Unbearable

Feng Qi knew Ji Zhonghan when he was eight years old. He never knew that Ji Zhonghan had this problem until they separated.

What does it mean to be untouchable?

When he was young, Feng Qi would take Ji Zhonghan to play football. He was the king of kids in the community, and the two kids rolled into mud monkeys because of a football.

As he grows up and separates from different schools, Ji Zhonghan has fewer friends, but it's not like he doesn't have no friends.

He remembered Lin Xiaoyan, he even remembered the name of Lin Xiaoyan's boyfriend.

Yang Xian was on the school's basketball team. When he was a freshman in high school, he kidnapped Ji Zhonghan and went in to play basketball. When Feng Qi picked him up, he saw Ji Zhonghan and Yang Xian shoulder to shoulder. It was very glaring, and I can still recall it now.

However, in the second season of high school, Zhong Han withdrew from the school team after he injured his basketball ankle.

Although he felt sorry for Ji Zhonghan's body, Feng Qi was more satisfied with his withdrawal.

In his memory, there was nothing wrong with Ji Zhonghan, but what went wrong during the time they were apart.

Feng Qi sat on the sofa, thinking of the message from Jinghe on his mobile phone.

He knew that Ji Zhonghan was hiding something from him, Feng Qi looked up at Ji Zhonghan, and asked repeatedly: "Why can't someone touch me?"

Ji Zhonghan looked at Feng Qi in surprise, knowing that when he went to make milk, Xu Wei must have said something.

In fact, he can't touch the faults of others, and everyone around him knows it.Lin Xiaoyan only thought that he came back from abroad, changed his personality, or encountered something.

Lin Xiaoyan stopped asking Ji Zhonghan several times when she couldn't find out.

When Xu Wei first came into contact with him, she didn't know him well, thought it was because he was weird, and at first she had opinions on him because of this, but after getting along with him, she found that he was not bad, so she gradually didn't take it seriously.

Even later, Xu Wei would take the initiative to help him avoid close contact with others.

No matter what, Xu Wei's way of not treating his problem as a problem made Ji Zhonghan very pleased.

But now Ji Zhonghan felt that it would be better to let Xu Wei know the seriousness of this.

How could he just talk to Feng Qi casually, so that he doesn't know how to explain to Feng Qi now.

Ji Zhonghan looked at Feng Qi who was sitting on the sofa and stared at him, knowing that if he didn't say something today, Feng Qi probably wouldn't be able to expose this matter so easily.

There was a coffee table behind him, and there was no way to retreat, so Ji Zhonghan took advantage of the situation and sat down, putting the milk cup aside.

He glanced around, but couldn't find Xu Wei: "Where did Xu Wei go?"

"I let her go back first." Feng Qi finally answered positively.

Knowing that Xu Wei is not here at this time, Ji Zhonghan was somewhat relieved, he rubbed his brow bone: "It's literally, I... don't like to have physical contact with people now."

Feng Qi leaned forward slightly, it was not a forced question, it was better than a forced question: "Why?"

Ji Zhonghan's eyes faltered: "It became like this before I knew it."

"The reason?" Feng Qi didn't say a word of nonsense, every word hit the point.

Ji Zhonghan suddenly felt very tired, because Feng Qi pressed him: "There is no reason."

As soon as these words came out, Feng Qi was quiet for a long time.

Although Feng Qi didn't speak, his gaze still made Ji Zhonghan very stressed.

Ji Zhonghan remained silent for a long time, but Feng Qi frowned, looking as if he was silent and pursuing.As soon as Ji Zhonghan relaxed, he heard Feng Qi say, "It's okay, if you don't tell me, I can ask."

As for who to ask and what to ask, it is beyond Ji Zhonghan's control.

Ji Zhonghan said no, but Feng Qi stood up, straightened his collar, and looked like he was about to go out to find Xu Wei, Lin Xiaoyan, and ask everyone around him.

This forced him to grab Feng Qi's arm and tighten it tightly: "Do you really want to hear it?"

Feng Qi turned his head slowly, his eyes were deep and serious, with a stubbornness: "I want to know everything about you."

Ji Zhonghan scratched the back of his neck anxiously, where he began to sweat again and gradually turned red. Feng Qi had seen him before and mistakenly thought he was allergic.

"I... do have some psychological problems." Ji Zhonghan said with difficulty, organizing his words: "Because of Mei Yuling and Feng Xinglu back then."

He only mentioned these two names, and he successfully called Feng Qi's face.

Feng Qi seemed disgusted, and had to listen patiently.

Ji Zhonghan also didn't want to say it, even though he had just been hypnotized by Lin Yu and recalled that memory clearly, he felt that every word he spit out of his mouth was like cutting his own tongue.

"I saw them cheating." Ji Zhonghan said in a low voice.

Feng Qi listened silently without interrupting.

"At that camping time, I went home early, and she and Feng Xinglu were at my house..." Ji Zhonghan couldn't continue, and he thought Feng Qi could understand.

But Feng Qi said: "Because they cheated, that's why you became like this?"

This matter is still missing a crucial link, Feng Qi felt that Ji Zhonghan did not tell the truth.

Ji Zhonghan smiled: "Maybe it was too disgusting, so I gradually couldn't have physical contact with other people. When I found something wrong, it had become a habit and I couldn't change it."

He didn't hear Feng Qi's reply, and he didn't know whether the other party believed him or not.

Fortunately, it didn't take long before Feng Qi hugged him and said to him: "They are the ones who are disgusting, and they are the ones who did wrong things. Why do you torture yourself?"

Ji Zhonghan smiled wryly and said: "I understand the truth, but there are some things that can't be done just because I understand them."

Feng Qi stroked his hair: "Is there anything else besides not being able to contact other people?"

Ji Zhonghan hurriedly said, "No more."

He was being hugged by Feng Qi, and he couldn't see Feng Qi's expression clearly, he could only feel Feng Qi's hand stroking his hair.

"Do you think I'm weird?" Ji Zhonghan asked.

Feng Qi said, "I don't think so."

Ji Zhonghan stopped talking, and felt a little relieved, feeling that at least he had passed this level.

Feng Qi stroked his hair and asked him, "Apart from this, is there anything else you're hiding from me?"

Ji Zhonghan brought it up again, without saying a word.

He broke away from Feng Qi's embrace: "Actually, there should be some space between the two of you."

What Ji Zhonghan meant was that even if there was something he really didn't want to tell Feng Qi, it was because of his concerns.What's more, it's normal for people to have secrets when they get along with each other. It doesn't mean that if they are together, they have to expose all their privacy to their lovers.

Feng Qi seemed very puzzled: "I just want to know something related to you."

The subtext is to the effect that he is not reconciled to anything that has nothing to do with Ji Zhonghan.

Ji Zhonghan knew Feng Qi's paranoia from before, so he didn't want to argue with him.

Feng Qi seemed to want to lighten the topic, so he invited Ji Zhonghan to watch a movie.Ji Zhonghan felt very strange in his heart, and always felt that something was wrong.

Feng Qi didn't bother him about this problem, he should have let him relax.

But he just felt uncomfortable.

When the movie was halfway through, Ji Zhonghan finally realized what was wrong. Feng Qi was too indifferent to whether he had psychological problems.

When his friends learned that he had such troubles, most of them would recommend him to see a psychiatrist, and they would show concern in speech and behavior.

Feng Qi didn't even care about it, he didn't even ask a few words.

Ji Zhonghan felt a little uncomfortable, but he didn't want to say it, otherwise he would always feel too hypocritical.

He didn't want Feng Qi to know too much, and he was the one who was afraid of Feng Qi's discomfort.Now Feng Qi's attitude is too flat, and he is also the one who is unhappy.

Too much entanglement is hypocrisy.

Feng Qi didn't even continue to ask why he was special, he could touch Ji Zhonghan's question casually.

Ji Zhonghan stared at the TV in a daze, and didn't watch the movie at all.

Feng Qi looked at him and asked concerned: "Are you bored? Do you want another one?"

At this time, he became sharper, Ji Zhonghan thought speechlessly, and only nodded.

After changing to a movie, Ji Zhonghan forced himself to watch it, or he fell asleep halfway through.

When he woke up, it was Feng Qi holding him, wanting to put him on the bed.

Ji Zhonghan was taken aback, and with great movements, he withdrew from Feng Qi's arms, rolled around on the bed, and fell directly under the bed.

When he got up from under the bed with his waist supported, Feng Qi still maintained that bending posture unchanged.

Ji Zhonghan didn't speak, but Feng Qi slowly straightened up: "Are you afraid of what I will do to you?"

"No." Ji Zhonghan explained weakly.

Feng Qi sat by the bed, stroking the sheet with his hand: "Do you know what expression you had just now?"

Ji Zhonghan knew that it was probably frightened and fearful, with repulsion in the panic.

Feng Qi smiled: "So there is still a problem, is it because of something this time, or because of my face?"

Ji Zhonghan immediately denied it, but Feng Qi ignored him, stood up as if heartbroken, and left Ji Zhonghan's room.

Just before closing the door, remember to turn around and say goodnight to Ji Zhonghan.

Ji Zhonghan had a terrible headache, he just felt that if this went on like this, sooner or later he would have to give up, it would be better to be honest and explain everything to Feng Qi, but can Feng Qi digest this?

Ji Zhonghan was worried about Feng Qi, but he didn't know that after Feng Qi returned to the room, he called Jing He to his room with a phone call.

Jing He crossed his arms and asked him, "Ancestor, what do you want to do?"

"That Lin Yu, is there any way to get Ji Zhonghan's file from him?" Feng Qi said.

Jing He said: "It's difficult. This doctor has a good reputation in the industry, and generally he would not do such unprofessional things."

Otherwise, if it gets out, it will be a disastrous blow to the career of a psychiatrist.

"What's the matter, what's wrong with Ji Zhonghan?" Jing He asked.

Feng Qi held his chin with one hand: "He can't have normal physical contact with others."

Jing He frowned and said, "That's it, the problem is indeed a bit serious."

As soon as the words fell, he noticed Feng Qi's calm expression, and said strangely: "What's the matter, this is your sweetheart, isn't there something wrong with it and you are going to go crazy, why are you so calm now?"

Feng Qi glanced sideways at him: "Is it a big problem not being able to make physical contact with others?"

Jing He didn't know what to say for a moment.

Feng Qi: "I think it's pretty good."

"What's even better is that he doesn't reject me touching him, only I can." Having said that, Feng Qi even smiled a little.

Jing He's scalp felt numb all of a sudden, he looked at Feng Qi, hesitant to speak.

I just feel that it is not Ji Zhonghan who should see a psychiatrist, but Feng Qi, who is obviously very sick.