Who says I'm not good at work?

Let's... go to the reception room over there, shall we?

Qin Zexi opened his mouth, can Shi Can speak up?

The assistant and Narcissus winked and stopped at the door to leave their private space.

Shi Chan expressed his thanks and nodded.

After closing the door, Qin Zexi suddenly remembered the action with Narcissus just now, and quickly explained to Shican: "Well, he just—"

Before he finished speaking, Shi Can interrupted: "I know, he has nothing to do with you."

Eyes can't deceive anyone, no matter how close Narcissus is to Qin Zexi, they are all far away, alienated, and unfamiliar.

They have no affection for each other, so naturally they have nothing to do with each other.

However, there was no one around at first, but one suddenly appeared every few hours. As usual, Shi Can still wanted to ask, "You saw me coming, did you find someone specifically?"

"No... no."

Qin Zexi cleared her throat, avoiding her eyes in embarrassment.

He walked to the table and poured himself a glass of water, trying to regain the momentum he had just lost, "You come to me, what else do you want to say."

"It's nothing, I just say I love you. I have repeated it several times just now."

Shi Can didn't dodge or dodge, followed Qin Zexi's footsteps to come to him, "Pour me a glass of wine."

The sound of "love" was so deafening that it reverberated in Qin Zexi's body, and even the finger that poured the wine trembled, "Say it again."

Shi Can took the glass, raised his head and drank it down, followed Qin Zexi to prevent him from escaping, "Use your game rules, if you want to hear it, yes, let me explain what's wrong with you first.

I've called you so many times these days, and I've been to your apartment—"

"Seventeen days.

You made a total of 231 calls, an average of 13.6 calls per day, distributed between 8:2 am and [-]:[-] am.

Sleeping only six hours is not good for your health. "

Shi Can looked at him and muttered, "I don't know who did it."

Qin Zexi poured wine for Shi Can again, "I haven't gone back to the apartment recently, but the camera at the door captured you going there a total of six times.

I check the video every day, afraid that you will go again, and even more afraid that you will not go.

And the phone, each one makes me worry about the last. "

"Why are you avoiding me?"

Shi Can raised his voice, feeling sorry for him and angry at the same time, "Why did you completely disappear from my world, you can always tell me now."

After a long time, Qin Zexi sighed, and said in a self-deprecating tone: "Because... I am afraid of death."

"Love", tender and sweet, finally pried Qin Zexi's mouth open, "Do you think that the answer 'fear of death' is perfunctory, it may be completely different from what you imagined, and it even seems to be lying to you. "

Shi Can shook his head, knowing that this was the truth.

Even if he has experienced the death of his lover, even if he has faced death up close, Shi Can's understanding of this word is definitely different from Qin Zexi's.

"For most people, 'death' is a state, an outcome.

But for me, death is an 'enemy' that has existed for as long as I can remember, and I have to fight against him at all times.

Of course, death is also my closest 'friend', and the first thing I've learned in this life is to get along with it. "

Shi Can remained silent, suddenly feeling that he was about to touch Qin Zexi at a deeper level.

Different from the usual optimism and romance, Qin Zexi is surrounded by heaviness and fragility, and every word makes people feel distressed.

Shi Can has never seen him like this, and he is even more lovable and hard to love than usual.

"When I was young, I was gloomy and pessimistic, and I often had thoughts of suicide."

At the same time as she spoke, Qin Zexi loosened her tie, and then pulled hard to reveal the scar on her chest, and the buttons of her shirt fell to the ground one by one, "I was very lucky to have a heart replacement when I had the opportunity.

After the operation, I left the hospital, but the fear of death in me did not disappear.

After you know you are in good health, why did I choose to see you in a bar instead of getting to know you in the first place?Because I need to take medicine for a long time, and my life span may be limited.

If I'm lucky, I'll have the chance to grow old with someone in decades, but if I'm not lucky, I'll leave early in ten or twenty years. "

Shi Can poured all the strong liquid in the wine glass down his throat again.

Then, he took a deep breath and approached Qin Zexi.

Shi Can grabbed his hand first, and then swept across the hideous scar with his fingertips.

"My only thought at the time was to see you up close.

Watching you can make me forget that I ever had surgery, that my life may have a time limit, that sooner or later I will be back in the hospital again. "

Speaking of this, Qin Zexi choked up a little, "Princess Sui said that I must get to know you, she called me a coward, a coward, and called me worse than when I was a child."

Qin Zexi imitated Sui Haihai's tone, "I used to dare to leave the hospital to commit suicide, but when I recovered, I didn't dare to do anything."

Qin Zexi thought that Sui Haihai didn't understand his concerns, so he struggled to explain and express his concerns.

Who knows, Sui Haihai interrupted him: "So what, everyone will die eventually, don't they live?

We are all going to die eventually, should we give up treatment and give up on ourselves. "

Qin Zexi thought that Shi Chan was not doing well, so she was about to make a move.

He asked Sui Haihai, "What if I go to the hospital again after a few years, then I will..."

Sui Haihai nodded, with a lost expression, "Just like me, we can only wait for the condition to worsen."

"That was not what I meant."

Sui Haihai smiled, and then cheered up quickly, "The worst thing is, you just go back to the previous state, so what? If he loves you, he can be your pillar.

If he doesn't love you, then you still have me.

When the time comes, I will still be by your side, scolding and beating you when you are cornered. "

"But it's not fair to him."

Sui Haihai patted Qin Zexi on the shoulder, jokingly said: "Don't be self-righteous, although you are very good, don't talk like he will definitely fall in love with you.

I think there is a high probability that he won't like you at all, and you won't be sad because you have to go back to the hospital, but you will be frustrated because of your broken relationship. "

"My optimism and cheerfulness are mostly learned from her.

I still remember her always saying, 'I will never give up'.

Her expression, the light in her eyes. "

Qin Zexi's eyes were red, and her voice was a little choked up, "She committed suicide in the end, I really can't figure it out, I don't even believe it."

Shi Can brushed Qin Zexi's eyes with his palm to prevent his tears from falling, "I can imagine that her accident will hit you hard."

"You don't understand, this is not just a blow."

Qin Zexi took Shi Can's hand, put it on his lips and kept kissing, "From the moment the bar bumped into you.

No, since I planned to meet you by coincidence, my mentality of looking forward and backward has never changed.

When I'm with you, I often forget the things that scare me.

Every time I think about it, I will repeat Sui Haihai's words over and over again, I will never give up. "

In a sense, Sui Haihai dispelled Qin Zexi's pessimism.

One body with two sides, her existence made Qin Zexi a better version of herself in front of Shi Can.

"After the princess committed suicide, I was immersed in negative emotions every day, and all those things in my heart came out.

Sui Haihai gave up, why should I persist. "

Qin Zexi looked into Shi Can's eyes and said word by word: "Shi Can, you said before that you couldn't pay for me.

In fact, I don't care, and I never thought about asking you to do anything for me.

You have experienced heartache, I am afraid that you will be close to death again, and I am afraid that everything related to death will hurt you again. "

"So you suddenly said 'forget it' to me, planning to disappear completely."

Qin Zexi nodded, "I can feel that you are happier than before and in better condition.

I think you don't like me that much anyway, so it's very appropriate for me to leave you at this time. "

Qin Zexi fell into an emotional state, he only had Shi Can in his eyes, and he didn't hear the knock on the door not far behind them.

It is the same for Shi Can.

He looked into Qin Zexi's eyes, annoyed him and angered him, pitied him and loved him, "Do you think you are a philanthropist, or a saint and angel who does not expect anything in return."

"I'm afraid that one day you will find that I am not as sunny and cheerful as I look, and you will be very disappointed."

"I have experienced a farewell. In your eyes, it is so easy to be disappointed? Let me tell you, I am not disappointed after knowing everything, but I am very angry. Why didn't you tell me earlier, let us waste 17 days in vain."

Qin Zexi was startled, tears burst out of his eyes suddenly, and he couldn't stop it, "I'm afraid that the dark and hopeless villain in my heart will hurt you.

You know, he is very annoying, always come out to kill me when I am happy.

I don't know how to fix it, I don't have anyone to turn to, not even the guy who slapped me after my suicide attempt, I have only myself, so-"

Before he finished speaking, Shi Can remembered the text message Sui Haihai sent the day he committed suicide.

So, he raised his arm and swung it down.

Snapped.

The slap fell on Qin Zexi's cheek, it was not heavy, and the voice was very crisp.

Hot and spicy.

Unprepared, Qin Zexi subconsciously took two steps back and sat on the sofa blankly.

At the same time, the door of the room behind the two was suddenly pushed open, "Boss Qin, we have time..."

The assistant was shocked, and Narcissus, who was looking in through the crack of the door, was also stunned.

Qin Zexi raised his head and opened his mouth slightly, with tear-stained eyes, staring straight at Shi Can, "You... why did you hit me?"

Shi Can raised his hand again, scaring Qin Zexi back again.

This time, Shi Can gently kneaded his cheeks, turned to look at Qin Zexi's assistant, "Are you in a hurry? I still have something to say."

"Oh, the lucky draw for the dinner is about to start, and Mr. Qin needs to go over to host it... But, we can wait a little longer."

After speaking, the assistant quickly closed the door, as if he had never appeared.

Quiet again, Shi Can was still rubbing his cheek, "Where are we talking?"

"Use your mouth but not your hands, and don't slap people in the face when you hit someone."

Qin Zexi suddenly felt wronged, and tears fell down.

Shi Can took a few steps forward, opened his arms and hugged Qin Zexi's head into his arms, "You're on the tip of your horn, did the slap just wake you up.

Sui Haihai taught me, does it work? "

"I..." Qin Zexi raised his head in Shi Can's arms, like a big dog that had been wandering for a long time and finally returned home.

"Don't underestimate me, I dare to love you, and I can bear everything you bring.

Don't underestimate yourself, you experience pain and despair, but you survive until the opportunity comes.

You chased love, now we're in love.

Qin Zexi, haven't you realized that you are a born survivor.

Not only that, because of you, I also have a chance to live again.

So, no matter what you have to face in the future, let them come, there is nothing to be afraid of.

I'll be with you. "

This was the most beautiful love story Qin Zexi had ever heard, and it even made him a little unbelievable.

"Before then, you just stay by my side and forget about everything."

Shi Can lowered his head, placed a kiss on Qin Zexi's forehead, and said in a soft and warm voice, "I'm glad that I can make you forget the pain, so you can't leave me.

Stop making unnecessary struggles, you and I must be tied together. "

"Grasshoppers use the word 'tie'."

Qin Zexi wept silently in Shi Can's arms, and couldn't help muttering in a low voice, "Just now...you hurt me so much."

"I'll be used to you from now on, I won't hit you again."

Shi Can rubbed Qin Zexi's hair lightly with his slender fingers, "I've always wanted to ask why my hair is so long."

Qin Zexi took a deep breath, full of Shi Can's smell, "My mother said that I look more handsome with long hair.

I want your team building to be unable to move your eyes away when you see me, so I kept it longer. "

"very nice."

Shi Can couldn't help rubbing it a few more times, he'd always wanted to do this, it felt so good, "I like it very much."

"Then I'll keep it."

Just as Qin Zexi finished speaking, the phone in his pocket rang suddenly.

It's the secretary who came in earlier.

Qin Zexi wiped away her tears and snot, took a deep breath and picked up the phone.

"President Qin, sorry to disturb you.

The dinner party here has already started, and the lucky draw will be postponed for a while. When will you come over? "

Qin Zexi looked at Shi Can and said to the phone, "Right now."

After hanging up the phone, Shi Can lowered his head to help Qin Zexi tidy up his clothes, "The buttons are all off, what should I do?"

"Go to the apartment on the top floor, there is a change of clothes."