wrong each other

When he slept in the middle of the night, Xu Xiangwei's right hand on the other side felt a sharp pain, and when he opened his eyes, it was Chuning who was supposed to be lying on his left side.Regardless of the wound, he withdrew his hand from the hand that was removing his own gauze.

"what are you doing?"

Kneeling on the carpet beside the bed, Chu Ning, who was removing the gauze, was taken aback by Xu Xiangwei. He had dropped the needle tube beside the bed to the ground, but he himself lowered his head and remained motionless, not knowing what to think.Xu Xiangwei was startled and terrified when he thought that the fool on the ground would get his way just a little bit, just a little bit away.

"Say! What are you doing!"

Chu Ning, who was yelled at by Xu Xiangwei, shrank his neck unconsciously, and then spoke slowly.

"I...I...I want your blood, and I'm afraid you will find out, so I want to collect it from the wound, thinking that it won't hurt so much, you won't find it...I don't want to hurt you..."

The more he spoke, the lower his voice became. He knew that Xu Xiangwei was very angry, and he also knew that it was wrong for him to do so. His life was exchanged by Xu Xiangwei with his own, but now, he was about to lose it.

After Chu Ning finished speaking, Xu Xiangwei stared at him on the ground for a long time, and wrapped the unraveled gauze with one hand indiscriminately.

"Get up... come to bed, I have something to tell you."

Seeing Xu Xiangwei calm down, Chuning got up from the ground, climbed onto the bed, and sat opposite Xu Xiangwei.

Xu Xiangwei sighed.

"Why are you so stubborn? You still hate me for ignoring me as before, isn't it good? Why do you always ignore me when I want you to look at me, wishing you could take one less look.

Now when we know it's impossible for us, we have to do this...

Chuning, do you still hate me and deliberately oppose me?Still hate taking my love, if I give you a life, you have to give it back to me? "

After Xu Xiangwei finished speaking, Chuning looked at him and shook his head anxiously.

"No, I'm not, I don't hate you, I just, I just don't want to be alone anymore. Zhang Rui is gone, I don't want you to leave again, I'm afraid of being alone, I'm afraid of being left behind by you."

After Chuning finished speaking, Xu Xiangwei smiled bitterly.

"Chuning, do you really have the heart to talk about Zhang Rui at all times? You know that I like you, I love you, but you always talk about me and your wife, even if she is not Really! I'd be jealous too, you know?

How many times have I told my mother, I don't want your gratitude, I don't want your gratitude!I am willing.

Why do you have to break up with me cleanly and thoroughly!Could it be that replacing you with me just makes you nervous? "

Xu Xiangwei's words became more and more serious, and Chuning was so questioned that he didn't know how to refute.

"No... no... I didn't... I just..."

"Oh, just what? Guilt? I said no! This is caused by my Xu family, and I should bear it. I don't need you to feel guilty or grateful, and I don't need you to pay back anything!

Chu Ning... the first six years, counting the three years I had a crush on you, nine years, no, another month will be ten years, you have not liked me in ten years, no matter how you are, you are pregnant...you didn't give Let me respond.

What are you doing all this for now?Just for a needle of blood, a life?

Let's stop doing this, shall we?For nearly ten years, you hated me and ignored me, but at this moment you told me that you want to be with me?

You said you were afraid of being left behind, afraid of being alone.But what about me?My life is so worthless?

I gave you my heart, and you threw it away for nearly ten years without pain. I gave you my life, and you tried every means to throw it away.

Chuning...I just thought, is it so difficult to have a little contact with you? "

Chuning was a little anxious and grabbed Xu Xiangwei's arm.

"No, no"

After Xu Xiangwei got out of the way, he knelt down on the bed, stunned and shouted, regardless of whether it was a hospital or not.

"It's all said, isn't it... It's different from Zhang Rui! It's different from anyone else. You are you, Xu Xiangwei, and you are different from everyone!!!!

I am not gay, I hate being touched by others, but I can get used to your arms, I hate being contaminated by other men, but I rely on your smell.

When Zhang Rui left, I was sad, sad and guilty, but I was not afraid or panicked.Because I'm used to being left behind, used to being alone.

But now, I can't stand it, Xu Xiangwei, I was lost by others, but you picked me up, spoiled by you and hurt by you, I have no ability to adapt to the pain anymore.all because of you!

I'm afraid of being left behind.

Only afraid of being left behind by you!

I'm used to hiding in your arms, used to smelling your smell to sleep, used to waiting to be woken up by you in a nightmare.

I’m really scared these days, everything is unfamiliar, I can’t see the people who accompany me every day, what I smell in my nose is not familiar, everything is different.

When I think about it every day in the future, I start to feel anxious like crazy.

Xu Xiangwei, did I tell you?Your tenderness is the sharpest knife that pierces my heart, the kind that penetrates the bones and nails the heart and penetrates into the flesh, and if you pull it out, you can only die..."

Xu Xiangwei, who was a little surprised and a little stunned by Chuning's sudden long confession, looked into his eyes and didn't know what to do for a moment, and even forgot the purpose of those hurtful words he said just now.

"Chuning...I, I..."

"What I said is true... I really can't live without it, Xu Xiangwei.

I have lived for more than 20 years, struggling every day, and I have never had time to think slowly, feel carefully, let alone what it feels like to like or love.

Only in the abandoned factory that day, when you were beaten, tortured and injected, I felt the pain and knew it was uncomfortable, but I don’t know why, I just know, I don’t want you to leave, I don’t want you to have an accident, I want you to be well… …

Maybe that's liking, getting used to your liking and existence, and then becoming dependent.

I don't want to live forever...I just want you...as long as I can stay by your side...

Xu Xiangwei. "

Listening to Chu Ning's words, looking at his red eyes, Xu Xiangwei's throat was choked, and he resisted not to hug him.

He got up from the bed, picked up his mobile phone, and before Chuning could react, he went into the bathroom and locked the door behind him.

Before closing the door.

"Have a good rest, you can leave here tomorrow... I'll ask Ji Li to pick you up."

He locked the door, leaned against the bathroom door, and sat on the ground with his knees bent. He didn't know whether he was happy or regretful. He held the phone and buried his head in his knees. Xu Xiangwei cried. Although he suppressed it as much as possible, he still sobbed.

After so many years, he waited for it, and he finally got it. From a young boy to a man who is about to stand up, when his life is about to come to an end, he finally waited for the person he loves to respond to his heart, but he has no time to enjoy it.

I really want to spend the next ten years, 20 years, or even my whole life with him.Looking at the wrinkles on his smooth skin, the corners of his eyes that are slowly drooping, the belly gradually piling up, getting fatter...

Then wait until the hair is gray, you can no longer walk, you have to wear reading glasses to read the newspaper, your teeth fall out to the point that you can no longer bite hard things without wearing dentures...

I really want to... really want to...

I really want to grow old together

[That's all for today, tomorrow I will finish the main text, and then I will put the sweet ones in the episode for everyone, thank you for your support at the end]