wrong each other

Zhang Rui, who woke up thirsty at night and went downstairs to look for water, saw Xu Xiangwei standing alone in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows. Red light, a wisp of bluish-white smoke looming in the moonlight, disappeared in the unknown darkness.

"Why haven't you slept yet?"

Hearing Zhang Rui's voice, Xu Xiangwei turned around.

"Can't sleep, you should have a good rest, staying up late is not good for children."

Zhang Rui walked up to and behind Xu Xiangwei with a cup in his hand. Xu Xiangwei picked up the ashtray on the low table and stifled the cigarette in his hand.

"It's okay, he's not that affectionate yet, so just smoke if you want."

"No, it's better to be careful."

"Tomorrow...the court will be held."

"Ah."

"Are you nervous?"

"I don't know, probably, I've been waiting for so long."

After taking a sip of the water in the glass, he lowered his head, looked at his exposed toes in slippers, and thought about it.

"You...do you really love him that much?"

"I don't know, just watching him being wronged is more uncomfortable than being wronged by myself. He hurts me more. He smiles and is happier than anyone else. Seeing him happy makes the whole world bright."

"Have you confessed to him?"

"Is it the kind that says you like it?"

"Yeah. That's right!"

"No... yes! I wanted to come over, but I was interrupted every time."

"It's okay, go talk to him."

"Oh, no." Xu Xiangwei smiled and shook his head.

"why?"

"He won't accept me."

"You never told me, how do you know?"

"He said that he doesn't love men, and... what happened over the years, no matter what the result is, is all because of me. He will not forgive me, let alone accept me. "

After hearing Xu Xiangwei's dejected words, Zhang Rui tightened the cup in his hand.

"He... maybe... accepts you subconsciously. It's just that the suffering and experience he has suffered for so many years has covered his heart with a thick layer of dust. Many times, he doesn't even know what he is thinking.

Don't tell me that the things you did for him these days are all for atonement, for the Xu family and for yourself.It's really not enough to do this, just ask your own heart, you are really willing to watch him live with me for the rest of your life, living a life that is neither salty nor dull, but you can only be in Watching from the side, the two of them will die each other?

Chuning's life was not going well. Many times, he would even feel that he was a mouse living in the gutter, and he had no desire to live.

He was able to do this, mostly because he fell in love with you who shouldn't have had a relationship back then, but there was nothing wrong with it, and no one blamed you, not even Chuning himself hated you, what he hated was only because you met The pain and torture your family gave him is not you, do you understand?

All of our kindness to him, in his view, is just pity and sympathy, which is not love, and it is the same in fact.Whether it's me or the parents who once abandoned him, all we can give him is concern, not love. Some emotions can only be given if we really have them in our hearts.

In fact, people are often very sensitive animals, especially those like Chuning. He can always catch the fluctuations of people's mind very accurately, but he can't guess himself.

After being sick, he can't accept so many people around him, but he can accept you. Haven't you thought about why?

What would you do if I said that he called your name in his sleep just now when he was sweating all over from shock? "

After Zhang Rui finished speaking, Xu Xiangwei was stunned, and turned to look at Zhang Rui.

"What did you say?"

"Go ahead... I'll give you two a chance, don't miss it. These days, I've thought about it a lot. I've thought about just ignorantly occupying Chuning for the rest of my life, and I also wanted to help you, but... Phew...

I don't care about him as much as you do, nor do you love him, and I don't have the courage to do so much for him like you.If the danger is really coming, I can't guarantee that I will have the courage to sacrifice myself for him.

But you are different, aren't you?If you really want him to be happy, then give it yourself.

What you can give him, no one in this world is willing to give him. "

After hearing what Zhang Rui said, Xu Xiangwei put his hands in the pockets of his trousers, lowered his head and said nothing, his whole body was immersed in what Zhang Rui said, he called your name in his sleep.

The hands in the pockets were clenched tightly, and the body couldn't tell whether it was excited or agitated, even though it was suppressed with all its might, it still trembled slightly.

He called me by my name.

He called me by my name.

……

"I'm a little tired. I'll go to the guest room to sleep in a while. You can stay with him in the room tonight. Tomorrow is going to be a court session. He's a little nervous and didn't sleep well."

"I……"

"Go."

Putting the cup in his hand on the low table next to the ashtray, Zhang Rui turned and went upstairs. Xu Xiangwei turned around and looked at the woman in pure white cotton pajamas walking up the stairs slowly step by step in the dark.

"Go! He is alone... When he wakes up, he will be afraid."

"um. Thank you."

Stopping on the stairs, looking at the man slowly walking up, Zhang Rui smiled.

"No thanks, you are all good people."

When Xu Xiangwei entered the room, Chuning fell asleep, his eyes were slightly closed, his eyelashes were trembling a little, he didn't know if he was restless or something.

Slowly, she sat down on the spot where Zhang Rui had just been lying down, without changing her clothes, and leaned against the head of the bed, half sitting and half lying down. The desk lamp on the bedside table cast a warm light that was not too glaring on Chuning's face. The warm halo can even be seen on the shallow fluff on the face.

Chuning's eyebrows were still the same, wrinkled tightly, and there were still some fine beads of sweat on his forehead, his lips were tightly pressed, his hands under the quilt were tightly gripping his chest, his body trembled from time to time, Very painful look.

Xu Xiangwei didn't wake him up, quietly lifted the quilt, carefully opened his hands, put them on both sides of his body, pulled the quilt to the place below his chest, picked up the remote control on the cabinet, and turned up the temperature of the air conditioner. Wiped the sweat off his brow with a paper towel.

He didn't dare to get too close, and was afraid of waking him up, so he approached lightly, put his left arm on the top of Chuning's head, hugged him through the pillow, lowered his head to look at the person under his sight, and smiled contentedly .

"Go to sleep... In the future, you don't have to be afraid of getting hurt anymore. I will protect you and protect you well..."

【Never give up!I promise】