Who says I'm not good at work?

Back inside, Shi Can went straight to the kitchen.

He poured himself a glass of strong wine, raised his head and drank it down, "She's not targeting you."

"I know, she loves you too."

Qin Zexi walked up to him and poured himself a drink, "I'm sorry, it was my fault."

"Why do you apologize? What does it have to do with you? You didn't ask me to take over the job, nor did you ask me to buy paintings, nor did you ask her to come over suddenly today."

Shi Can took the wine glass in Qin Zexi's hand and poured it all down his throat again, "What a coincidence."

After thinking about it, Shi Can spoke again and poured himself a drink at the same time, "She has always disagreed, and the opposition has become more intense in recent years."

"Many modeling teachers will have similar troubles, I understand."

Qin Zexi knew that he was in a bad mood, so he could only let him have a few more drinks, "When Auntie calms down, you can say something nice to coax her."

Shi Can came to the living room with the wine bottle, sat down and looked at the cracked "Lust" and said, "The painting is broken, you must be very distressed."

It would be a lie to say that I don't feel distressed, my work is like a child, not to mention it was bought by Shi Can, which is of great significance.

It's just that in Qin Zexi's eyes, he cares more about people than painting, "A few years ago...what was your life like, which made Auntie so resistant."

Qin Zexi felt a little regretful after asking, and felt that it was really wrong to expose people's scars, "If you don't want to say it, forget it."

Qin Zexi sat beside Shi Can, and Shi Can leaned into his arms, with his back against his chest.

Unexpectedly, Shi Can did not refuse Qin Zexi's question.

He opened his mouth and said slowly, "In the eyes of others, I was very bad in the past few years..." Shi Can said, "My mother discovered my sexuality and my nude portraits.

To her, I must be the most asshole son. "

Qin Zexi can imagine the development of the matter. After Chen Qiu found out, he was very dissatisfied with his son's behavior and stopped him repeatedly. The relationship between mother and child fell to freezing point.

There was no solution to the problem, and it continued until Chen Qiu compromised.

"I thought my mother would eventually accept me as a model first, but she reluctantly accepted my sexuality."

Chen Qiu has been divorced, so he has no hope for marriage.

When she faced Shi Can's sexuality issue, although she had many "unwillingness" in her heart, she finally chose to compromise.

She is not "accepting", she is just trying to ease the relationship between mother and child.

Chen Qiu looked into Shi Can's eyes and said, maybe you can't choose who you like?For the people of the previous generation, Shi Can had nothing else to ask for such enlightened thoughts.

"The man I loved was also a painter.

draw me. "

After finishing speaking, Shi Can raised his head and looked into Qin Zexi's eyes, there was some tenderness and sweetness in his eyes, and there was also some exploration of looking at the moon in the water.

Qin Zexi nodded slightly, and placed a delicate kiss on Shi Can's forehead.

He listened to him quietly, without asking or questioning.

"A few years ago, he left me."

Shi Can paused for a moment, and finally got into the topic, "I'm not in a good state, I often drink too much, and several times...I really...want to find him."

Qin Zexi tightened her arms around Shi Can, but didn't even mention the logical question of "why they separated".

He just stays with Shi Can and is the most considerate listener.

The child's condition was not right, and the mother soon discovered it.

Shi Can seems to have lost his soul, looking at the painter's works all day long, unable to recover for a long time.

Excruciating pain.

The mother attributed Shi Can's pain to "painting" and "painter", "If you hadn't been his model and fallen in love with him, you wouldn't have fallen into such a deep place, and you wouldn't have the pain you have now."

Chen Qiu felt sorry for his son, sincerely, and almost burned all the paintings with tears in his eyes when he was so sad.

Shi Can regards them as his lifeblood, and confronts his mother in a few moments.

Fortunately, Lan Li was also at Shi Can's house that day, and then quickly found a room in the studio, which saved the painting from being destroyed.

Perhaps it was the mother's violent actions that made Shi Can wake up from the pain a little, or perhaps it was because of the fact that grief was useless, so Shi Can tried hard to make himself "look" better.

As time goes by, the scars are gradually hidden by the tedious life.

After wearing the mask for a long time, even he himself wondered if it was really healed, or if he forgot about the "pain".

"I didn't mean to lie to my mother, it's just that she couldn't accept me as a model from beginning to end, and I didn't want her to worry."

Shi Can's voice has always been restrained, telling the sad past in a flat and flat manner.

Until here, his voice finally became a little more emotional, apologizing to his mother, "Think about it because I am not filial, and she has been worrying about me for the past few years."

"It's no wonder that after my aunt knew that I also painted, her eyes were full of tiredness and frustration."

Qin Zexi sighed, and gently rubbed Shi Can's hair, "She must think that you are hopeless, and let herself fall into the same situation as before."

"you do not say."

Shi Can responded jokingly, and smiled helplessly.

Shi Can doesn't like to talk about the past, he finds it boring and pretentious.

I don't know what happened today, after drinking some wine, the chatterbox couldn't be shut down, "You don't have to pay attention to what I said, and don't have to pity me.

I'm fine. "

Qin Zexi snorted and shook his head, "I don't pity you."

I just feel bad.

Qin Zexi didn't say the second half of the sentence, not wanting to break the current atmosphere with such superficial words.

Shi Can's ability to take the initiative to tell him the details of his mother has already built a bridge between each other's hearts.

All that's left is time.

Leaning in Qin Zexi's arms, Shi Can talked and stopped, thinking of where to go.

His voice was always very soft, and he tried his best to hide the scars between the lines, so that Qin Zexi would not find out.

It's not that Shi Can deliberately put on airs, it's just that he's used to it, and at the same time, he's not very good at "confessioning".

"Is it boring? I don't know how to tell stories, and I haven't... talked about them with others."

Shi Can laughed at himself, picked up the bottle beside him and drank a lot.

His back was tightly pressed against Qin Zexi's chest, and his strong and steady heartbeat brought dizziness.

He was drunk in the wine, in Qin Zexi's arms.

Warm and cozy.

Qin Zexi kneaded Shi Can's hair, "I just want to be with you, not to listen to the story."

Shi Can said "hmm", and the topic turned to his own childhood.

Shi Chan's growth is nothing special, nothing more than eating, sleeping, and growing his body.

When I first remembered things, there were quarrels at home, sometimes light and sometimes serious.

Later, Shi Can realized that the relationship between his parents was not good, and then they separated, and everything was logical.

"As a child I was invisible at home, they couldn't see me, only hostility towards each other."

Regarding the separation of his parents, Shi Can said flatly that his personalities don't match and he can't force it.

There is no sense of presence at home, and Shi Can is not very talkative at school, "I started to practice long-distance running in junior high school in order to reduce the time at home.

Later, when I went to high school and lived in school completely, I had less communication with them. "

Now, my father has remarried, and my mother is left with only Shi Can, "A few years ago, I would give up on myself and think that she finally saw me.

It's a pity that she doesn't like the look. "

Qin Zexi was silent for a few seconds, and then said, "You must be feeling bad because you deliberately hid it from your mother."

Shi Can didn't answer, and then heard Qin Zexi ask, "If someone...such as me...have something to hide from you, will you be angry? Just like your mother."

"You?" Shi Can turned his head and looked at Qin Zexi, smiled and shook his head, maintaining his usual ignorant temperament, "I won't get angry.

Everyone has secrets in their hearts, and it's normal for you to keep something from me.

I may also have something to hide from you. "

"makes sense."

Qin Zexi got a satisfactory answer, and changed the subject, "Actually, I haven't confessed many things to my parents since I was a child.

When I was a child, I stole my dad's cigarettes and drank his wine without telling him. "

Shi Can rubbed against Qin Zexi's arms again, taking a comfortable position and waiting for him to continue, "What else..." "It's too much.

And what's hidden under my bed..."... Shi Chan got drunk to calm down when his mother found out about his job as a model.

Sober up, life has to go on.

He handed over the damaged painting to Lan Li, and asked the other party to ask if the studio could repair it.

"How did it break? Didn't it break on the road?" Shi Can briefly explained, saying that his mother happened to come to the door and bumped into the painting at home.

The mother and son had a conversation similar to the past, and the painting became a "pissing bag" in the process.

Shi Can didn't mention that Qin Zexi was also there, let alone that both of them were wearing pajamas.

After hearing this, Lan Li sighed helplessly: "Your luck is too good, such a coincidence can happen to you."

Who said no?It seems that everything related to Qin Zexi can be related to luck and coincidence.

When I met him at the bar at first, Shi Can lamented his bad luck; later, when I saw "Seamas" in the art gallery, Shi Can only felt that he was the most beautiful coincidence; to this day, even Qin Zexi's paintings can bring Unexpected developments.

Alcohol brings a brief escape, and the real problem remains unresolved.

Shi Can went to find Chen Qiu the next day, and the mother and son had dinner together.

At the dinner table, there are three dishes and one soup, all Shi Can likes.

The two were relatively silent, Chen Qiu didn't intentionally provoke, and Shi Can didn't want to upset his mother again.

There are fragile fetters condensed in the air, like walking on thin ice.

Before Shi Can left, her mother finally spoke to reiterate her attitude: "I can't watch you become the same as before."

Shi Can shook his head, originally wanted to just answer "no".

But the moment he opened his mouth, he still sighed and explained: "I didn't have anything to do with him, and I didn't specifically collaborate with him on that painting.

Some people, some things, are hard to replace and impossible to repeat. "

A few days later, Lanli proposed that Shican should cancel most of his work recently, so as not to make his aunt unhappy again.

To be on the safe side, it should indeed be "low-key" in the short term.

Although Shi Can was reluctant, he still turned down several commercial jobs, leaving only the school courses.

"Actually, I asked you to reduce your work, not entirely because your mother found out...you called me in the middle of the night when you were on a business trip, and I felt your condition..." Lan Li didn't finish speaking, Shi Can interrupted him: "I'm fine, you're thinking too much."

"Better be okay."

Lan Li sighed, and added: "Actually, I feel that you are quite happy recently, and your condition is better.

If you hadn't called me in the middle of the night before, I would have thought you were finally in love again. "

"Where did the love come from, don't guess."

"By the way, who is the person who reminds you of Lin Yang? Did you listen to me and stay away?" Shi Can gave a perfunctory "Yes" and ended the topic hastily.

Shi Can's work has been reduced, and Qin Zexi, as an assistant, has no work to do.

He signed an employment contract with Lan Li, and the capitalists naturally couldn't let go of the opportunity of exploitation.

"Starting tomorrow, I will give you another model, and you will be his assistant."

Lan Li notified by phone, without any room for negotiation: "I have already given your phone number to him, and he will contact you in the next two days."

Qin Zexi froze on the spot, and a thunder flashed above his head: "Where is the teacher then?" "He has less work recently, let him take a rest."

Lan Li thought for a while, and then explained: "This time, he is a young rookie model with little experience. If the job is not good, you can tell him the details.

Demeanor, posture, these things must be familiar to you when you usually draw.

If it doesn't work, let him act as a model for you and let him practice more. "

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