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Shen Anxing was completely stunned and fully understood.

He had seen the car before, only to be reminded deeply that seven years had passed.

Liu Xu has grown up for seven years during his absence, he is no longer the boy he was back then.Seven years later, he has a car, maybe a house, and a living circle without Shen Anxing.

Shen Anxing's death cannot stop the earth, nor can it stop time, so Liu Xu has been walking forward, and he can only go forward.

In a world where Shen Anxing is not around, he has to learn to turn things around, and even get used to every minute and every second without Shen Anxing, and all of these will inevitably have to pay a painful and painful price.

People say that the price of growth is the loss of bones, blood, skin, and flesh, so Liu Xu has to hurt himself all the time along the way so that he can gradually get used to Shen Anxing's departure.He must think about Shen Anxing, the car accident, and the details of those two years every day and night, until he feels numb to it, it can be called a habit.

And such self-harm time and time again will inevitably destroy him.

Destroy the young and dazzling person who brought Shen Anxing light back then.

Shen Anxing knew that he had changed.In his memory, Liu Xu was definitely not a person who would calmly say "I really want to die".He didn't feel it before, because it was in hell, Liu Xu reunited with him after a long absence, and he would naturally and habitually be himself seven years ago in front of him.

But now that he is back in the human world, he is also used to Shen Anxing's reappearance, and he will definitely see him in his current appearance.

In Shen Anxing's memory, Liu Xu was a young man who could smile with others, and he was his light.

He said he had changed.

After Liu Xu said this, he stopped talking. He looked at Shen Anxing with calm numbness in his eyes.

Shen Anxing looked into his eyes, and felt that he could see Liu Xu's tormenting him again and again in the past seven years.

Shen Anxing looked at him, and after a moment of silence, he said, "Yang Hua, I said it that year."

Liu Xu: "..."

"You should remember." Shen Anxing said, "I said, I will always like you."

Of course Liu Xu remembered.

When the current Shen Anxing said this, it was far away from the figure in his memory.

Liu Xu seemed to see that year, when Shen Anxing stood with him on the balcony of the dormitory, facing the tree shadows and the first snow falling from the sky, his face flushed red and he stumbled, his hands were shaking from nervousness, it was very difficult He told him word by word, very earnestly——

"No matter what happens in the future, as long as you don't say you don't want me, I will always like you."

That year was fleeting, and seven years had passed. Shen Anxing, who had been buried deep in the spring, was sitting in front of him, but he was no different from that year.

He said to him: "I haven't changed now, Yang Hua. No matter what you become, as long as you don't say you don't want me, I will always like you."

Shen Anxing did not change.

Whether it's appearance or heart.

Liu Xu couldn't help laughing.

"Okay," he said, "then I want you."

Shen Anxing also smiled: "Okay."

Liu Xu suddenly felt a lot more relaxed, so he stretched out his hand and snorted on Shen Anxing's head, turned around, stepped on the accelerator, and drove the car back home.

It was a very high-end apartment complex.After graduating from university and looking for a job, Liu Xu moved out of his home, bought a single apartment that was closer to his workplace, and lived in it.

After entering from the gate of the community, there is a very artistic fountain. Go around the fountain and drive a little further in. The high-rise apartment on the third row on the left is where Liu Xu lives.

After getting out of the car, Liu Xu saw that the blood on Shen Anxing's body, face, and clothes all dissipated without him noticing while driving the car, as if it had never happened before, disappeared without a trace no trace.

Liu Xu was startled, he dragged Shen Anxing, and looked around with his glasses back and forth, left and right, but he didn't find any blood on his body, and even the smell of blood on his body disappeared completely .

Shen Anxing knew what he was looking at, so he smiled helplessly: "It's only a matter of time before the night watchmen can heal themselves."

"Ha..." After hearing this answer, Liu Xu turned his glasses up in a complicated mood, and said, "What about the clothes?"

"Clothes are also part of the night watchman." Shen Anxing stretched out his arms and said, "It's difficult to say, but in simple terms, this is already a spirit body, not something that exists objectively, so strictly speaking, this Not counting clothes."

"..." Liu Xu was silent for a moment, then said, "I understand, but please don't make it sound like you're not wearing any clothes."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing couldn't help twitching the corners of his mouth.

Liu Xu laughed twice, stretched out his hand, took his hand naturally, and said, "Okay, go home."

Shen Anxing was led upstairs by him and got on the elevator.After getting on the elevator, Liu Xu reached out and pressed the fifteenth floor.

Seeing this, Shen Anxing said casually, "You live so high up?"

Liu Xu said, "Didn't you say you wanted to live in a high place?"

Shen Anxing: "..."

There was a brief silence between the two.

After being silent, Shen Anxing said dryly: "That's true."

Liu Xu laughed twice.

Shen Anxing didn't smile, he looked at Liu Xu who seemed to be smiling casually, but felt a dull pain in his heart.

During the seven years he was away, Liu Xu was acting according to his wishes.

He said back then that he wanted to raise a cat with Liu Xu, and Liu Xu did; he said he wanted to live in a high place, so Liu Xu bought a high-rise...

Liu Xu fulfilled all of Shen Anxing's wishes, but Shen Anxing was not around.

It just so happened that the elevator reached the fifteenth floor.Liu Xu walked towards the door on the left.

He opened the door, and just in time, a cursing meow came from the door.

The moment he heard the meowing of the cat, Shen Anxing remembered that Liu Xu seemed to have said that he raised such a cat.

And this cat, named...

"Sticky—"

Liu Xu called it with a long voice, then led Shen An into the door, closed the door again, turned on the light, and turned to look at the cat.

Sticky is a beautiful puppet cat, walking over on catwalks, while cursing at Liu Xu, as if asking him where he died.

Liu Xu habitually lowered his body.Ragdoll cats are a clingy species, and as one of them, sticky cats naturally walked into his arms and let him hug them.

Sticky scolded all the way, even when he ran into Liu Xu's arms, he still meowed and scolded non-stop.

Shen Anxing suddenly saw the rusty ring on Liu Xu's hand.He had noticed before that the ring was so rusted that it couldn't see its original shape, but Liu Xu still wore it, probably never took it off.

It was bought by Liu Xu in midsummer seven years ago.

Shen Anxing frowned slightly.

"It's rare to come back so late, I should be angry." Liu Xu turned to Shen Anxing and said, "Do you think it can see you?"

Shen Anxing moved closer to Liu Xu's side, Sticky also naturally grabbed Liu Xu's shoulder, and moved closer to Shen Anxing, his little nose moved, as if he wanted to distinguish his smell.

Then it sniffed the cold air, sneezed immediately, and stuck out its tongue to lick the pink nose, as if reminiscing.

"It should be visible." Shen Anxing said, "After all, cats are different from people. Cats can see many things that people cannot see."

"Yes, that's fine."

While talking, Liu Xu shook the cat in his arms, and said to it: "Slimy, take a good look, this is my boyfriend."

Sticky snorted, tilted his head again, and snored.

"It was he who named you." Liu Xu said, "It was he who said that in the future, if you have a cat, you should call it Sticky."

When Shen Anxing heard this, his heart ached again.

"By the way, it seems that I haven't told you about this." Liu Xu turned to Shen Anxing and said, "Do you know, I discovered the "secret"."

"I know." Shen Anxing said, "As soon as you said that you had a cat named Sticky, I knew you found out."

Liu Xu smiled at him.

Shen Anxing couldn't laugh this time.

The "secret" they mentioned was one of Shen Anxing's relics, a wish list, Shen Anxing called it "secret".

There are many things that Shen Anxing wants to do with Liu Xu, but sometimes he suddenly thinks about them and then forgets them, and he can't think of them.

So later, whenever he thought of something, he would write it down on paper.For example, what he said to Liu Xu, that he wants to rent a house with him, that he wants to go to an amusement park with him to watch a night show, and what he hasn’t told Liu Xu, that he wants to name the cat Sticky , want to live in a high place and so on.

Shen Anxing hid this long wish list very deeply, so he called it "secret".He originally planned to give it to Liu Xu on his birthday, but before that, he died in a car accident.

After he died, he hoped that Liu Xu would never find it.

It is certainly torture to discover a series of wish lists that the dead have not begun.Fortunately, Shen Anxing really hid that thing very deeply, so he took chances and kept praying in hell that Liu Xu would never find it.

But Liu Xu is a smart person, and Shen Anxing has never been able to hide anything from him, so he still found out.

When Shen Anxing heard Liu Xu talking about the "stickiness" at home in the iceberg hell, the world collapsed.

Besides Liu Xu, he is the one who understands how cruel those wish lists are.

But now, when Liu Xu mentioned "that", he seemed relaxed and indifferent.

Shen Anxing understood very well.How relaxed he is now, how painful it was when he found out.

Shen Anxing pursed his lips, and called him: "Yang Hua."

Liu Xu looked up at him: "Huh?"

"It's late, go to bed." Shen Anxing said, "If you don't think I'm cold, I'll sleep with you."

Liu Xu: "..."

Liu Xu was startled.

Of course he wouldn't dislike Shen Anxing, so he just laughed it off and said, "Okay."

While saying this, Liu Xu looked at the school uniform on his body and asked him: "Can you change this school uniform? I'll find you pajamas?"

"can."

"Okay." Liu Xu got his promise, put down the cat, pulled Shen Anxing up, and said, "Come with me."

Shen Anxing obediently followed him.

Liu Xu pulled him and walked into the house.His apartment is neither big nor small, it is considered a well-regulated room.

After entering from the door, there is the living room, and on the other side of the living room is an open kitchen.Going further in, the bedroom is on the left, and a cloakroom is directly facing the door, and next to the cloakroom is a bathroom with integrated bathroom.And sandwiched between the bathroom and the kitchen is a study.

Liu Xu led him into the cloakroom, and then pulled out a piece of clothing from a pile of clothes.

The moment he saw the dress, Shen Anxing was shocked on the spot.

It was his high school year, Liu Xu couldn't understand him sleeping in school uniform every day, so he bought him a pajamas.It was a rather simple pajamas, with warm yellow long sleeves on the upper body and black pajama pants on the lower body.

Liu Xu told him with a smile back then that he had to wear yellow because he was a star.

The yellow color of that year has long been washed out and turned into a cheap light yellow, and the black of the pajama pants has also been baptized to gray by time.

"I kept this for you for seven years. I washed it every once in a while to avoid dust accumulation, so it's not very dirty now." Liu Xu said, "It may have shrunk a bit after washing. You should try it first? Are you more dirty than me?" Gao, I'm afraid my pajamas won't suit you, I'll buy another one for you in two days, you can't always wear this ragged school uniform."

Shen Anxing was speechless for a moment.

Liu Xu didn't get an answer from him, so he raised his head to look at him, and asked, "What's wrong?"

"..."

After Shen Anxing was silent for a moment, he opened his mouth, but he still didn't know what to say, so he stopped talking for a long time.

After a long time, he finally organized his words and asked, "Why...you still have this dress?"

"..."

Liu Xu was also silent, and then replied: "I can't find a reason to lose it."