hell make me fall in love

Shen Anxing followed Liu Xu into the study.

The room was dark, but the moonlight outside was very bright today, slanting in through the large window of the study, illuminating the whole room.

Liu Xu pushed the door open and came in, and turned on the light.The warm yellow light slanted down, easily covering the moonlight and filling the entire room.

Liu Xu glanced at the desk, and saw a photo on the desk.

He keeps that photo next to his computer all the time.It was a photo he took with Shen Anxing after the college entrance examination that year.

At that time in midsummer, they were young, and they laughed ignorantly and passionately. No one knew that the god of death had already stood behind the dying person.

Liu Xu in the photo, he was really young at that time, and he didn't wear glasses, smiling brightly and confidently.

Liu Xuyao ​​looked at himself in the photo, thought of something, and something slowly dimmed in his eyes.

He walked over.After walking to the side, he slammed the photo onto the table.

Shen Anxing: "..."

Liu Xu doesn't seem to want to face it.

After pressing the photo face down, he stretched out his hands to support the glasses, lowered his head again, and turned his face to the side. After a moment of contemplation, he took off the glasses again, and put the legs of the glasses on. On the collar of the chest.

"Come here." He turned to Shen Anxing and said, "I have something for you."

Shen Anxing was taken aback by his series of actions, and after being called out like this again, he came back to his senses, answered twice quickly, and walked forward.

After Liu Xu told him to come over, he stretched out his hand and reached forward and upward, as if he was planning to take something.But after he took off his glasses, his eyes were blurred, and he couldn't see anything clearly, so he had to stretch out his hand to feel for it.

Seeing this, Shen Anxing hurried forward and said, "What do you want to take? I'll help you."

"No need." Liu Xu said, "I'll do it myself."

"..."

Being rejected for help, Shen Anxing froze for a moment.After the outstretched hand froze in mid-air for a moment, he hurriedly said, "Then put on your glasses? Are you..."

"No need." Liu Xu said again with a firm attitude, "I can see clearly."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing couldn't say anything.

After saying this, Liu Xu took a small box from the shelf above the desk—even though he was severely short-sighted and couldn't see clearly, this was his own home, and he could quickly find what he wanted by relying on his memory. s things.

It was a small, square red box that seemed to be used for rings.There are two boxes, and they are placed side by side on the shelf.

Shen Anxing remembered that this was the box given to Liu Xu by the merchant when he bought the ring back then.

Liu Xu stayed until today.

He took down the box on the right and opened it.Naturally, the ring inside had long since disappeared, replaced by a key.

It was a small key. It didn't look like a door lock, but more like a key used to open some small cabinets or boxes.

Liu Xu took out the bunch of keys gently and carefully.

Then, he put the box on the table, squatted down, and fumbled under the desk for a while, and in a blur of vision, he touched the keyhole of the bottom cabinet.

He narrowed his eyes, trying to focus the blurry vision in front of him.But helplessly, myopia cannot be cured by squinting, and he still can't see clearly, he can only roughly distinguish the position of the keyhole.

Liu Xu was squatting halfway and fiddling with the key. Obviously the keyhole was there, but he squinted his eyes and poked for a long time before finally getting the key in.

Shen Anxing watched from the side with complicated emotions.

After opening the cabinet, Liu Xu pulled the cabinet away.

It was full of sundries, all belonging to Shen Anxing.

Shen Anxing was considered a hot potato since he was a child, his father didn't love his mother, and he didn't have much at all.If the school hadn't forced the purchase of textbooks, he might not even have textbooks.

All his things were given to him by Liu Xu, except for textbooks and notebooks, this small cabinet is full of his sundries.

Inside was a night light, a pencil case he used in high school, several old and yellowed notebooks, some letters that were also old and yellowed, two sealed bags, a transparent plastic box, and a broken screen. It's almost impossible to look directly at the phone.

In the two sealed bags, one contained some candy wrappers that should have been thrown away after eating, and the other contained a few dried flowers, while the box contained broken glass fragments and a cork.

That's all there is to him.

Shen Anxing recognized all these things, and he seemed to have only these things.

After opening the cabinet, Liu Xu said, "Except for textbooks and clothes, I put everything here. I give you the key, and you can dispose of these things wherever you want, and you can do whatever you want."

After saying this, he opened the upper cabinet again.

The cabinet on the upper floor was not locked, so Liu Xu opened it with a pull.Inside the cabinet, a fairly new mobile phone lay quietly inside.

Liu Xu added: "This phone contains your social accounts. I'm afraid that you will be deactivated and frozen, so I often go up and run around. Since you're back, you can't justify not having a phone. I'll give you this phone. I'll help you with the password." You changed it, it was your birthday, 1231."

"..."

Shen Anxing held the phone and was speechless for a long time.

The password he originally set for his phone was 0629, which was Liu Xu's birthday.But now 0629 is Shen Anxing's death day, of course Liu Xu doesn't want to think about this day too much.

So he changed the password.

Shen Anxing felt bitter for a moment.

After Liu Xu finished speaking, he turned his head and put the key on the table, stood up, and said, "That's it, I'll take a shower first... By the way, your textbooks are on the top shelf, if you You can take it off if you want to see it, it shouldn’t be a problem with your height.”

After saying this, Liu Xu yawned and walked out expressionlessly.

Shen Anxing turned his head, looked at him worriedly, and watched him leave the room.

After walking out the door, Liu Xu picked up the glasses pinned to his collar and put them back on.

Where Shen Anxing couldn't see, he slightly frowned and sighed.

He suddenly felt a little dizzy, so he stretched out his hand, squeezed between his eyebrows, put his hand in the pocket of his pajamas, and walked forward again.

As soon as he closed his eyes, his mind was filled with the photo on the desk.

The more Liu Xu thought about it, the deeper his frown became.

He went to the bathroom, turned on the faucet, and splashed two handfuls of water on his face, as if he wanted to calm himself down.

He turned on the faucet and heard water dripping down his face.They fell into the pool and flowed down the arc of the pool.

Liu Xu just lowered his hair like this for a long time in a daze.

In the photo on the desk, it's him.At that time, he was very dazzling, confident and smiling, dared to break through the maze, and his grades were always among the best, and he would try his best to get what he wanted.

While thinking about this, Liu Xu raised his head, picked up the glasses at hand, put them back on, and looked at himself in the mirror.

The self-confidence of the past has now become insensitive, and the dazzling light has been burned to ashes. In the end, only this empty shell carrying the ashes is left.

He looked at himself in the mirror with numb eyes, remained silent for a while, and suddenly sneered at himself, as if mocking the person in the mirror.

Ugly.

He whispered to himself in his heart.

Shen Anxing stood in the study.

Warm yellow lights sprinkled from above his head, but he didn't feel warm at all.

His QQ has been stuck for 5 minutes.

—— Just 5 minutes ago, he took out the mobile phone that Liu Xu left for him.

The phone was turned on, Liu Xu should have been using it all the time, and the password of the phone was the same as he said, Shen Anxing turned on the phone easily.

The phone's lock screen wallpaper and desktop wallpaper were both used by Shen Anxing when he left that year, and even the layout of the APP is exactly the same.I don't know if Liu Xu is trying to create the illusion that he hasn't left yet, or if he simply wants to keep his alive breath by his side.

But either way, it's heartbreaking.

Shen Anxing felt sad, and after calling back and forth to scroll the screen for a while, he opened QQ - that was the software he used to send messages to Liu Xu most often.

As soon as he entered, he saw that his avatar hadn't been changed, neither had Liu Xu's avatar, and in the top news, it was the same as before, only one Liu Xu.

It's still the same layout.

Shen Anxing pursed his lips.

And behind Liu Xu's message bar, there is a full 99+.

Shen Anxing knew this would happen, so he sighed and clicked in.

But I didn't expect that it would be stuck immediately after I entered it, and I haven't reacted yet.

Shen Anxing could roughly imitate Liu Xu's state of mind.He was afraid that Shen Anxing's account would be frozen, so he often came up to check it out, but he refused to read his own news for Shen Anxing.

He hoped that Shen Anxing would read the news.

He always believed that Shen Anxing was by his side, and he believed that he had turned into a star.

Shen Anxing had complicated emotions.

If this is the case, then these messages have been piled up for seven years.Judging from Liu Xu's affectionate level, it is estimated that he would have to send at least a dozen messages a day. If this is the case, even if he gave his phone all night, he might not be able to respond.

Shen Anxing put the phone aside, and looked down at his sundries.

The notebook was used for taking notes when he was struggling to become stronger in the third year of high school, and there were only three or four pitiful pens in the pen bag.The candy wrapper in the sealed bag was the candy that Liu Xu said he had hypoglycemia stuffed for him, Shen Anxing didn't want to throw it away after eating it, so he saved it up.The dried flowers were also folded to him by Liu Xu, and Shen Anxing felt that it would be a pity if they were wilted, so as soon as he got the flowers, he put them in the sun to dry, and carefully put them away when they dried.

He has always treasured these.

In fact, there were a lot of candy wrappers and dried flowers, but he had no choice but to find these precious things by his father within a few days after he returned home after the college entrance examination.So, without any suspense, his dad threw them all out, and beat him up by the way.

That's all, Shen Anxing dragged himself to the garbage dump after he was beaten until he was covered in blood.

At that time, he accidentally stuck a bamboo stick stuffed in a bag, and the palm of his hand was bleeding.

The heavy rain that night made his wounds ache.

Shen Anxing picked up the candy wrappers and frowned.

...Speaking of which, he doesn't seem to know how his father is doing now.

But really, he didn't wish him well.

Shen Anxing was upset when he thought of his father, so he pouted, picked up his phone and took a look. QQ's data processing function is surprising, and it has already reacted in such a short period of time.

Shen Anxing took it over and took a look, only to find that it was not because it was powerful in processing data, but because the data from previous years had been overwritten, so it reacted quickly.

The first record was two years ago today.

Shen Anxing cursed in a rare way: "Fuck, idiot."

He frowned, unhappy.

The message Liu Xu gave him is gone.

Nothing could make him sadder than this.

Shen Anxing was very unhappy, but he had no choice but to start reading from two years ago very unhappy.

At that time, Shen Anxing had been dead for five years, Liu Xu's wound had already healed, and there was no sadness or collapse between the lines, but he was talking to him very calmly and peacefully.

He will take pictures of everything he sees on the road, and report his daily life to him, just like seven years ago.

He said that he met a very unreasonable client today, and he was so angry that his brain hurts; He sees……

Every day.Liu Xu would tell him what he saw and heard, and would take pictures of his meals, places he went, the clouds in the sky and the flowers on the ground.

He was afraid that Shen Anxing would miss every bit of him.

Shen Anxing looked at it, and couldn't help frowning slightly.

Then, he turned to one day, at 2:07 in the middle of the night, Liu Xu sent him a message saying, "Xing Xing, I can't sleep."

Then, he took a picture of the night sky for him.The moon was very bright that day, and there were many stars in the sky.The picture is a bit wobbly, and it can be seen that the hand of the person taking the picture is very unstable.

Liu Xu asked him, "Which one are you?"

He added, "I've been drinking and I'm so sick."

He said, "I don't want to sleep. When I sleep, I have nightmares. Every time I dream that you die in front of me."

"Why can't you come and see me once?"

"...I really don't want to sleep."

"Head hurts."

"...I miss you, Shen Anxing."

Shen Anxing paused as he slid down.