Who says I'm not good at work?

Some time after Sui Haihai committed suicide, Qin Zexi seemed to be a different person.

He didn't cry anymore, he was surprisingly quiet, always saying "it's okay".

Shi Can was very worried about him, and even imagined dozens of stress reactions, fearing that if he said something wrong without thinking carefully, it would arouse his negative emotions.

"You don't have to be careful.

I'm really fine. "

Qin Zexi tidied up the things on the table and prepared to officially leave Lanli's studio.

The part-time job ended as hastily as it began.

Shi Can completed most of the shots of the documentary, and the rest is waiting for Apple to complete the initial cuts to see if there is any content that needs to be re-shot.

"I've had nothing to do recently."

Shi Can heard that today is Qin Zexi's last visit to the studio, so he hurried over from home, "What about you?"

"A lot of school courses were left behind some time ago, and I have to earn credits recently."

Qin Zexi picked up the group photo on the table, which was taken during the team building last time.

At the beginning, Lan Li prepared this table for him, mainly to put some contracts and sundries.

Qin Zexi is a part-time assistant and doesn't need much space, so there are few things, and she packed them up in a while, "I'm leaving, and I said goodbye to others just now."

Shi Can let out a "hmm", and walked involuntarily, and followed Qin Zexi to the gate.

After walking a few steps, Qin Zexi turned around and met Shi Can's eyes.

He said, "By the way, I have thought about it carefully, and I think you are right, we should forget it."

"what."

Shi Can was stunned, and it took him a long time to find his voice, "Why...you said this all of a sudden."

Regarding the relationship between the two, Qin Zexi has always been the "aggressive" side.

After Sui Haihai's accident, this topic was shelved.

Qin Zexi needs time to digest the pain and adjust himself.

But Shi Can can feel that with the passage of time, there have been subtle changes between the two——

Qin Zexi deliberately distanced herself.

He gradually reduced his contact with Shi Can, and he didn't even have a phone call these days.

When Shi Can called him, he could get through occasionally, but most of the time no one answered.

If Lan Li hadn't informed Shi Can, he wouldn't even have known that Qin Zexi had terminated his assistant contract.

"You have a good rest recently, don't think about these things."

Shi Can grabbed Qin Zexi's arm and said with a little force, "We'll talk about these things later."

Qin Zexi shook his head and pushed his slender fingers away, "From now on, I will not bother you again."

He spoke calmly, obviously after careful consideration, not on a whim, "That's it, nothing else."

Qin Zexi's tone was very regular, neither performing tea skills nor playing hard to get.

In a word, I want to break up with you.

Shi Can's heart thumped, as if he was stabbed by something, and then a hole was torn open, and he was defeated in an instant, all emotions were vented and leaked.

Pain, indescribable, excruciating pain.

Shi Can reached out to Qin Zexi subconsciously, "You are irrational."

Qin Zexi made up his mind, "Why, are you reluctant to leave me alone now?"

"I, we..."

Qin Zexi didn't wait for him to come up with a response, and said resolutely: "Actually, the word 'forget' is not used accurately, it never started, so forget it.

You and me, never us. "

Shi Can didn't know what else to say, the pain in his chest seemed to crush him, "What's the reason? There should always be a reason for your decision."

"There are so many reasons."

Qin Zexi looked away, swallowed and said, "Just pretend that I've been chasing you for too long, I'm tired, and I don't want to continue.

Or, I like someone else. "

Shi Can suddenly remembered that Qin Zexi once said, you are not afraid that one day I will completely ignore you.

You are not afraid, I decided to try to get along with other people.

A word became a prophecy, but it became an excuse now.

"I do not believe."

Of course Shi Can didn't believe it, how could he believe it.

The dialogue is still going on, obviously exceeding the length and length that Qin Zexi imagined.

He took a deep breath, raised his voice and asked Shi Can: "Why, do you think that as long as you like you, it must be a lifetime thing? I'm bored, tired, isn't it normal.

Don't be so self righteous, people change. "

Shi Can frowned, "I didn't mean that."

Qin Zexi sighed softly, took a step back and widened the distance between the two, "To you, I'm just a suitor who came out of nowhere, because you bought a painting of your ex-boyfriend before you passed away, so you looked at me more A few glances.

To me, you are a symbol of adolescence, a symbol that I can also have the desire to survive when I am trapped in the hospital.

After all, we have nothing special about each other, and there is no reason to be obsessed. "

The words have come to this point, Shi Can should give the last respect, but he did not give up, and grabbed Qin Zexi's arm again, "Why?"

"I go first."

Qin Zexi pushed his hand away forcefully, turned his head and didn't miss it anymore.

Seeing Qin Zexi walk out of the gate, Shi Can stood there not knowing what to do.

"You... what's wrong with you."

At some point, Lan Li came to Shi Can's side, "Why..." While talking, Lan Li took a tissue and stuffed it into Shi Can's hand, "Is that brat bullying you? Wait, I—— "

"No."

Shi Can took a deep breath, not letting more tears flow down his cheeks.

He turned to look at Lan Li, "How else can he bully me."

Lan Li couldn't understand the situation in front of him, but he couldn't stop him from feeling sorry for Shi Can, "What's the matter with you two, it was like this last time, and it's still like this this time.

You said that you finally met someone you like, why are you still depressed, can you have a good relationship like a normal person. "

Shi Can was silent for a long time, before uttering a few words, "He said it's fine."

"Ah? Didn't you two reconcile? Some time ago your mother was hospitalized, and my aunt told me that Xiao Qin went to see her—"

Before Lan Li could finish speaking, Shi Can closed his eyes and turned around, not wanting to listen any more.

He clenched his fists and gritted his teeth, so distressed that he couldn't speak.

Shi Can adjusted for a moment and went home. After entering the house, his eyes fell on the boxes at the door.

It contained Qin Zexi's things.

Ever since Shi Can said "Forget it", these boxes have been packed out and piled up in one place without being touched.

Dust fell, and the corners of the adhesive tape were also warped.

Shi Can walked around the box a few times, turned around and opened the door, thinking about throwing everything out.

Everything related to Qin Zexi was thrown away.

He picked up the top cardboard box, and suddenly heard the sound of shaking inside.

This box should contain all kinds of brushes and stationery, as well as Qin Zexi's half-used sketchbook.

All of them are painted by Shi Chan.

Moving outside the door, Shi Can was stunned for a long time.

After a second thought, he carried the box into the door and quickly tore off all the tape.

Shi Can sat on the floor, flipping through the sketches left by Qin Zexi page by page.

They are sorted by time, and there are a few words written in the first one that catches the eye - subtle life*.

The sketchbook depicts the Shi Can Qin Zexi saw. His eyes are romantic and extraordinarily romantic, and the Shi Can he draws is dazzling.

Qin Zexi once said: The character and emotion of the painter can be seen through the brush strokes.

Shi Can didn't see Lin Yang's reserved inner voice back then, but now he sees Qin Zexi's spirit clearly.

Every stroke is a compliment to life and an expectation for love.

It was a deep and deep love that has been kept in my heart since I was a teenager, and has experienced the fermentation of time.

Shi Chan took a deep breath——

Things that cannot be thrown away.

People, don't count.

Seeking benevolence and deserving benevolence, isn't it good?

From now on, there will be no contact with each other, and the Yangguan Road and the single-plank bridge will have nothing to do with each other.

However, all the opposite thoughts popped up in Shi Can's mind.

Intense, impulsive, reckless.

Qin Zexi was hit by Sui Haihai's suicide, saying the word "forget it" must be a dead end.

Shi Can was worried about him, and his obsessions were all about what he was thinking, why he did this, and whether he would do something stupid.

In an instant, Shi Can's heart twisted together again, and it was so painful that it was difficult to breathe.

But in the scars, there was also a shocking anger.

Very subtle, but very long-lasting, very persistent.

In addition to affection and lingering, Shi Can wants to seek more from Qin Zexi, the most notable of which is trust and dependence.

Qin Zexi must have felt this way when Shi Can himself said "forget it".

The degree is heavier than him, and the anger is worse than him.

Putting yourself in the shoes, you will know how painful the hurt was.

Times have changed, Shi Can can only bear the word "should".

Deserve it.

He took out his phone and dialed Qin Zexi's number without hesitation.

beep...beep...beep...

No one heard.

Shi Can's room is full of traces and smells of Qin Zexi, and it still can't fade away even now a few months later.

For a long time, Shi Can had the illusion that Qin Zexi was omnipotent and omnipresent.

But until this moment, Qin Zexi disappeared completely——

No one answered the phone; the lights in the apartment were always dark; when I went to school, I couldn't meet Qin Zexi's class.

If it weren't for the weekly live broadcast classes at a fixed time, Shi Can really doubted whether he had ever appeared.

"You can't find him yet."

Shi Can rubbed his temples, sighed to Lan Li on the other end of the phone, and said, "I can now imagine how much effort he spent in order to 'chance encounter' with me without leaving any traces."

After exhausting all available methods, Shi Can was at the end of his rope and was forced into a dead end.

He couldn't look back and give up, but he couldn't see a way out.

"Okay, I'll save you."

Lan Li said that several well-known studios in the circle will jointly organize activities, including Tidal.

Lan Li's models have cooperated with several studios, so they were also invited, "I think Qin Zexi will definitely go."

"Where is the exact location.

what activity. "

"On the mountain where our team built last time.

Celebrate the smooth operation of the newly opened Modern Art Museum. "

"Understood, then you send me the time.

Thank you. "

Lan Li let out a "huh" and said in silence for a moment, "I never thought that in this life, I could see you being so caring about someone."

Before this step, Shi Can could not have imagined.

Holding the invitation, Shi Can stood at the gate of the Art Museum.

He is slender and has a delicate and attractive appearance, and he has attracted countless eyes when he walks in the crowd.

The last time I came here was the trial operation stage when the wires were short-circuited, but at this time it was already on track and a bustling scene.

Shi Can entered the hall along the corridor, his eyes always searching the crowd.

Not far away, Shi Can saw Qin Zexi.

He has always been his assistant, and he knew that he was dazzling, but he never thought that he would be so brilliant.

Qin Zexi's casual suit is custom-made, from tailoring to fabric, it gives him the aura of an absolute protagonist.

The slightly raised hair falls behind the ears, full of artistry.

When Shi Can looked at him, he felt the longing and worry overflowing from his heart.

He stepped towards Qin Zexi, becoming more determined.

Xu Shican's eyes were too hot, Qin Zexi subconsciously turned around, and the two immediately looked at each other.

One side dodges in surprise, while the other side pursues them head-on.

The confrontation between the two seems to have been scripted from the beginning.

It's just that Can kept dodging in the past, but at this time the two changed positions.

"Can we talk?"

Shi Can grabbed Qin Zexi's wrist to prevent him from escaping.

Qin Zexi didn't expect to meet Shi Can, his eyes had nowhere to rest, his body tensed up suddenly, "Why did you come here?"

"Because I couldn't find you.

I want to talk to you, can I. "

The two were surrounded by a lot of big names in the art circle, and it was hard for Qin Zexi to refuse clearly, "Sorry, we have a speech session soon."

After finishing speaking, Qin Zexi smiled politely, turned around in a panic, and took out his mobile phone.

A few minutes later, the speech session officially began.

As the person in charge of the entire modern architecture project, Qin Zexi took the lead to speak on stage.

He started with a brief joke, and then introduced the prospect and vision of the entire project in a simple way, summarizing the difficulties and hardships experienced in the past few years since the establishment of the project.

In addition to revenue from art exhibitions, the Modern Art Museum is also committed to providing opportunities for young students and contributing to children's art education.

Some media in the audience asked, "Why do you emphasize the popularization of art education for children?"

Qin Zexi said that art enriches the spiritual world, and perhaps a painting or a work of art can change a child's life.

The questioning session ended, followed by speeches by several co-investors.

The speech ceremony lasted for more than an hour, followed by various tailoring and investment commendation sessions, and finally entered the reception.

Shi Can wandered around the hall twice and drank three glasses of red wine.

He averted his gaze from looking at Qin Zexi and the reception partner next to Qin Zexi.

At some point, there was another person beside Qin Zexi, whose face was a little familiar, maybe some [-]th-line starlet, who smiled like a delicate daffodil.

The first round was for polite greetings, and the second round was for fortification negotiations.

Shi Can didn't want to disturb Qin Zexi's work, so he always waited not far from him.

Like being invisible, the sense of presence is extremely strong.

"Can I speak?"

Shi Can finally found the opportunity before the dinner. He walked up to Qin Zexi, looked into his eyes, "I have something I want to ask you."

Qin Zexi couldn't ignore Shi Can's existence, so he simply took a deep breath and introduced the people around him, "This is me..."

Who is it, what are they doing here, and why are they standing beside Qin Zexi?Shi Can didn't want to be distracted by everything about Narcissus, even his name, "I just want to know what's wrong with you.

No matter what you think, you can tell me straight.

If you really don't want to speak, then I have something to tell you. "

"Why are you so persistent?" Qin Zexi and Shi Can looked at each other, with a thousand emotions in their eyes, some rising, some perilous, and some enduring confusion, not to mention the pain, "I don't understand. , we used to face each other day and night, and had so many opportunities to talk endlessly.

But so what, in the end we said 'forget it' to each other.

Why do you have to talk to me now?What can be changed? "

"Because I'm worried about you."

"Worried about me? I'm fine."

After finishing speaking, Qin Zexi suddenly reached out to the host Narcissus' shoulders and pulled him into his arms, "There is nothing to worry about."

Narcissus was startled, and stood between the two quarreling in a daze, not daring to move.

Shi Can took a deep breath, clenched his teeth and clenched his fist, "Then tell me what you're thinking."

"What does it have to do with you."

Qin Zexi was forced into a corner, unable to withstand Shi Can's repeated strong attacks.

He lightly licked his lips, and had no choice but to resort to the last weapon, "You keep saying that you can't pay for me, so why should I tell you what I think.

You can't do anything for me, not even let me get along with other people in peace. "

As soon as this statement comes out, it must have an excellent effect.

Qin Zexi hurt others and himself, using Shi Can's words as a sword and his words as a shield.

The words "unable to give" are Shi Can's most unspeakable humbleness in the face of this relationship, it is his honesty that he does not hesitate to open up the pain, and it is a minefield that will blow the two of them to pieces as long as they touch it.

"Is there nothing else to say?"

Qin Zexi smiled, even a little disappointed, "I thought you would argue, but it's different now."

"..."

"If you have nothing to say, go back quickly."

Qin Zexi indicated with his eyes that it was getting dark.

Shi Chan stood still, with tears in his eyes.

Suddenly, a tear slid down her fair and delicate skin.

Like a pearl, it is so beautiful.

"Then I say 'different' now, okay?"