Who says I'm not good at work?

"Dad You, why didn't you tell me when you came here?"

Qin Zexi let go of Shi Can while talking, a little nervous, "I knew I would..."

"I'll come and see."

Qin's father looks very similar to Qin Zexi, with a little more majesty, and the unique shrewdness of a businessman, "Listen to the gossip that has been spread wildly these days."

What gossip?Naturally, it is a bloody plot of "nurturing love" plus "domestic violence".

"Dad, it's all a misunderstanding.

Nothing like that. "

Qin Zexi took a step forward and quickly explained to his father, laughing while talking, trying to block Shi Can with his body.

The son is more like his father, this little trick doesn't work at all.

Father Qin looked into Qin Zexi's eyes, straightened his clothes and said, "Go home for dinner tonight, I'll tell your mother to let her cook what you like.

By the way, tell me about those gossips, they are messy and I don’t understand them well. "

After finishing speaking, Qin's father walked around Qin Zexi to look at Shi Can, and stretched out his hand to him, "Hello."

"Hello."

Shi Can nodded politely, and immediately reported his family name.

Father Qin shook hands with Shi Can, "Qin Yao."

After exchanging a few pleasantries, Qin Yao patted Qin Zexi's shoulder lightly, saying that he still had something to do and left first.

"Your father doesn't speak clearly, but I think he...doesn't agree with us being together."

Qin Zexi thought for a while, "I don't quite agree, nor do I disagree."

Shi Can read some information from Qin Yao's line of sight, and after thinking for a while, he added, "He doesn't seem very surprised to see you shoulder to shoulder with a man."

Qin Zexi looked back at the direction where his father left, and sighed, "My father wouldn't come here so suddenly, he must have found out everything."

Shi Can let out a "hmm", remembering his mother's initial objection, he couldn't help worrying, "Then you..."

Qin Zexi hugged Shi Can's shoulders and walked into the restaurant together, "It's okay, let's have lunch first."

At the dinner table, Qin Zexi talked about getting along at home.

Interesting.

Qin Zexi has been in poor health since he was a child, but he is very sensible, and he can always try to find a way to reassure his parents.

Facing such children, parents are also very careful.

They always think over and over again when they say and do things, for fear of leaving traces in Qin Zexi's heart.

"When I committed suicide when I was a child, my mother always felt that it was her responsibility."

During that time, Qin Zexi's examination results were very bad, and his mother broke down and cried in front of him.

The thought of "suicide" lingered in Qin Zexi's heart for a long time, and it had little to do with his mother's tears.

It's just that the biological mother regards her son as her lifeblood, constantly blames herself for being weak, and wants to vent her emotions without considering the consequences.

Mother found Qin Zexi who had attempted suicide, held him in her arms and kept saying, I'm sorry.

On the contrary, it was the young Qin Zexi who kept comforting his mother. He patted her on the shoulder, grabbed her palm, and cried along with his mother.

He said, Mom, don't worry about me, I'm sorry for you.

"I was sick alone, but my parents were always nervous."

Qin Zexi took a sip of coffee, licked his lips lightly and said, "Until now, what they say and do will never be a whim."

For Qin Yao to come to the art museum, he must have heard about the "brilliant deeds" of the young master of the Qin family, and even discussed it with Qin Zexi's mother.

Shi Can nodded and sighed softly, "It seems that your parents will persuade you to separate from me at night."

"possible."

Qin Zexi admitted it generously, but finally took Shi Can's hand and said, "But I can't give up on you."

The two ate lunch, took a nap in the art gallery, and then parted ways.

Qin Zexi drove Shi Can back to the apartment, then changed clothes and went back to his parents.

"Why do you have to wear tracksuits?"

Shi Can sat on the bed puzzled, watching Qin Zexi take off his suit shirt and put on a T-shirt jacket.

Qin Zexi zipped up, "Psychological warfare."

After finishing speaking, he straightened his clothes and asked Shi Can: "Don't you think wearing this outfit makes me look more vulnerable and harmless? It doesn't look like a workplace negotiation at all, and my mother will love me."

Shi Can nodded, but he didn't expect that the actor's thoughts were on his mother, "Then are you coming back tonight?"

"decide as things go."

Qin Zexi was quite optimistic, and felt that even if his parents had objections, they would not object too strongly, "I'll try to make some breakthroughs."

My parents live in a quiet central villa community, only a few 10 minutes away by car.

Qin Zexi knocked on the door and entered the room, walked up to his mother and gave her a big hug, "I miss you so much."

"Then you haven't been home for so long."

The mother patted Qin Zexi's shoulder lightly, and her gentle eyes kept turning back and forth on his cheeks, "How are you doing recently? Are you feeling better?"

Qin Zexi and Sui Haihai grew up together, and the two families know each other well.

Everyone felt sorry for her accident, "A while ago you worked day and night like that, I was so worried to death."

"It's been much better recently."

Qin Zexi walked into the kitchen with his mother and brought himself a bottle of cold beer, "I always think of her, it's all her words of encouragement in the past."

The mother gave a "hmm" and told Qin Zexi, "Drink less wine."

"Got it, just this bottle."

Qin Zexi returned to her room with the beer, and then took several photos and sent them to Shi Can: [The place where I grew up.

】

The room is full of traces of Qin Zexi, belonging to him in his teens.

The rock stars he liked, the superheroes he admired, the video games he played, and the picture books and magazines he was obsessed with.

Shi Can replied quickly, with four words: [I want to go and see.

】

Qin Zexi couldn't help laughing, and returned a "sexy" expression.

Shi Can swiped the emoji with him: "huh".

Qin Zexi typed: [You are so cute even in your emoji.

】

After sending it, Qin Zexi gave him another location with a message: [My home is here, I have a chance to let you come to my room.

】

Shi Can: [What am I going to do.

】

Qin Zexi: [Of course I came to see my collection of figurines, what else can I have? 】

……Typing……

Qin Zexi stared at the screen and waited for a long time.

Shi Can wrote and deleted, deleted and typed again, and finally asked him: [Did your mother say something? 】

Qin Zexi called Shi Can: "My mother didn't say anything, she seemed very normal.

Just talking to her was like the calm before the storm. "

"I don't want to interfere with the communication between you and your parents, I just don't want you to have trouble with them."

"I know, don't worry."

After hanging up the phone, Qin Zexi couldn't help sighing, his heart was like beating a drum——

The "calmness" shown by the parents is an understanding of him, and the more they are like this, the more persistent their thoughts are.

Before dinner, when his father came home, Qin Zexi was watching TV in the living room with his legs crossed.

While watching the boring variety show, he sent a message to Shi Can, thinking about how to sell it badly later.

Qin Yao entered the door, the three of them went to the table for dinner, and the topic began.

Qin Zexi spoke first, cleared his throat and looked at his father, explaining, "The company's rumors are all misunderstandings."

"All of them?" the father asked back.

Qin Zexi nodded, "Yes."

Father continued, "So you didn't miss dinner?"

"It's not a miss, I just don't think I need to go to the 'lottery draw'."

Father hummed in a low voice, "Then you were not beaten? Are there no starlets around?"

"I was indeed beaten, but I didn't support the starlet."

Qin Zexi sighed, put down his chopsticks and said, "Dad, that's not what you want to ask, right?

The person who hit me is the person you saw in the restaurant of the art gallery today, me and him..."

"What do you want to do with him?"

The father interrupted Qin Ze and questioned him, and then he said more clearly, "Nothing will happen between you and him, the farce must end soon."

Mother served Qin Zexi a bowl of pork rib soup and handed it to him, "Sui Haihai passed away, I know you are very sad to lose her.

If you can't bear to do outrageous things, such as... want to find some rebellious and different feelings with men.

We can not mention it, but hope you don't hurt yourself. "

The mother always thought that Qin Zexi and Sui Haihai were young and ignorant, but the two children were always entangled in death.

In her eyes, Qin Zexi's current behavior is like a stress reaction after being stimulated.

Chaos, disorder, full of struggle and self-denial.

"I'm not rebellious, and I'm not a farce with him."

Qin Zexi looked at his mother and roughly understood that the main objection came from his mother, while his father contributed to it.

Qin Zexi swallowed and said, "You may not be able to accept it, but I really like men."

No, Qin Zexi suddenly realized when he said it.

He then shook his head and added to his mother, "I just like him.

That guy my dad met at the art tube today, I just like him. "

"Your life has just begun."

When the father spoke, his attitude was the same as that of his mother, with a more stern tone, "How can you say 'only like'?"

"You have suffered so much before, and now you are finally out of the hospital. You should find a girl who loves you, have a family and have children."

The mother frowned and clenched her fists, looked into Qin Zexi's eyes and asked, "Do you think that most girls know that you have undergone surgery and are unwilling to be with you? Or are they worried that you will go back to the hospital in the future..."

"Mom, both men and women may care about what you say.

This is human nature, and it is my blessing to meet someone who likes me. "

Qin Zexi kneaded her temples, and said, "Don't talk about other people, even I always think about it, maybe tomorrow I will—"

Before he finished speaking, Qin Yao raised his voice and interrupted his son, ordering him: "Let's eat, and don't say such things at home in the future."

The mother couldn't bear any self-defeating remarks from Qin Zexi's mouth, she lowered her head and her eyes were red.

"Mom," Qin Zexi went over to hold his mother's hand, and then helped her pick up some vegetables, "I'm fine, I'm fine now."

After negotiating over dinner, Qin Zexi had a solid idea.

In short, the attitude shown by parents was beyond Qin Zexi's expectations.

When she was a child in the hospital, Qin Zexi couldn't jump or run, and seldom did what she wanted.

In the past few years since he was discharged from the hospital, his parents have been very tolerant of him: from choosing a major in school, to investing in art museum projects, to insisting on moving out alone.

If the parents can agree, they will never stop them, just because they are afraid that his life will not be satisfactory.

Because of this, the "opposition" of parents is very clear.

Even if the verbal collision is not too strong, this confrontational state is hard to shake for a while.

After returning to the room, Qin Zexi called Shi Can again, snorting and coquettishly said, "Why don't we elope."

"Where are you going, have you thought about it?"

Shi Can smiled, followed his words and said comfortingly: "I need to bring something, I will start to pack it now."

"Bring an umbrella."

Qin Zexi looked out the window, "It's raining."

Before dinner, it was still sunshine and sunset, but now it was raining again and again, just like Qin Zexi's mood these two days, it changed really fast.

Shi Can's voice sounded, sweeping away the irritability brought by the rain, "Okay, what else do you need to bring?"

"Do not need anything.

One umbrella, two people, is enough. "

"it is good."

"Why do you listen to me?"

Qin Zexi suddenly missed him very much, and couldn't stand not seeing him for a few hours, "If this continues, you will spoil me."

"No matter how bad it is, you can't harm other people.

What are you afraid of. "

Shi Can spoke very lightly, as if it should be taken for granted.

He paused for a moment, then lowered his voice and asked, "Why, didn't you have a pleasant conversation with your parents?"

"You guessed it."

Qin Zexi was so frustrated that she didn't know how to tell Shi Can.

Called, texted, called again, texted again.

[Think about the smell on your body.

] Before it was time to go to bed, Qin Zexi was already dreaming: 【If I didn’t upset my mother during the meal, I would definitely go back and find you.

】

[Okay, stay at home.

】

[I want to see you, I want to kiss you.

】

The sound of rain outside the window was getting louder, Qin Zexi sat on the bed in a daze after taking a shower.

The mobile phone received a text message from Shi Can: [Go out in 15 minutes.

】

Qin Zexi was startled, and quickly called him: "Where am I going?"

"I'm here to find you.

elopement. "

Shi Can smiled, and then added, "See you at the gate of the community, I'll be there in 15 minutes.

How about you figure out the time to go out. "

Qin Zexi replied: "Okay."

He said he wanted to elope, he said he wanted to see him.

Qin Zexi took off her pajamas, took a thin coat, and quickly walked out of the room.

The light in the study was on, and my father was inside.

Qin Zexi went downstairs lightly, and saw her mother sitting on the sofa before reaching the gate.

The living room was dark, and I looked down on the expression on her face.

"Mom, why... why are you sitting here."

My mother regained her senses and turned on the lamp beside the sofa, "It's so late, do you want to go out?"

Under the dim light, my mother's eyes were a little red. I don't know if it was from crying or exhaustion.

Qin Zexi took a step forward, "What are you thinking about? Go up and sleep."

"Thinking about when you were a child, thinking about the past."

The day Qin Zexi attempted suicide was the darkest moment in her mother's life, and she will never forget it for the rest of her life.

She found Qin Zexi in the art gallery, and then hugged her son tightly in her arms, crying without saying a word.

Her crying was silent, but her tears soaked Qin Zexi's entire shoulder.

Afterwards, she went to the bathroom alone to freshen up, and finally couldn't bear to let out a sob.

She called to inform Qin Zexi's father that the child had been found.

Her voice was full of joy and sorrow, and she firmly said that she must let her son live a healthy and happy life.

Carefree.

"it's already over."

Qin Zexi was anxious to go out, so he put his arms around his mother's shoulders, patted her on the back and sent her to the stairs, "Go to bed early and have a good rest."

Mother frowned and helped Qin Zexi tidy up her clothes, but said, "It's raining outside, don't go out."

Qin Zexi smiled warmly, "It's okay, I'll hold an umbrella."

After finishing speaking, he turned around and quickened his pace towards the door, and then hurriedly changed his shoes.

"Are you going out now to find him?"

Qin Zexi went to the door and opened it, and then his mother's voice came.

The rain refreshed my mind and opened my mind.

Qin Zexi didn't want to lie to his mother, so he stopped, nodded and admitted, "Yes."

"A few days ago, your dad mentioned that you might be with men, so I was mentally prepared.

I asked him what to do, he said we should respect your choice.

I've been trying to understand you these days, but I can't figure out why. "

Mother came to Qin Zexi's side and stood side by side with him under the porch.

There was the sound of ticking, ticking, and the sound of the breeze kissing the leaves.

Swish, Swish.

The front yard of dozens of square meters is full of green plants, some are knee-high, and some are as tall as a person, all of which my mother likes.

Qin Zexi glanced slowly, took a deep breath and was honest with his mother: "Mom, he knows that I have undergone surgery, and he is willing to face it with me.

Only by his side do I forget that I was the one who almost died.

So, I couldn't be with other people, and I couldn't marry a girl and have kids.

I'm sorry I can't let your children and grandchildren be full, I only want him. "

"In your heart, am I so fragile and selfish?"

The mother raised her voice and turned to look at Qin Zexi, "You think what I can't figure out is why you don't get married and have children? You think what I care about is whether I have grandchildren? You told me in the hospital when you were young, let me have another one." Healthy child, let that child grow old with me... how did I tell you."

"You said, love me with all your heart."

The surrounding silence was frightening, and the conversation between mother and child continued.

Mother grabbed Qin Zexi's wrist, and her fingertips became stronger and stronger, "I don't care what you said.

Your dad and I have gone through so much, what is unacceptable.

What I don't understand is that you have lived through so many hard times since you were a child, why don't you enjoy the carefree life of ordinary people. "

Qin Zexi is a student now, and the students around him may not have any idea about his sexual orientation, but what about entering the society in the future?People in the art circle are not surprised, but what about people in the business field, and those people who meet every day and live the most ordinary life?If Qin Zexi is sick and enters the operating room, the male partner can't even sign the operation sheet.

The relationship between them is not guaranteed, they cannot get any form of commitment, and even the most basic sense of social security has to be constantly demanded.

All this is what my mother cares about, and it is hard to let go, "I don't understand why you are so smart and choose a difficult road when you start a new life again."

The mother's face is exquisite, but her eyes are full of exhaustion, which is left behind over the years.

There are faint wrinkles at the corners of her eyes, and she looks older than Qin Zexi's impression.

All the details are her medals for worrying about her son.

"It is...it chose for me, and I chose for it."

Qin Zexi raised his finger to point to his heart, and looked tenderly at his mother in front of him.

The mother didn't understand at all, she frowned and remained silent for a moment, then asked full of doubts: "Is it because of this heart? Is it because the painter you like likes men, so you got his heart and also like men?"

Qin Zexi shook her head, no, you misunderstood, "The one with me is the model from "Seamas".

You know, if I hadn’t seen that painting and him in the art gallery back then, I might have..." Qin Zexi recalled the past, and brought his mother back to the beginning in an instant, "He saved my life. Live in my heart all the time, regardless of whose heart I get.

I love him and have always loved him.

For the new life, I must follow the choice in my heart.

I choose, what my heart wants. "

Mother's doubts turned into shock, and she couldn't figure out the relationship back and forth for a while.

As time passed, Qin Zexi was worried that Shi Can had already reached the gate of the community, so he hurriedly said to his mother: "Mom, I'll go out for a while.

Can I explain it to you tomorrow, I will definitely explain it clearly to you. "

Mother stood under the porch, watching Qin Zexi quickly walk to the gate of the yard a few meters away.

Mother wanted to call him to stop, and wanted him to take an umbrella.

Before he could speak, Qin Zexi pushed open the door.

Who knows, the next second he froze in place.

The mother quickly picked up the umbrella standing by the door, and walked quickly towards Qin Zexi.

Qin Zexi looked outside the door, and said, "You... why are you here, don't you meet at the gate of the community?"