wrong each other

After Chu Ning finished speaking, Xu Xiangwei sighed, and put his left hand on his side hair and cold earlobe.

"Listen, this is not the place for you.

Go back...live well. "

"I don't want it, Zhang Rui is gone, I have no home anymore..."

As he spoke, he raised his head, grabbed Xu Xiangwei's clothes on his chest, and cried and said

"If you don't even want me, I have nowhere to go back...

Xu Xiangwei... Please, please... don't dare me to go...

I didn't have anything at first, but you insisted on picking me up and putting it together, you can't leave me alone..."

Seeing Chuning crying, Xu Xiangwei rolled his sore eyeballs, slid back the tears, and hugged Chuning's head and the hand holding the cup into the empty arms on his left side, his chin scrubbed the top of his hair.

"It's not that I don't want you...it's...it's me now...I can't afford you at all...

I am now... I am a person who is alive today, and I don't know what will happen tomorrow. I can't afford you now... and I can't afford you in the future.

If I could...I want to be with you forever...but I can't, I have no future at all.

How can I give you the future. "

Chu Ning's face was pressed against Xu Xiangwei's warmest and softest place, and when he heard his words "If I could...I would also like to be with you for the rest of my life...but I can't, I have no future at all", the tears flowed even more fiercely.

Who said you can't, you gave me your whole life, why can't you say you can't give me the future?No one can give me more than you.

"Yes, yes..."

Holding Chuning in his arms, Xu Xiangwei smiled wryly.

"Fool... how could we have a lifetime... live well, you will forget me, there will be someone better than me.

Promise me... don't let yourself live in the closed past, and face all the days to come. "

"I don't want it, I don't want it, I just want to be by your side. I missed it in the past, and I will take our lives seriously in the future. Don't leave me behind... I am fed up with people walking around me, and I am afraid of being alone. to lose.

So... don't leave me behind..."

As he spoke, he raised his head from Xu Xiangwei's arms, pulled Xu Xiangwei's head down, and kissed him.

Xu Xiangwei was a little taken aback by his sudden suddenness, and broke out in a cold sweat. He struggled to pull Chuning away from his body, and slapped him angrily.

"Are you crazy? Huh? You don't know me, you don't know I'm..."

Chu Ning, who was thrown on the bed by Xu Xiangwei, didn't get up, lying on his side, his face buried in the thick quilt, and tears slipped into the gap of the quilt.

"I'm crazy... I've been driven crazy.

Three and a half days will soon be four days... These days, I live in a tormenting panic every day. This fear is worse than ever, and my bones ache. I think about you every day. You are sick , I'm leaving, I'm leaving alone.

I want to go crazy, just like in the past, don't listen or watch, that way I can be comfortable... But I can't do it, I can't do it, I can't do it! ! ! !

I wanted to pretend like I was fine and didn't know, but the more I pretended, the more anxious I became, that kind of suffering...you don't know how uncomfortable it is...

Xu Xiangwei...you poisoned me. All the good things you did to me during the days when you were by my side were poisons that couldn't be cured. I couldn't let myself quit...

Why... just don't understand...

I just want to be by your side, health or AIDS, I just want to be by your side, follow you to hurt, follow you to die...

I don't want to live alone anymore.

This world is too cold, Zhang Rui is gone, the only one who can treat me kindly... is you.

When you're gone, I don't know how I'm going to face this society alone...

I just want to be by your side... I am willing to die...

Just want to be by your side..."

As Chu Ning said, Xu Xiangwei took a deep breath to relieve the choked feeling in his throat, picked him up from the bed, and wiped away the tears that kept slipping from Chuning's eyes.

"Open your mouth."

Chu Ning, who didn't know what Xu Xiangwei was going to do, opened his mouth while crying.

Xu Xiangwei took his mobile phone and turned on the lighting function to check around.

"Fortunately... no wound."

When he said this, Chu Ning was stunned with his mouth open. In fact, it didn't matter if there was a wound or not. When Chuning kissed him just now, Xu Xiangwei pushed him away without responding at all, and rubbed his hair.

"Stop doing this again, no one can give you your life. I said at the beginning that I would not let you suffer any grievances. Before I die, I will strangle you and take you with me...but that is all your business." When unconscious.

Now that you are well, you can think about many things by yourself, and you should live a good life by yourself.

When I chose the needle that day, I didn't want you to die with me, but I wanted you to live well for me. "

How can I not want to take you away, I want to take you away more than anyone else, I want to tie you up more than anyone else.

But I can't do it, I can't let you use your future life to accompany me to die.

I want you to live a smooth and stable life, instead of suffering the slowly decaying sin with me. In the first half of your life, because I suffered too much, how can I have the heart to let you give up your future life, follow My pain follows me, and I fall into the bottomless darkness with me.

i can't do it...sorry...

forgive me.

【Hurry up and finish it... It's so painful to write】