vanilla affair

What Ji Sheng wanted was an answer, an answer that Gu Yuze had never thought of.But Gu Yuze always felt that this was an endless loop, and couldn't figure out why Ji Sheng valued it so much.Xia Yi is his student, but it's good to say that being labeled as gay and teacher-student relationship does have an impact on both of them, but Ji Sheng is just an outsider in his work. If he is exposed, he will be discriminated the most. Whose The hand will be stretched so long that Ji Sheng will also be taken care of.

But Gu Yuze also admitted that he was unable to consider the impact of the exposure.He is an adult, not a child who simply admires love and love, and thinks that love will last forever. He can't swear to God that he will love Ji Sheng as always.Once this relationship begins, no one can guarantee what kind of ending it will eventually lead to.So what answer can he give Ji Sheng?

Like a mountain with no edges, the combination of heaven and earth is a white lie that dares to break with the king?

No, he never could.

So showdown with him and tell him that the man in his 20s should not be obsessed with those uncertain futures?It is said that men and women still have divorce, let alone men and men?

That's not a good start.

Gu Yuze was upset, the students on the podium were elated in their ppt, but he didn't listen to a single word.

Hey, it's nice to be young, to be able to be like Xia Yi, who hooked up with someone who didn't like her, turned around and patted her butt, and then turned back to pester her.There is always longing and drive, and you can see a lot of good times to squander.There is also endless vitality and sensuality, and the love is passionate.

If Ji Sheng was three or four years younger, I don't know if he would still question him about the results and consequences.

Judging from Ji Sheng's tone, it is obvious that he has stepped on a pit before, and then he also regarded him as another pit by the way.But he is really young for three or four years, how should he face that bruised boy.

Gu Yuze frowned, flipped through the score sheet, and checked the group's show time.It's been too long.Feeling aggrieved inexplicably, he raised his hand and tapped his watch at the student who showed him.

In the pathology class and basic class these days, Mr. Gu seemed to have taken gunpowder. He kept his face straight in the class, staring into the corner, scaring the students below into silence. The basic class was originally very easy. It's all become like years.

Gu Yuze was explaining ferns and gymnosperms to the people below, when his phone vibrated, he picked it up nervously and looked at it: "Development, ticket? Dial ①3xxxxxxxxx, Chen Sheng." Spam text messages, the one I wanted the most didn't come, so my face became even darker.

He and Ji Sheng hadn't been in contact for a week, and it was the kind of no contact at all. He had no reason to send text messages to harass Ji Sheng, and Ji Sheng would not take the initiative to send him text messages.Coming out of Shuiyunju, they were like two unrelated people, each going their own way.Ji Sheng made it clear to him that this happened to be the point that Gu Yuze was most dissatisfied with.

Obviously he also felt the favor of the other party, but he had to go to tease him personally to get feedback.It is said that the party who is emotional first is easy to lose. Is he also losing ground?Gu Yuze was very irritable at this time, even Xia Yi had never been able to make him so irritable, his heart was like molten molten iron, it was so hot that his limbs and bones were all agitated.

He wanted to go to him, wanted to make it clear to him, even if he couldn't give him an answer, he wouldn't let him go.He texted Ji Sheng, wanting to talk to him, but he didn't reply.So he called his phone, but it was the notification sound of turning off the phone.So much so that he went to the flower shop first, and learned that the boss hadn't been to the shop for the past two days, and then groped to find Ji Sheng's home, which he had been to once.

There was a knock on the door, but no answer.The sensor light in the corridor was awakened, staring at the strange man, and soon fell into a deep sleep again.He called again, and it was still the mechanical female voice. He seemed to have lost all his demeanor, took out a handout and laid it on the stairwell, holding his computer bag dejectedly, and wanted to wait for him at the door of Ji Sheng's house.

He thought angrily, if Ji Sheng came up from downstairs, as long as he poked his head out in front of him, he would definitely grab him by the collar and throw him against the door, then question him loudly, calling him cowardly. Dare to face his inner feelings, and scold him for using such "sensible" reasons to ask him to make promises to those bullshit.

He waited for a long time, let alone people, not even flies flew up.The stairwell was dark and narrow, and Gu Yuze gradually felt a little bored. He checked his phone, it was almost ten o'clock, and he had sat for long enough, but where did Ji Sheng fool around?Are you still home by this hour?

Did you go to a bar?He suddenly remembered the dim and blurred scene, and a strange portrait immediately appeared in front of his eyes: the young man sitting in the corner was stared at by hunters one after another, drinking wine and amber, he would be drowsy, and then let nature take its course fell into someone else's arms.

Gu Yuze felt a pain in his hand. It turned out that he had unknowingly clenched his fist, and his nails were sunk deep in his palm due to angry imagination.He stood up, rubbed his sore knees and legs from sitting for a while, and patted Ji Sheng's door for the last time.

The voice control light came on, which made Gu Yuze's eyes sore.He felt that he was really stupid. After the age of 20, he never squatted outside the door of the person he liked, begging for forgiveness, or waiting for a meeting.What happened to him now?Does he really like Ji Sheng so much?I like him so much that I forget my age, calmness and self-restraint...

Gu Yuze leaned against the door dejectedly, waiting for the lights to go out suddenly.He took out his cell phone and called Zheng Chengfei, wanting to ask Ruan Tianyu about Ji Sheng.

Ruan Tianyu answered the phone and chattered on, saying that Ji Sheng had gone home a few days ago, not in the rented house in City G, but his hometown in Yuncheng; he only said that something happened at home, without specifics, Just left in a hurry.Ruan Tianyu didn't know the exact address of his home in Yuncheng, so he could only tell which district it was from his impression.

"What do you want to do? You don't want to chase Ji Sheng, do you? He didn't say he won't come back, why are you in a hurry. Besides, the area where his family lives is so big, how do you find it? House by house Knock on the door? Hey, don't be so impulsive!"

Ruan Tianyu wanted to say something else, but Gu Yuze couldn't take it anymore, hung up the phone and hurried home to book a bus ticket and ask for leave.There are not many times in life that you can be impulsive, and there are not many people who are so eager to catch.

When he left Yuncheng, he was just an adult, and he was standing at the station dragging his suitcase, with only his mother, Xie Min, coming to see him off behind him.Ji Chengjun didn't know whether it was because of guilt or other reasons, but he finally admitted his sexual orientation, but he was still disappointed and alienated from him.The old man wanted to see this grandson off, but since the incident with Chen Yun, his grandfather fainted, his health has been deteriorating, and he is no longer in good spirits. In the end, his parents would not let the old man come to such a crowded place.

Because his father didn't want to see him, and because he felt guilty towards the older generation, Ji Sheng seldom went back to live in Yuncheng.During winter and summer vacations, he would stay in school for the reason of internship, and would only go back during the Chinese New Year.On the contrary, as the younger sister Ji Shiyan grew older, she became more and more familiar with her brother, especially after knowing her brother's sexual orientation...

The news that grandpa was hospitalized again this time was revealed to him by Ji Shiyan.She stood at the exit gate of the station, stood on tiptoe and waved to her brother in the crowd, and with a small satchel in her arms, she swiftly passed through the passing passengers like a fish, and in the blink of an eye, she jumped in front of Ji Sheng.

"I've only heard that the plane was delayed, but I didn't expect the high-speed train to be delayed by an hour. It's amazing." Ji Shiyan hadn't seen this brother for a long time, so she grabbed his arm and complained with a pout.

Ji Sheng rubbed her head: "Waiting for a long time?" Ji Shiyan is eight years younger than him, still in the second grade of high school, a typical ghostly girl.

"Oh, not at all~" Ji Shiyan raised her head and made a face at Ji Sheng, "Brother, it doesn't matter how long it takes. We haven't seen each other for so long, do you miss me?"

"Did you run out of pocket money?"

Ji Shiyan murmured: "That's not what I mean, why do you keep arranging me!" She tugged at the corner of Ji Sheng's clothes again, "Go home first, put your things down, Mom specially made a table of dishes."

Ji Sheng nodded: "Okay. Is Dad at home?"

"We're in the hospital. We're going to change shifts after dinner." Ji Shiyan glanced at Ji Sheng's instantly gloomy face, and said quickly, "Don't worry, grandpa's health has never been particularly good, and this time it's an old problem, insist on eating There is nothing serious about the medicine. It was because Dad was worried, and he insisted on forcing Grandpa to stay in the hospital for a few days, and Grandpa was so angry that he was going to jump."

An old problem... This old problem is actually not old, Ji Sheng thought.When he was young, his grandfather was always in good health. He walked with wind on his feet and was happy all day long. He always felt that his grandfather was the healthiest old man in the world.Ji Sheng pursed her lips, Ji Shiyan felt that he was probably sad again, and carefully held her brother's wrist.

My brother is always like this. Every time he returns to Yuncheng, he looks preoccupied, not even as relaxed as in their video chat.When her brother transferred to another school, Ji Shiyan was living with her grandma at her aunt's place. When she got home, she felt that the atmosphere of the whole house had changed.Grandpa seemed to be several decades old, and my brother stayed in the room all day long and didn't come out, and he didn't play with her anymore.She arrived very late, and only after Ji Sheng had left Yuncheng for two or three years did she overhear the details from her parents' conversation.

At that time, Ji Shiyan, who was a little ghost at the time, secretly inquired about it, but she actually found Chen Yun's place of work. She ran to Chen Yun's school as soon as school was over, followed Chen Yun home, and she didn't let anyone know about it!

Brother is such a gentle person, this shameless old man must have framed him!Ji Shiyan secretly threw a few bags of leftovers to the door of Chen Yun's house, and stopped this teasing behavior only after she was almost caught.

"I'm fine." Ji Sheng felt his sister's small movements, and held her hand behind his back, "Let's go home."