I'm here while you're waiting

On the way from the hospital to home, An Wen buried his head in Jing Hao's chest, his body trembling uncontrollably.Jing Hao was heartbroken but didn't know how to comfort him.

From Anwen and the man's reaction, Jing Hao knew that that man was Anwen's "husband", the scum who abandoned Anwen.Jing Hao originally wanted to sarcastically satirize that man, but after all, he was Anwen's former lover, and Anwen was still thinking about that man, so Jing Hao couldn't say too much, but secretly warned the man, it wasn't too much mean.However, if that person really has a conscience, hearing those words is enough for him to suffer.What Jing Hao was worried about was that he didn't know what Anwen would think of the few words he said. Although he was trying to rescue Anwen, he really meant the truth. I hope Anwen would not stay away from him because of this.

When they got home, Jing Hao carried Anwen into the house. Jing Hao wanted to put him down, but Anwen didn't let go.

"Anwen, you're home." Jing Hao said softly.

After waiting for a while, Anwen raised his head. Jing Hao looked at those red and swollen eyes, and tightened his arms, "Lie down and rest, I'll get you a glass of water." He said and put Anwen on the bed.

When Jing Hao turned to leave, An Wen grabbed the corner of his clothes.Jing Hao didn't turn around, he had a bad premonition, he felt that he didn't want to hear what Anwen said to him at this time, so he said, "I'll come back with a glass of water."

Anwen didn't let go: "Jing Hao, thank you."

Jing Hao breathed a sigh of relief, turned around, and before he could speak, he heard An Wen go on to say, "I'm sorry." Jing Hao's heart sank.

Jing Hao pretended not to understand and said, "Why are you apologizing to me, you..." However, seeing An Wen's quiet gaze at him, Jing Hao suddenly became speechless.Anwen still didn't let go of Jing Hao's clothes, "You're fine, but I'm not worth it."

Jing Hao smiled self-deprecatingly, and said again, if he could, he really didn't want to accept any good person cards.

Seeing Jing Hao like this, An Wen said slowly: "He is my ex-boyfriend, the first and only one. We were in the same dormitory in college, and then we got together. The process was very bumpy. After the first contact, He just avoided me. I made a girlfriend, but I was the only one who was tortured. One night he got up to smoke, and I cried for a long time before breaking up with my girlfriend. In my sophomore year, I boldly hugged him and expressed my love , he broke my hand and left. I didn’t dare to see him again, I didn’t want to see him, so I moved out, half a year, lingering on the sick bed, feeling unloved. Later he figured it out and we were together.”

Jing Hao listened quietly, without answering.

Anwen kept saying like this: "The days together are very happy, very happy, the present world is stable, and the years are quiet and peaceful. I just want to live like this until I grow old and die. I thought this world would always be a place where two men live , but he couldn't find it with me. We talked about death, about getting old, but I don't know what he thinks, he always doesn't comment on it, but I should have known, I just didn't want to know. We His parents are very traditional, and his health is not good, and our relationship is not in the light. Later, he got married under the pressure of his family." An Wen paused, and then said: "I am the best man."

Jing Hao took a breath.

"He said we are the perfect match." Anwen said flatly, as if he was just telling a story, but his eyes were already dead. "He is married, and I wish him happiness. The person in the world who wishes him happiness the most is me (Note [1]). In the end, I sent a message selfishly. I will wait for him for [-] years. If he does not come back in [-] years, I will not Will wait."

Jing Hao felt his throat was astringent and couldn't speak.

"I've been waiting for two years, and I can't wait any longer. When I sent this message, I knew that I couldn't wait for him. To marry a wife and have children, a man's life. He has already married a wife, and then he will have a child. How can I Make him abandon his wife and son and stay with me?" An Wen's grip on the corner of Jing Hao's clothes had already been released.

"I thought I could wait forever, even if I couldn't. But I didn't expect the days of waiting to be so difficult, and the days felt like years."

Anwen stopped here.

Jing Hao cleared his throat, but his voice was still hoarse: "Why are you telling me this?"

Anwen looked at Jing Hao: "I don't want you to waste your time on me. Some people say that love is a consumable. I have dedicated all the love in my life, and I can't love someone like that anymore."

Jing Hao looked at An Wen, "It's okay, yours is exhausted, I still have more."

"I can't repay the feelings you have figured out. It's not fair to you."

Jing Hao looked at Anwen, "Anwen, love is not as simple as a consumable. Its source is in our hearts, just like a flower. Maybe the flower has withered, but the root system is still there. As long as someone is willing to water it carefully Take care of it and it will come back to life. And it will be more gorgeous than before. So, give me a chance, okay?

"

Jing Hao got on the bed and touched Anwen's head: "Don't think too much, I won't force you. Besides, didn't you say you have to wait for him for [-] years? It's been two years now, and there are still [-] years left." , you wait for him, I wait for you, two people waiting together is much easier than waiting alone."

An Wen didn't know how to refute Jing Hao's words, Jing Hao continued: "Five years, let's see if I can make your heart come back to life. If after [-] years, you still can't fall in love with me." Jing Hao stopped here Down.

An Wen looked at Jing Hao, Jing Hao smiled: "Anyway, you don't have to wait any longer, just let me take care of you."

Anwen opened his eyes wide, but he didn't expect Jing Hao to have such a plan. Jing Hao smiled: "Think about it, we had lived for five years at that time, so there must be no tacit understanding, right?"

"I'm in this circle, and I've had many boyfriends, but only one has had a relationship with me. Others think I'm too serious and can't stand it. Some say I'm too planned and not emotional. I've been dumped many times , received a lot of good person cards. In fact, what I want is very simple, to find someone to live a good life. Before I met you, I just wanted to find a down-to-earth person to live with. Other feelings don’t matter. But, Now, I know what it feels like to be emotionally moved. I not only want to live a life, but also live a happy life with you. Do you dislike my past? "

Anwen shook his head.

"Then it's settled. Take a rest and I'll get you a glass of water." Jing Hao turned and left after speaking.

Anwen watched Jing Hao say these words calmly, but the other party's hands trembled slightly, the other party was afraid, afraid that he would refuse.Anwen was at a loss.He felt that a person like him who would never love again was not worthy of other people's attention, but he couldn't refuse Jing Hao's words, and he also wanted to try to live again, but in this way, he always felt that he was using Jing Hao.Is this unfair to Jing Hao? Would he be too selfish?

Jing Hao came back with water and handed it to An Wen.

"Don't you think it's not worth it? I..."

"No." Jing Hao replied without waiting for An Wen to finish speaking.

"Ok?"

Jing Hao touched Anwen's head: "Don't think so much, I'm already very satisfied, at least I have a chance. I may not be the best, but it is definitely the most suitable for you. So, so... ··”

"Okay." His life was picked up by Jing Hao, and this month's stable life was also brought to him by Jing Hao, the person he was waiting for was destined to not be able to wait, why should he let this person down?

Jing Hao was taken aback for a moment, and then he was overjoyed, "Well, you don't need that, it's just as good as before."

Anwen nodded.

Jing Hao turned and went out, An Wen looked at Jing Hao's back and closed his eyes.He will work hard to make the love in his heart come alive again.

The author has something to say: ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah this is tomorrow, ah, clicked and published directly, is today a double update?

I forgot to write it before, Note [1] The original words are probably: "I want him to be happy more than anyone else in this world, but when I think that this happiness is not for me, I will still feel very sad."