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After Xu Xiangwei hid in the bathroom, Chuning kept the posture just now, sitting motionless on the bed. The heating in the room was fully turned on, but he always felt cold. He moved his numb legs, got into the bed, and shook his head They were all shrunk inside, the whole person huddled together, but still felt cold.

I don't know how long it took, I poked my head out of the quilt, landed on the floor barefoot, sat on the carpet at the door of the bathroom, leaned against the door, hugged my knees, and sat quietly for a while.

"Xu Xiangwei, are you there?"

"Um"

"Are you cold?"

"not cold."

"But I'm cold, you hug me, okay?"

"..."

"I knew it was like this..."

"Xu Xiangwei, where are you? At the door?"

"Um"

"I'm here too, it's not so cold if I'm closer to you."

Hearing Chuning's voice coming through the thin door panel, Xu Xiangwei bit his lip tightly, his whole body pressed against the door panel and remained motionless. When Chuning asked him something, he only dared to answer simply, because he was afraid that he would Say one more word and cry.

People are actually very fragile. No matter who it is, once the tight strings are relaxed, they will be particularly fragile, and those negative emotions such as frustration and disappointment will swarm in. Now Xu Xiangwei, no matter how After going through a series of messy things, he was close to the brink of collapse.

He lived a prosperous life since he was a child, and his life was relatively smooth. In the past year, too many things happened one after another, and he was completely exhausted. If it wasn't for Chuning, he might have died long ago.

But when things got to this point, he had no energy at all. When blood that didn't belong to him entered his flesh, it wasn't just Chuning who broke down, even more so.

Originally, he was just a person pretending to be strong. These days, those fears in his heart are powerless in the face of the future.

Finally, the happiness that is within easy reach after hard work, but because of the blood, it has become so close to the world. After seeking happiness for nearly ten years, it instantly fell apart like a collapsed building, and it was too late to prepare.

But to Chuning, he can't show anything, he can only laugh, he can only pretend to accept, he can only pretend not to be afraid, he is afraid that if he shows a timid expression, Chuning will live in a cage of shadows for the rest of his life I couldn't be happier anymore.

He was afraid that he would be frightened, and then return to that stupid and silly time.

He was afraid that he would be disliked and abandoned by others, that no one would take care of him, that he would be bullied unconscious, and that he would be alone.

He was afraid that without Xu Xiangwei in the world, no one would be able to protect that fool well.

"Xu Xiangwei, do you still remember the year when we were first assigned to the same class?"

"Um"

"At that time, the whole class paid attention to you, especially the girls, hehe...I really didn't expect that we could be such good friends because of the difference."

"Because you are the only one who can get rid of those burdens and treat me sincerely."

"You mean, the time you came to class with a back injury and developed a fever?"

"Um"

Hearing this, Chuning laughed, "Xu Xiangwei, if I told you that I left the classroom with you, it was actually because I was doing homework after class, I forgot to go to the bathroom, and I couldn't hold back... Would you regret it!"

"Hmm...huh?"

While Xu Xiangwei was in a daze, Chuning's voice came again through the door.

"So Xu Xiangwei, you see, I don't treat you very well. My attachments are not because of gratitude and guilt, but because I am still as selfish as before. I am just afraid that I will be alone and don't want to be alone."

"Xu Xiangwei, if you really love me, take me away...don't leave me alone.

In this world... no one loves me. "

After Chu Ning finished speaking tiredly, Xu Xiangwei's heart sank and he sighed.

"Fool, how come no one loves you? Your parents are still waiting for you to come home! And Jiujiu, don't you love her the most?"

"Love me? If you love me, you won't abandon me back then, and you won't send me to that kind of place to live a life that is worse than death.

In the two years I was there, I was not dancing on the tip of my knife any day.

Those people are really scary, they tortured and played with you with all their energy. In the eyes of those people, I am not as good as a dog. I am just a beautiful and fun toy. As long as they are happy, they can use any means on me , My shame is in their eyes, even worse than the phlegm they spit on the ground...

The most vicious time was a man like a lunatic. On the leading stage in the center of the dance floor in Depration, so many people watched, he was stripped naked, and in front of everyone, he was pressed on a steel pipe like a dog. .

Do you know that feeling?It's as painful as being boned and skinned.

Depration's paper drunk is the most slutty, the most high-end female cousin, as long as the price is high enough, even if you pull it on the street, he will spread his legs.

Hehe, this is what the customers who came to Depration to patronize me said to other customers in front of me. Then they came out of my station together on the same day. The next day I climbed out of the guest room on the third floor and burned it for two days. "

"Stop talking...Chuning, please stop talking!!!...Stop talking..."

Say it again, I'm afraid I really can't help but open the door, can't help but take you away, and listen to your words and ruin you.

"Hey...Xu Xiangwei, they don't love me, and it's impossible for me to let go of the debt and suffering of so many years. I will never go back to their home. After all, my home is only here with you. If you don't want me...

If you don't want me, what should I do..."

"Chuning...don't force me, please, don't force me."

Xu Xiangwei on the other side of the door was crying badly, banging his head on the door panel, begging Chuning like crazy.

Across the door, Chuning put his palm on the vibrating position of the door panel, and pressed his face against it, with tears all over his face.

"I didn't force you...you forced me...I told you to keep you away from me, but you refused, and you did so much self-righteously... so much that I want to forget it, but I can't forget it.

You tried everything possible to make me unable to leave you, you did it, and now you want to leave me... What do you want me to do... Tell me... what should I do. "

"Xu Xiangwei...I beg you, let me go..."

"Xu Xiangwei...I don't want to live in a world without you by my side."

"Xu Xiangwei... I want to sleep in your arms every night, just like before. I don't want to be tortured by nightmares all night long."

"Xu Xiangwei, I want to be woken up by you in the morning, wait for you to turn on the air conditioner, wait for you to open the curtains, I want to brush my teeth and wash my face with you, I want to shave you, I want to spend the rest of the morning and evening with you .”

The face was pressed against the door, the pure white lacquered wooden door was wet with tears, a little slippery and warm, the index finger was flattened against the wooden door, leaning into the non-existent chest, the corner of the eyes looked at the painted white door under the face.

"Xu Xiangwei... I don't want to live a long life, I don't want to be rich, I don't want the road you paved for me... I just want to stay by your side and go through all the ups and downs with you. Even if I am hated and despised, It's also good. I'm not afraid of anything, except that I don't have you."

Why don't you understand?I am like you...

The current Chu Ning is the same person as Xu Xiangwei. He is not afraid of anything except you... You are the one who made me like this, but why don't you know...

It doesn't matter whether it's wind or rain, wealth or honor, if there is no one who wants to be with you, what difference does it make...

I'm not afraid of anything, I just want to be with you!Xu Xiangwei.

You fool.

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