Who says I'm not good at work?

Before Qin Zexi appeared, Shi Can's life was very regular.

He has a regular job every week, neither too much nor too little.

After work, besides staying at home, he goes to the bars he knows for entertainment.

Otherwise, he would go back to eat with his mother, nothing new.

In the past few years, Lan Li said that he was romantic on the surface, but in reality he was monotonous, like a pool of stagnant water.

After Qin Zexi appeared, all the changes in Shi Can's life came from this young man.

He changed Shi Can's work content without authorization, completely disrupting Shi Can's rhythm.

Qin Zexi injected fresh blood into the life state with constant entropy, and Shi Can's heart also had waves.

However, during this process, Shi Can has nothing but constant demands.

The hand strangling the throat in the nightmare is Shi Can's inner demon, and it is also his powerlessness.

He had devoted himself to Lin Yang, so he naturally knew how to treat his lover and how to manage his relationship.

In the hospital, instead of Sui Haihai's words of "paying" to wake up Shican, it is better to say that he can no longer hide it from himself, and can no longer pretend to be inaudible or invisible like an ostrich.

Facing Shi Can, Sui Haihai said a lot about Qin Zexi, for example, he has other residences besides the school dormitory, for example, he occasionally works as an online math teacher... The Qin Zexi in her mouth surprised Shi Can , but also made him feel a little distance.

Obviously, they are all details that can be known by just asking, but Shi Can only found out from other people after getting along for several months.

Qin Zexi didn't take the initiative to tell him, because the young man was caring enough to know that Shi Can didn't care and didn't want to know.

Qin Zexi carefully classified the things related to him, and then carefully selected the ones that Shi Can was interested in, and then presented them in a way that Shi Can was happy with.

Qin Zexi's devotion is like that of Shi Can back then, but it is a pity that Shi Can is not as good as Lin Yang, he can't say the word "live again".

He was exhausted and unable to live again.

He is also unwilling to deceive Qin Zexi, keeping this sincerity is the last dignity.

Qin Zexi asked, why me?Why start with me.

The reason is simple, Shi Can loves him dearly and cannot bear him to continue being wronged emotionally.

This answer is so pretentious and pretentious that Shi Can couldn't even say it.

Countless emotions are not enough to generate the driving force for change, but this "distress" pushes Shi Can forward with full determination.

Qin Zexi asked, "Because I'm the best to get rid of?" The young man had lost his sense of proportion, rampaging like a lion with a wounded head, "I can come and go when I call.

Yeah? ""sorry. "

Thousands of words, Shi Can can only say these three words.

The guilt in his heart was not only for Lin Yang, but also for Qin Zexi. The double pressure made it difficult for him to bear, "Don't be angry, you know that's not what I mean."

"I know."

Qin Zexi despised himself for not living up to expectations, and tears welled up in his eyes.

He quickly wiped it away with the palm of his hand, then smiled and looked at Shi Can and said, "You said it just now, because you didn't want me to treat you alone..." Qin Zexi took a deep breath, clenched his fists and said: "Even if I understand what you think, I can't understand it, let alone agree with it.

Feelings are a matter between two people, I should respect your decision, but I can't be considerate of you, and I can't be grateful for your "self-abuse" like a bitter TV series..." Qin Zexi tried his best to restrain his emotions and anger, but his reason had already On the verge of running away, out of control, "Do you think I can't feel it?You have been hot and cold to me during this time, I know it all.

For several moments just now, I was thinking whether to beg you, just like the previous few times.

I know that will work, but you said this is your change, and I can't bear to let you go back..." "So, I think this is the end," Shi Can looked at Qin Zexi with tears in his eyes. moved, "Sometimes I feel that you are not as mature as you are in your early 20s. "

"No matter how 'good' I am, it's just a passer-by for you."

After Qin Zexi finished speaking, she wiped away her tears again, adjusted her breath and said, "I have a request. In this room, can you give me a painting?" Shi Can nodded, understanding what he meant, "You want to go back "Lust"."

"No."

Qin Zexi raised his finger and pointed to the wall by the window, "I want this half-finished painting discarded by Lin Yang."

Shi Can was stunned on the spot, "Why?"

"Are you reluctant?"

Qin Zexi walked towards the painting without asking Shi Can's permission, "The 'light' on your body has never been removed by him.

From the first time I saw you, the warmth and light have always been there. "

Qin Zexi took the painting down and held it in his hand, looked at it for a while and then said to Shi Can, "Leave me what he doesn't want.

Don't get me wrong, I didn't mean to pick up what was left of him. I think he is blind when it comes to treating you and discarded the most important thing. "

Shi Can didn't stop Qin Zexi from taking that painting away, so he had no qualifications and couldn't say it.

He watched the painting being taken down, he watched it being taken into his hands, he watched it leave the room.

Shi Can followed behind Qin Zexi, watching the young man merge with the painting.

Not a few steps away from the room, Qin Zexi met Lan Li head-on.

The other party saw Shi Can's precious painting in his hand, and Qin Zexi's red eyes, cleared his throat and asked, "Xiao Qin, what's wrong."

"fine."

Qin Zexi had a wry smile on his lips, and then said, "Mr. Lan, the teacher won't have any work for a while, and I want to take a break too."

Lan Li was stunned for a moment, feeling a little sudden, "Is there something you have—" "Let him rest."

, Shi Can, who was following behind, interrupted loudly, looked at Lan Li and said, "As long as it takes."

When Lan Li saw that Can opened his mouth, he shrugged in agreement.

He turned sideways to make way for Qin Zexi, his eyes following the painting.

It wasn't until Qin Zexi walked out of the studio that Lan Li frowned and asked Shi Can: "What happened to you two? Why did you let him take that painting away.

Isn't that your favorite painting in the whole house? Shi Can shook his head, but couldn't say a word when facing his best friend.

The moment Qin Zexi picked up the painting, his heart was full of emotion, and Shi Can only felt that it had found the most suitable home, "I can't give him anything else."

Lan Li noticed the strangeness in Shi Can's voice, and turned to look at him, startled, "Why are you crying all of a sudden?"

Shi Can turned his head and said, "It's okay, I got sand in my eyes."

Ever since Shi Can broke contact with Qin Zexi, the culprit who disturbed his sleep also disappeared.

Without traces of Lin Yang in the dream, Shi Can's sleep quality still hasn't improved.

For several nights in a row, he lay in bed in a daze, unable to fall asleep.

Shi Can's mind was full of details about Qin Zexi, and he accidentally remembered the first time the two met.

Qin Zexi said, from the first time I saw you, warmth and light have always been there.

But Qin Zexi obviously drank that day, how could he remember clearly?Memories rolled, and when Shi Can came back to his senses, he had already put on his coat and came to the door of the original bar.

The bar owner and Shi Can are old acquaintances, and he was very enthusiastic when he saw him coming, "I haven't seen you for a long time."

Shi Can let out a "hmm" and found a familiar seat to sit down.

"What to drink?" The boss was very happy to see Shi Can, and put down what he was doing to serve himself, "I invite you."

"Soda will do."

Shi Can looked around, and suddenly felt that things were different.

The boss poured water for him, and asked with a smile, "See you so depressed? Are you broken in love?"

Shi Can followed his words with a wry smile, and it would be appropriate to describe it as "broken love".

The two chatted for a while, and the boss jokingly said to Shi Can, "I haven't seen you for so long, I thought you were kidnapped by that young man at that time."

Shi Can was taken aback for a moment, and asked, what kind of young man.

"Hey, it's the young man who bumped into you on purpose."

When the boss mentioned this passage, his eyebrows beamed, "I remember that kid, he came every day for a long time.

He keeps peeking at you and almost kicked me out once. "

When the topic came to this point, the boss became interested and insisted on explaining it to Shi Can in detail while holding a glass of wine.

Shi Can is a frequent visitor to the bar. He is beautiful and has an extraordinary temperament, and he often meets people who come forward to strike up a conversation.

The vast majority of these people are based on sight and improvisation.

According to the boss, this young man is different from ordinary apprentices, "I am particularly impressed with him, mainly because he stares at you when he comes.

He also ordered glass after glass of juice, not at all like other young people in their 20s.

Boys of this age can't wait to drink the highest alcohol alcohol, who drinks soft drinks. "

Shi Can thought for a moment, "The day he bumped into me, he smelled of alcohol and was quite drunk."

The boss smiled disdainfully, "Is it pretending? He only ordered one or two glasses of wine at most, how can he get drunk?" Thinking about the few months of getting along, Shi Can occasionally got drunk, but Qin Zexi drank quite moderately .

He has scars on his chest and can't drink too much after heart surgery.

Shi Can thought about it, thinking that when he first met Qin Zexi, he had already shown his extraordinary acting skills.

Not only that, I'm afraid that the "first meeting" in Qin Zexi's mouth is earlier than the encounter that day, "Then do you remember when he started to take aim at me?"

"You're embarrassing me. I can't remember the exact time. It happened a few months ago."

The boss thought about it carefully, then frowned and said, "By the way, do you still remember that you were accosted by two street casualties at my place before? It was the time that almost hurt you."

Shi Can remembered that it was probably some time before meeting Qin Zexi.

That day, Shi Chan came to the bar after work and drank several glasses of wine by himself with his head down, getting drunk.

When leaving, Shi Can was stopped by two gangsters.

The other party was not kind, and his arrogance was even more unpleasant.

Shi Can didn't want to talk to him, but the other party pushed and fought.

During the back and forth, Shi Can bumped into the bar table and almost sprained his wrist.

Seeing this, the boss quickly intervened, protecting Shi Can and letting him leave first.

"After you left, those two people also packed up their things and prepared to leave, apparently planning to chase you.

The door is a guest, greeted and sent, I open the door to do business, and I can't control their coming and going. "

The boss was a little ashamed when he said this, and then said: "I wanted to call you to inform you, but who knew that young man got up and blocked the way of the two gangsters.

He deliberately found fault, started a dispute with the other party, and then said that buying wine to compensate was not to let the other party have fun.

The two pieces are not good, and I waved my fists and thought that this young man was troublesome... I felt that he wanted to help you, but I didn't know him, so I yelled at him for 'looking for trouble in my territory'.

Not only that, but I almost kicked him out.

After mixing in this way, the two gangsters didn't say anything more. "

Shi Can remained silent, not knowing how to respond after listening.

Shi Chan was in a bad mood that day, and sat on the bench for a long time after leaving the bar.

During the period, a little girl ran up to him, shaking the rose in her hand, and asked if it looked good.

This was originally Shi Can's memory alone, but he never thought that he would be closely connected with Qin Zexi today.

Seeing that Shi Can was thoughtful, the bar owner quickly returned to the subject, "The topic is getting too far, I just want to say that he often came to see you before that day."

The boss said so much, and by the way, he wentssip, "He must have done it on purpose the day he bumped into you. When I saw it, I thought, this kid finally made a move... How did you two feel after that? Did you make any progress?"

"Later," Shi Can repeated lightly, and then replied coldly, "Later, there was nothing, I left the bar... and we just broke up."

The boss let out an "Ah", his eyes were filled with disappointment, "It's gone?" "Yeah."

Shi Can looked away, "Give me a drink."

Living in a daze these days, Shi Can didn't realize the so-called "lost".

Until I inadvertently listened to the story told by the boss, my heart was suddenly filled with sadness.

Emotions surged into his throat and drilled into his breath.

Like drowning, like suffocation.

It turned out that Qin Zexi made such a big hole in his heart.

He's gone, and it's wide open.

It hurts, so painful that I forget the feeling of pain.