Who says I'm not good at work?

Xiaocan, what's wrong with you?How long has it been since you forgot?Art should be painful, depressed or even extremely depressing.

You are my exclusive model, you must live like me.

Shi Can opened his eyes suddenly, a thin layer of sweat appeared on his forehead.

He subconsciously took a deep breath, turned his head and looked at the time, it was not yet six o'clock.

Why dreamed of Lin Yang again.

In the dream, Lin Yang stood opposite Shi Can, and there seemed to be a gap between them.

Very narrow, but very deep, bottomless.

Shi Can stared blankly at Lin Yang not far away, trying to get closer, but couldn't take a step.

Shi Can's eyes showed the same admiration as before, but at the same time, there was an irrepressible doubt.

When I woke up, this doubt was very fresh.

Not only the dream at that moment, doubts exist in this stretch of ten years.

The first version of "Seamas" is the best interpretation of Shi Can, and this doubt is carried in the cut half of the screen of "Seamas".

It was at odds with Lin Yang's idea, so Shi Can chose to keep it deep in his heart.

Can't see the light, and don't think about it.

Shi Can turned his head, taking advantage of the moonlight to look at Qin Zexi's sleeping cheek.

Lan Li said, actually, I feel that you are quite happy recently, and your condition is better.

That's right, if there was no episode caused by the sudden appearance of his mother, this "happiness" related to Qin Zexi might last longer.

When the time comes, Chan ignores the antecedent, forgets the consequence, and simply enjoys it.

The mother opened up the scars with fierce words, as if renovating many details of the past, and the remaining fragments left in the gaps had new oxygen, and then multiplied and multiplied, making it difficult to ignore.

Suddenly, Shi Can felt a little guilty, as if lying next to Qin Zexi was betraying his previous beliefs.

But how is this possible?Shi Can once spent everything to cater to Lin Yang, enjoying the oppression and control brought by love like a masochist.

Lin Yang lived a regular life. Every morning when he was lying next to him, he would be awakened by the alarm at a fixed time, again and again, day after day.

Qin Zexi, on the other hand, lived a full life. He often had classes early in the morning but still yearned for the warmth of the bed. On weekends, he wanted to enjoy the relaxation brought by waking up naturally.

Lin Yang acts with restraint, and always treats Shi Can's body with three points of pity and seven points of discipline, in order to present the best effect of the painting.

Qin Zexi was the complete opposite, his fingertips seemed to be carrying flames, and the moment they passed by, not a single blade of grass grew, and followed the skin texture to drill into Shi Can's heart.

"Indulgence" is so easy that it only took such a short time for Shi Can to get used to Qin Zexi's flamboyance, fell in love with his romantic atmosphere, and even found the bouquet on his shoulder in the painting "Seamas" Light.

Shi Can was panicked, afraid of closing his eyes and seeing Lin Yang again, afraid of returning to the dream without the slightest warmth.

Once upon a time, Shi Can "enjoyed" the tormenting dream - everything lost could only be reappeared in the dream.

As time passed, the dream gradually disappeared, and Shi Can's heart became colder and colder.

After that, he was like a coward caught between the gaps, hesitating back and forth, in a dilemma.

He was afraid of the pain of his dreams, of the emptiness of a good night's sleep, of the scars of his feelings, of everything... except sex.

The joy of the body does not require thinking, and the night brought by exhaustion also fills the paleness.

Shi Can moved his body and approached Qin Zexi.

With the twilight of dawn, he carefully looked at this handsome cheek.

No way forward, no way back.

The rock wall of the gap built a wall between the two, and it was difficult for Shi Can to move even a little bit.

He pulled the pajamas aside, put them on and got up.

Action without pause.

Maybe it was uncomfortable in the suddenly deserted bed, or feeling the emotional fluctuations of the people around him, Qin Zexi faintly woke up, raised his head in a daze and asked: "What's wrong with you.

where to. "

"fine."

Shi Can lowered his voice and didn't look back. When he walked to the corner of the bed, he reached out and patted Qin Zexi's ankle to try to comfort him, "Go on to sleep."

Qin Zexi gave a "hmm" and said vaguely, "Then you come back quickly, I..." Before he finished speaking, the young man fell asleep again.

Shi Can made himself a cup of coffee, and then sat quietly at the dining table.

He remained motionless and lost in thought until the coffee was completely cool and the sun slowly rose outside the window.

"Why do you wake up so early?"

Qin Zexi came out of the room with his chest open. While yawning, he rubbed his slightly messy hair, "What's the matter?"

Shi Can shook his head slightly, and then met Qin Zexi's eyes, "I don't work much during this time, so you don't have to stay overnight at my house all the time."

Qin Zexi was taken aback for a moment, but didn't answer immediately.

Shi Can looked away, with a clear meaning - he wanted to increase the distance between the two of them.

He couldn't find a decent reason, so what he said was lame and unreliable.

Could it be that Qin Zexi stayed by Shi Can's side for work? "Okay, I see."

Qin Zexi agreed after a few seconds of reaction, and took the initiative to make up a more "reasonable" reason, "It happens that my aunt is also a little dissatisfied with you recently, and if she comes to see me again, she will definitely not be happy."

Shi Can nodded, took a sip of the ice-cold coffee, it was bitter in his mouth, but an indescribable taste in his heart.

Sour, thankful, lost.

There's also a bit of relief, and a loathing of self-loathing.

I'm almost 30 years old, how can I still "do" in front of young people in their early twenties, it's really ironic.

"You don't want to use this method to keep distance from me, and then reject me, right?" Assistant Xiaoqin was quick-witted, aware of Shi Can's intentions and directly pointed it out as a joke, and then came to him disapprovingly, and added: "Let me make it clear that if I don't spend the night here, it doesn't mean that I will spend less time with you.

Two things. "

Pretending to be confused.

Qin Zexi dared to "act" like this because he insisted that Ding Can couldn't bear to hurt him by saying harsh words.

Thinking about this young man's rapid progress, it didn't take long for him to know himself and his enemy, and he didn't look like he was timid when he "gambled" before.

Okay, isn't it Shi Can's usual "problem"?What you sow, you will taste the fruit.

"What if... that's what I mean."

"you are not."

Qin Zexi smiled brightly and charmingly, just like the morning sun warming the harsh winter outside the window, his voice was earnest in his jokes, yet humble in his firmness.

He added lightly, saying, "You can't leave me."

Pa... The simple six words hit Shi Can's heart in an instant.

Qin Zexi didn't give Shi Can a chance to retort, turned around and walked into the room, "I've changed my clothes, I have class this morning."

After taking two steps, Qin Zexi looked back at Shi Can: "By the way, you also have work today.

Our school class, remember. "

Shi Can nodded, the recent work is very little, how could he forget it.

Qin Zexi made an "OK" gesture, raised his eyebrows and asked Shi Can: "Since you may want to distance yourself, how about you go to our school by yourself this morning?" Shi Can said "En", Can.

"Okay, it's a deal."

Before Assistant Xiaoqin was by his side, Shi Can often went and returned alone.

To be precise, he has been alone for most of these years.

Eating alone, staring alone, going to the studio alone, finishing exhausting work alone.

After being alone for a long time, it seems that being unaccompanied becomes a matter of course.

Sometimes, it doesn't even need to be said.

It's easy.

Shi Can watched Qin Zexi go out first, and then heard the sound of the door closing, a little unaccustomed.

He picked up the coffee in front of him, raised his head and drank it down.

The bitterness sweeps across the taste buds along the tip of the tongue, and then rushes from the nose to the root of the tongue, leaving bursts of sourness in the end.

Nothing, just going to work alone.

As before, what can there be.

Shi Can got dressed, packed up his things and went out.

As soon as he walked out of the apartment door, he couldn't help calling Qin Zexi.

Crazy miss the feeling of having Assistant Xiaoqin by your side?Yes and no.

"Thinking" is "thinking", but not the "thinking" of "missing".

"Teacher Shi, what's the matter?" Qin Zexi quickly answered the phone, cleared his throat and said, "I can't bear it so soon, it's better to stay with me."

Shi Can took a deep breath, gritted his teeth and let out a voice from his throat: "Did you drive my car away?" "Yes."

Qin Zexi replied generously, without any sense of shame, "I just went downstairs and found the key with me."

Usually the two go in and out together, Qin Zexi is the exclusive driver on the road, and naturally holds the key.

Not to mention the car keys, he even had the door keys of Shi Can's house in his pocket.

If it wasn't for the combination lock, Shi Can might not even be able to get out of the door today.

"Thinking" is "thinking", it is the "thinking" of "wanting to get angry".

Shi Can raised his voice and asked Qin Zexi, "You found the key on you, why didn't you bring it to me? Who allowed you to drive my car away?" "Then who allowed you to distance yourself from me? You I have your considerations, and I have my actions, why should I send you the car keys."

Qin Zexi was righteous and strong, and he didn't forget to make up the knife after he finished speaking, "You can't drive the car anyway without the key, so I will drive your car away, saving you have to take the subway to school..." Going to work During the period, it is difficult to get a taxi without an appointment in advance.

Qin Zexi doesn't take the subway, so Shi Can can only take the subway.

"Teacher Shi, I'm almost at school, I'm going to hang up.

You hurry to the subway station, or you may be late. "

Shi Can was furious, and after getting on the subway, he received a text message from Qin Zexi: 【Come find me after work.

】After a while, Qin Zexi sent a number, and said: 【You don't have to come, then you can take the subway home.

up to you.

】Shi Can took a lot of school work, and at a glance, he knew that it was the classroom number of the art school. He guessed that it should be the place where Qin Zexi had class in the morning.

Shi Chan has never been there, but it's not hard to find.

He looked at the text message, as if he could see Qin Zexi's smug smile.

I don't want to go back, I really don't want to go back.

Shi Can directly stuffed the phone into his pocket, out of sight and out of mind.

A few seconds later, he took out the phone again. He was so angry that he gritted his teeth and rewarded the other party with a few words: [Gas and travel expenses will be deducted from your salary.

】Qin Zexi replied in seconds: 【Okay, let me invite you to take the subway.

] For several hours in the morning, Shi Can never felt that time passed so slowly.

Today's work is not too hard, it is to act as a structural model for students majoring in sculpture.

To put it bluntly, it is just sitting in a chair without moving.

Shi Can was wearing a white bathrobe, showing half of his collarbone, looking at the ground with a natural expression.

Contrary to his calm demeanor, Shi Can's heart was filled with many emotions.

Why does time pass so slowly?But because of expectations.

Most likely, Assistant Xiaoqin drove the car away and gave Shi Can a high-sounding reason, so that his plan of "distance" was completely ruined from the first day... The tricks of young people are really addictive.

Shi Can finished his work, changed his clothes and packed his things, then walked towards the classroom that Qin Zexi sent to him.

The school's art school is very large, and there are all kinds of studies.

Shi Can walked through the stairs to the door of the classroom, saw that the door was closed, so he stood aside.

If you meet a teacher who is procrastinating, then naturally you can't disturb him.

After waiting for a few minutes, the door opened, and a young girl, not quite a student, came out.

Seeing Shi Can standing very close, the other party asked kindly, "Hi, are you looking for someone?" "Well, I'll wait for Qin Zexi."

The other party reacted, "Assistant Qin?" Shi Can nodded, and then the other party smiled and said, "It will take a while inside, you go in and wait for him."

After the girl finished speaking, she headed towards the bathroom, and followed the door behind her that was still closed, Shi Can looked in.

There are not many people in the classroom, and there is a model sitting on a high stool in the middle, whose appearance cannot be seen.

The model is naked from the upper body, allowing the painters around him to smear paint on their bodies.

The young man holding a paintbrush has enthusiasm for painting and thoughts about creating works in his eyes.

That person looked back at Shi Can when he went out this morning.

In retrospect, he realized later that he must have already made a plan to "steal the car" at that time.

That person, at this moment, only had brushes, paints, and models who were letting him do whatever he wanted.

Shi Can took a deep breath, and suddenly realized why the coffee in the morning had so much stamina?The sour feeling on the base of the tongue and nose breath can't be suppressed.

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