wrong each other

After talking about the matter, Ji Li and Liu Peng left separately. Xu Xiangwei leaned his head back on the sofa and remained motionless. The leftover Marlboro cigarette butt on his fingertips was caught between his index finger and middle finger. where it fell.

The man on the sofa stared blankly at the ceiling above his head. The little sunshine in the afternoon came through the French window behind the desk, only illuminating a small corner of the desk. After a while, he threw the cigarette butt in his hand. into the ashtray on the coffee table, fell sideways on the sofa, stretched his legs, and closed his eyes quietly.

Before meeting Chuning again, Xu Xiangwei felt that he was omnipotent. After meeting him, he realized that he was as weak and incompetent as he was six years ago. Facing those injuries, he was still as powerless as before.Mingming has been working hard and trying to isolate him from those injuries, but in the end, he still let those injuries get closer to him.Especially in these recent events, even though someone had been placed by his side to watch him and protect him, he was still caught off guard by the sudden attack.

"What should I do so that you don't get hurt at all..."

The feeling of powerlessness exuding from the bone marrow made Xu Xiangwei's whole body turn into powder, and he couldn't find any reason to exist. These days, all the pain and hesitation of Chu Ning, Xu Xiangwei even through the screen The voice can clearly experience everything even through countless crowds.Many nights or days, this kind of powerless inferiority complex and pain drove him almost crazy, and even thought countless times, it would be fine if he didn't know him, it would be fine if he didn't see him anymore, and it would be fine if he didn't fall in love with him anymore Yes, but after thinking for a long time, I found that those ifs are only ifs.

If Chuning is a positive magnet, then Xu Xiangwei must be a negative magnet that can only attract Chuning. Chuning may be able to live with many people who can warm him in his life.But Xu Xiangwei can only be attracted by him alone. No matter how many positive people appear around him, Xu Xiangwei can only and only accept one person, even if that person will let him stay with him for the rest of his life.

To be more selfish, Xu Xiangwei really wanted to turn Chuning into a specimen, so that he would be nailed to his side forever, carried no matter where he went, no harm could hurt him, and no one could love him.

"Chuning, Chuning, Chuning, Chuning..."

He kept chanting Chu Ning's name like a demon, as if as long as he did this, Chuning could really belong to him alone.Chu Ning's smile to Zhang Rui in the photo, holding Zhang Rui's hand every night, and talking with Zhang Rui are all the wounds hammered on Xu Xiangwei's heart. Dig up.Layer after layer, it gradually expanded to the current bloody mess.

To be honest, Xu Xiangwei didn't know how long he could last like this. Sometimes he wondered if he would admit defeat and go crazy earlier than Chuning.

Maybe grandpa was right, it was a bad fate.

So what if it's evil fate, I didn't know it until I met it, and I wanted to escape after encountering it, but I couldn't escape anymore.

Chuning's smile, Chuning's kindness, Chuning's encouragement, Chuning's hug, Chuning's warmth, Chuning's beauty, everything about Chuning, has become a poison that he can't spit out in his life, and he drinks it willingly After that, I no longer have the desire to seek solutions.

It's as sweet as it is, that's all.

The sunlight that came in in the afternoon turned into the faint moonlight at night, the silence was interrupted by the knock on the door, and I got up from the sofa drowsily, with some soot on the cotton white home clothes, I hadn’t slept well for several days Jue's eyes were bloodshot, Xu Xiangwei turned on the light in the house by the moonlight, and then opened the door.

"what's up?"

"President Xu, this time... thank you."

"No, it should."

"Go down and have some food. I cooked, and An... Chuning is also down there."

"Is he down there? Are you leaving him alone?"

"President Xu, don't get excited. There are people below who are with him, so I came up."

"Oh... I'm sorry Miss Zhang."

"It's okay, let's go to eat, I heard from Sister Li that you haven't eaten all the time."

"I...I still won't go down, lest he..."

"Xu, can I call you Mr. Xu? An...Chuning actually doesn't hate you as much as you think. You don't have to keep avoiding him like this. You...you are all right, you are different from your family , don’t punish yourself for someone else’s mistakes.”

"Thank you."

"Don't say thank you. I said this not for you, but because you are very similar to him. You are all used to punishing yourself with other people's mistakes. I am a selfish woman. Those days are more than once. I hope Chuning will never accept you, forever Stay with me, even if there is no love.

But... These days, I don't know how to persuade or insist on my selfishness. In fact, you visit him every day and follow us home every day. I know it, and he knows it, but he doesn't say it, and I don't say it. , we all acted as if we didn't know that nothing happened.

I also convinced myself that no one in this world could give Chuning's family warmth for him except me.But I was wrong, I can't stand your obscurity, the way you look at him, his quietness, your distress.

Every time I stand outside the ward and watch you guarding Chuning on the bed, and listen to your soliloquies, I feel that I am becoming more despicable every time.Obviously I already know the pain of not being able to get it, but in order to fulfill myself, let others keep tasting it. "

Zhang Rui spoke incoherently, and Xu Xiangwei listened quietly. The woman in front of her was so ordinary that she could not be more ordinary, but she had a lot of kindness that people who think they are superior to others do not. Obviously, as long as she chooses to ignore these things, she can live well. I will know and no one will blame me, but...

"Don't cry, you are right, you will be together, always together."

While saying these words, Xu Xiangwei heard the sound of something shattering. If he is as unscrupulous as him, there will be a day when he thinks of others. He is really contaminated by Chuning a lot.

"No...I just want to say, if Chuning accepts, I'm willing to leave and fulfill you."

Xu Xiangwei was taken aback for a moment, then laughed at himself

"Don't be stupid, how could he accept me? Even if the world is really doomsday, Chuning definitely doesn't want to die in the same place as me."

It feels really bad to be abandoned. When he said those words, Xu Xiangwei wanted to cry in pain.

He was abandoned by Chuning. Since six years ago, he has been abandoned in a corner he disdained no matter how much he despises. Give yourself a hug, don't say it, don't cry, I will always be with you.

accept?How could it be possible, to be able to take a look, have a meal together, and walk for a while, is the only thing that I still have the courage to dare to hope for in the future.