hell make me fall in love

That night, Shen Anxing really had a dream.

He dreamed of a dark and windy night, and dreamed that he was covered in blood and hurt all over, and was running desperately forward in a small woods.

He couldn't actually run because both legs hurt badly, one leg in particular, causing him to limp, roll and crawl, and fall to the ground every now and then.

But after running and falling, he didn't care about the pain, and every time he got up quickly and ran forward - because there was someone chasing him behind.

He heard the man yelling and cursing angrily, as always, scolding him for being born a bitch, calling him useless and calling him a waste of money.

Shen Anxing felt that he had never been so afraid in his life.

He turned his head and saw Shen Xun smoking a cigarette in the darkness, and the smoke stars were shining faintly in the darkness.

He saw that Shen Xun was holding a stick in his hand, and the stick was already covered with his blood.

He saw Shen Xun running towards him quickly.

Shen Xun was chasing him.

Shen Anxing became more and more frightened when he saw it. One of them didn't pay attention, and fell to the ground again, and a branch with sharp thorns plunged into his hand.

Regardless of the pain, he quickly got up again, and then ran forward.

His face was covered with mud and blood, and he walked around in the woods, not knowing where he was going, but he had to run.

Otherwise you will die.

He had already passed out of breath from running, and it became very difficult to breathe, and the injuries on his body became more and more painful.It was dark all around, and he couldn't see where the way forward was.

But he wants to escape.

Panting and crawling forward in the darkness, he suddenly slipped on the sole of his foot, lost his balance and fell forward.

Shen Anxing yelled, and when he lowered his head again, he saw that there was a big downhill below, and at the bottom was a river.

Shen Anxing's face turned pale.

He suddenly woke up from the dream, sat up in a jerk, and began to breathe heavily.

The pain just now seemed to be still vivid in his memory, he quickly reached out and touched his head, and then quickly touched his two legs.

All intact.

Shen Anxing turned his head.

Liu Xu slept soundly next to him, with one hand still holding on to the corner of his clothes, his head took up a small half of his pillow, and his own pillow was left alone to dry.Sticky lay on his pillow, blinking his eyes at Shen Anxing in the darkness.

It wasn't until seeing Liu Xu that Shen Anxing finally felt at ease.

Immediately afterwards, he suddenly became inexplicably wronged, and two lines of tears began to fall down.

He leaned over, hugged Liu Xu slowly, buried his head in Liu Xu's neck, and choked up slightly.

Liu Xu slept soundly, but subconsciously opened his hand and hugged him.

Then, he was slowly awakened by the choking sound in his ear.

It was getting dark outside, and it was still midnight, so Liu Xu was a little dazed.He tried his best to open his eyes, touched Shen Anxing who was pressing on him, and said in a vague voice, "Stars?"

Shen Anxing replied twice with a trembling voice.

"What's the matter..." Liu Xu hugged him and patted his back, asking, "Did you really dream about it?"

Shen Anxing choked in his arms and hummed.

He said: "I dreamed... I dreamed... I dreamed that day...someone knocked me out..."

"Then... I was tied up and put in the trunk of the car... Then, he pulled me to a very remote place."

Shen Anxing choked with sobs, and said to Liu Xu: "He is holding a stick...he wants to beat me to death."

Liu Xu: "..."

Liu Xu gradually became sleepless after listening to it, and his teeth itched with hatred in a daze.

He gritted his teeth, reached out to touch Shen Anxing, pressed him into his arms, patted his back to comfort him, and said, "It's okay, it's all fake."

Shen An was wronged and wronged, and the scenes in the dream were still vivid in his memory.

He said he didn't care that Shen Xun wanted to kill him, but when he was in that scene, those dark years that he thought he had buried deep in his heart and let him go all rushed up uncontrollably.

Only then did Shen Anxing discover that he had a psychological shadow.

A long, long time ago, since he was a child, Shen Xun had violently carved these into his bones. No matter how long it has passed, and no matter whether he feels calm or hard to accept, he will be terrified by these fears. Shaking all over.

He hugged Liu Xu, trembling with fright.

But with Liu Xu here, he also calmed down a lot.

Shen Anxing swallowed his saliva, then stabilized his emotions, and continued: "...he beat me half to death, seeing that I was covered in blood, he thought I couldn't run anymore...so he let me go .”

Hunter psychology.

Liu Xu thought, Shen Xun was used to being condescending, and he was so elated that he did such a stupid thing.

"... Then, I ran away." Shen Anxing said, "He chased me...but it was too dark around, I didn't pay attention when I ran, fell down the slope and fell into the river."

Liu Xu hummed twice, patted him on the back lightly to coax him, and asked, "And then?"

"Then……"

Shen Anxing murmured and tilted his head in his arms, pondering for a moment.

As the dream just ended, many things slowly flooded into his mind the moment he woke up.

He tried to think back, and saw many things came to his eyes.

"Then... I was picked up by someone."

Shen Anxing was silent for a while when he said this, then raised his head, and said to Liu Xu with some difficulty: "It's the face of the judge of Bingshan Hell."

Liu Xu: "........."

He looked at Shen Anxing speechlessly.

Shen Anxing was also looking at him.

The curtains were drawn by the bed, and the room was dark.In this darkness, Liu Xu met Shen Anxing's eyes for a moment, and then he couldn't help laughing, a helpless and distressed smile.

When he smiled like that, Shen Anxing couldn't help laughing too.

"It's really possible." Liu Xu said, "But it's true when you think about it. Your seven years are empty, and there is no way for you to pinch someone out for you, and maybe it can't be helped."

Shen Anxing let out a "hmm".

"And then?" Liu Xu asked him again, "Why haven't you come back these seven years? How did they make it up?"

"I lost my memory." Shen Anxing said, "I hit my head when I fell into the water. After the judge picked me up, he took me to the hospital immediately. The doctor said that my memory was damaged."

"Later, the judge took me to the police station again, but the place was too far away, and the police station couldn't do face comparison, so the judge adopted me, went through the admission procedures for me at the police station, and sent me to school. I went to I repeated my third year of high school, took the college entrance examination again, and entered a university... the score line was the same as the one I took the exam when I died."

"I studied Chinese language at X University. After graduation, I went to write for a newspaper and worked for two years."

"Last month, the judge 'passed away' and left me a legacy. I also remembered these things, so I came back here to find you."

Liu Xu felt as if he was listening to an old internet article. For a moment, he felt helpless and amused, and couldn't help but said, "What kind of magical plot is this? Don't your judge be a godfather."

Shen Anxing was also helpless: "He is not, he has always been mysterious, and he doesn't know what he is doing. There is no way, the judge."

"Indeed. But having said that, isn't your education... counted as fake?"

Shen Anxing shook his head and said, "It shouldn't be counted, because I remember all the classes and exams I took, and I remember them clearly, just like I have really been there for four years."

When Liu Xu heard this, he nodded and felt relieved: "Then it seems that everything has been properly arranged."

Although it was a bit of a foul, Shen Anxing's score in the college entrance examination was very high, and he could have gone to college back then.

His seven years as a night watchman have not been easy, and it doesn't seem too much for hell to give him an extra degree to make him not out of tune with the world.

Liu Xu thought about it, and then said what was in his heart: "Thinking about it this way, they made it up very reasonable. In this way, you have education and experience, and you can be considered a fraud... Maybe this kind of No matter how the plot is made up, it will sound magical."

Shen Anxing smiled helplessly: "After all, this matter is very magical."

"really."

Liu Xu responded again, reached out and patted him on the shoulder, and said, "Actually, I also dreamed about it just now. My side hasn't changed much, it's still the same. Your father disgusted me at your funeral, and I stayed with him The police station shouted, your mother must ask me to give him the things."

Shen Anxing hugged him, and after hearing this, he asked again: "Speaking of...why did she ask you to give her things? Didn't she never care about me?"

Shen Anxing wanted to ask him about this for a long time.

After all, in his memory, Zuo Baiyu really wanted him to disappear in place, Shen Xun was a stain in her life, and he was also an existence she wished to completely erase in her life.

A person who didn't even go to the funeral, why did he come to ask for his belongings later?

No matter how you think about it, it's strange.

"She never cared about you." Liu Xu said, "But, man is a very strange thing—about half a month after you died, when I went to visit your grave, I saw her in the corner I don't know what I'm doing. You didn't bring me to see your mother, and I didn't know it was her."

"Later, when she saw me making offerings to you, she came up to speak."

"What do you think she said?"

Shen Anxing: "...what to say."

"She asked me if I was your classmate, I said yes, I said I was your partner..."

As Liu Xu talked, he fell into memories.

He remembered that it was still a very sunny day.It was always sunny when Shen Anxing died, God really didn't give him face.

At that time, he was standing in front of Shen Anxing's grave.The woman walking towards him had beautiful big waves, a beautiful white dress, and a big sunshade hat with a black bow tied around it.

Her skin is cold and pale, with a pair of sleepy phoenix eyes, and her eyebrows are drooping. There looks a bit of bitterness and hatred between her eyebrows and eyes, but she is very beautiful, as good-looking as Shen Anxing.

Liu Xu shook his head at that time.

She looks so much like Shen Anxing, Liu Xu suspected for a moment that he was bewildered by reality, and could actually see others as Shen Anxing.

But she is not after all.

Zuo Baiyu walked over slowly step by step, nodded slightly at him, glanced at Shen Anxing's tombstone quietly, then turned to ask him, do you know him?

Liu Xu was stunned again, and then said, yes, I am his boyfriend.

When Zuo Baiyu heard this answer, he was immediately shocked.

After being stunned for a few seconds, she smiled dryly and said to him, "Are you kidding?"

Liu Xu said, "No."

"...Don't joke around the grave."

"..."

Seeing that she didn't believe her, and didn't want to argue with her in front of Shen Anxing's grave, and didn't bother to argue with her, Liu Xu sighed, turned to look at the tombstone, and fell silent.

Zuo Baiyu thought he had been hit, and was embarrassed to say anything in front of the grave.

She lowered her eyes and said, "I'm sorry, because I'm his mother, so I can't hear this kind of joke."

"..."

As soon as these words came out, Liu Xu gave her another look.

"Mom?" Liu Xu said in a cold voice, "Is that the mother who answered his phone when he was young and listened to him cry and told him to die?"

Zuo Baiyu: "..."

Zuo Baiyu couldn't help but slightly frowned and pursed her lips tightly after seeing the thing she didn't want to think of.

"...I did that," she said. "I admit...it was wrong to do that."

As she spoke, she turned around, faced the tombstone, and reached out to take off the big sun hat on her head.

"He called me at the kid's funeral."

Zuo Baiyu said softly.

"I didn't answer the phone. Then he texted me and told me that the child died in a car accident and told me to go to the funeral."

"I panicked all of a sudden." Zuo Baiyu said, "I called him and told him not to make such jokes. The child visited my store the day before yesterday, and I just saw him."

"He laughed at me and said he was really dead."

"It was only later that he sent a death notice to my friend and a link to the news. I didn't know it was true...I didn't know that he was the one who died in the car accident outside the mall that day."

"I really panicked."

"I don't like this child. When he was young, he wasn't smart, he didn't know how to act like a baby, he was stupid, he couldn't laugh, and he would cry and say sorry to me every day. The first words he learned when he was a child were neither called mother nor mother. Dad, I'm sorry."

"It's not cute at all." Zuo Baiyu said, "But I don't really want him to die... I just want him to disappear with his father and stop having anything to do with me."

"I have a new life now, with a very good daughter and a husband who loves me very much, so I..."

"...so I panicked."

"...I don't know what to say about it, I don't want him to die...I just think...this marriage is a failure, so he is a failure, and I want to put everything about this relationship in the dark Throw it away."

"...I don't want him to die. Although I say let him die...I don't really want him to die."

"I've seen the news. There are videos taken by passers-by in the news... I saw him covered in blood and being carried on a stretcher."

"... I don't know why, these days I always think about the past, and I always dream... I dream that I beat him and scold him, I dream that he calls me, crying and begging me to pick him up, and I dream of He came to me in the store that day and told me he hated me, hated me all the time."

"To be honest... I was really scared when I saw him."

"He's already so tall." Zuo Baiyu said, "It's not easy for him...I also know that he must hate me very much."

As Zuo Baiyu spoke, his eyes turned red.

She said: "I knew I did something wrong, so I didn't dare to face him, and I didn't go to the funeral... Now that he is dead, I am also responsible."

"But I've been dreaming about him these days, and he must be dreaming for me down here." Zuo Baiyu said, "After he died, he must have regretted it too, regretted telling me he hated me...he must have missed me of."

Liu Xu felt a little nauseous when he heard it.

He frowned tightly, turned his head, and said in a bad tone, "What exactly do you want to say?"

Zuo Baiyu pursed his lips, took a breath, and smiled at him: "I heard people say...his things are here with you."

"Just give it to me. You are just a classmate, and I am his mother."

"You will forget about him one day." Zuo Baiyu said to him, "Give me those things... It's been many years late, I'll pick him up and leave."

——Shen Anxing hugged Liu Xu, after hearing what he said, he was already very nauseous.

He frowned slightly and said, "I can't bear it... What did you say after that?"

Liu Xu: "...Me."

He thought about it.

He was very angry.

So he turned around and said to her, "Don't put gold on your face."

Zuo Baiyu: "..."

"Are you really going to be forgiven for everything you do as a mother?" Liu Xu said, "He has had such a miserable life in the past ten years, have you appeared once? Obviously there are so many years of opportunities for you to save him and make him less I hate you a little, why did you wait until now."

"You speak so nicely, but in the end you just don't want to be hated by him. You beat him and scold him to make him die, you just want to scare him but don't want to be hated by him. After all, you are such an unreasonable bastard."

"You just bully the dead and you won't open your mouth, bullying him will never refuse again. You still haven't changed, you are still beating him, scolding him and forcing him, you don't want to repent, it's just that he said that he hates you and you have a conscience after death You are in trouble, so you have to deceive yourself and force the dead to forgive you."

"Let me tell you, it's already too late." Liu Xu said, "You're already dead, it's too late for you to do anything, he will never forgive you."

"He hated you when he was alive, but how could he miss you when he died? What would he miss about you? Did he miss you beating him, scolding him, beating him up, or missing you all these years, or missing you over and over again? He's going to die?"

Zuo Baiyu's face turned pale and blue at what he said, and he couldn't hold back his face for a while, and cursed: "Shut up!! What do you know, you, who do you think you are! Here—"

"I'm his boyfriend."

Zuo Baiyu: "..."

"I said it from the beginning." Liu Xu said, "I know him better than you, you didn't even take him seriously when you named him - you want your love to move forward safely, Move forward, so call him Shen Anxing."

"So he can't keep Shen Xun, so you scold him." Liu Xu said, "What do you think of him?"

Zuo Baiyu's face turned blue from what he said, and after gnashing his teeth for a long time, he cursed again: "Shut up!! Don't talk about anything here!! What boyfriend, what do you mean by him? Boyfriend!? Are you perverted!! Are you going to give it or not!?!"

"No." Liu Xu said, "It's mine, and I won't give it to anyone."

"—Then she said she was going to call the police." Liu Xu said, "Later she really went to call the police. I had an argument with her at the police station, and finally the things were returned to me."

Shen Anxing's heart ached when he heard that, he pulled him into his arms again, and whispered in his ear, "Thank you for your hard work, don't talk to her from now on."

Liu Xu smiled helplessly: "I don't want to talk to her, these are trivial things... Go to bed early, since you really remember it, report to the police station tomorrow, and then we will go to Christmas."

Shen Anxing responded: "Okay."

His "good" was "good", but after saying "good", he still hugged Liu Xu tightly and didn't let go.

After hugging her like this for another minute, Liu Xu said helplessly, "Xing Xing? Aren't you going to sleep?"

"Just sleep like this."

Shen Anxing rubbed against his neck and said, "Don't worry."

Liu Xu: "..."

Liu Xu smiled lightly, and also tilted her head to rub against him.

"Indeed," he said, "good night then."

Shen Anxing clung to him tightly.Drowsiness had already hit him, he became drowsy, and replied in a sticky voice: "Good night..."