Goldberg Variations

Mother Pei knew the address of Pei Wen's unit, and unless Pei Wen changed jobs, it would be impossible to get rid of that woman.

And it was impossible for Pei Wen to change this job.

So, it's almost unsolvable.

Gu Kai stroked Pei Wen's temples, not knowing what to do for a while.

"Or, let's go and make it clear to her, so that she doesn't bother you again. Or if you don't go to work for a while, come to me, she can't find you, and maybe she will leave. "

Pei Wen wept silently and did not answer.

Gu Kai wiped away his tears with distress, and coaxed: "Don't cry, okay? Let's discuss and solve things together, crying can't solve the problem."

Pei Wen's eyes moved slightly, and he looked at Gu Kai.

There were tears in his eyes, and he was sad and silent, so that Gu Kai didn't know what to say to persuade him.

"...you go." Pei Wen said, "I want to be quiet by myself."

Gu Kai hesitated to speak.

Pei Wen said, "Thank you."

Gu Kai's heart skipped a beat, and he had an inexplicably bad premonition.

"You..." Gu Kai was very worried, "Don't be stupid, you can't think about it."

take things too hard?

Pei Wen thought for a while, and suddenly said out of nowhere: "I read a piece of news a while ago."

"What news?"

Pei Wen said slowly: "A middle school student was invited by his parents because he played cards in the classroom during recess."

"His mother scolded him loudly in the hallway, slapped him and walked away without looking back."

When Pei Wen said this, Gu Kai had already remembered the news, he had seen it.

After the mother left, the middle school student stood there silently for a few minutes, glanced at the direction in which his mother had left, and then resolutely jumped downstairs.

he died.

In the news, the surveillance faithfully recorded the few minutes the student was silent.

No one knows what he was thinking at that time.

A slightly sarcastic smile appeared on Pei Wen's face: "Gu Kai, tell me, did he think about it when he jumped down, or did he not think about it?"

Gu Kai moved his lips, unable to answer for a moment.

"...If he continues to live, his life will continue to repeat such a depressing and suffocating life. Even if he leaves his mother many years later, he will not be able to get rid of that shadow."

"He can't escape for the rest of his life."

"Based on this, death may be the best choice for him."

Pei Wen's thinking was very clear, so pessimistic that no one could see a way out.

Gu Kai frowned and looked at Pei Wen: "Do you think so too?"

"Death is the only relief? Is there no other way?"

Tears rolled down uncontrollably, and Pei Wen replied in the affirmative:

"Yes."

"No," Gu Kai denied, "Maybe he can try to communicate with his mother and let his mother change himself, or he can wait for financial independence, leave his mother to live alone, and then slowly adjust his state."

"He has a chance at a good life."

Pei Wen didn't want to argue with Gu Kai that it might be impossible, but said: "But it's easier to choose death, isn't it?"

"These things are so difficult."

"If you die immediately, you don't have to face these again."

"..." Gu Kai couldn't understand Pei Wen's train of thought, "But there are still many beautiful things in life."

"You haven't seen so many beautiful scenery, you haven't tasted so many delicacies, you haven't won the Plum Blossom Award..."

The Plum Blossom Award is one of the most prestigious awards in the drama industry.

"Wouldn't you regret it if you left now?"

"Besides, those who love you will be sad, such as me, such as Yu Shuangshuang, Shi Yangming..."

"Sadness is temporary," Pei Wen said. "Sooner or later, you will get out of your sadness and continue your life as usual. There is not much difference if you have me or not."

Gu Kai was stunned for a moment.

He was a little angry and hurt again.

In Pei Wen's eyes, are his feelings so worthless?

"Pei Wen," Gu Kai clenched his fists, lowered his eyes, a little frustrated, "You don't care that I'm sad?"

Pei Wen's eyes focused on Gu Kai's face.

His eyes hurt from crying, and he couldn't cry anymore.

Before Gu Kai came, he had been crying alone for a long time.

How can you not care?

How can you not regret it?

If it wasn't for these, he would have left this world long ago.

Sometimes he doesn't know what he is still struggling with.

Sometimes, when he thinks that Gu Kai will be sad, he feels that he has more courage to persevere.

Pei Wen lowered his head to cover his face, choked up and said, "I'm sorry..."

He was thin, with a thin layer of flesh over the phalanges, and his fingers were long and thin.

"..." Gu Kai put his hands on Pei Wen's shoulders, moved his lips, and said in a low voice, "Why can't you look at something positive and optimistic?"

"This world is not as desperate as you think, at least I will always be by your side."

"Pei Wen," Gu Kai leaned his body around him, almost sighing, "I don't want to lose you."

"I hope you feel better."

There were too many comforting words, other than that, Gu Kai didn't know what to say anymore.

"Just treat it for me, don't give up on yourself, okay?" He almost begged.

Gu Kai didn't know if his consolation was helpful, he had tried his best.

What can he do to make Pei Wen feel himself?

Pei Wen grabbed Gu Kai's lapel, a little greedy for the breath and temperature of Gu Kai's body.

"I'm sorry." Pei Wen said, "I will try my best."

After getting this answer, Gu Kai breathed a sigh of relief. He wanted to strike while the iron was hot to get Pei Wen to agree to continue the treatment, but he didn't want to provoke him, so he patted Pei Wen's back lightly and said with a smile:

"So nice."

The next day, Pei Wen still didn't go to see Dr. Liang with Gu Kai.

Gu Kai canceled the appointment with Dr. Liang, and planned to make another appointment after Pei Wen made up his mind.

Recently, the wedding expo is coming soon, Gu Kai is busy with the affairs of the wedding expo, and he doesn't have so much free time to accompany Pei Wen.

Every spring, summer, autumn and winter in China, wedding fairs are held in several first-tier and new first-tier metropolises, that is, wedding exhibitions, including exhibitions of wedding photography, wedding rings, and bridal makeup.

In Jiangzhou this spring.

Gu Kai would start preparations a few months in advance every year to reduce the workload before and after the wedding expo. Even so, he was still unusually busy.

Therefore, I can only take the time to make a phone call, chat, and check Pei Wen's status.

Pei Wen didn't mention his mother's matter to him again, if Gu Kai asked, he said he would handle it.

Gu Kai was somewhat out of touch with the matter between mother and child.

However, Pei Wen seems to be back to normal recently, and he doesn't mention any topics that he can't think about.

I don't know if it's really better, or just pretending.

Gu Kai made up his mind that after the wedding fair, he must take Pei Wen to see a psychiatrist.

However, plans always fail to keep up with changes.

The author has something to say: Everyone must cherish life.

There is only one life. If you lose it, you will have no chance to regret it. As long as you live, many things will turn around.So if you encounter difficulties and feel that you can't hold on anymore, just hold on, maybe the turning point will come soon?

If you are sick, you must see a doctor and receive professional treatment. Don't hold on to yourself. The longer the depression lasts, the more difficult it is to treat. Don't be like Pei Wen.

And the last point, many of Gu Kai's current behaviors are wrong demonstrations!Don't learn from Gu Kai to treat the depressed patients around you!

Chirp!love you~