hell make me fall in love

After Liu Xu heard his words, there was a loud bang in his head, and all the previous messy thoughts were blasted into a blank.

Without even thinking about it, he grabbed Shen Anxing who was about to walk in and grabbed him back, and shouted: "Wait!!"

With Liu Xu's strength, Shen Anxing was dragged back two or three steps by him at once. He turned his head again and looked at him with a blank face - counting the time in another room before, this time It was Liu Xu who dragged him back in the iceberg hell for the second time.

Shen Anxing looked at a loss, not knowing what he was going to do, his eyes were full of doubts.

Liu Xu dragged him back, dragged him back, but he didn't know what to say for a moment.

After the blankness passed, his heart was in turmoil. Many past and present tenderness, cruelty, coldness, warmth, and even things that frightened him all came to mind together, creating a grand confusion of what to do.

Liu Xu was almost at a loss, Shen Anxing's words to send him home caught him off guard.He only had time to subconsciously drag Shen Anxing back to stop him, but he didn't know what to do.

He dragged Shen Anxing, and after being at a loss for a long time, he finally opened his mouth, stuttered and asked, "You...what are you going to do?"

When Liu Xu faced Shen Anxing, he never knew how to hide, and he never could hide.

Therefore, Shen Anxing could easily see his panic.He was stunned, stuttered, and said, "I...I want to take you home....You have to go home."

"You always have to go home".

Liu Xu felt a sudden pain in his heart when he was hit by these words, and Shen Anxing pulled him back from the dream of the iceberg hell to the reality of the human world, remembering the past seven years.

In the past, there were seven years without Shen Anxing.

... Yes, Shen Anxing is right.

Liu Xu always wants to go home.

He's alive, he's not dead, he's coming home.

He will definitely go back to the home where Shen Anxing is not present, and then live the days when he is alone and walks through the long dark night alone.

And such days are destined to continue for a long, long time.

In Liu Xu's next life, he is destined to have many more "seven years" - without Shen Anxing, and without a sky full of stars, seven years after another.

Liu Xu knew it.

He is very clear.Following Shen Anxing along the way, he was slowly digesting this fact.

Shen Anxing, who was pulling him forward now, would still disappear after this dark night.

He had already died in that summer, and the one who died would never come back.

This principle has clearly penetrated into Liu Xu's bones for seven years.

Therefore, he hoped that this dark night would be longer, and longer.

Long enough to make up for the past seven years, long enough to heal every seven years after that.

Therefore, Liu Xu took a few breaths and said to Shen Anxing, "Don't... I'm not in a hurry to go home."

His voice trembled.

Shen Anxing looked at him and found that his eyes were full of longing.

It was the same as the night in his sophomore year when he discovered that Liu Xu was actually afraid of ghosts.

But something was different, this time, besides longing, there were many other things in his eyes.

Liu Xu said to him: "Xing Xing, let's take our time... shall we?"

Like that night, Liu Xu began to speak incoherently again.

He said: "You think... I will go to hell in the future, you are just the night watchman of Iceberg Hell, you can't always protect me... I have to get used to it, right? You get used to it with me first , okay?...By the way, they found the head over there during the day, and I haven't dared to look at it yet, so why don't you go and see it with me?"

Shen Anxing couldn't say anything.

Liu Xu looked at him with uneasy eyes, as if he was afraid that he would not agree.

Liu Xu took another deep breath, and then said: "...The night is still long, please stay with me for a while."

"...I beg you, Shen Anxing."

This last sentence was simply murderous, Shen Anxing's face was shocked as if he had been hit hard.Because of Liu Xu, he actually felt that his heart that hadn't skipped for seven years suddenly trembled, as if he was resurrected for him.

Shen Anxing gritted his teeth suddenly, and pulled him into his arms with a backhand.

Liu Xu was pulled suddenly by him, and he didn't react for a while. When he did, he only felt that his whole body was extremely cold, as if he had fallen into an ice cellar, and his surroundings were freezing cold.

That was the temperature on Shen Anxing's body.

Liu Xu suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, and only then did he realize that Shen Anxing had already hugged him tightly in his arms, and his head was buried deeply in the socket of his neck.

Liu Xu was almost suffocated by his embrace, and he felt that Shen Anxing was trying to suck him dry.

Liu Xu was so familiar with this scene that he was stunned.

Like Shen Anxing, he didn't make a sound to stop him, but took a few breaths in his arms with great difficulty, and then called him in a hoarse voice with great difficulty: "...Xingxing?"

"Don't move....I'm sorry...don't move yet."

Shen Anxing spoke softly, every breath he took out of his words was as cold as winter wind, blowing on the back of Liu Xu's neck, so cold that he just wanted to shrink his shoulders.Not only that, when Shen Anxing hugged him, he took several deep breaths back and forth, as if he was trying his best to stabilize his mood.

But every breath he exhaled made people shiver with cold.

Liu Xu: "..."

Liu Xu clenched his teeth, resisting the cold - but then again, he didn't move at first, after Shen Anxing said this, he had no choice but to shut his mouth, and was about to stop moving.

He's really complicated right now.

Without him, Shen Anxing had often done this before.

Liu Xu remembered that when the two of them had just started talking, Shen Anxing was not used to it, even when he wanted to hold hands at first, he had to blush and wring the hem of his clothes to beg him for permission in a low voice.He remembered very clearly that Shen Anxing blushed as if he was about to explode.

Later, after a long time, Shen Anxing would open the bed curtain and climb onto Liu Xu's bed after the lights were turned off at night, and he came up very easily and hugged him like this, resting his head on his neck, and stayed for a while. Can stay for a long time.

In the beginning, Shen Anxing wouldn't hug people for a long time, but day by day, he hugged people for longer and longer. Liu Xu once felt that the time he hugged people was a bit too long, thinking that he was being bullied or If you feel wronged, ask him what's wrong.

In the end, Shen Anxing told him that holding him like this made him feel at ease.

He has lived for more than ten years, and he is worried every day.

Liu Xu felt helpless and distressed after hearing this, so he let him do it even more.

Liu Xu was troubled, and after thinking about the past for a while, he thought, look, Shen Anxing is holding him like this now, but he is actually very reluctant to let him go back.

They are all reluctant.

But there is no way, now one of them is alive and the other is dead.Between them, there is destined to be separated by a Huangquan Road, a Naihe Bridge, and a Santu River.

Finally, after an unknown amount of time, Shen Anxing raised his head, rested his chin on his shoulder, and called him by his ear: "Yang Hua."

"Ok?"

"Do you remember your sophomore year?" Shen Anxing said, "I entrusted you with a dream to take Mangypsophila away."

The Gypsophila is a relic left by Shen Anxing to Liu Xu. It is a wishing bottle filled with paper-folded stars. Liu Xu counted them, and there are a total of 99 stars in it.

Shen Anxing originally planned to give it to Liu Xu on the day he died, but before he could send it out in time, he was sent to the emergency room.He couldn't get out of the emergency room, he couldn't open his eyes again, and he couldn't give Mantianxing to him.

Shen Anxing died in a car accident, and the wishing bottle was smashed into Shen Anxing's bag just like that. Paper-folded stars sprinkled all over the bag, like a night full of stars in his bag.

Shen Anxing also pasted a piece of paper on the body of the wishing bottle. At that time, the piece of paper was stuck with a few pieces of glass, lying among the sea of ​​stars, crumpled by the bumps of the ambulance.

Liu Xu picked it up carefully, spread it flat and unfolded it, and saw four words written on it.

"Happy birthday".

The day Shen Anxing died was Liu Xu's birthday.

Mantianxing is not actually called Mantianxing, it is the name given to it by Liu Xu.

Liu Xu thought of the scene when he picked out those stars one by one from his bag, and couldn't help lowering his eyes.

He remembered the dream that Shen Anxing had mentioned, and he also knew that it was a dream entrusted to him by Shen Anxing.

After Shen Anxing died, he bought Mantianxing a new wishing bottle and put 99 paper-folded stars in it.When I was in college, I also brought it into the university dormitory.

Later, in his sophomore year, he went to visit Shen Anxing's grave on the day of his death.As a result, that night, he dreamed of Shen Anxing.

He dreamed that he was back in high school and was sitting on his bed in his school uniform. For some reason, he didn't turn on the lights and didn't draw the curtains.

The moon in the dream was so bright that it illuminated the sky full of stars in his hand like stars in the sky.Holding the wishing bottle, he stared blankly at the paper-made stars in the bottle.

After looking at it, he lifted up the starry sky.The moonlight penetrated through the bottle, really shining the stars in the bottle, like a sky full of stars.

At that moment, someone opened the door and came in.

Liu Xu looked up.The one who pushed the door in was none other than Shen Anxing.

Shen Anxing was still the same as he remembered.

Liu Xu was very peaceful in the dream, as if he was still alive in the dream, facing the long dead Shen Anxing, he was not surprised or shocked, let alone felt sad or reluctant.

He just watched Shen Anxing walk over slowly step by step, and walked in front of him.

Then, Shen Anxing squatted down in front of him.

As soon as he squatted down, Liu Xu realized that Shen Anxing was translucent.

The moonlight outside the window passed him and shone on the ground.

The bed behind Shen Anxing was also faintly visible through his figure.Liu Xu looked down and found that there was no shadow of Shen Anxing on the ground.

Liu Xu still didn't have any mood swings, and was surprisingly calm.

"Yanghua."

Shen Anxing called him softly.

Liu Xu looked up and saw Shen Anxing stretching out his hand towards him.

Unlike him, Shen Anxing didn't seem to be calm.After Liu Xu woke up, recalling this dream countless times, he felt that Shen Anxing's eyes were full of pain and reluctance that could not be concealed.

Shen Anxing said to him, "Give it to me."

"Give me the baby's breath."

"You should forget about me."