Over indulge

On the day of the funeral, Lin Jiayue returned to Zhou Cijing's house. At night, Lin Jiayue was about to fall asleep. She hadn't closed her eyes for several days. Today, she could finally have a good rest, although she was not sure if she could really fall asleep.

There was a knock on the door, and Lin Jiayue sat up with her hands propped up. Before she could react, the door had been opened from the outside, and Zhou Cijing came in just like that, and strode to her bedside and sat down.

With gentle eyebrows and a smile on the corner of his mouth, he said: "You have suffered a lot these days. I have booked a ticket to take you out to have fun and relax."

"That's unnecessary." Lin Jiayue twitched the corner of her mouth in embarrassment, and refused without hesitation.

Zhou Cijing's eyes flashed with disappointment, and he couldn't help asking: "Xu Ruining can take you on a trip, why can't I."

Lin Jiayue was about to answer her, but Zhou Cijing didn't give her a chance, and then said, "Isn't it okay once? Even once, don't reject me."

To be honest, Lin Jiayue felt very sorry to see her hurt like that, but it was not true. She wanted to go on a trip with her, but she just wondered if she could try to refuse in a tactful way.

Turning her face away, Lin Jiayue didn't look at her injured eyes, but instead said: "I don't think much about it recently, after all, my father just left."

One sentence made Zhou Cijing smile instantly, and his face regained its brilliance. For some reason, Lin Jiayue's?

"Then I'll wait for you until you recover." After Zhou Cijing finished speaking, he stood up happily like a child, "Then I won't disturb your rest."

Watching her go out, the door was closed again, Lin Jiayue sat on the bed and hugged her legs and sighed helplessly.

After that day, it began to rain one after another.

There is no way to go out, and it is impossible to go to the yard when it rains. Lin Jiayue stays in this house almost all day. In order to entertain her boredom, Zhou Cijing ordered people to find many movies and TV series for her. , using the projector in the living room on the second floor can play directly.

However, compared to chasing dramas, Lin Jiayue is more interested in reading books.

"Do you know where there are books to read?" Lin Jiayue asked the housekeeper at home, and the housekeeper said that there were many books in Zhou Cijing's study, so she asked her to look for them there.

At first, Lin Jiayue was forbidden to set foot in Zhou Cijing's area, but all this changed after she was discharged from the hospital.

Not only were the two old women who watched her from morning to night laid off, but she was also free to move about in the house.

When I came to Zhou Cijing's study room, the curtains were drawn in broad daylight, and the light was a bit dim. Lin Jiayue immediately wanted to go to open the window, but found that there was a wall behind the curtains. This room... There are no windows.

What kind of person would set up their own study in a dark room without windows.

Is this really like a dark room, and the lights must be turned on during the day to get light.

This kind of thing can only be done by Zhou Cijing.

Forget it, did she come here to look for books? After finding the books, she left as soon as possible.

There is a whole wall of books, Lin Jiayue's eyes linger and search among them, many books are read by herself, skipping those books on business that are not very interesting, finally, her gaze settles on The grid was on a book by a Japanese writer. Lin Jiayue reached out to take it, but the book was stuck tightly. She frowned and pulled it out very hard, but the book was in her hand. There was a cardboard box on the shelf. It also fell to the ground due to the huge shaking, Lin Jiayue immediately squatted down to tidy up in a panic.

There were actually several video tapes in the box. Looking at the year, month and time records on it, it seemed that they had been dusty for a long time.

After repacking, Lin Jiayue put the box back in its original place. For some reason, she let go of her hand? At that moment, her eyes were fixed on the box, as if something inside was beckoning her, beckoning her to go check it out.

Although, although she knew it was not good to look at other people's things casually like this, she secretly felt that there might be something important to Zhou Cijing in it, and maybe Lin Jiayue could find out from it The way to deal with her.

This kind of videotape is already from the past? It’s an old thing. For children of Lin Jiayue’s age, do they have it? I don’t even know what it is.

But she has seen her mother have something similar, and she has seen her play it, so she still remembers how to operate it.

Turning around, I happened to see the one on the other wall? There is an old-fashioned video recorder on the cabinet, which means that Zhou Cijing himself has seen it? Is it, or is it specially used to watch this, huge? Curiosity drove Lin Jiayue to do this. She was very cautious, afraid that someone would break in at this time.

The picture in the video is far inferior to today's Blu-ray clarity, but it is barely watchable.

At the beginning of the video, there is a little girl who looks only three years old. She stands alone under the sun, as if she is being punished.

The person speaking in the video? The male voice sounded like the person who was recording the video. He scolded: "Do you know that you are wrong? Do you have a long memory? Do you still dare to be disobedient?"

The picture changed, it was still just now? That little girl, but she seemed a little older. She was sitting in a small room with walls on all sides, talking? It was still the same man: "Today you can't do copying." Don't even think about eating."

Just looking at it like this, Lin Jiayue felt very cruel, she was just a child, why should she be treated like this.

The scenes in the video are full of cold violence and verbal attacks from an adult to a child, such as why are you so stupid, people like you will be abandoned by society when you grow up, etc.

Lin Jiayue finally watched it with patience. If she guessed correctly, the girl in the video should be Zhou Cijing when she was a child.

The man who was talking while videotaping must be her father? Lin Jiayue couldn't believe that such a father existed in this world. In comparison, she felt that even Lin Baiyi didn't look so scumbag.

Nowadays, Zhou Cijing's paranoid character development is inseparable from the treatment she received when she was a child. A person's original family often affects his character fate for the rest of his life.

Looking at it now, it is not without reason that Zhou Cijing treats her father and elder brother indifferently.

It's just that Lin Jiayue doesn't understand why Zhou Cijing still keeps such unbearable memories, and even keeps a video recorder here.

Normal? People, shouldn't the farther away from bad memories the better.

That night, while having dinner with Zhou Cijing, Lin Jiayue took the initiative to mention this matter to her.

The answer Zhou Cijing gave her was: "I keep those things, but I just want them to remind me of the true face of this world."

Lin Jiayue gently pinched the corner of her clothes, and asked following her words: "The real face? In fact, this world is not as bad as you think, and there are many good things happening."

Zhou Cijing put down his tableware suddenly, and his tone was colder: "Who do you think you are, and you think you know me after watching the video?"

"I'm not, I just think that maybe you should let go of your obsessions and be a good person." "A good person?" Zhou Cijing sneered, deciding not to continue talking with her, and got up to leave.

Lin Jiayue quickly got up and caught up with two steps, and continued: "Emotional things? Things can't be forced. I believe you understand this in your heart. Just because one person treats you badly doesn't mean the whole world? Everyone will treat you badly." You are not good, can you let me go? Let yourself go too. "

For Lin Jiayue to say these words, it may be a bit hasty, but there is no way, the atmosphere of tonight has been heightened to this point, or forced to speak to this point.

Who knew he was in a hurry? Zhou Cijing turned around and grabbed Lin Jiayue's neck, pinching very hard, his eyes were scarlet, very scary, as if he was a completely different person.

"Don't try to push my limits."

The original intention was to influence her and persuade her to be good, but he didn't expect to touch her scars, causing her to explode directly.

Lin Jiayue was almost out of breath, and her eyes were about to close.

At this moment, Zhou Cijing, who suddenly came back to his senses, let go of his hand in a panic, and checked Lin Jiayue's situation carefully and distressed: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, are you okay? I, I didn't mean to..."

Lin Jiayue was breathing heavily, and just about to say that she was fine, she raised her head and met a pair of sad and self-blame eyes. Then, Zhou Cijing ran out without saying a word, and ran into the rain alone. Also do not return.

Lin Jiayue stopped when she chased to the door, and watched her figure disappear in front of her eyes? On a rainy night, she felt a little complicated.

That night, Lin Jiayue lay on the bed tossing and turning, unable to sleep. Whenever she closed her eyes, the little girl who was abused by her father in the video would flash in her mind.

late at night.

Zhou Cijing, who came back from the rain outside, dragged her wet body straight to her study. She opened the video tape again, leaned back in the chair, watched the video inside, drank wine, and Self-deprecating.

Good man, hehe.

Someone actually told her to be a good person.

A thin line of tears suddenly flowed from the corner of her eyes, she did not admit that she was crying, it must be rain, it was rain.

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