Goldberg Variations

Gu Kai: "..."

The two have different views on love, so they have different views on the same thing.

If Zhu Shaohui was suspected of having an affair with another woman when he was dating his wife, Zhu Shaohui would definitely swear to prove his innocence.

Not only was he not angry, he was even quite happy, because it at least meant that the goddess cared about him.

After listening to Zhu Shaohui's analysis, Gu Kai was depressed and contradictory.

He couldn't help wondering if he was really as narrow-minded as Zhu Shaohui said, and at the same time he still felt uncomfortable for Pei Wen's behavior.

"However," Zhu Shaohui smiled, "Is your boyfriend a little sensitive, because if you have someone else's scent on you, you will be suspected of cheating."

Mentioning this, Gu Kai raised his forehead: "He is not sensitive at all."

"It's very sensitive, very sensitive."

"Tell me in detail?" Zhu Shaohui took time off.

Gu Kai then told some other details about how the two got along.

"...I'm a little afraid to get along with him now," Gu Kai said, "I'm afraid that I will hurt him accidentally, afraid that he will cry, and even more afraid that his smile is not really a smile."

"Every time I touch him, I'm nervous, afraid that he won't like it and won't say anything."

Zhu Shaohui's careless temperament is destined to not be able to get along with such a sensitive person as Pei Wen, so he frowned upon hearing this.

"... so tired?" Zhu Shaohui said, "Then why do you date him and why do you like him?"

Thinking of Pei Wen's kindness, Gu Kai couldn't help but curl the corners of his lips.

"I like him a lot...his smile, his gentle eyes, his softness and kindness, his confidence when performing on stage..."

"Stop, stop!" Zhu Shaohui had goosebumps all over his body, "Stop it, it goes without saying."

"As long as you like it."

Gu Kai sneered: "Did you forget that you used to tell me about your goddess, and you looked like an idiot? You are much more fanatical than I am now."

"Oh," Zhu Shaohui said, "so what, now the focus is on you and your boyfriend, not my wife."

"So, what are you thinking now?"

Gu Kai paused, then smiled helplessly: "What can I think, I'm just complaining casually, I still like him, I just hope he can become more confident and optimistic."

"It's hard to change a person's character." Zhu Shaohui said objectively.

"I know," Gu Kai said, "but isn't he trying to adjust and change himself now? I believe he will get better one day."

Gu Kai has discussed with Pei Wen and decided to see a psychiatrist next weekend together.

Pei Wen had never received systematic and professional psychological counseling before. Gu Kai believed that with professional treatment and his own company, Pei Wen's condition would gradually improve.

But Gu Kai didn't expect that he would suddenly go back on what Pei Wen had promised, and he didn't want to go.

The day before the appointment with Dr. Liang, when Gu Kai reminded Pei Wen not to forget tomorrow's itinerary, Pei Wen suddenly told Gu Kai: He didn't want to go.

When Gu Kai asked him why, Pei Wen Lingling always found a lot of excuses.

Why he thinks that psychological counseling is useless, why he doesn't want to spend Gu Kai's money, why he has temporary errands - in short, none of them are real reasons.

Gu Kai ran to Pei Wen's house in a fit of anger, wanting to talk to him face to face.

He suspected that something happened to Pei Wen, but he didn't tell him.

After arriving at the door of Pei Wen's house, Gu Kai rang the doorbell, but no one came to open the door.

Gu Kai had no choice but to call Pei Wen.

The bell rang several times before the man answered the phone.

"Hello?" Pei Wen's voice was very soft.

Gu Kai said: "Pei Wen, I'm at your door, you can open the door, I want to chat with you."

"..." Pei Wen was silent for a while, "Yes."

Gu Kai waited at the door for 2 minutes before the door was opened from the inside.

Pei Wen stood behind the door and looked at him quietly.

His face was wet, he should have just washed his face, but it couldn't cover up the traces of his crying.

Gu Kai was stuck for a while, and at the same time a little irritable.

"Why are you here?" Pei Wen asked.

Gu Kai became angry when he heard this.

"Won't you let me in?" He said to Pei Wen who was blocking the door.

Pei Wen stepped aside and watched Gu Kai change his shoes and enter the room before following him in.

"Can you tell me why you suddenly don't want to go?"

The two sat opposite each other on the sofa.

Gu Kai stared fixedly at Pei Wen, leaned over and said, "I want to know the real reason, not an excuse, why you don't want to go all of a sudden?"

"Pei Wen, don't lie."

"I want you to be honest with me."

"I've told you many times, no matter what, I hope you can tell me and we can solve it together."

Pei Wen lowered his head quietly, looking at the empty glass vase on the coffee table.

The white roses that Gu Kai gave had already withered, so Pei Wen didn't buy new flowers to put them in.

His expression seemed a little careless, he neither answered Gu Kai's question nor moved, just stared at the vase.

"Pei Wen?" Gu Kai asked patiently, "Are you listening to me?"

Pei Wen raised his eyes to look at him, with a faint smile on his lips: "Yes."

Gu Kai stared at the smile on his lips, and said, "You don't have to smile if you don't want to, you don't have to deal with me like this."

No one likes to see a guy who is crying all day long, and Pei Wen is used to using a smile as his mask.

The corners of his lips are lowered.

Answered Gu Kai's question before urging him:

"It's actually not a big deal."

"So something really happened?" Gu Kai said.

Pei Wen's face was very pale, and he lowered his eyes, and when his eyelashes blinked, tears fell down.

Pei Wen hated himself for crying like this, but he couldn't stop his tears.

"Well," Pei Wen said briefly, "my mother, she came to see me."

In fact, Pei Wen didn't want to tell others about this.

But Gu Kai insisted on telling him.

Then, his tears kept falling like broken beads.

Pei Wen didn't raise his hand to wipe it.

"I told you about her." He spoke slowly, as if he was having a lot of effort to say every word.

"After graduating from university, I left home to live on my own and never contacted her again."

"I hate her."

"Where is she now?" Gu Kai asked.

Although Pei Wen didn't go into details, Gu Kai suspected that Pei Wen's current state had a deep connection with his mother.

Pei Wen thought for a moment before slowly shaking his head.

Gu Kai stretched out his hand to wipe Pei Wen's tears distressedly, and asked softly, "Where did you see her?"

"Unit." Pei Wen said.

"Where did she get your address?"

"Hou Xuesong said it."

Pei Wen's speech was too brief, and Gu Kai had to rely on guesswork to complete the information.

Probably because the incident between Pei Wen and Hou Xuesong spread too widely, and Pei Wen's mother also saw it.So he found Hou Xuesong, and obtained Pei Wen's address and contact information through Hou Xuesong.

Hou Xuesong is currently at home on bail pending trial, dealing with the divorce with his wife, and is not locked up in the detention center.

Gu Kai smiled slightly: "If you don't want to see her, then move to live with me and change your phone number?"

"She will stay at the unit." Pei Wen said expressionlessly.

Gu Kai felt that Pei Wen's current state was very strange.

His movements and expressions are very rigid, except for the movement of his eyes and mouth, there are no micro-movements.Even the pupils are kept still as much as possible, looking in one direction most of the time, and the sentences are kept as short as possible.

If you want to use known things to describe, Gu Kai will feel that Pei Wen is like a wooden man.

The author has something to say: Popular Science Today: When depression is very severe, there will be a state of stupor, and the patient’s speech activities will decrease. Self-feed.

I have a little friend who was severely depressed before. She lived alone and just lay in bed all day without moving.

Pei Wen may appear in a stupor state when he is sick now, just like my little friend.