hell make me fall in love

Heyan is the riverside of an unknown river, just beside the city center.

The riverside of this river is blocked by stone railings, and the riverside Liu Xu mentioned, among the people living in this city, usually refers to the road next to the stone railings.

This road is quiet, along the river from east to west, the river is on the left, and the big trees and green grass are on the right. There is a bench every ten meters, which is a date that everyone in this city knows holy place.

Next to it is a road of green plants, so every summer, there are mosquitoes everywhere, cicadas will lie on the trees, and grasshoppers and other insects will be everywhere in the grass. Shen Anxing doesn't like to come here.

But now this time of year seems to be okay, quite quiet.

Shen Anxing sat on the bench, looked over the stone railing and looked at the river in front of him.

The night wind blows slowly.

Although he has recovered a lot after treating the injury, he still has a little pain on his body, and every time he moves around, the wound will be torn, and every time he is torn, he will twitch the corner of his mouth violently because of the pain.

Especially the injury on the head, it is still aching now, making Shen Anxing still a little groggy.

Perhaps because of this, Shen Anxing suddenly felt that today was really psychedelic.

First, He Gaohan and Ning Qiao told him that Liu Xu had admitted that he liked Wei Qing a long time ago, and that he was a complete outsider. Then when he returned home in the afternoon, he thought he could live a peaceful life for a few hours, but he didn't expect that Shen Xun didn't at all today. At work, as soon as he entered the house, he was warmly greeted with a wine bottle.

After finally getting through all of this, he just fell to the ground for a while, but then Liu Xu broke into the house and ran in, and carried him to the hospital to treat the wound——

Shen Anxing felt that today was already very unlucky, but Liu Xu dangled in front of him, and he didn't know whether today should be considered unlucky or lucky.

But there is one thing to say, Liu Xu is the most psychedelic.

Putting all these aside for now, what he said in the hospital was really psychedelic.

Shen Anxing asked him if he had something to do, but he asked back, "Can't I come to you if I have nothing to do?" After speaking, he turned around and said that he was looking for him for something.Asked him what was the matter, he said he didn't know, and brought Shen Anxing to Heyan...

... Did Liu Xu lose his mind?

With the night wind blowing, Shen Anxing couldn't help but think so.

What on earth was he purposely bringing himself here for?

Are you going to talk about something?

Is there anything I have to say here?

Shen Anxing was wondering when a bottle of orange juice suddenly appeared in front of his eyes.

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing was silent for a moment, then turned his head.

Liu Xu was holding the bottle of orange juice, looking at him with a smile on his lips.

"Here." Liu Xu shook the orange juice and said, "It can be supplemented with sugar."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing took the orange juice in his hand and thanked him.

Perhaps because he was still in pain, his voice sounded a little limp.

Liu Xu didn't care, he sat down next to Shen Anxing, heaved a sigh of relief, and asked, "Does it still hurt?"

Shen Anxing replied listlessly, "It doesn't hurt."

"It doesn't sound like it." Liu Xu said, "Didn't you promise me before that you should tell me the truth if you got hurt?"

Shen Anxing lowered his head, twisted the bottle cap and said in a muffled voice, "So this is telling the truth, isn't it?"

Liu Xu: "..."

This guy is really tough.

Liu Xu was helpless and distressed, just when he wanted to sigh to express his emotions, Shen Anxing said to him without raising his head: "I'm used to it."

Liu Xu: "..."

Liu Xu fell silent.

Shen Anxing lowered his head and twisted the bottle cap.His hand was obviously not injured, and the bottle cap, which he could usually unscrew with just one push, failed to open after rubbing it several times today.

After saying this, he finally unscrewed the lid.

He looked up and took a sip.

The orange juice was sweet and greasy, and when it slid into his throat, it somehow gave him a sense of unreality.

He put the bottle down and pursed his lips.

Liu Xu suddenly said to him: "You shouldn't get used to this kind of thing."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing didn't say a word, but his eyes wandered elsewhere.

Something deep in my heart jumped suddenly, as if agreeing with Liu Xu's words.

He tried his best to suppress this damn thing, and said to Liu Xu casually: "I can't help it, I can't choose."

Liu Xu: "...Really."

After Liu Xu finished speaking, he sighed again, and said, "That's true."

"very good already."

Shen Anxing said: "I haven't been home for a month or two...it's really good, and he will be suspicious if he doesn't go back. This is nothing compared to before...it's really good .”

Liu Xu asked: "Is it like this every time?"

"..."

Shen Anxing didn't say a word, but pursed his lips.

"I'm curious as to how you've survived until now."

Liu Xu sighed, and said again: "I can't wait to take your custody right from your father's name right now."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing's heart was moved by his words, and he was suddenly shaken as if the sky was falling apart.

He squeezed his mouth tightly, and began to press these fatal heartbeats into his heart very hard.

Shen Anxing's hand holding the bottle was a little bit harder.

"...Stop talking." Shen Anxing said, "Stop talking."

Liu Xu glanced at him, took his appearance into his eyes, then turned around and said, "That's fine, I won't talk about it."

Shen Anxing: "..."

When he said this, the shaking in Shen Anxing's heart finally calmed down a little.

He finally got out of this life-threatening heartbeat a little bit, and he breathed a sigh of relief.

But at the same time, he felt a little lost.

Shen Anxing pursed his lips.

Liu Xu asked him again: "Have you been here before?"

"... came two or three times."

"With a girlfriend?"

"No." Shen Anxing said, "I haven't found a girlfriend before."

"Really, me too."

Liu Xu laughed twice, and then said: "But when I was young, my dad always brought me and my sister. He was not as busy as he is now, and he could spare time to accompany us. At that time, every time he led us out, I must come here to check in at night, he always said that he confessed to my mother here when he was in college."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing didn't say a word, picked up the bottle and poured several sips of drink into his mouth.

Liu Xu continued to coolly say next to him: "By the way, he said he was sitting on this bench at that time."

Shen Anxing squirted.

Seeing this, Liu Xu couldn't help laughing twice, took out a tissue from his pocket, and gave Shen Anxing two.

Shen Anxing coughed a few times due to choking, then took the paper in his hand, wiped his mouth twice, and couldn't help coughing twice again.

Shen Anxing frowned slightly while wiping his mouth, and asked with a bit of displeasure: "So? You want to bring Wei Qing here to confess?"

Liu Xu: "..."

Sure enough, this misunderstanding also affected him.

Liu Xu smiled helplessly: "I don't like Wei Qing."

"...? Huh? Then who do you like?"

"you."

--you.

The moment Shen Anxing heard this word, the expression on Shen Anxing's face froze.

His mind instantly went blank, and all the painful, tangled, sad struggles that had been causing him all this time were broken into bubbles by Liu Xu's words, and disappeared into the vast ocean.

And those things that he had been suppressing so hard to keep from germinating and growing, finally found an outlet, and suddenly spewed out like crazy.

Things that are suppressed cannot be suppressed after all. The moment he slackens, they grow into a towering tree in his heart, stretching his heart until the blood vessels are about to burst. For a moment he forgot how to breathe.

Shen Anxing couldn't hear anything for a while.

But he heard Liu Xu say: "Shen Anxing, I don't have procrastination, so I decided to tell you straight to the point."

"I don't know what He Gaohan and Ning Qiao told you, but I know that you have completely misinterpreted my meaning. My original words are that I have someone I like. He is very quiet and gentle, not very talkative, but He talks a lot to me, he looks good, and he looks good when he smiles—do you understand, Shen Anxing."

Liu Xu said, "The person I'm talking about is you."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing's expression was stunned and unbelievable, his mouth was slightly opened, but he couldn't utter a single syllable.

Liu Xu's face was flushed when he spoke, and his voice began to tremble slightly after speaking.

But his eyes were firm, even though his ears were red with embarrassment and his voice trembled, he gritted his teeth and spoke.

Liu Xu said: "I know you have low self-esteem, and you certainly haven't thought about yourself, so I'll confess to you now...Shen Anxing, I really like you, I really love you, and I want to save you .”

"...If you, if you like me too, just fall in love with me."

After Liu Xu finished speaking, he stopped talking and just looked at Shen Anxing fixedly, waiting for his answer.

Liu Xu's face was flushed, but his eyes were extremely firm.

Shen Anxing hardly dared to look into his eyes, nor did he dare to answer.

The blankness in his mind was quickly turned into panic by the firmness in Liu Xu's eyes.

Shen Anxing's lips trembled, he shrank back subconsciously, and murmured: "No..."

Liu Xu probably never expected to be rejected, the firmness in his eyes was startled for a moment: "Eh?"

"no……"

While speaking, Shen Anxing shrank back subconsciously, his voice trembling in panic: "No... no, you can't like me..."

Liu Xu: "..."

After hearing this, Liu Xu faintly realized that Shen Anxing didn't seem to be rejecting him.

He didn't know what happened to Shen Anxing, so he could only murmur to him: "...Shen Anxing?"

"You can't like me... why do you like me?"

As Shen Anxing spoke, his eyes turned red.

"...what do I like?" he said, "you like me...what can you do?"

Liu Xu: "..."

He had never seen Shen Anxing like this before, he forgot to answer for a while, and just stared at him blankly, unable to react.

"I have nothing...I can't give you anything. My grades are not good, and I always spend your money...I can't do anything, and I have been a burden since I was a child...Don't like me..."

Shen Anxing cried as he spoke, two lines of tears meandering down his cheeks.

He choked up sobbing that his words were broken.

He suddenly remembered that a long time ago, when Zuo Baiyu left home, he cried and begged her not to leave.

He remembered that he was still young at the time, crying heart-piercingly with a childish voice.

"...you don't like me..."

He remembered that Zuo Baiyu kicked him hard to the ground, picked up the bag full of things in his hand, and smashed it hard on him.

[Don't drag me! ! ] Zuo Baiyu yelled at him, 【You're fucking annoying! ! ! 】

[Did I never give you a chance! ? !It's you who is too useless, you know that! ? ! 】

"...don't like me..."

【I was disgusted to death when you were born! ! ! 】

[Can you hurry up and die, why did I give birth to something useless like you! ? ! 】

"...Don't like me... Liu Xu..."

[I don't want you anymore! !No one wants you in the future! ! !Nobody wants your trash! ! ! ! 】

"...I can't keep anyone..."

Shen Anxing said: "I'm a waste...everyone...will be disappointed in me..."

"That's all right... I'm all right..."

"……I……"

Just as he was about to continue, he was grabbed by the collar.

Shen Anxing choked up in fright, and swallowed back his crying.

He subconsciously shuddered all over and closed his eyes.

But in the next moment, he was pulled into Liu Xu's embrace.

Shen Anxing was stunned and forgot to cry for a while.

It seems that he has never been hugged like this several times in his life.

This feeling was very strange, so strange that he didn't know what to do, and he didn't know how to put his hands, so he just froze in the air.

A tear didn't have time to flow down from his eyes, but after he was embraced by Liu Xu, it slowly flowed down.

"Shen Anxing." Liu Xu said, "Dating a relationship is not a deal, I don't want anything from you, I just want you."

Shen Anxing: "..."

"You don't need to have anything, I have everything. I like you, I just like you, I don't do anything, I just like you. There are so many reasons for this kind of thing, and it's not a math problem to prove... If you even have this kind of thing If you have to give reasons to prove it, that would be too boring.”

"I just like you, I want to be nice to you, I want to be nice to you, I want you to be well, I want you to go to the same school with me in the future, I will always be in love with you, I want to buy flowers for me during the holidays, and I want to be with you during the holidays. I went on a trip together, and when I got home at night, I wanted to hug and kiss me...is it a bit too much?"

Liu Xu laughed while talking, and said: "You are not a waste, Shen Anxing, a waste would not dare to beat Sun Cheng to death, and a waste can't take care of a lame person so well."

Shen Anxing: "...I am not worthy of you."

"Like is the best match."

While talking, Liu Xu let go of him, and held his face again, making him raise his head to look at her.

Liu Xu asked him: "Do you like me, Shen Anxing?"

"..."

Shen Anxing's eyes flickered, and then, tears flowed from his eyes again.

"...like it," he said, "but I can't..."

Liu Xu was helpless: "Why are you... What if I let someone else snatch me away? Did you plan to give me to Wei Qing?"

Shen Anxing nodded, then shook his head again.

"...Which one is it? Do you want to fall in love with me?"

Shen Anxing nodded again, then shook his head again.

"...So which one is it?"

Liu Xu was helpless and sighed lightly.

As soon as he finished his sigh, Shen Anxing choked up and said to him: "I...I don't want to delay you."

Liu Xu was startled when he heard that, and then smiled helplessly: "What's the delay..."

"I really don't deserve it." Shen Anxing said, "But I... I don't really want to let go. I don't want to give you to Wei Qing, but I can only give you to her... because you are too good , really, I really... I don't deserve it."

Liu Xu: "..."

"But...but if, you like me too, then I...I want to..."

When Shen Anxing said this, he lowered his head again, and said softly: "I want to wait until I graduate...and then tell you about it. If I am admitted to university and can leave here...I will fall in love with you... , when the time comes, I will...just confess to you again."

"...Can you, wait for me?"

After Shen Anxing finished speaking, he seemed to feel that his request was too inexplicable, so he choked up and added: "Of, of course, if you like someone else, you can go and fall in love with others... Don't worry about me so much, don't worry about it." You have to wait for me, I mean, if you arrive..."

"I know."

Liu Xu laughed, bowed his head and said, "I know, you don't need to say so much—I'll just wait for you."

——I'll just wait for you.

After these words, Liu Xu felt that everything around him suddenly faded away.

Night Breeze, his own voice, and even Shen Anxing's softly choked breathing were slowly fading away.

He heard the cold wind howling outside the window at night, and there was something walking around beside him, still meowing, and there was even a furry thing sweeping his face back and forth.

Liu Xu: "..."

Liu Xu woke up.

He opened his eyes, and saw that Slimy was waving its proud feather duster tail, sweeping his face wantonly.

"...Slimy." Liu Xu called it helplessly, rubbed his eyes again, stretched his waist, and said, "What are you doing..."

Sticky meowed next to him, as if complaining or urging.

Liu Xu was helpless, rubbing his eyes and turning his head.Through the cracks in the curtains, he could see that it was still dark outside.

Liu Xu turned his head again and looked around.

"...?"

Only then did he realize that something was wrong, and his drowsiness dissipated a lot.

"……Star?"

Liu Xu called out, but the bedroom was empty, and no one responded to him.

Liu Xu was stunned, but Sticky seemed to be unable to bear it any longer, stretched out his claws and pressed on his body, then raised his head, and gave him a very uncomfortable "meow" in a long tone.

And just at this moment, a clicking sound came from other rooms.

Liu Xu was taken aback.

The voice was so familiar that he recognized it as soon as he heard it - it was the voice of Bingshan, the voice of Shen Anxing's ability.

The sound pulled him out of his childhood dream.Liu Xu hastily fumbled around on the bed. After fumbling for his own glasses in a panic, he put them on indiscriminately, turned over and got out of bed, and scrambled and ran out.

Sticky seemed to have been waiting for him for a long time. When he saw him get off the bed, he also swooped forward, running ahead with his big tail up and leading the way.

As soon as he left the bedroom, Liu Xu was shocked by the cold air in the room.

Sticky seems to have gotten used to it, it dashed all the way forward bravely in the cold air.

Seeing this, Liu Xu gritted his teeth and followed it.

Goo led him to the kitchen.

As soon as he entered the kitchen, Liu Xu was so frightened by the situation in front of him that his breath became stagnant.

The lights in the kitchen were not turned on, but the night outside the window clearly illuminated the scene in the kitchen.

Shen Anxing knelt on the ground and kept vomiting blood. Two pillars of ice on his back stood up like wings, and his whole body was covered with ice of different lengths.

Shen Anxing lay on the ground, arching his back in pain, gasping for breath, blood dripping from his mouth.

He lowered his head, and there was a pool of blood under his body.

In an instant, Liu Xu seemed to have returned to the time when he was 17 years old.

He seemed to be standing at the door of Shen Anxing's house again, and saw him collapsed by the dim wall full of dark years at that moment.

He opened his mouth, but couldn't utter a single syllable.

But now he has grown a lot compared to back then. After being stunned for a moment, Liu Xu came to his senses and quickly shouted: "Stars!!"

Shen Anxing was awake, and he already knew that Liu Xu was coming.

As soon as he heard him shout, Shen Anxing shouted: "Don't come in!!!"

Liu Xu: "..."

Shen Anxing shouted loudly, took a few more breaths, gritted his teeth, and continued, "Don't come in...it's not over yet...just a while. Don't move here...just a while ,immediately--"

Just as he said this halfway, another long column of ice burst out from his shoulder, bringing out blood.

Shen Anxing spat out a mouthful of blood.

Liu Xu's heart almost burst when he saw it: "Shen Anxing!!!"

"Don't come in!!!"

Shen Anxing was in pain, but he still held back the pain and shouted to him: "I'm going to die!!! Don't move!!!"

Liu Xu: "..."

"do not move……"

Shen Anxing's breathing hurts, and every time he inhales and exhales, his nose is filled with the smell of blood, and he can hardly see clearly what is in front of him.

But he knew Liu Xu was there.

So, in a daze, he murmured to Liu Xu: "Don't move...don't move...be obedient...listen to me, Yang Hua..."

"……do not move……"

Suddenly, a long piece of ice burst out from his heart.

The iceberg came back fiercely, and the long pillar of ice protruding from his heart suddenly pushed him off the ground.

Shen Anxing never thought that there would be such an operation, and another mouthful of blood spewed out.

Liu Xu's eyes were about to burst: "Shen Anxing!!!"

Sticky was also very anxious, standing at the door and meowing inwards, helplessly and frightened, as if telling Shen Anxing to come out quickly.

At this moment, a gust of cold wind suddenly howled out from the kitchen, blowing Liu Xu's face.

Liu Xu quickly raised his hand to block it.

After whistling, the cold wind stopped, and the cold air in the room also scattered away.

Shen Anxing was forced to kneel up straight by several pillars of ice, and his blood still remained on the ice.

He hung his head, trembling with pain, looking from afar, he looked like a sinner pierced by thousands of arrows.

The cold wind dissipated, he panted, stretched out his trembling hands, held the ice on his heart, gritted his teeth and put all his strength away.

The long ice slowly dissipated, and Shen Anxing finally dropped his hands and fell face down on the ground.

Liu Xu ran over in a hurry and picked him up from the ground.

Liu Xu called him tremblingly: "Shen Anxing! Shen Anxing!!"

Shen Anxing was in so much pain that he could only respond briefly: "Mmm..."

Seeing him like this, Liu Xu's eyes immediately turned red, and tears started to fall down.

He immediately hugged Shen Anxing into his arms.

Shen Anxing was very cold, so cold that Liu Xu couldn't help shivering.

But he hugged it even harder, as if he wished that even the coldness could be integrated into his flesh and blood.

He hugged Shen Anxing tightly and choked up.

Then, he heard Shen Anxing whisper to him in a bloody voice next to his ear, "Don't cry."

"Don't cry... Yang Hua."

"I am used to it……"

It's fine if Shen Anxing doesn't say this, but when he said it, Liu Xu cried even harder.

Shen Anxing didn't have the strength to say anything anymore.

Sticky stood at the door, seemed to understand something, walked over with his ears down, meowed pitifully at Shen Anxing twice, then went to rub his one that had already turned into ice. hand.

Shen Anxing couldn't feel anything, only saw a small and vague figure.

He closed his eyes in Liu Xu's arms.