Who says I'm not good at work?

Edited a bit, it is a few sentences from Xiao Qin's reading of "Jane Eyre".

You and me, forget it*.

A few months ago, Shi Can said these six words to Qin Zexi.

Biting, brutal.

However, this is not the first time Shi Can has spoken like this.

He said the same thing a few years ago.

The relationship between Shi Can and Lin Yang started with paintings, and a pair of "Seamas" established the beginning between the two.

During this love, Shi Can changed for Lin Yang. He obeyed the other party's request, obeyed the other party's preferences, obeyed the other party's habits, and lived the way the other party wanted.

It is understandable to be willing to fight and suffer.

However, the relationship between couples is not as good as art, and the inspiration will be exhausted and repeated one day.

As Lin Yang became more paranoid and depressed, his artistic creation also entered a bottleneck.

Countless copies of half-finished products were torn apart by him, just like those things he did to the lives of the two of them.

The house leak happens to be rainy.

The two were in a low-pressure situation, and Shi Chan's mother accidentally discovered his sexuality, and then saw a nude portrait.

Immediately, the protracted tug-of-war began.

Shi Can was attacked from the front and back, and his condition became worse and worse.

In the body, those things that Lin Yang put into the "prison" kept wailing, and once formed a tendency to be destroyed.

Shi Can gritted his teeth, thinking that what he did was not good enough, otherwise why couldn't he help Lin Yang get out of the predicament of creation.

Sorry, I'm not good enough.

I'm sorry if the matter about my mother disturbed your creative mood.

"none of your business."

Lin Yang put his arms around Shi Can and whispered in his ear over and over again.

He helped Shican tidy his hair and wrapped him in pajamas, "I'm sorry, I made you like this but I can't do more for you."

"You don't have to pay me anything."

Shi Can's only thought and idea is to protect Lin Yang's creation.

It was the only paradise left in their barren and miserable lives, and it could no longer be lost.

The situation didn't get better because of Shi Can's reluctance to ask for anything in return, and it was even difficult for Lin Yang to complete any works.

Not only the portraits named after "Ding Yi", but even the scenery that was originally satisfactory can hardly satisfy him anymore.

Lin Yang is trapped in his own world, always staring at the canvas in a daze, talking to himself, what is missing is fresh inspiration.

"Or... you and me, forget it."

Shi Can gave up everything and didn't know what else to do for Lin Yang, "If you don't have me, you can find new creative inspiration."

Hearing Shi Can's words, Lin Yang woke up suddenly, "What did you say.

Xiaocan, everything is not your fault. "

Perhaps Shi Can's "Forget it" resounded through his heart, or perhaps facing the loss was too deep, Lin Yang finally realized that the "disaster" he brought had overwhelmed Shi Can.

The party who has been giving in the relationship can hardly continue to persist, and what is about to usher is either change or death.

Lin Yang went on a trip with a strong sense of ritual.

Alone, he drove through several provinces and cities.

"You wait for me to come back."

Lin Yang kissed Shi Can's lips before leaving, and then took him into his arms, "Wait for me."

Lin Yang walked for several days, and Shi Can followed his instructions.

and so on.

Finally, the phone rang.

Caller ID - Lin Yang.

On the phone, Lin Yang said that he would be back soon.

Shi Can waited for a long time, but finally he was happy in his heart, "What do you want to eat, I will prepare it for you.

Or want to take a hot shower?I will help you put water. "

Lin Yang raised his voice on the other end of the phone, very excited, and it didn't sound like before, "...I want to go to the playground with you, go on a trip, go on a date, go to enjoy life, and go places we wouldn't go with you .”

Lin Yang made a promise to build a completely different future for Shi Can.

"What's wrong with you?" Shi Can interrupted him, and then asked, "What about your creations? These are completely different from the creations you want, and completely different from your life."

"What about you, what do you want?"

Lin Yang asked back, and then said: "During this time, I went to watch the sunrise and sunset, and to see the forest and lake.

I want to find new creative inspiration, but all I can think of is you. "

Lin Yang said, all I can think of are the details of life.

It's not my life, it's ours.

I originally thought that creation was the most important thing in life, supporting my life.

But in fact, the cart before the horse, life supports creation.

And you support life.

Lin Yang said that what is imposed on you makes you unhappy, makes you unbearable, and pushes our life to a dead end.

I am willing to give up the past for you. I used to think that I was barren and desolate, and it was difficult to pay for you, but in fact, you have already put a seed in my heart.

Xiaocan, I looked through all the paintings with you as a model, and my thoughts finally fell on "Seamas".

It's not the published part, it's the other half, the original you that was abandoned by me.

That is the seed.

"I used to be blind.

From now on, you can have scars on your body, and I won't ask you so harshly.

As long as it is you, it is beautiful.

I want you to smile in the painting and beside me..."

"Xiao Can, you have worked hard these past few years.

In the future, you just need to follow your own mind.

Everything you bring to me nourishes the seed in my heart.

Xiaocan, you are my inspiration, I am willing to live anew for you..."

After a few years, Shi Can feels strange to his past self.

Time did not take away the pain, but allowed him to reconcile with part of himself.

He is no longer obsessed with the part that was killed by Lin Yang, and has transformed into an ice beauty who blends contradictions and self-harmony.

Regarding the word "seed", Shi Can still couldn't imagine what kind of inner change it was.

Until, between Shi Can and Qin Zexi, the word "forget it" also appeared.

What does it feel like to be hard to give?Everywhere you look is barren, and the thirsty soil is scorching the soles of your feet. Every step forward exhausts all your strength and is unbearable.

Shi Can fell to the ground and said "forget it" heart-piercingly.

Immediately, he bowed his head and wept silently.

Tears drilled down the cracks in the soil and disappeared in a flash.

When Shi Can concentrated his attention and looked carefully, he suddenly found something at the root of a tree that was covered in bruises and scorched black.

It is called, the subtle life**.

Thousands of sails were exhausted, and Shi Can broke out of the cocoon when his body was wounded.

Cut the throat with a sharp blade, nourish it with flesh and blood, and live again with this tiny life.

Shi Chan has also experienced the transformation that was once unimaginable.

"Seamas" is Lin Yang's seed.

"Small Life" is Shi Chan's.

That day when he sat on the floor and looked at the painting left by Qin Zexi, his heart suddenly opened up.

Shi Can felt the urge to rush towards Qin Zexi.

He also felt relief, the relief of breaking the shackles and saying goodbye to the past frankly.

"You keep saying that you can't pay for me, so why should I tell you what I think?"

Qin Zexi's questioning was just right, falling on Shi Can's most sensitive and gentle place——

It used to be full of thorns and hazels, with ruins and ruins, but now it is lush and full of vitality.

Qin Zexi looked disappointed, "If you have nothing to say, go back quickly."

Shi Can's tears rolled down his fair and delicate skin, and he said slowly, "Then I say 'different' now, is that okay?"

The scene was deadlocked, and Qin Zexi was stunned for a long time before speaking, "What did you... say?"

Shi Can took a step closer to him, raised his head slightly and looked straight into his eyes, "I can pay for you.

I can. "

Standing in the corner of the hall and talking very eye-catchingly, it attracted the attention of many guests.

Seeing this, Qin Zexi's assistant walked up to him and said, "Boss Qin, the VIP reception room next to it is empty, you and our guests can go in and talk."

"What changed you."

Qin Zexi was immersed in the conversation with Shi Can, and had no time to pay attention to what the assistant said.

Shi Can took a deep breath, and said to Qin Zexi generously in front of others, "Because of 'love', because I love you, giving for you is what makes me happy.

Because I love you, all the guilt and entanglements in my heart have disappeared and are not worth mentioning. "

Thousands of words, too many thoughts are hard to describe, but the words that can be said are very simple.

The word "love" is enough to cover them all.

Shi Can loved Lin Yang and was willing to sacrifice himself.

Lin Yang loves Shi Can and refuses to let go of the past.

Qin Zexi loves Shi Can, and the traces are like a sky full of stars, which cannot be counted.

"I love you as much as you love me."

Shi Can smiled at Qin Zexi with unprecedented ease.

To like is to keep asking, but to love is to give everything.

Shi Can ranked "like" at the end of all emotions, but he didn't dare to neglect "love" in any way, "I'm not right, you love me deeper and more.

But in the future, I want to spend all my time loving you. "

Breaking out of a cocoon and becoming a butterfly, love is the source of nourishing the heart.

Qin Zexi never said "love" to Shi Can, but he wrote it in his demeanor, engraved on his eyebrows and eyes.

Therefore, Shi Can must speak out before him, express his determination to him, and show his attitude towards him.

Shi Can lowered his head and took out a painting from his pocket - "Tiny Life".

Folded neatly, Shi Can has been wearing it on his body these days, and he can't put it down, "It is me."

Qin Zexi opened his mouth slightly, and asked after a moment of silence, "Where is "Seamas"?"

"That was me before, in the past.

It is me now, the me who loves you. "

Shi Can seems to be addicted, repeating the word "love" over and over again.

I don't know what it feels like to hear it in Qin Zexi's ears, but when he said it, Shi Can's internal organs were soaked in warmth.

Happiness, sweetness, soul-stirring.

Expressing love to Qin Zexi is Shi Can's self-reconciliation and the first step in "living again" for him, "I'm sorry, you put it in front of me when we first met, but it took me so long time to find it."

"..." Qin Zexi was shocked and aphasic, his eyes were full of anxiety and joy, doubt and joy.

Shi Can looked at the "Tiny Life" in his hand, and said to Qin Zexi in a low voice: "It's so beautiful.

The strokes are all about your kindness to me, and the painting is all about you.

The romantic you, the lovely you, the one who read the novel to me that day. "

Qin Zexi swallowed, and there was some grievance in his voice, "I didn't think you liked this painting so much before."

"I change."

Shi Can smiled, and said: "The me in the past was blind.

From now on, I will keep all your paintings carefully.

As long as it's about you, I won't miss it.

I want to know whether you are happy or not.

Between you and me, it can't be forgotten. "

"..."

"Qin Zexi, it's hard work for you to love me alone for so long.

In the future, if I treat you well, you don't have to tell me what you think, and you can turn around and leave without an explanation.

None of this matters.

But you remember, I will always chase you to ask why, and I will wait for you to speak.

If you're tired, tired, and don't want to be emotionally invested in me anymore.

That……"

"so what?"

"How else.

I chase you. "

A couple's confession is romance, warmth, and an eternal moment between time and space.

But the moment is the wrong time and place, not to mention that the assistant and Narcissus are still standing beside them.

"Qin...President Qin," the assistant raised his voice, fearing that the conversation would attract more people to watch, "Let's go into the room and talk."

"Yes," Qin Zexi recovered, and nodded in panic.

Furthermore, he stretched out his hand and lightly grabbed Shi Can's sleeve, and pulled it slightly, and he didn't see the resolute appearance just now, "Let's... go to the reception room over there, is that okay?"

Shi Can put the painting in his pocket, nodded and said, "OK."

The assistant took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

problem solved.

Narcissus, who was standing by the side, was also much more relaxed, and quickly found an excuse to leave the private space for the two of them: "I'll go to the bathroom."

Turning around to go to the bathroom, Narcissus couldn't help but think, today's job is too difficult.

He is a small star in the [-]th line of the entertainment industry, and he participated in the audition for the advertisement of the Museum of Modern Art through his relationship.

He failed the audition, but received a phone call unexpectedly today: the other party invited him to attend the opening ceremony, as a foil for the young owner of the art museum.

The job is very urgent, I will leave immediately, and I have to arrive in two hours.

It is not uncommon for entrepreneurs to attend events and look for starlets in the entertainment industry as a foil.

The price was reasonable, and Narcissus readily accepted it, packed up his things and came.

At first, I thought it was just a joke show, but I didn't expect to be involved in the drama of separation and reunion of couples.

Not only that, but also inexplicably used as a shield.

Just kidding, this is another price!

Forget it.

One is young and handsome, and the other is gorgeous and charming. It is also a kind of enjoyment to watch them talk to each other.

Narcissus came out of the bathroom, and then lingered outside the VIP reception room for a few minutes.

He didn't dare to go far, afraid that the young master would not find him when he came out, and blamed him for having no professional ethics and only taking money for nothing.

Near dinner time, the assistant reappeared and headed straight for the reception room.

There will be a lucky draw at the dinner party, so Qin Zexi, the host, needs to prepare in advance.

Seeing that the time was almost up, the assistant knocked on the door, pushed it open and walked in anxiously, "Boss Qin, we have time..."

Narcissus followed the assistant and looked in through the opened door.

Snapped.

I saw the gorgeous and moving one slapped Mr. Shao directly on the cheek.

The assistant was shocked in place, and Narcissus didn't know how to react——

How could the gentle and timeless beauty still make a move?If it was really misunderstood, wouldn't the slap be likely to land on Narcissus' face.

This job is too dangerous!It can't be disfigured...