wrong each other

After Ji Li left, when there were only two people left in the room, most of the time was quiet and there was not much to say.

After all, in the past six years, they have all lived their own different lives, and they don't understand or interfere, and there are many things that cannot be talked about.

Xu Xiangwei was smoking on the balcony, looking at the gray sky outside, not knowing what else to think, so Chuning opened the door and walked out.

"Why don't you go inside?"

As he spoke, he asked Xu Xiangwei for a cigarette and lit it himself.

"You smoke too?"

"Well... It's been two or three years."

"These years..." I said it at the beginning, but I didn't know how to continue. I originally wanted to ease it because the atmosphere was a bit awkward, but now I don't know how to continue.

"It's all over, I'm... fine now."

He sucked the last puff from his hand fiercely, extinguished it on the cigarette case, looked sideways at Chuning, and turned back again.

"Actually, you don't need to do this. I do everything willingly. Just treat it as paying off the debts I owe you in the past. You don't need to be tied to me because of guilt."

"I……"

Chu Ning opened his mouth but didn't know what to say. He stared at the one-third smoke in his hand and said nothing.

"Besides, this matter was originally caused by my family, and has nothing to do with you."

I lowered my head and watched the smoke burn, and then the white smoke was blown crookedly into the air by the wind, and then dispersed.

"Not because of guilt."

"Uh-huh?"

"It's not because of guilt. I don't know what it is. I just know that when I watched you get that injection that day, I was so panicked that the whole world was black.

But I don't know why, maybe it's because the person who has been protecting me is leaving, and I don't want my dependence and habits to be changed, or maybe it's just because there is no one in this world who treats me better than you, in short, I I don't know why...

I just... just don't want to be left behind by you in the long days to come..."

When Chuning spoke, his eyes were still fixed on the cigarette in his hand, while Xu Xiangwei climbed on the railing of the balcony and looked at him sideways.

"It would be great if I could have heard these words earlier."

Self-deprecating smile.

"It's not too late...Let's be together...Xu Xiangwei."

Chuning spoke seriously, Xu Xiangwei looked into his eyes and smiled.

"Don't be silly, how can we be together now, as I said...don't make you feel guilty."

"I'm not guilty, I really want to be with you.

After so many years, I have lived long enough. I don't want to live a long life. I just want to live well with people who care about me.

For me, that was too difficult and too extravagant.

In the past, I have been obsessed with my own past, and I can't let myself accept anyone who is also a man from the bottom of my heart. Even if I do such a thing, I always keep my own Kaner in my heart.

But Xu Xiangwei, in less than a year, you have overthrown all my built-up rationality.

Now I figured it out, men and women don't matter, as long as you treat me well. "

As he spoke, he approached Xu Xiangwei and leaned his head on his shoulder.

"I just want to be with you, life or death, only you are good to me in this world, so in the days to come, I just want to be with you.

Don't push me away, just take me away... okay.

I'm tired...don't want to be alone.

Give me a place to rest, okay? "

"Stop being willful."

……

After a pause, Xu Xiangwei pushed Chuning's head against his shoulder with his cheek.

"It's getting colder and colder, go into the house...be careful of catching a cold."

At this point, the topic has been exposed. Thinking about it, I know how Xu Xiangwei could agree to Chuning's request. After all, this kind of thing is not a joke. When you are really infected, you want to regret it. Even God can't help you .

Xu Xiangwei always felt that Chuning did this out of guilt for what happened that day and gratitude to himself, but he didn't need it.What he did for Chuning never thought of asking Chuning to give him something in return.

He only wanted Chuning to be well, so that he could live in peace in the future.Anyway, the same thing can't be cured. There is no difference between one person and two people. There is no need to bring both of them to a dead end.

If he could really accept that kind of ending, he wouldn't rush to drain the blood from the needle back then.

When sleeping at night, Xu Xiangwei was far away from Chu Ning, and the two of them almost occupied the edge of the bed. When Chuning approached, Xu Xiangwei got up.

"Do you hate me so much?"

"You know it's not."

"I just want to rely on you. During those sick and messy days, I seem to be used to being next to you and sleeping by you.

Now... can't I?I won't be like that again, I'll just be next to you. "

Sighing, he turned around and half leaned against the head of the bed, stretching out his left hand.

"come on."

"it is good……"

Dragging the pillow, he leaned against Xu Xiangwei's left arms, resting his head against his waist and abdomen, and closed his eyes.

[This article is slow and scattered in various ways. You may not feel much at the end. It’s just something I fiddled with and wrote for fun. If you like it, just read it. As for other things, this is almost over. It is also impossible to draw and pull back to repair, it is too long.

If I write another article, I will pay attention to everyone's opinions and questions, and then... just tell me to sleep, it's so comfortable, I'm such a product, called Da Da, blame that or something]