HP let go of that little bat

Lily was sad, she couldn't tell why.What hurt her the most was that when she recalled the whole experience, there was always a voice in her mind that kept repeating: "It was you who did it wrong, it was you who did it wrong."As if she had slapped herself hard, Lily covered her face.

She seemed to have walked into a room surrounded by glass, and all she saw was herself.She has to wrestle with herself in the mirror and break the glass to get out.She knew that she had to be prepared to endure the pain before this, but she didn't want to face this for the time being.

The anticipation of the new life filled Severus' whole thoughts. For half a month, he and his mother devoted all their time except resting and eating to brewing potions.Finally finished all the items on the list, Mrs. Snape sent Severus, who wanted to go straight back to his room to rest, into the bathroom: "You have to start paying attention to personal hygiene, Severus." Before closing the door, Snape Mrs. P left this sentence lightly, making Severus who was standing inside flushed.

Soaked in the comfortable hot water, Severus felt his bones go limp.Looking at the fatter body than before, Severus leaned against the bathtub with his eyes closed.He thought of Lily, a time magic manifesting in midair.The date above reminded him that today was their routine meeting, but the time clearly pointed out that he was irretrievably late.

Slapping the surface in exasperation, Severus began to wonder how Lily might react.Maybe she'll get mad at herself next week; maybe she'll make herself eat all the sweets as punishment; maybe she won't go to the little park next week; maybe... Severus was still angry before thinking about the other person, and maybe, today Lily Didn't go at all.Severus hugged his knees and huddled up, staring blankly at the old scar on his arm.

After that day, my mother also told herself a lot.Be it interpersonal or otherwise.Along with the bursts of steam hovering in the air are the words of my mother: "After you get it, you will be afraid of losing it. This kind of loss is not only about having nothing, but also the fear of diminishing what you have. Everyone will be like this, but don't fall into It is difficult for people with such emotions to understand the surface phenomena it brings."

afraid of losing.The four words wrapped around Severus' heart like a thin rope, and filled every corner like an invisible gas.While this recognition made him happy, it also touched his inferiority complex hidden in the deepest corner, and he asked himself why.

Since they were all wizards, Severus found an acceptable reason.He was recognized by Lily, and Lily learned some wizard knowledge from him, which sounded like a mutual exchange, and Severus erased this inference.

He tried hard to think about the reason, but the image of Lily smiling at him appeared in his head uncontrollably.It was beautiful, just like the angels who spent time on the roof when he accompanied his father to visit the castle when he was young, Severus seemed to hear the sound of admiration from his own heart.

The flame-like hair is always made not so docile by the master, and the eyebrows and smiles are crooked like a small arched bridge.Sometimes the nose is slightly wrinkled, and the mouth is split to reveal pointed canine teeth.It wasn't a memory, Severus wouldn't have realized that he had observed Lily so closely.Even the various subtle arcs of her lips in different moods can be depicted in her mind.

I want to be her friend.This thought swelled up crazily, filling my heart to the brim.Even suppressing his lungs, Severus took a few deep breaths like a fish starved of oxygen.He really wanted to run to Lily now and tell her what he thought.I have never felt so desired.No reason needed then, Severus told himself.

No matter what Lily thinks, to me, she is the most special.She was the first best friend, the first peer with whom she could share the joy of magic, maybe something else... Severus didn't think any further.He was looking forward to seeing Lily next week, and he wanted to tell Lily that she would always be his best friend, and that no one could surpass her.

It wasn't until Mrs. Snape knocked on the door to remind Severus that the bath water was already cold.He quickly dried himself and changed into new pajamas, exchanged good night with his mother who was guarding the door, and returned to his room to rest.

When the street lights in the distance were turned on, Lily was still sitting on the swing.She felt like she was going to freeze, it was cold everywhere.Exhaling again, Lily rubbed her hands hard.She stood up and looked in the direction of Spider's End, wondering what might have caused Severus to be so late.The longer the time, the more uneasy I felt.

Hearing footsteps behind her, Lily turned around excitedly.It's Penny.Lily stood still with a frozen smile, she stared blankly at Petunia approaching.Until the warm embrace surrounded her, Lily's tears fell down as if they had been thawed.

In Petunia's arms, she howled and roared to vent the depression in her heart, and was torn apart by her breath, hovering over the small park with a distorted sound.Like a sleepy beast that has been depressed for a long time, Lily hugged herself and squatted down to gasp for breath.

In front of her eyes, that little self was crazily smashing against the surrounding glass.The dull sound of the impact of the object and the muffled groan that came out of the teeth while enduring the pain kept hitting the eardrum.The heart was beating violently, thumping to meet everything that happened to her like a heavy drumbeat.

Petunia could only hug her sister helplessly, she didn't expect Lily's reaction to be so severe.What the parents meant was that they hoped that Lily could think clearly on her own, and no one expected that what she accumulated under the calm was depression instead of relief.Regardless of the cheeks cut by Lily's irregular airflow, Petunia called her sister's name over and over again, hoping that she would wake up soon.

"That's not yours." "You're only acting like a baby, being clever and jealous." "Actually, you are nothing, you just rely on everyone to make you do whatever you want." "Can't you see that others despise you?" Eye?" "Oh, selfish little girl who only thinks of herself." "Poor Severus, just someone you use." "Yes. Lily Evans only cares about what she wants and I like it, and I never care about other people's feelings." ...Little Lily covered her ears, and in the mirrors around her, the mouths of those mirror images that looked exactly like her kept talking.

"No, what you said is not true. You are lying." Little Lily found that she couldn't stop those voices from running into her ears. She kept murmuring, staring at the constantly opening and closing mouth of one of the mirror images: " I'm going to love them. I'm going to learn to love them."

"Anyone can talk about it with their mouths." After one mirror image finished speaking, the others followed suit.

"I will prove it with actions." Lily closed her eyes for a moment, and when she opened them again, the violence around her body began to dissipate.She stood up, with firm eyes, and slowly approached the mirror facing herself: "I will learn how to care and love the people around me. Thank you for waking me up, but now." She put her hand on the mirror : "I want to get out of here."

The author has something to say: Somewhere can't help but spoil it! ! !Tomorrow the little bat will be pounced on by Lily for the first time~ pinch hahaha~