him, so he has no contact with this kind of people.

He doesn't understand why the same sex likes the same sex, but he doesn't discriminate.Assuming that someone around him really came out, Fu Gangqiang felt that he might not be able to support him, but he would not alienate him either.

"It's really becoming more and more open." Fu Gangqiang sighed.

Bai Chuan fiddled with the phone and asked, "Minister, doesn't he feel sick?"

Fu Gangqiang rested his left hand on the outside of the car window, smoked a cigarette and said, "What? Men and men? It's nothing to do with me. Disgusting, one person has one's own way of life."

"It's like we like women and watch porn, maybe they think we're disgusting." Fu Gangqiang laughed.

"I didn't expect the minister to see it so openly." Bai Chuan said.

"You really think I'm an old antique?"

Bai Chuan shook his head with a smile: "It doesn't mean that, but don't most people think homosexuality is disgusting, it's against ethics."

Fu Gangqiang: "This is not something that can be changed by anyone who feels disgusted. What? Is there someone around you who likes men?"

Bai Chuan: "I had a Singaporean classmate when I was studying abroad. I haven't contacted him for a long time after graduation."

Fu Gangqiang just wanted to joke that you are so handsome, maybe you can enjoy yourself among men.

He looked at Bai Chuan's side face with beautiful jaw line, high nose bridge and lips, against the backdrop of night and street lights, they outlined a perfect silhouette.

After holding the joke in his mouth for a while, Fu Gangqiang swallowed it down.

The traffic ahead was moving slowly, and Fu Gangqiang followed the traffic slowly.

The speed of the car is like squeezing toothpaste slowly, and an old movie from a few years ago is playing on the car TV, a crime suspense movie with a high IQ.

"I've seen this." Fu Gangqiang glanced at him and said, he was not yet divorced at the time, Hu Die had always wanted to watch this movie with a good reputation, he worked overtime for several days, and finally found time to be with her before the movie went offline Went to the cinema.

As a result, he fell asleep within 10 minutes of broadcasting.

Hu Die got very angry that day and woke him up who was snoring in the movie theater.

Since then, Fu Gangqiang has known that it is not suitable to watch some brain-burning movies when working overtime continuously, and it has the same effect as a lullaby.

"Is it good?" Bai Chuan seldom watched domestic movies.

Fu Gangqiang: "The reputation was good at the time, but I fell asleep in the cinema after watching it for less than 15 minutes."

"I don't see that Minister, you will also go to the cinema to watch movies."

"It's not me, my ex-wife wants to see it." Fu Gangqiang's tone was very ordinary, as if he was talking about ordinary things.

Bai Chuan paused for a while, then said, "...Minister is so gentle."

"Me? Gentle?" Fu Gangqiang raised his eyebrows, this word didn't suit him at all.

Bai Chuan: "Yes."

Fu Gangqiang turned to look at him and said with a smile, "I'm afraid you have misunderstood me."

"Minister, why..." Bai Chuan thought for a while, then changed the topic: "The car ahead is moving."

Fu Gangqiang put it in D gear, walked the car slowly forward, and said, "I want to ask why I got divorced?"

Bai Chuan touched his neck uncomfortably: "Sorry, I asked a little too much."

"It's okay, it's been so long, I'll forget it if I don't say anything." After Fu Gangqiang really let go, he was able to recall the previous things objectively, and he said mockingly: "It's because I'm not gentle enough. "

He looked forward, and continued: "When I was young, I felt that to make a woman happy, I had to work hard, earn a lot of money, and give her a prosperous life."

Fu Gangqiang didn't have the personality to live at home. Even when he got married, he didn't ask Fu's father to pay for it. He just asked the second elder to give Hu Die a change of mouth fee. As a gift, he bought a car for Hu Die.

In order to provide Hu Die with a good living environment without relying on his family, he worked hard, working overtime regardless of holidays.

When he looked back suddenly, he found that Hu Die didn't even send him a voice for a day.

After two years of marriage, he spent twice as much time in the company as he did with Hu Die.

Hu Die wants to travel, he has a business trip, Hu Die wants to go shopping and eat, he has a meeting, Hu Die wants a two-person world, he is working overtime...

Hu Die is a self-reliant woman who has her own job and her own pride.

She will not complain to Fu Gangqiang, nor will she act like a baby, but will only use her strength to disguise herself, telling herself that she is very happy like this now.

But loneliness is not weightless, it seems to be alive, once it takes root in the emptiness of people's heart, it will grow unscrupulously like a plant.

Hu Die finally chose to divorce because her chronic appendicitis had a sudden and acute attack.

She kept calling Fu Gangqiang and sent one message after another. Fu Gangqiang was on a business trip, and his phone was in airplane mode, but he didn't hear a single one.

This incident eventually became the last moment of their fragile marriage relationship, and it wiped out all the remaining affection Hu Die had for him.

Ironically, he only noticed Hu Die's changes when Hu Die and Fu Gangqiang filed for divorce.

Apart from his parents, Fu Gangqiang had never told anyone else about this matter, and after a few years, when he mentioned it again, there was only a trace of regret.

"After hearing this, you still think I'm gentle?" Fu Gangqiang took out a cigarette from his mouth and pressed the lighter.

Bai Chuan pursed his lips and said, "...she doesn't understand the minister's gentleness."

"Nonsense, do you understand?" Fu Gangqiang smiled, stretched out his right hand and rubbed the top of Bai Chuan's head.

The author has something to say: When there is a traffic jam, it is the best time to talk about love in the car...