Goldberg Variations

Pei Wen nodded and stretched out his hand: "Otherwise I'll get the cat bag..."

"It's okay, I'll be fine, it's not heavy."

Gu Kai led Pei Wen back home, soaked the probiotic powder in water according to the doctor's instructions, and brought it to Bach.

But Bach refused to drink.

Pei Wen squatted in front of him worriedly, coaxing in a low voice: "Good boy, Bach, drink a little. After drinking, you will get better soon."

Bach lay on the bed indifferently, but rolled his eyes to look at him twice, then retracted his gaze, and half-closed his eyes.

"Gu Kai, what if he doesn't want to drink?" Pei Wen turned to look at Gu Kai.

Of course Gu Kai felt sorry for his own cub being so listless, he coaxed Pei Wen and said, "It's okay, when he wants to drink water later, he will drink it by himself."

Pei Wen didn't move, still squatting in front of Bach, looking at him worriedly.

Gu Kai squatted down and said softly, "You don't have to stay here all the time, Bach is fine."

"I'll just take a look here," Pei Wen said, "I have nothing else to do anyway."

...But your time today should be mine!Gu Kai thought in his heart.

Of course, he didn't say it.

Bach is sick, so Gu Kai can continue to live a sweet life with Pei Wen, but Gu Kai can't do it.

But it was impossible for Gu Kai to let him squat here and guard Bach in such a worried way.

The doctors said there was nothing wrong with it, Pei Wen was too worried.

Gu Kai rubbed his forehead and sat back in front of the easel.

His undergraduate major was in design, not in figure painting, but he had a foundation in middle school, and he occasionally drew figures for his own amusement, and it was not difficult to draw portraits of sketches.

It was only halfway through the drawing just now, Gu Kai relied on his memory and continued to draw.

As he was painting, he moved his ears and heard sobbing vaguely.

Gu Kai turned around and found that Pei Wen was crying.

He was startled, and quickly dropped the brush and asked.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying all of a sudden?"

Pei Wen was still in the same posture as before, squatting in front of Bach, motionless, only tears were falling, and his nose was sniffling occasionally.

Gu Kai wiped away his tears distressedly.

"I'm sorry..." Pei Wen whispered, "It's because of me that Bach..."

"I didn't blame you." Seeing this was the reason, Gu Kai said helplessly, "I didn't scold you, I didn't blame you, and Bach wasn't angry with you either."

Pei Wen moved his lips, Gu Kai might as well blame him, so that his guilt would be lighter.

Instead of blaming him, Gu Kai came to comfort him, which made Pei Wen blame himself even more.

"You, don't worry about me," Pei Wen lowered his head and wiped his tears from the back of his hand, "I'll be fine in a while."

His tears kept pattering down.

"How can I ignore you?"

Gu Kai was also a little at a loss, he could only hug Pei Wen, pat him on the back lightly, and coax him like a child:

"It's okay, it's okay, don't cry, Bach will be fine soon, don't blame yourself too much, who doesn't have a time for negligence?"

"When I first started raising Bach, I was inexperienced. Not to mention milk, he had eaten countless strange things. What kind of plastic bags, mobile phone pendants... I sent him to the hospital several times because of this. , otherwise, why do you think the owner of the clinic is familiar with me?"

"It's all from experience, and it will be fine slowly."

But Gu Kai's consolation had no effect.

Pei Wen was still crying.

Gu Kai didn't know how to coax him, so he remained silent for two seconds helplessly.

Pei Wen said, "Don't worry about me."

Gu Kai suddenly felt a little powerless, sighed, rubbed Pei Wen's hair, and kissed him on the forehead.

"Such a small matter, don't take it too seriously, eh?"

"I'll be right here with you."

Pei Wen turned his head away from him.

Gu Kai's legs were a little numb, so he simply sat cross-legged beside Pei Wen, circling him, resting his chin on Pei Wen's shoulder.

Such intimate contact made Pei Wen's body a little stiff, but he tried hard to relax slowly, resisting the desire to push Gu Kai away.

"Little crying bag," Gu Kai stared closely at Pei Wen's eyes wet with tears, and sighed, "I love to cry so much, what should I do?"

"I'm sorry..." Pei Wen whispered.

"No need to apologize." Gu Kai smiled and said, "I will accompany you and get better slowly."

"You'll be fine, won't you?"

"You should take your medicine on time, think more about happy things every day, and less about unhappy things."

"There's nothing happy about it." Pei Wen said.

Gu Kai said: "Hou Xuesong, that scumbag who bullied you, is about to go to jail, aren't you happy?"

Pei Wen thought about it for two seconds, and then found that the things that made him very happy at noon could not arouse any happy emotions in him at this moment.

It didn't seem to have anything to do with him.

"Even if this is not happy," Gu Kai said, "then think about me more."

Pei Wen's eyes fell on Gu Kai's face.

His tears welled up without warning.

"Why are you crying again?" Gu Kai had a headache, he really couldn't guess what kind of mental journey Pei Wen had gone through.

"I'm sorry..." Pei Wen said again.

He adjusted his posture, knelt down on the ground, and then leaned over to hug Gu Kai.

"I like you... Gu Kai." Pei Wen said, "Thank you."

Such a Pei Wen seemed very fragile and lovable.

Except for the day when the two dated, this was the only time Pei Wen expressed his feelings to Gu Kai so bluntly.

Gu Kai was delighted and distressed, kissed Pei Wen's ear, and said:

"I like you too, and I'm happy to be with you, so no thanks, no apologies."

It was the first time that Pei Wen cried like this in front of Gu Kai, Gu Kai felt uneasy after thinking about it, so he called Yu Shuangshuang and asked her if she knew about Pei Wen's situation.

"He went to the hospital,

See a doctor and take medicine, but the psychiatrist you mentioned, he probably has never seen it. "

Depression is a psychiatric department in the hospital. After you go there, the doctor just asks you to fill out a form, observe your state, ask some questions, make a diagnosis, and prescribe medicine.

It does not treat patients with psychotherapy like a psychological counselor.

"Then should I hire a psychiatrist for him, can he get better faster?"

Yu Shuangshuang let out a "huh" and said, "Actually, I have made such a proposal a long time ago, but he disagreed."

"If you want to hire a psychiatrist, it's best to discuss it with him in advance and obtain his consent, otherwise even if you force the treatment, it won't work."

"I see, thank you." Gu Kai hung up the phone after finishing speaking.

On the other end of the phone, Yu Shuangshuang listened dumbfounded to the busy tone coming from the receiver.

"I have completely become a tool man, throw it away after I use it?"

"...But forget it, since it's for Pei Wen's good, the tool man should be the tool man." Yu Shuangshuang curled her lips.

In fact, she was also looking forward to the influence that Gu Kai would have on Pei Wen - Yu Shuangshuang was already pleasantly surprised that Gu Kai could make Pei Wen take the initiative to step out of the closed world, confess to Gu Kai, and date him.

Previously, Pei Wen was never willing to have too much communication with other people. He firmly sealed off his inner world, preventing anyone from peeking into it.

If Gu Kai can really have that patience and stay with Pei Wen all the time, maybe Pei Wen can really get better.

Thinking of this, Yu Shuangshuang's eyes brightened a little.

For five years, Pei Wen's condition has been up and down, and she has been unable to do anything.

I hope Gu Kai can do what she can't.