Who says I'm not good at work?

They "coincidentally met" Qin Zexi's father in the art gallery, and both of them were caught off guard.

It's okay, don't worry, I'll go home and check on my parents.

Qin Zexi said so, but the tension in his eyes was different.

After getting along for such a long time, Shi Can seems to have a kind of ability - no matter how superb Qin Zexi's acting skills are, he can always take off the mask and see the panic in the other party's heart.

Even if there is only a little bit, it can be easily seen.

Shi Can sent him out, and when he turned around, he received a call from his mother.

Chen Qiu said on the phone: "I'm free these two days, come back for dinner."

"it is good."

Shi Can was waiting for his mother's feedback after watching the documentary, and it was a good start when he received a call.

Immediately, the mother asked again: "How are you and Xiao Qin?"

Shi Can cleared his throat, and said truthfully: "I made up with him.

Lately, it's been fine. "

The mother said "Yes", hesitated for a few seconds and said uncertainly, "Then I have a chance to bring him back. It was thanks to him taking care of me last time I was hospitalized."

Shi Can couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth, "I'll ask him."

After hanging up the phone, Shi Can felt warm in his heart, and couldn't help but miss Qin Zexi.

For several hours, Qin Zexi kept texting, and the contents were all innocuous flirting products.

Qin Zexi showed him the room furnishings, sent him the location, and told him about his collection.

Between the lines, Shi Can sensed his nervousness, so he took the initiative to call.

While talking to him, Shi Can recalled the conversation when he first met Sui Haihai.

Sui Haihai said that Qin Zexi's parents didn't know that he liked men, and he would occasionally tell me that he was worried that his parents would find it difficult to live.

If they stop you one day, will you look on, feel insignificant, and say nothing?Still, you want to let Qin Zexi argue with his parents alone, or simply tell him that since your parents disagree, it shouldn't affect your relationship because of me.

These words didn't feel weighty when they were overheard, but when I think about them now, they still stir in Shi Can's heart.

What Qin Zexi did for Chen Qiu is vivid in his memory, and Shi Can also wants to do something for Qin Zexi.

"Why don't we elope."

Qin Zexi sounded like a child, like a baby begging for warmth, "One umbrella, two people, is enough."

Shi Can looked at the black umbrella at the door, and said seriously, "Okay."

[I want to see you, I want to kiss you.

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Looking at the text message, Shi Can made a decision to surprise Qin Zexi.

He went out with a black umbrella, heading all the way to the location sent by Qin Zexi.

When he arrived at the gate of the community, Shi Can thought about it and sent him a text message: 【Go out in 15 minutes.

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He wanted to "ambush" at the door of his house, and then meet his eyes the moment he went out.

He wants to wait for him, wants to completely submerge him in the romantic bubble wrapped in rain.

He wanted to say to him, no matter who stops me, I will be by your side.

At the gate of Qin Zexia's house, Shi Can was completely covered by tall green plants.

"You told me in the hospital when you were a child, let me have another healthy child, and let that child grow old with me... how did I tell you?"

"You said, love me with all your heart."

"I don't understand why you are so smart to choose a difficult path when you are starting a new life again."

The conversation between Qin Zexi and his mother broke into Shi Can's ears. He didn't want to eavesdrop, but he couldn't move away.

Parents in the world love each other, and every word Qin Zexi's mother utters is unbearable and even more sad.

Xu Shi has experienced the fear of losing at any time. Her appeal is more pure than Shi Can's mother, but she hopes that her son will have the most ordinary life.

Do your best to live as the most ordinary person.

This is Qin Zexi's fate for the past twenty years.

Shi Can clenched the umbrella in his hand, his heart was full of soreness.

He thought, the most dazzling person in the world is none other than this.

"It is...it chose for me, and I chose for it."

"Is it because of this heart?"

The conversation between mother and child is like drumbeats, beating Shi Can's heart again and again, until he hears——

Is it because the painter you like likes men, so you get his heart and likes men too?

Favorite painter?his heart?

Shi Can couldn't hear the follow-up words clearly, his whole body was shaking.

It turned out that the reaction when she was extremely shocked was blank.

No tension, no excitement, just blankness.

Qin Zexi said that he has many favorite painters, so this person is definitely not...

Where is such a coincidence.

When Shi Can came back to his senses, Qin Zexi was already standing in front of him.

The courtyard gate opened, and the rain ran down Qin Zexi's hair and kissed his cheek.

"You...why are you here..." Qin Zexi was surprised, then frowned and realized that Shi Can's expression was wrong, "What you said to my mother just now, you..."

"His heart, who is he?" Shi Can raised his head and met Qin Zexi's eyes.

This momentary look at each other is what he wants to do, and it is the "surprise" he has been planning all the way.

Obviously, the result was different from what he expected.

Very different.

Qin Zexi didn't answer, but his eyes were full of panic and helplessness.

Different from being speechless when her acting was exposed in the past, Qin Zexi's emotions come from a deeper level, from the shock in the depths of the soul.

He looked away to look at the ground, and suddenly found that Shi Can's trouser legs were soaked, thinking that he must be in a hurry when he just walked over.

Eager to meet, eager to express my heart.

The rain fell down Qin Zexi's long eyelashes, and it suddenly reminded Shi Can that when he first met him, it was also a rainy day, and he didn't look like he was drenched.

Although he didn't get an answer, and although he was full of shock and doubts, Shi Can couldn't help but care about him, fearing that he would catch a cold, "Why don't you open an umbrella?"

After speaking, he raised the umbrella in his hand, completely covering Qin Zexi in it.

One umbrella, two people, exactly as Qin Zexi said.

"It's not... meet at the gate of the community."

Qin Zexi finally found her voice, her eyes were always lingering on Shi Can's cheek.

Qin Zexi's mother's voice suddenly broke in between the two, "Xiao Ze, what's wrong."

Seeing her son standing still at the door, she followed to check the situation, "Why..." The mother was slightly taken aback when she saw Shi Can through the opened door.

"Mom, he is me..." Qin Zexi's tongue was tied up nervously, and he couldn't even articulate a sentence.

Cautiously, he stretched out his hand to grab Shi Can's wrist with unusual force.

Shi Can came to the door and took the initiative to say hello: "Auntie, hello."

He cleared his throat, and said quickly, "I'm sorry to disturb you so late, I'm leaving now."

"Don't go."

Qin Zexi pulled him hard again, her eyes full of anxiety, afraid that what happened just now was not clear, and that the hard-won happiness between the two of them would disappear in an instant, "Please."

The mother was very embarrassed to see her son retaining him like this, and couldn't help being moved.

She looked at the two of them, and sighed helplessly, "It's so late, and it's still raining outside, it's shameless for you to be at the door like this, or... you'd better go inside and talk.

It rains all the time, beware of getting sick. "

Qin Zexi pulled Shi Can into the room, and pushed him to his room.

Seeing his reckless actions, his mother couldn't help but stop him, telling Qin Zexi to slow down.

The movement was so loud that it alarmed the father in the study.

Qin Yao stood at the door of the study, looked at Qin Zexi and Shi Can, and said after a while: "There is no reason to invite someone to the house so late, there are no rules."

Although it was said that he should not be invited into the house, Qin Yao did not issue an order to evict the guests.

He cleared his throat, and said to Qin Zexi: "If you invite someone to come to your house, you should at least prepare hot tea and slippers first.

Remember to clean up the dirty stairs later, don't let your mother do it. "

Watching the two enter the room, the mother walked to Qin Yao's side.

Qin Yao stretched out his arms and took her into his arms, "Does it look uncomfortable?"

The mother shook her head, "It's not uncomfortable, it's because I feel sorry for him."

"I told you a long time ago that when the child grows up, he can't control it. He chooses whatever he thinks."

"Shall we just let him suffer?"

People's arsenic, my sweetness.

Qin Yao couldn't give an answer, "Then what can we do, you don't know your son's personality yet, will he listen to you?"

"It's all spoiled by him."

Originally, he just wanted to hang out in front of the door, but he didn't want to go directly into the room.

Qin Zexi found a clean towel and slippers for Shi Can, and asked him to take a bath, "You are all wet, if you have anything to say, come out and talk."

With the sound of water, Qin Zexi sat on the sofa, staring blankly at the closed bathroom door.

After an unknown amount of time, Shi Chan came out.

"I know what you want to ask."

Qin Zexi didn't dare to look him in the eyes, for fear that she wouldn't have the courage to speak out.

He clenched his fists and said in an extremely restrained voice: "It's his.

I figured it out some time after surgery. "

"You..." Shi Can walked up to Qin Zexi, thought for a long time and asked the first question, "When are you going to tell me?"

"not prepare."

Regarding this question, Qin Zexi didn't hesitate at all, and had already thought clearly, "I plan to keep it from you.

If you didn't hear it by accident, you would never know it in this life. "

Shi Can nodded, and asked again: "Don't you...don't you think I should know?"

"Why should you know?"

Qin Zexi took Shi Can's hand and interlocked his fingers, "If you say you love me, will it change because I have someone else's heart.

Or... because it is Lin Yang's heart, so you should know. "

The conversation didn't go on, both of them were in shock, and it was really hard to sort out their thoughts.

"I sleep on the sofa."

It was getting late, Shi Can took the initiative to pick up a pillow from the bed.

There are things in his heart that are precipitating, some things are brewing, and some things are thought-provoking.

Everything is too fast to think clearly.

Qin Zexi got up and paced, silent for a long time and didn't even dare to ask him to sleep together, "You're angry."

"Not angry, I just need some time."

Qin Zexi nodded, "Did you disappear as soon as you woke up?"

Shi Can looked into his eyes, "No."

Lying on the bed, Qin Zexi couldn't calm down for a long time. He tossed and turned, "Maybe you don't want to know, but when I found out, I was absolutely as shocked as you."

Shi Can didn't say anything, he didn't know if he was asleep or waiting for him to continue.

"When I thought of you before, my heart was full of happiness and happiness.

After surgery, thinking about you again always comes with heartache and sadness.

It's hard to describe that feeling, it's the pain that makes me cry when I see you in my dream, and it swallows me whole. "

Qin Zexi swallowed, paused for a moment and said, "I thought it was a physical problem at first, but after the operation, all the indicators were normal and I recovered very well. Even the doctor said that this heart is full of vitality."

There was no abnormality in the examination, and Qin Zexi didn't think about other aspects until his mother found out that he was crying in his dream, so she was really worried and had to find out what happened.

Mother asked Qin Zexi what was in his dream?It's hard for him to say that he is the sweetheart who met once, so he can only prevaricate and play sloppy.

"My mother first took me to the neurology department, then to the psychiatry department, and then to the endocrinology department... After several tosses, I joked with my mother that it might be a 'gift' left to me by heart donors who have some psychological problems. "

The speaker has no intention, the listener has the heart.

The information of organ donors cannot be disclosed to transplant recipients, but Qin Zexi's family still tried their best to find the corresponding names.

The moment he saw the word "Lin Yang", Qin Zexi was shocked and surprised. As soon as he checked whether he made a mistake, he couldn't believe that Lin Yang had a car accident, let alone such a coincidence.

Qin Zexi said to himself, not even sure if Shi Can was still listening, "I gradually calmed down, and then I understood everything at once.

The sadness I felt was his remaining obsession.

In fact, I only glanced at you secretly, and you are just a vague shadow in my dream.

But even so, his heart still has such a reaction..."

Under the moonlight, Shi Can moved his body.

He was still listening, tears streaming from the corners of his eyes.

Qin Zexi's voice was low, a little choked and dry: "Then I fell into a long struggle, and I questioned whether the desire to find you was his or mine.

I searched for all the information related to him, and I tried my best to prove to myself that I am the one who loves you. "

For Qin Zexi, it was a period of extreme confusion and struggle.

In his dreams at night, he even felt that he and Lin Yang were face to face, arguing about who occupied whose feelings and who used whose body. The person who loves you has deep and deep feelings for you, but mine will never lose to him.

I don't want to, and I can't be a continuation of his life. I'm sorry that he had an accident, but I want to have my own life. "

Qin Zexi never told anyone about this matter, "My parents only thought it was a coincidence. I received a lot of his paintings and got his heart, but Sui Haihai only knew that I was afraid of going back to the hospital and hesitated. , dare not go to you.

Only in my heart, there are countless thoughts related to you, which I cannot share with anyone.

What is your love like?What memories do you have?What impact did you leave on each other? "

"There is no 'you'."

Finally, after Qin Zexi spoke for a long time, Shi Can said slowly, "It's just us now, you and me."

Qin Zexi hurriedly stopped, propped up her upper body and looked at Shi Can.

I saw Shi Can barefoot, walking towards him by the cold moonlight.

The sound of rain outside the window was faint, and Qin Zexi was also nervous, "What did you say just now?"

"I just want to hear us."

Shi Can came to the bed and sat down, raised his hand and gently pressed Qin Zexi's chest.

In Qin Zexi's small heart, there are countless secrets.

At first, Shi Can saw his optimism, his sunshine, his romance and talent wherever he could see.

How wonderful these things are, anyone who reads them will be happy and can't help but be moved.

Shi Can is obsessed with, likes, and at the same time squanders wantonly.

Later, Shi Can saw Qin Zexi's pessimism, his scars, his fear and pain in the darkness.

These things are negative and distressing.

But they also nourish Qin Zexi's creation, linking his past and future.

Shi Can cherished and protected her, holding it in her hands like a treasure.

Shi Can thought that most of the puzzle belonging to Qin Zexi had been completed, and it was impossible for this young man to have any more secrets that would surprise him.

Who would have thought.

In the end, Shi Can actually discovered the humbleness in the depths of his soul.

It was the fragment that Qin Zexi tried his best to hide, hidden in the darkest corner, and did not want Shi Can to find out, and swore to keep it from him for the rest of his life.

"You are not going to tell me, because you are afraid that I will question whether you love his heart or you, are you?" Shi Can asked bluntly, staring at Qin Zexi with red eyes, not letting him escape. , don't let him hide.

Yes.

For what.

Qin Zexi was so wronged that a few words came out of his mouth dryly, "I know he is very important to you."

Shi Can caressed Qin Zexi's cheek, and then leaned forward to kiss his lips.

Shi Chan said, yes, he is very important, very important.

but you.

Shi Can said again, you are my destiny.