wrong each other

"An Ning, someone is looking for you outside."

"Find me?"

Put on the T-shirt, fold the overalls neatly and put them in the cabinet, lock it, and straighten the hair messed up by the T-shirt.

It seems to be a bit long, so go and cut it when you are resting.

Walking out of the lounge, I saw Sui Qing in casual clothes sitting on a stool at the entrance of the store. The table seemed a bit short, and his legs couldn't fit under the table, so he had to put it in the aisle.In my memory, Sui Qing seems to have never been to such a place. Except for sports, she seldom wears casual clothes. Even when she is resting at home, she always wears the same shirt and tie.

"Sui, Brother Sui? Why are you here?"

"I don't want to go to the venue, I'll have dinner with you."

After hearing Sui Qing's words, Chuning looked at his clothes in embarrassment.

"Brother Sui, my clothes...I'm afraid I won't be able to go where you want to go."

Change your name and surname, move, throw away all the suits, ties, and shoes you have worn in the past, and go to the street stall to buy a T-shirt for 20 yuan, shoes and underwear for 50 yuan.

Change the mobile phone card, cut off all past connections, and be truly alone.

Even if you can't change the past, at least throw it away. It's better if you can just forget it slowly like this. If you can't, at least don't see it again, even on the surface.

It's just Sui Qing, Sui Qing is the past that he can't get rid of no matter what, even if it hurts to look at it, and it will make him afraid when he thinks about it, he still has to face it constantly. Sui Qing helped him change his identity and gave him a new life .Even if there are thousands of people who are unwilling, he can only accept it.

"Then... we don't go outside, but to your house? You do it for me, and you will be rewarded?"

"Brother Sui...I..."

"Okay, okay, I'm just joking, let's go to some ordinary restaurants, it's okay without a suit."

After speaking, he turned around and went out the door first.Chuning followed behind Sui Qing, walking silently.When she got to the side of the car, Sui Qing stopped.

"Chu, no, An Ning, as long as you don't want to, I won't just intrude into your private area. I will give you enough space to start over. When you get used to the new life, you can slowly consider whether to accept it or not." Me. Before that, I promise, I won't do anything to you that Depration did, not even a kiss. But if you want me to disappear completely, absolutely impossible."

After speaking, Sui Qing opened the car door and got in, Chuning sighed, opened the co-pilot's door and got into the car.Looking at Sui Qing's silent side profile as she started the car, Chuning froze.

"Sui Qing, why bother..."

"..."

"There is a saying, I said it to Xu Xiangwei, and I will tell you the same thing today. Brother Sui, we can't go back to the past. Or... we don't have a past at all, you and I both know that for us, the past is nothing worth remembering good.

In the past, I was Depration's moneyboy, and you, you depended on me.Sell.The boss who benefits from my body, I am extremely lowly, and I turn around every day under various men, but you, you can easily put me under you, or send me under any man who can make you money .Brother Sui, there is no present or future between us.

Some words have been said countless times in my heart.Brother Sui, to me, you are like Depration's sofa, carpet, or a certain bathroom cubicle. They are all my worst memories of the past.Every time I see you, I will think of how I was pressed on the cold marble and forced to do the dirtiest thing in the world.

Brother Sui, although I worked as a moneyboy in Depration for four years, I was tortured and abused by six men day and night, and I sold my body more than once to help the boss get business and pay off debts.But I was never gay, never was.I even hate those men who pressed me,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, and all the men who crawled over me, I can’t count, all died in corners that I would never know.

Brother Sui, these men include you, do you understand? "

After Chu Ning finished speaking, Sui Qing turned off the engine, climbed on the steering wheel, her face was buried in the darkness, the dim yellow light coming in from the car window left a circle of shining golden light on the top of his hair.

"Chuning, let me call you Chuning. When you first came to Depration, I just regarded you as an ordinary moneyboy who sells and pigu. I have been for a long time, and I even watched you being tortured by those mutated customers. When I have half my life left, I only think of you as a tool to make money. I never thought that one day, I, Sui Qing, would fall in love with a moneyboy, and even want to spend the rest of my life with him.

There are always many things to regret in this world, but there is no regret medicine that can be taken.If I thought that one day I, Sui Qing, would be planted in your hands, Chu Ning, why would I have left you in Depration in the first place, digging a hole for myself that would never be restored.

Chuning, I know many things in the past, and I have no time to change them, and I have no time to apologize.I also know that no matter how many things I do for you later, I will never be forgiven.

But Chuning, I swear, I really like you.

I want to be with you forever, treat you well, are you...will you want it? "

"Are you willing...to?"

Muttering and repeating Sui Qing's words, Chuning smiled for no reason.

Obviously what Sui Qing said was so true and sincere, but why didn't she feel the slightest bit in her heart?Even if it's a grievance about the past!How come I don't feel anything.Why is it so calm and so cool?Cold people hurt, eyes hurt.

"If you really want to be nice to me... don't come to me, at least not until I forget... I don't want to always remember the pain so clearly.

Brother Sui, Chuning's body has been praised a long time ago, and I don't have many days to live. Now I often feel pain all over my body, especially behind me. It often hurts like being pulled out and knotted by someone, and my brain is not good. , Always forget a lot of things.

Many times, I will forget what I have done or plan to do in the next second. Every time I order or deliver food to customers, I always have to keep reading the note to get the most out of it. Make sure you don't make mistakes...

Having said so much, Brother Sui, I just want to tell you that if you are lonely and want to find someone to accompany you, Chuning is not the right person.

Not only does he hate you, he wishes you to die, his health is also poor, and his memory is the same.Even if they are really together, not only will it not be able to relieve your boredom, but it may even cause you trouble.

Brother Sui, let go... In this way, we are all fine.

If you like men, Depration has a lot of beautiful boys, all of them are better than me, a 24-year-old man with poor health.You can still find a good clean boy who is not Depration and love well, why bother with me.

I have nothing and I don't deserve it. "

Sui Qing didn't raise her head, her forehead was still pressed against the steering wheel, her voice muffled.

"No one is worth it except you. But if you want, I can completely disappear from where you can see until you recover."

"Why...

Brother Sui...forget about me, I'm really tired.I want to live a good life. If I get better, I want to marry a kind woman, have a lovely child, and build my own home.

As for the past, it is better to throw it away. "

"Build your own... home?"

Sui Qing, who got up from the steering wheel, stared fixedly at Chu Ning hidden in the dim light, suddenly feeling unreal.He raised his right hand, wanting to touch his face in the light, but when he saw Chuning's stiff expression, he lowered his hand again and smiled bitterly.

"I'll take you home first. As for what you said... let's take it slowly... shall we?"

Sui Qing's low-profile discussion as if begging made Chuning a little dazed, whether it was his own illusion, or it had really changed, and he always felt that the current Sui Qing was becoming more and more unknown to him.

love?Really? Depration's moneyboy will be treated with such a cherished and warm expression by someone~~So it turns out.

In the days when Depration came out and helped Kangtai discuss business, Chuning saw coveting, disdain, greed, and disgust on men's faces, but he never saw such eyes seen.Even Xu Xiangwei was the same. He was angry, angry, and disappointed, but he never revealed any warmth.

Maybe... Sui Qing... really cherishes it...

Unfortunately……

What is lost cannot be made up, what is wrong cannot be made up, and what is too much irreparable and irreparable cannot be made up.

"That's it! Say goodbye, you must."

Thank you for reminding my friends, but I really changed it!In the early hours of the morning, I will not update the text in the early hours of the morning. It will be between 11:12 and [-]:[-] noon... [Cover your face and cry... Work can never keep up with the progress, and often live in black and white, the time may be different from everyone]