hell make me fall in love

Liu Xu stared blankly at Shen Anxing.

Strange to say, in that dream, he seemed to be stupid.

Facing Shen Anxing, who was already dead, he had neither emotional fluctuations nor any reaction.After hearing Shen Anxing's words, he just sat there in a daze, staring straight at Shen Anxing without reacting.

His mind went blank.

Shen Anxing seemed to have known this a long time ago, he looked at Liu Xu, sighed softly, and then reached out to grab the baby's breath in his hand.

But at the moment when Shen Anxing's fingertips touched the wishing bottle in his hand, Liu Xu suddenly felt that all the peace collapsed in an instant.He suddenly shook his whole body as if struck by lightning, broke free from the calm blankness in his mind, turned around abruptly, shook off Shen Anxing's extended hand, and shouted loudly with all his strength: " No!!"

Shen Anxing: "..."

As soon as Liu Xu turned around, she threw herself onto the bed.He held the baby's breath tightly in his arms. If you look carefully, you can see that his hands holding the bottle are shaking slightly.

He guarded Man Tian Xing, as if guarding his own life.But only Liu Xu knows that what he is protecting is the last planet in this world.

That was the last trace that Shen Anxing could leave him.

The air was dead silent at that moment.

That dream was so quiet, so quiet that I couldn't even hear the wind.

Liu Xu didn't look up, he looked down at the wishing bottle in his arms, and saw that the stars in the bottle were shining like countless nights in the third year of high school.

"...No." With a trembling voice, he clasped the bottle in his arms even tighter, and said, "No one will give it.... This is what Xing Xing gave me."

While talking, he turned his head slightly, and with red eyes, he said to Shen Anxing: "I only have these, don't take them away."

"...I don't want to have nothing."

When Liu Xu said these things, he couldn't see Shen Anxing clearly at all.At that time, his vision was so blurred by tears that he couldn't see the person in front of him clearly.

So he didn't know what Shen Anxing looked like when he heard what he said.

He also had no way of knowing.

Because in that dream, Shen An came and ran fast, just when Liu Xu opened his mouth and was about to say a few more words, he woke up in a daze in the blink of an eye.

Shen Anxing didn't give him a chance to speak at all.

When Liu Xu woke up, he was lying on the bed in the dormitory, still huddled under the quilt, holding something cold in his arms.

He felt strange, so he lowered his head, and then he saw the wishing bottle containing the baby's breath lying quietly in his arms.

Liu Xu was stunned for a moment, and then, a wave of anger welled up belatedly - Shen Anxing actually wanted to take Mantianxing away, and made him forget about him! ?

Only then did Liu Xu think about it.It seems that although he protected the stars in that dream from being taken away by Shen Anxing, it was not because he broke free from the calm blankness of his inexplicable emotions in the dream, but it was just a conditioned reflex.

He just protected Mantianxing reflexively, but his brain still didn't react in time, and he didn't even think of getting angry.

If this were changed to reality, Liu Xu would definitely scold Shen Anxing.

Liu Xu was young at the time, not as stable as he is today, and when the incident happened suddenly, he never thought of putting himself in another place. At that time, all his anger and blood rushed to his heart, and he was angry, angry, sad and wronged at the moment, thinking, he What to forget?

They liked each other so much, and they used to think so hard about the future—fuck Shen Anxing, he forgot all about it, didn't he, how could he say that?Conscience does not hurt! ?

The more Liu Xu thought about it, the angrier he became, so he sat up all of a sudden, and looked around angrily.Except for him, no one in the dormitory was awake, especially the roommate surnamed Yao lying diagonally across from him, who was sleeping on his back, with most of the quilt hanging down.

The more Liu Xu looked at that roommate, the more angry he became, the main reason was that Shen Anxing, who had just rested in peace, made him half dead, he was angry at everything at that time.

He took out his phone and looked at it, and found that it was only 05:30 in the morning, and there was still plenty of time to sleep.

And it was Sunday.

Liu Xu didn't feel sleepy at all, he knew that what happened just now was definitely not a simple dream.Their school is above the bed and below is the table. He has always kept the baby's breath in the cabinet at the bottom of his desk. How come it can run to the bed by itself when he wakes up in the morning, and it is also very consciously arched into Liu Xu's arms. inside?

Shen Anxing must have given him a dream, Liu Xu knew it.

He was very angry, but he couldn't lose the baby's breath, so he put it next to the pillow angrily, and lay down to sleep again.

As a result, I couldn't sleep at all.

Liu Xu lay on the bed and squinted for half an hour. The more he thought about it, the more angry he became. He got on the bus at the school gate and drove himself directly to the cemetery.

Then, he found Shen Anxing angrily and familiarly, and sat cross-legged in front of his grave, cursing and crying all morning, and then he became aggrieved when he was so angry, and made the day The old man who looked at the grave was stunned.

Liu Xu seldom loses his composure like that, and this is what Shen Anxing did, so he remembers it clearly.

After that, he calmed down for a few more days before he slowly understood Shen Anxing's intentions.

Shen Anxing didn't forget, he remembered.

It is precisely because he still remembers and loves Liu Xu deeply that he wants him to let go, wants him to forget, wants him to leave.

Because he couldn't stand Liu Xu guarding him in pain.

After thinking about it, Liu Xu sighed again, reached out and patted Shen Anxing's back, and said to him, "I remember."

"..." Shen Anxing was silent for a while, and then said, "Actually, I... have always felt guilty."

Liu Xu: "..."

Liu Xu knew.

He misses the dead with deep affection, but for the dead who also love deeply, seeing the living trapped by a grave for a long time will only be a kind of pain.

Liu Xu knew it all.

Shen Anxing said: "Yang Hua, you also know that when I was alive, I was beaten by my dad every night. He went to sleep after beating and felt comfortable. Sometimes I couldn't sleep because of the pain, so I just sat in the room and watched Heaven... At that time, I couldn't help but think, if one day I die, no one will cry for me. Because I'm just a useless person, I can't help anyone, and I don't have any shining points."

"A person like me will definitely die in a mediocre way."

"When I thought about it at the time, I was terrified," he said, "but then I died, but someone cried for me."

"But at that time, you were crying too. When I saw you crying, I felt that it would be better if no one cried for me."

While speaking, Shen Anxing let go of Liu Xu, lowered his head, gently cupped his face with his hands, and said: "After all, I would rather die without a name than to make you sad for me. The same reason , I am afraid that my soul will be scattered, but I am even more afraid that you will die because of me."

Shen Anxing's words suddenly turned a corner, Liu Xu was taken aback by what he said.He raised his head, looked at Shen Anxing and blinked, a little puzzled what he meant: "What?"

Shen Anxing suddenly smiled at him.

"It's nothing, listen to you, let's take it slowly." Shen Anxing reached out and stroked his hair, with tenderness in his eyes, and said, "This night may be longer."