Who says I'm not good at work?

I remember you said a few years ago that you wanted to take me to play in the sand.

I also want to send you flowers, travel, date, enjoy life with you, and go places we wouldn't go with you.

From now on, you can have scars on your body, and I won't ask you so harshly.

As long as it is you, it is beautiful.

I want you to smile in the painting, beside me..." Suddenly opening his eyes, Shi Can sat up from the bed, panting heavily.

He subconsciously looked out of the window. There was a thunderstorm, and the sea was roaring.

Shi Can rubbed his temples with his slender fingers, and looked sideways at the sleeping Qin Zexi.

The other party was not affected by the thunderstorm at all, breathing deeply and sleeping peacefully.

Shi Can got up, walked out of the room and came to the restaurant.

On the table was the western food red wine packaged and delivered by the waiter. He opened the bottle cap and swallowed several mouthfuls of the strong liquid, burning it from the tip of his tongue to his heart.

Shi Can picked up the phone, flustered, and immediately called Lan Li.

The phone rang for a long time, and finally got through, "What time is it, what can't you talk about tomorrow? I'm already asleep, you..." Lan Li was in a daze, and was hit by Shi Can before he finished speaking. "I dreamed about Lin Yang."

A few simple words instantly woke Lan Li up, "Why... did you dream of him again."

Shi Can let out a "hmm", walked to the balcony, and looked into the distance.

Late at night, the prosperity along the coastline has ceased, leaving the quiet and deserted to compete with the violent wind and huge waves.

Shi Can looked at everything in sight coldly, then took a deep breath, and said to Lan Li: "In the dream are some words he once said to me, which are very real.

But now that I wake up, I'm not sure if he really said everything, if I remembered it wrong, or..." Or the things I experienced with Qin Zexi these days, went to Lin Yang in my dream in the mouth.

Lan Li sighed: "It's not important, don't think so much."

"I think of him several times these days, and someone said the same thing as him today, so—" "Why did you become like this again? I dreamed of him in the middle of the night, then woke up and called me, and the content was still him. "

Lan Li was silent for a moment, then raised his voice and continued, "I thought you had forgotten, I thought your condition has improved a lot in the past few years."

"Well, something has happened recently."

Shi Can responded casually, but from the corner of his eye he involuntarily glanced at the culprit——Qin Zexi in the bedroom.

The wind and rain are blowing outside the window, but the moonlight is cold and fragile.

The faint light shone on Xiao Qin's assistant's cheeks, like lips kissing the skin, gentle and timeless.

"It's been ten years since you met him.

He is trapped in his own creation, living a depressed life, just like a psycho, why twist your life to become like him? Shi Can sighed, his voice was cold, "Don't say that about him." "

"He has left you, and you have to let yourself go."

At this point, Lan Li couldn't hold back his words, "I said 'let yourself go', I didn't mean you went to the bar to hunt for beauty in the past two years.

Do you think that if you flirt with different people, others will not see that you are still in a cage? "

"I know, you have said these words countless times."

Shi Can knows every word and every word.

Chasing beauty and flirting, playing life, it seems to take a step forward to bid farewell to the past, but in fact it is just standing still.

The person he chooses will sleep with him in Lin Yang's way.

Those people became his accomplices, helping him to stay in Lin Yang's world.

"If you find it annoying, I have to tell you.

You're having a bad day, so I have to say it over and over again. "

Impulsive just now, Shi Can drank half a bottle of red wine in one go.

He and Lan Li didn't say a few words, and suddenly felt a little dizzy and dizzy.

Shi Can swallowed, hung up the phone hastily, "Okay, don't criticize me, I'm going to rest."

"Well, one last thing, you'd better stay away from people and things that remind you of him."

"Hang up, take a good rest."

Let him stay away from Qin Zexi?Shi Can looked at the "Sleeping Prince" in the bedroom again and smiled.

The previous sex ended badly and didn't work out.

The two grown men were on fire, ignoring each other before going to bed.

Waking up in the middle of the night, and being haunted by alcohol, Shi Can went back to bed by accident.

He moved closer to Qin Zexi, pressed his lips against the opponent's lips, squeezed his chin lightly, and pushed his tongue into the opponent's mouth, stirring back and forth.

"Hmm..." Qin Zexi hummed and opened his eyes, his eyes blurred, surprised and delighted.

He grabbed the back of Shi Can's neck, deepened the kiss before him, and asked lightly after being extremely lingering, "What's the matter, why did you get up to drink in the middle of the night."

"Read poetry to me."

Shi Can looked at Qin Zexi through the sporadic moonlight, and suddenly felt a little bit broken.

He woke up, he was drunk, he wanted to get pleasure, he wanted to immerse himself in pleasure.

Whether it is the pain of self-struggle, or the tear given by the other party, it will do.

Qin Zexi woke up quite a bit again, rubbing his eyes, the youthful aura in his brows and eyes is tempting, "Reading poetry now, midnight?" "Yes, reading now."

Qin Zexi smiled, "You are too romantic."

"Just read the one in the dining room."

Shi Can conceded defeat, with a strong voice, but looked at Qin Zexi with soft eyes.

He muttered in a low voice: Read to me, watch me read, now I am "you" in the poem.

"Pedestrians rubbed against each other, laughing and shouting loudly, but I only dare to look down at you secretly." Momentum has nothing to do with winning or losing.

Qin Zexi obviously won a complete victory, but he is in a weak position, so he can only obey and do as he is told.

He started with the sentence that was interrupted before, and he paused slightly after reading, subconsciously "secretly" looking at Shi Can.

Don't dare to look presumptuously, I don't know what other orders the other party has.

Seeing Shi Can eagerly waiting, Qin Zexi breathed a sigh of relief and was about to continue.

The strong one spoke again, with a voice like a dissatisfied cat, "You read it from the beginning, don't fool me."

""It's too late to die" It's too late to die, it's dark, disappointed, depressed and sleepless all night, and the morning sun comes quietly. I designed thousands of ways to end, but I didn't expect to meet you. I only dare to look at you and me secretly with my head down, should I still die? Suddenly, the bravest decision popped up in my heart, I turned around and kissed the coffin, and looked at you in an open and honest way." After the voice fell, Qin Zexi stared at Shi Can's Eye.

Presumptuous, bold, full of enthusiasm.

He stroked Shi Can's brow bone with his fingertips, affectionately.

In an instant, Shi Can became everything in his eyes, and the words "upright and bright" were deeply imprinted in each other's eyes.

It's frightening, it's heart-pounding.

There was a thunderstorm outside the window. At this time, it was the most vulgar classical music, and it was also the most elegant aphrodisiac.

The dishes are delicate and hard to swallow when they are cold.

Alcohol is vulgar, but it warms the heart when swallowed.

The poems in my ears are the thoughts of a young man with deep roots in love, while Shi Can's eyes are full of fading pretense, "Does it count if you invite me on a date.

Do the itineraries and exhibitions you arranged still count? "

Qin Zexi swallowed, froze for a few seconds before quickly nodding, "Of course it counts."

"Then I say 'go' now, okay?"

can.

Of course you can.

Qin Zexi turned over, grabbed Shi Can's neck and kissed him, crazy and violent.

This kiss, destroying the world and reshaping the new life, wiped away all the previous sexual love between the two.

He tugged Shi Can's pajamas, and all the buttons fell apart.

He was rude and reckless, biting Shi Can's lips and ear roots, wishing to brand his mark on his fair skin.

---(deleted)---Qin Zexi sees the elusive emotion in Shi Can's eyes, not the distracted desire, but the emotion itself, "What are you thinking."

"Of course I miss you."

Qin Zexi was startled, and continued to ask, "What do you miss about me?"

"I thought, I'm... using you."

Beauty, perhaps has such cruel power.

Qin Zexi expressed dissatisfaction and indignation with actions.

Qin Zexi possessed himself and kissed Shi Can, "Why are you so bad."

Shi Can closed his eyes, raised the corners of his mouth, and smiled to enjoy the excitement and pleasure brought by sex, as well as Qin Zexi's unique passion.

That's great, that's right.

Oppression and suffocation, violence and ferocity, these are Qin Zexi.

"How did you find out that I... am so bad... down to the bone."

"It's okay, I'll let you use it.

Prove I'm worth it.

It's okay to be bad, I'll fix you. "

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Chapter 20 Where did such a person come from? 20 night without dreams, sex is the best sleeping pills.

Despite the loud thunder outside the window, Shi Can lay in Qin Zexi's arms, sleeping deeply and soundly.

like a child.

The next day, Shi Can woke up near noon.

He was resting on Qin Zexi's arm, and his breath was full of assistant Xiao Qin's smell.

Strange to say, Qin Zexi neither smokes nor drinks, but has a faint fragrance on her body, which is very special.

The smell is clean and pure, like unpurified pigments, and like Chinese patent medicine for conditioning the body.

Shi Can couldn't help taking a deep breath, his eyes swept over the scar on his chest, and then fell on his cheek.

Simple six words, I am using you.

Shi Can doesn't even bother to reveal the most basic deceit and concealment, and insists on speaking cruel and true words.

why.

It probably means to compete with yourself.

All day yesterday, he competed with Qin Zexi.

In the end, I lost, and my emotions fell on myself.

As soon as the words were spoken, the guilt and uneasiness brought about by "use" found a place to rest.

Not only that, he also handed over the right to choose to Qin Zexi's hands, and the other party can leave in a fit of anger and break up at once.

If this is the case, it might not be the best destination.

Shi Can can continue to stay in Lin Yang's cage, reveling in himself like an ostrich.

After all, for him, it has become a comfort zone.

Although the yearning for the outside world has emerged, it is always dangerous and unsettling, and it is not as easy as muddled.

I let you use it.

I will heal you.

Qin Zexi was more aggressive than Shi Can thought.

His body is hot, his eyes are hot, and even his words are extremely aggressive.

Over the years, Shi Can has also met several enthusiastic young people.

They were probably Qin Zexi's age, and they all thought they were the special one who could leave marks in Shi Can's eyes.

For ten years, they came and went, and without exception, they were directly "dissuaded" by themselves, and they had no ability to fight back.

Shi Can's title of "Ice Beauty" is by no means in vain, how many people can bear the word "use".

When other people notice the signs, they will be furious, and just a few words can make the other party leave in anger driven by their pride.

But Qin Zexi... When his thoughts came to this point, the people in his eyes slowly came to life.

Shi Can subconsciously closed his eyes, pretending to be asleep for some reason—maybe he didn't want Qin Zexi to see what was in his eyes, or maybe he was a little unwilling to lose the contest last night.

Qin Zexi tilted her head and kissed Shi Can's temple, slowly pulled out her arm, picked up the pajamas beside her and put it on.

He gently got up from the bed, took a few steps towards the door, and suddenly turned back to the big bed.

Qin Zexi lightly rubbed Shi Can's hair, bent over to his ear, and said in a low voice, "Good brother, I'll make you breakfast.

Just pretend for a while and get up. "

"Pretending to be asleep", like other things that start with the word "pretending", requires two conditions to proceed: first, others can see through but not explain it clearly, and second, provide the performers with a perfect performance stage.

Qin Zexi broke the taboo by pointing it out. Who would have thought that within ten minutes, there would be a series of clanging noises, which would definitely wake up people who were sleeping soundly, let alone Shi Can.

He couldn't bear to bother, quickly put on his pajamas, and walked out of the room barefoot.

Shi Can looked at Qin Zexi who was busy in the kitchen, leaned against the wall and asked, "Can you make more noise?"

"It's still possible."

Qin Zexi answered solemnly, and his subordinates made breakfast in a leisurely manner.

From time to time, he hit the dishes with a spoon, making a sound like a very romantic dance music.

Shi Can snorted inwardly, and asked again, "How do you know I'm pretending to be asleep?"

"Don't tell you."

Qin Zexi was in a good mood, and raised his eyebrows at Shi Can, like a pet dog who got carried away.

When Shican sleeps on weekdays, he is a purebred cat with a strong sense of territory.

Whenever a little movement disturbed him, he stretched out his claws before he opened his eyes, frowning and irritated, wishing to kick Qin Zexi out of bed.

Today, Qin Zexi made a series of actions, but Shi Can didn't even respond at all, so he pretended to be asleep or what?Shi Can folded his arms around his chest, it was very cute to see him triumphant.

He thought for a while, and deliberately "picked up" things: "Aren't you curious about what I 'use' of you?"

The word "use" hurts people's heart, and Shi Can shouldn't mention it again.

But last night's conversation should have come to an end, and he probably owed Qin Zexi an "sorry".

The movement of Qin Zexi's fingertips paused slightly, obviously being stung.

"I'm not curious."

Qin Zexi poured the hot porridge into a bowl, picked up the frying pan, and said casually, "I am a student you named as 'bad at work', how can I be used? It's nothing more than looking at me Natural beauty, or good size, excellent hardware."

Qin Zexi glanced at Shi Can from the corner of his eye, and continued to say nonchalantly: "Furthermore, you have 'used' me, which proves that I always have some advantages that are better than the person in your heart.

I think it's pretty good, you continue to work hard and see more of my strengths. "

Stop being presumptuous.

Shi Canying replied in this way, and went back directly with a smile.

Unexpectedly, when he saw Qin Zexi's protective shell that was still joking about enduring the injury, he suddenly couldn't bear to open the thorns all over his body, and couldn't bear to make him feel more embarrassed.

Qin Zexi played tricks and gave each other a step.

His little scheming is a powerful weapon and also the last armor.

Plop, plop, Shi Can's heart was beating violently, causing him to gasp for breath.

It turned out that the reoccurrence of the flesh thorn did not cause a tsunami, but a lingering heartache.

Pushing away the clouds and mist, Shi Can smiled at Qin Zexi, and a warm current flowed from his heart, nourishing the scars on his heart.

"Why...don't talk anymore."

Qin Zexi stopped and looked at Shi Can, "What are you thinking about?"

Shi Chan walked up to him and ran his fingers into his hair.

Comfort him, and comfort him along the back of his neck, "I'm thinking, you really have a lot of advantages, and I will continue to work hard to look at you."

"I just found out now, I really have no vision."

Qin Zexi's tense mood suddenly relaxed, like a student who passed the exam, like an athlete who passed the playoff, "Go sit down and have breakfast later."

The big waves washed the sand, and this young man had already left traces in Shi Can's eyes.

Not only that, but under his hot and romantic appearance, there are so many maturity that do not match his age.

He has deep knowledge, knows how to advance and retreat, has a strategy, and has an unusually strong ego and heart.

Where did such a person come from?Shi Can opened the stool and sat at the dining table, watching Qin Zexi busy back and forth, suddenly became very interested in him, interested in every detail, "How can you cook? Nowadays young people are all ordering takeaway, how can they have their own food?" cooking."

Qin Zexi is not only good at cooking, but also pretty good at cooking. These days when he gets along with Shi Can, he is responsible for reading documents in the hall and weighing the frying pan in the kitchen, "I told you that I was in poor health when I was young.

Before the surgery, I was often unable to go to school.

When I have nothing to do at home, I always hang out with my mother and chat with her.

She cooks, and I watch, and the more I watch, the better I will be. "

"You still go to the hospital often, do you need to be tested?"

Qin Zexi gave a "hmm" and explained: "Regular checkups, prescriptions, and laboratory tests.

By the way, I also often visit friends who were hospitalized before.

I'm lucky to be out of the hospital, but I'm one of the few. "

Immediately, the two exchanged a few words back and forth, all related to Qin Zexi's childhood.

Qin Zexi said, actually, I don't really like to watch my mother cook, I'm just afraid that she will feel sad if she lies down sick.

When I talk to her and annoy her while she's cooking, she thinks I'm fine.

If she is happy, she will not close the door and cry to my dad, so that my dad can work with peace of mind.

Qin Zexi also said that when I was young, I often didn't go to school, so I didn't have many friends.

My parents always invite my classmates to come home, afraid that I will be lonely.

But those students don't know me well, and they often find reasons to refuse. Even if they come to my house, they have nothing to say to me, which is very embarrassing.

I don't want my parents to be disappointed, so I have to find something to do for myself, and I have to have an excuse to say that I am "busy".

I can't run or jump, I can only watch famous paintings, documentaries of various museums, and art history at home and abroad.

It's good to be alone, time is your own.

Qin Zexi asked Shi Can, do you know why I like to study mathematics?Because numbers tell the truth and don't lie.

My parents always told me before the operation that I would be fine.

They thought that I couldn't understand the numbers on the test report and didn't know how bad my situation was.

I didn't want to make them sad, so I simply pretended not to understand.

Qin Zexi finally said that mathematics is like me in the past, the whole world is lonely, and happiness can only be brought by myself.

Shi Can was eating Qin Zexi's breakfast, listening to some old stories in his mouth, and suddenly saw the teenage child in front of him.

Because of a poem, Shi Can labeled him "secondary school" and "pure love".

A conversation happened inadvertently, and then it became more "sensitive", more "strong", more "considerate" and more "mature".

Shi Can raised his hand and gently kneaded Qin Zexi's hair.

He never thought that this young man would be so seriously ill, and even made his parents cry and be at a loss, as if grief and pain were incompatible with Qin Zexi's romance.

It doesn't connect at all.

"Why, breakfast is not enough, eat my tofu."

Qin Zexi stopped his chopsticks, his brows and eyes were still bright and easy.

Shi Can shook his head, thinking that he was good-looking and full of vitality.

Teenage is the age of rebellion, but what Qin Zexi thinks about is his parents, and what he thinks about is the person he loves, except himself.

However, his strength has been accumulated over time, and his strength has been traced along with the details of the past, which has been accumulated for a long time, "It's great that you are standing here in good health."

Qin Zexi grabbed Shi Can's finger, nodded, and kissed the fingertip carefully.

The two were relatively speechless, and seemed to be talking to each other.

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