shallow affection

Fang Mingzhan's 27th birthday is approaching.

He was born on June [-]th, the number is very auspicious, and the old man is superstitious. Not long after he got Lin'er, he searched everywhere for fortune-telling.Fortune tellers say that the tiger father has no dogs and sons. This child will be rich and powerful all his life, and he will always turn bad luck into good fortune and bring good luck to relatives and friends around him.

As parents, they only ask for auspicious words, and don't take it seriously. For many years, Fang Yulang often said this prophecy, and he laughed every time he mentioned it.He also wanted to take Jian Qingli to tell a fortune, but Ye Xiang always hated those ghosts and ghosts, and always disagreed, so he failed in the end.

Jian Qingli sometimes feels regretful, he really wants to know how much his life is worth, and if there is a bloody disaster, he will save the day.Most importantly, if he knew the major changes in his life in advance, when pain or shame came, he could behave very calmly.

Because Fang Mingzhan's life is good and can bring luck to relatives and friends, Jian Qingli clings to him more than usual every time before the exam, especially during the two years of his secret love, he just took the opportunity to grope Fang Mingzhan while his heart beats. Rugu, while plausibly saying that I stole a little luck.

Later they fell in love, and when Jian Qingli "sneaked luck" again, Fang Mingzhan hugged him into his arms, and kissed him dizzily with fiery lips and tongue.

Is luck enough?Fang Mingzhan rubbed his earlobe, and asked endlessly.

Exceeded the standard... Jian Qingli couldn't breathe, and laughed wheezingly, I will blame you for failing the exam tomorrow!

Anyway, if he did well in the exam, it was due to his hard work, and if he didn't do well in the exam, it was because Fang Mingzhan's luck was too much. It's a simple truth.

Fang Mingzhan laughed, you have run out of words, this is invincible.

Jian Qingli was full of complacency and high spirits, but before he lasted half a minute, he took out a physics test paper from his schoolbag, pushed Fang Mingzhan's shoulder, and explained this question to me again.

It is a question about the law of universal gravitation, seeking the speed of the artificial earth satellite when it moves in a circle.Jian Qingli stared at the test paper, staring very hard, but the line of typeface became more and more blurred, and he couldn't see clearly at all. He blinked a few times suddenly and woke up.

In the dark night, there was a melancholy sigh.

Jian Qingli has been dreaming recently, dreaming about the past.Meng has spirituality and a mischievous personality. At the beginning, it digs at the time point of four years ago, but then it is not satisfied. It walks along the memory tunnel to the depths, occasionally stopping, and picking out a piece of time from the dust of time. An old little thing.

It doesn't feel good.Insomnia was injurious to health, and the repeated reminiscences seemed to indicate something to be lost.

Jian Qingli turned on the light, stepped on her slippers and quietly came to the living room, and poured a glass of cold water to drink.Now that he's awake, think about what birthday present to give Fang Mingzhan.

Fang Mingzhan spends generously, giving away a camera worth 7 yuan, but Jian Qingli is very poor, and all the savings on hand add up to just this amount.

He was engrossed in thinking, and suddenly heard a "click", and the light in the study was turned on.

"Brother Jian." Xia Ziying also came out, wearing cotton pajamas, the dark circles on her face were very obvious.

"You didn't sleep either." Jian Qingli made him a cup of honey lemonade.

"Can't sleep."

The two looked at each other speechlessly, each holding a cup in their hands and meditating.Unknowingly, the minute hand of the clock slid down a few notches.Seeing Xia Ziying's depression, Jian Qingli took the initiative to ask, "How is your job search going?"

Xia Ziying pouted, "hummed" helplessly, and said heavily, "It's going well."

Jian Qingli knew there was something hidden when she heard it, and asked tentatively, "Didn't you just start looking for it today?"

"Yeah, I sent my resume to several big companies, and they all called me after a while, telling me to go to work, and the salary was very high."

Jian Qingli smiled silently.Xia Ziying suddenly became irritable, put the ceramic cup heavily on the coffee table, and scolded Xie Jiangyan for being nosy.

"Why did you break up?" Jian Qingli couldn't hold back her curiosity for a moment.

"He's getting married." Xia Ziying said calmly, as if she had been numb by a blunt knife.

"why?"

"For the sake of power, what can he do for it?" Xia Ziying twitched the corners of her mouth in disdain.

Jian Qingli was dubious. As an outsider, he could see Xie Jiangyan's cherishment of Xia Ziying, and it was not too much to describe it as pampering. There was no reason to hurt his heart like this.

But then again, Xie Jiangyan is already 32 years old. In that kind of big and complicated family, the older generation may still be feudal, forcing him to marry a wife and have children.

"Why can't you fall asleep?" Xia Ziying asked.

"I had a dream."

"Nightmare?"

Jian Qingli shook her head.After a while, he suddenly said something vague: "In the past two years, people around me have started to get married one after another."

Xia Ziying looked at him puzzled.

Jian Qingli made a self-deprecating "ah", and then smiled openly, with a soft arc in the corner of his eyes.

Now that you've started, let's continue.

"You are still young, you may not realize it. But as you grow up, society will actually put a lot of pressure on you. It stipulates what age should do what is correct, and most people will follow Arrange your own life according to this rule. When you see that everyone around you is getting married and having children, but you are still alone, you will inevitably doubt your choice.”

"But you are not alone, you still have Mr. Fang."

"Well—" Jian Qingli pondered for a long time, and gave him another metaphor, "You know Dink, right?"

"know."

"There are different types of Dink. Do you know that there is a kind called Bai Ding?"

Xia Ziying looked bewildered.

"When we got married, the husband and wife agreed not to have children, but later—maybe more than ten years later, they suddenly repented. It would be better if both of them repented, and they could work together to try it out. It's just that they are getting older. The chances of pregnancy are lower. The most troublesome thing is that one party repents, but the other party still insists on not having children."

Xia Ziying seemed to be brought into the situation, and asked anxiously: "Then what should I do?"

"Continuously quarreling, hoping that the other party will compromise. If no one is willing to compromise, then the marriage will often fall apart."

"But they agreed at the beginning!"

"People's ideas will change. What's more, after entering middle age, worldly happiness, such as family harmony and children around their knees, are very tempting to people."

Xia Ziying held her chin, and said sullenly: "I think, in the final analysis, it's because they don't love each other enough."

Jian Qingli was stunned for a moment, but he didn't think about it in this direction.

"Brother Jane, do you want to get married?"

"Why, I don't like women."

Xia Ziying comforted him clumsily: "You and Mr. Fang have such a good relationship, so don't worry about going back on your word."

Jian Qingli leaned on the sofa, her eyes sparkling under the light.He raised his head, staring at the white wall in a daze.

Fang Mingzhan is about to turn 27. Although he is still far from "middle age", Yang Tong is already anxious about his marriage.The few words that Jian Qingli overheard last time can also confirm what Le Yang said, Fang Mingzhan had blind dates with many girls when he was in England.

He knew that those were all jokes to deal with Yang Tong's nagging, but what if Yang Tong continued nagging?Will the fake show come true one day, Fang Mingzhan suddenly falls in love with a certain girl, then marries a wife and has children, and invites him to the wedding.

This thought made Jian Qingli feel cold all over, and his heart stopped beating. After he took a deep breath, he struggled feebly.

He didn't think about this before, because he was young at that time.He was only 20 years old four years ago, arrogant and self-satisfied, his love is passionate, and the feeling of being loved is real.He couldn't think of anyone else Fang Mingzhan could love besides himself.

But he screwed everything up with his own hands.

What is it between them now?Although Ge Yiyi left, Wang Yiyi, Li Yiyi, and Lu Yiyi were still there.Jian Qingli needs an answer, and only with the answer can he have the courage to face the difficulties in the future.

He decided that on Fang Mingzhan's birthday, he would seriously ask again, who do you really like?

Do you still love me?