hell make me fall in love

Shen Anxing doesn't care whether the big white bear is a carrot or not.

Because no matter which one it is, it will definitely not be able to stay in his hands for more than a day.As long as his father sees it, it will have to go to the trash can to be recycled and turn into ashes.

But Liu Xu looked at him with sparkling eyes, and Shen Anxing couldn't tell this matter out.

There was no other way, Shen Anxing twitched the corners of his mouth, and said falteringly: "It's all...all fine."

"All right?"

Liu Xu rubbed his chin, looking a bit embarrassed.After pondering for a while, he said to Shen Anxing again: "Alright then, I will catch both of them for you."

Shen Anxing: "...???"

……no.

Isn't the logic of ordinary people just grab one and come up with it! ? !

Shen Anxing had never received such a big gift in his life, and subconsciously wanted to refuse, but before he could say anything, Liu Xu grabbed his wrist, turned his head and ran away.

3 minute later.

Shen Anxing hugged a one-meter-long carrot and a one-meter-long big white bear, feeling like he was about to be suffocated: "..."

Liu Xu, the right hand of the god, who managed to get all these two big things up with four coins each, was very satisfied with this scene: "As expected of me!"

Shen Anxing: "..."

Indeed, as expected of you.

Why is the first grader so good at catching dolls!

As if seeing through what Shen Anxing was thinking, Liu Xu laughed a few times, while spinning the game coins in his hand, he said: "My sister likes this kind of doll very much, and when we were young, we always looked for claw machines to catch it. She is very good at playing and always can't catch it, and I help her catch it every time, so I am very good at catching this thing."

After hearing this, Shen Anxing struggled to reveal his head from the two oversized furry dolls. After watching Liu Xu speechless for a while, he said in an awkward and soft voice: "You seem to... like your sister very much. ?”

Liu Xu laughed: "After all, she is my sister, who grew up together."

Shen Anxing: "..."

After hearing this, Shen Anxing was silent for a while, lowered his head, and drooped his eyes.

Liu Xu saw all this in his eyes.

He probably guessed the reason for this - Shen Anxing, as a person whose family environment could no longer be described as "unhealthy", would of course be subconsciously envious when he heard this kind of relationship that could accompany each other.

Add in those painfully twisted pasts, and it's not out of the question to get a little jealous.

But with Shen Anxing's personality, he must know that jealousy is not acceptable.

……Can……

Liu Xu fell silent.

After scolding him head and face and then calmed down, Liu Xu realized it belatedly, and also became puzzled.

Shen Anxing grew up in such a family, how could he become such a person?

Although it is inappropriate to think this way, it must be admitted that in such a family, it is very likely that a rebellious child with anti-social personality will be created.

Not like Shen Anxing.

Although Shen Anxing was autistic and indifferent, he could be considered to have a peaceful personality - it was difficult to create such a person in such a deformed family environment.

In a sense, this is not a good thing.

After all, in such an environment, this character is actually the source of suffering.

If it wasn't for such a gentle personality, if he could be more self-destructive and arrogant... Although his personality would become distorted, at least he wouldn't be as uncomfortable as he is now.

The peace and gentleness born in pain will naturally not hurt others, but it will hurt yourself the most.

Liu Xu could understand it all.

He really wanted to ask Shen An what he was doing, why his personality was not distorted in this environment, didn't he hate them, and didn't want to take revenge on them?

But Liu Xu also felt that it was so stupid to ask this question to expose his scars after celebrating his birthday... It's really stupid.

After standing still and silent for a while, Liu Xu suddenly smiled again, thinking, forget it, fuck it, Shen Anxing's doing this is fine.

He walked over and grabbed Shen Anxing again.

Liu Xu said: "Give these two things to the staff, let them help you dress up, let's go play! Today is your birthday, don't be so dejected!"

Shen Anxing: "..."

He was grabbed by Liu Xu and ran away again.

After handing over the two ridiculously large dolls to the front desk, Liu Xu took him back to the game hall to play other games.

The two of them went to grab the dolls again, shot baskets, played gun battles, played arcade machines, and left the game hall after spending all the coins.

When I came out, it was past eight o'clock.

The two went to the front desk to get the big white bear and carrots.Afterwards, Liu Xu said that he wanted to make a phone call, and after asking Shen Anxing to get something, he walked out of the game hall.

Liu Xu's two huge trophies have been vacuum-packed by the front desk, and they have become shriveled and shriveled, much smaller in size.

Shen Anxing walked out carrying it.

He went out to take a look, and saw Liu Xu on the phone with his hands in his pockets.

The sound from the game hall behind was too loud, and Shen Anxing couldn't hear what he was talking to the other side of the phone.

After he walked over, he only heard Liu Xu perfunctorily saying "Mmm, it's okay" on the other side of the phone, and hung up after a few sentences.

Liu Xu turned his head and put the phone back in his pocket.Seeing Shen Anxing coming out, he turned his head sideways, smiled at him, and said, "You have no place to go tonight, do you? How about going to sleep at my house? No one is here."

Shen Anxing: "...Yes, yes."

Liu Xu nodded: "That's it. Let's go, go home."

After half an hour.

Shen Anxing and Liu Xu came to the door of Yueqing's apartment.

Shen Anxing has been here several times.Although the time was not long, in the past few days, he came here every day to wait for Liu Xu to go to school, and after school, he sent him back here before going home.

But this is the first time he wants to enter Liu Xu's house.

Shen Anxing's expression tensed up visibly.

Liu Xu could see that he was nervous at a glance, a little dumbfounded: "Why are you nervous, no one in my family is here."

While saying this, he dragged Shen Anxing into the apartment area.

Shen Anxing had never been to such a lofty place in his life, his whole body was tense, his whole body was stiff, and his expression was solemn and scared.

Everything in the high-end apartment complex is high-end, not to mention the fountain sculptures and flower pavilions, even the street lamps on the roadside have complex and delicate patterns.

Every corner here is telling him——Liu Xu is really, really rich.

At least for Shen Anxing, the people who can live here are definitely very rich.

It is almost 08:30 now, which is not too late, and there are still many people downstairs.

Although everyone's aura is different, against the background of this apartment complex, everyone looks very aura.

Even the old man who walks his dog looks like a billionaire.

Everything here is dazzling.

Shen Anxing didn't dare to be too exaggerated, but he was very curious. He kept looking around cautiously along the way, and when someone accidentally bumped into his line of sight, he would get terrified and quickly look away.

Seeing all this, Liu Xu wanted to laugh.

He led Shen An into the apartment building, got on the elevator again, and pressed down on the ninth floor.

After pressing the floor, he turned his head again and said to Shen Anxing, "Don't be nervous, Brother Xing, there's nothing to be nervous about."

"..."

Shen Anxing didn't say anything, but his palms were already sweating from nervousness.

The two got off the elevator, and Liu Xu led Shen Anxing straight to the house on the left.

The door is fingerprint unlocked.Liu Xu walked up, stretched out his index finger to stick it on it, and with a brisk bell sounding very technological, the door opened with a click.

The two walked into the room, and Liu Xu reached out and patted on the light switch.

Liu Xu's home is also beautifully decorated.As soon as you enter the house, you will find the living room. The living room is covered with a white wool carpet and leads directly to a huge floor-to-ceiling window. Outside the floor-to-ceiling window is an open-air balcony. Next to the balcony is the staircase leading to the second floor.

This is a duplex.

...Damn it, a living room is more than half of their house.

Shen Anxing's eyes twitched.

Liu Xu changed into his slippers and walked into the house.Seeing that Shen Anxing was stunned and did not move, Liu Xu gently pushed his arm.

"Let's go, Brother Xing, let's go to the house to celebrate your birthday." Liu Xu said, "There are still more than three hours until twelve o'clock, don't waste it."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing changed his slippers in a proper manner, and followed Liu Xu into the room.

He was inexplicably uncomfortable in this kind of place, and couldn't help shrinking his body, his expression was so tense that he was straining.

Shen Anxing asked him in a low voice: "Why is there no one in your house?"

"Aunt Wang has a party at home tonight, my sister has gone back to school, and my parents are away all year round."

Liu Xu casually replied these few words, then walked to the kitchen, opened the upper shelf of the refrigerator, and as expected, saw the meal that Aunt Wang had prepared for him before she left, and told him to eat it after heating it up.

This is the meal Aunt Wang made for him at 05:30 tonight, but when it was ready, Liu Xu found that he had forgotten his math homework, so he hurried back to school.

Aunt Wang had to go to the party, so she had no choice but to cover him with plastic wrap and put it in the refrigerator before leaving.

And that sudden call in the supermarket was a call to ask him if he had gone home to eat or not.

Liu Xu took out the food plate by plate.

Aunt Wang made the standard one-person serving, and it seemed unreasonable for two people to eat.

...But he still bought that, so much should be enough to eat...

Liu Xu was silent for a while, just at this moment, someone rang the doorbell of his house.

The person who rang the doorbell shouted: "Hello, takeaway—"

Shen Anxing: "...?"

He turned his head and asked, "Did you order takeaway?"

"Hmm."

Liu Xu responded casually, then put down the food and opened the door to get takeaway.

5 minute later.

Shen Anxing looked at the cream cake spread out on the table, and fell silent.

It was an unremarkable strawberry cream cake with ordinary decoration, except for a piece of chocolate standing in the center, with "Happy Birthday" written on it in white cream.

Very ordinary, very plain, but also very clean and beautiful.

... Come to think of it, when Liu Xu said he was going to make a phone call when he left the game hall, he called this cake shop to place an order for takeaway.

"Why don't you have a cake for your birthday?"

While talking, Liu Xu took out a candle.The age difference between the people in the same class was only one or two years at most, so he knew about Shen Anxing's age without thinking about it.

There is no room for so many candles on the cake, so Liu Xu only put six or seven candles on it.

"They say birthday cake wishes can't be said and only one a year."

Liu Xu lit the candles with the match given by the cake shop, and said, "So you have to think about what you want to promise, think about it quickly, and I'll turn off the lights after lighting."

He concentrated on striking the matches and lighting the candles, and naturally he didn't see Shen Anxing's obviously wrong expression.

Shen Anxing didn't look at the cake or the candles.

He looked at Liu Xu.

His eyes fixed on Liu Xu's body, and after that, he felt his nose sour for no reason.

Shen Anxing opened his mouth slightly, he felt that he had to say something, but he didn't know what to say.

Since no one had ever celebrated his birthday, he didn't know what to say and what to do.

——He never had a birthday, even when he was very young, when he should be loved by his parents the most.

After his mother Zuo Baiyu gave birth to him, Shen Xun never returned home.

So Zuo Baiyu beat him and scolded him, blamed him for not acting like a baby, blamed him for not studying well, blamed him for not being smart enough, blamed him for not being cute enough, blamed him for not being able to keep Shen Xun's heart, blamed him for being a waste and a burden.

She only had Shen Xun in her eyes, not Shen Anxing.

So Shen Anxing didn't know until after entering kindergarten that his birthday was the day he came into this world, and he had to celebrate it.

Before that, he didn't even know what a birthday was.

He was still young at that time, but listening to the sounds around him in the kindergarten, Shen Anxing clearly knew that he was not loved by his mother.

But he longs to be loved.

more eager than now.

So after returning home that day, he carefully tugged at the corner of Zuo Baiyu's clothes, and said softly to her, "All other children have their birthdays."

But he never expected that Zuo Baiyu would lose his temper and smash the glass in his hand on the ground, smashing it to pieces on the spot.

Then, she grabbed Shen Anxing, who was only four or five years old at the time, and started scolding him and beating him hysterically——

"Birthday!? What kind of birthday do you have the nerve to celebrate!?!"

"Do you know how much effort it took me to give birth to you!? I gave birth to you, such a waste, and I still spend money on you to give you that stupid birthday!?"

"What's wrong with you compared to others!? You don't need to compare yourself to these!? Your dad won't come back today!! Do you know that your dad won't come back again!?! Don't you hurry up and think about it! Find a way for my old lady to catch him back!!"

"Do you know that your dad has a woman outside!? Do you want him to divorce me? You!! Do you think I'm not worthy of being your mother? Do you want to change your mother!?!"

"I can't live without your dad!! Do you know that I can't live without your dad!?!"

"Do you want me to die? You want me to die after I gave birth to you!?!"

"Why did I give birth to you, such a useless little bastard!? You fucking told me that it's your birthday!?!"

"You fucking money loser!!! Money loser!!!!!!"

——Since then, Shen Anxing has known about it.

Only the loved ones are qualified to celebrate coming into the world.

All his life, no one was happy because he came into the world.

Shen Anxing watched Liu Xu stretch out his arms to light the candles one by one and then blow out the matches, but he gradually heard more and more beatings and scoldings in his ears very inappropriately.

Those sounds of beating and scolding all came from the past, and every sentence was so hysterical that it terrified him.

But when he looked at Liu Xu, he suddenly felt nothing to fear.

Shen Anxing suddenly felt that his eyes were blurred for no reason, and his nose felt a little uncomfortable.

He blinked slightly.

Liu Xu lit all the candles, then extinguished the last match, smiled, turned around and said, "Okay..."

As soon as he jumped a syllable, the smile froze on his face.

He saw Shen Anxing looking at him, his eyes were red, and tears were streaming down from the corners of his eyes.

"...Brother Xing, it's not...!!"

Liu Xu panicked all of a sudden, he quickly stretched out his hand to pull out several pieces of paper, then crawled to the side of Shen Anxing, panicked and said: "No! What's wrong, Brother Xing!! Are you allergic to cakes! ?! Why are you crying!?!"

"...?"

Shen Anxing was startled when he heard the words, and stretched out his hand to wipe his face. After wiping away the tears on his hand, he realized that he was crying belatedly.

He was completely unaware that he was crying, a little surprised.

Unlike him, Liu Xu was so frightened that his hands trembled: "Brother Xing, don't move, I will wipe it for you..."

Shen Anxing lowered his eyes.

He shook his head, raised his head again, and called softly: "Liu Xu."

Liu Xu paused: "...?"

As soon as Shen Anxing opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was very hoarse.

He was used to it, but Liu Xu seemed startled by his hoarse voice.

Liu Xu grabbed a few pieces of paper and sat there, blinking at Shen Anxing in confusion.

Shen Anxing looked at him.

Liu Xu's eyes were very bright, as bright as a scorching sun.

A scorching sun that can illuminate the abyss and leave darkness nowhere to hide.

Shen Anxing looked at it, and suddenly felt that he was slowly falling inside.

Falling into the flames that can burn people to ashes, beyond redemption.

He sank into it.

"...Liu Xu."

Shen Anxing called him again, as if muttering.

Liu Xu thought he called this second time because he didn't get a response, so he responded embarrassingly: "...Hey, Brother Xing."

"...Thank you." Shen Anxing said, "I'm really... thank you very much."

He heard his voice trembling from the crying, as if it was about to dissipate in the air, more like it was about to be completely crushed in the scorching sun in Liu Xu's eyes.

Shen Anxing looked at Liu Xu, and suddenly heard a voice resounding somewhere in his heart.

The voice said to him, it's over.

You are done.

Why is it over?

Shen Anxing wanted to delve deeper, and even wanted to get an answer, but no voice answered him again.

He looked at Liu Xu, looked at the light in his eyes, and vaguely felt that he actually understood.