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Chu Ning is a person who is stubborn to death. What he has decided on himself is that he will never stop even if it hurts to death. Either he achieves his goal or the goal destroys him. Just like when he was in Depration, he hates it to the core. Once he got to that place, he couldn't leave, so he followed Sui Qing's wishes, obediently listened to what he said, but secretly played with himself to death, he couldn't leave alive, but he could always leave after death.

Ji Li and the others listened to Xu Xiangwei's words, but did not tell him where Xu Xiangwei was, and sent someone to watch him, not allowing him to see him.He tried every means to escape, and was found more times, and gradually became docile, eating on time, sleeping, staying in the house obediently, obedient can't be more obedient, but always shrinking his neck and pricking up his ears, wanting to enter Find out Xu Xiangwei's whereabouts from the few words of others.

In fact, Chuning still has a vague feeling about Xu Xiangwei. He doesn't know if he has started to like that person, and he is not sure whether he can live well without that person in the future.

Maybe not, maybe you can, a person's life is very long, there are always many things to experience, and many people to meet, there is nothing that time can't digest.If Xu Xiangwei left, he might be in pain, sad and lonely, but it was all a habit, maybe after a while, he might forget about it.

only……

It’s just that Chu Ning knows that there will never be a second Xu Xiangwei in this world. A person’s life is very limited. From birth to death, no matter how long it takes, it can only last a hundred years. How many people can live in this hundred years? , When you meet someone who values ​​you more than your life.

In a lifetime, meeting such a person is already extremely difficult. Chuning is a selfish person, since he caught him, naturally he would not let him go even if he died.He is very cowardly, timid, and low self-esteem. Without Xu Xiangwei, he has no confidence that he will meet a second person like Xu Xiangwei.

After going through so much, things that I couldn't figure out before, I gradually began to understand the difference between men and women. Knowing the cold and hot can hurt you to the bone, which is the most important thing.He couldn't accept that Sui Qing couldn't accept Xu Xiangwei, and even wanted to tear his bones apart because of his... thing with a man.

From Depration's departure, when Sui Qing completely dumped his status as a male and female branch, when Sui Qing came to him and told him that he wanted to be with him for the rest of his life, he told Sui Qing that he hated Sui Qing and those who had spoiled him, and wanted to be with Sui Qing. Qing, like them, died quietly.

Now that I think about it, it is actually not true, Sui Qing is different from those people after all, no matter what he has said or done to him recently, it is all because of their different identities and what they do in what position.

Sui Qing is also true to him, otherwise he would not let him go, and he would not try to cure him when he has mental problems. As the boss of Depration, giving up a mental illness that cannot make money is far better than treating him meticulously Those who came were even smarter, but Sui Qing didn't.

As for Xu Xiangwei...Chuning admitted that what he owed him would not be finished in his next life. When he was in school, because of his habitual smile, which was regarded as a kind comfort and hug, Xu Xiangwei paid for everything. He came out and was kicked out of the country by his family.

Later, when I returned to China and saw myself sleeping with a man, I didn’t feel disgusted or disgusted, even if I was misunderstood and hated by myself, and I tried every means to push him away, I still watched silently. The family who lived and raised him broke up, rehabilitated him, cleared his injustice, and made him a villain in everyone's mouth.Even if he is ridiculed by the media and lives and dies for a moneyboy with a green aura, he is still the same... Counting carefully, who can be so lucky to meet such a person in their lifetime?

Xu Xiangwei gave himself his whole life.

No matter when, what I think about is whether Chuning is good, whether Chuning is happy, whether Chuning is cold...

But what about myself?Obviously, apart from family background, it is more difficult than anyone else.

After the accident happened, Xu Xiangwei locked himself up behind his back, secretly panicking and hurting alone, thinking that hiding and not seeing him was giving him happiness and tomorrow, but he didn't know, since he surrounded himself Turn around, when he wiped his body and bathed himself, taught himself to brush his teeth and shave himself, he had already slowly corroded into his body like sulfuric acid.

If you want to forget, you can only scrape the bones and remove the flesh.

Chu Ning is not a greedy person. If he lives, he will spend the rest of his life trying that kind of pain, and then live in the torment of forgetting. He would rather leave early, at least he can be with the one who loves him Shou.

Taking advantage of the short time when the people who watched him leave at the door, he left the ward wearing empty hospital gowns, and when he walked out of the inpatient building, Chuning shivered in the cold air. Before he became stiff, he took out his mobile phone and walked to the Department of Infectious Diseases while looking through the phone book. The two buildings were not far from each other, and there was only a corridor about 50 meters apart.

After lying on the bed for a long time, Xu Xiangwei, who was still unable to sleep deeply, was awakened by the vibration of the mobile phone in a daze. He fumbled to find the phone, but connected directly without looking.

"Hey."

"I…"

As soon as Chu Ning said a word, Xu Xiangwei shuddered and sat up from the bed.

"Where did you get the call from?"

"...Sister Li's, I stole it before she sent the food away."

"Where are you now, who is watching you?"

"I ran out while they were changing shifts, and now I'm in the building of the infectious department..."

"What are you doing here? Who told you I was here."

"They spoke, and I heard them."

"Go back! This is not where you should be."

After Xu Xiangwei finished speaking, there was silence on the other end of the phone, and then he himself didn't speak, his heart beating faster and faster.

It cannot be denied that these days, when I am at a loss due to the panic of that disease, the only person who can make up for the gap is the person on the other end of the phone. I want to see him and want to see him, and my heart swells like crazy day by day.

But what to say!The more you cherish the things, the more careful you are, always afraid that you will accidentally break them and hurt him if you touch them.

The more I want to see it, the more I dare not see it.

After the silence, Chuning spoke on the other end, with a muffled but firm voice.

"Xu Xiangwei, since I found this place, I definitely want to see you. If you don't tell me where you are, I can only look for you from ward to ward."

Sighing, "I don't want to see you, I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself and hurt you, why do you push me like this, this disease...dangerous..."

"Who is forcing whom? When I didn't want to get involved with you, you insisted on squeezing into my heart, but now you are self-righteous and say you are good to me, and then push me out.

Get me used to you, get out of that habit, for my own good..."

"Go back...I won't see you"

"it is good……"

After hanging up the phone, my heart felt empty and full. I couldn't tell what it was like, but it was just uncomfortable. I leaned on the head of the bed and looked at the roof.

After the two ding dings, I glanced at the text message: I want to see you, since you refuse to tell me, I can only look for one by one.

After reading the text message, Xu Xiangwei bent his knees and hugged the phone, staring at a row of black characters on the screen without moving. After a while, he switched the page and dialed Ji Li's number.

"..."

"Ji Li, come to me and take Chuning back."

"..."

While talking, he left the ward.

Take a look... just a look... just a look.