No.20 years

13

The warm kiss fell.

Chen Jingming kissed him suddenly, the kiss was very gentle, just rubbed on his chapped lips, carefully licking and licking the blood that oozes out.

The kiss smelled of rust and the saltiness of tears.

Hao Chun's face trembled, and his fingers twitched violently.

"Achun—"

Chen Jingming's whispers are like drizzle, luxurious and sweet, with the heat of life.The cold fragrance of cologne was draped on this person, and it was also warmed.

"Ah Chun, I miss you for so many years..."

Hao Chun smiled lightly. "you miss me?"

"Ah."

stuffy.

"Chen Jingming, you are so fucking cheap!"

Spewing vicious words out of his mouth seems to be a very easy task, as expected of having been with money bastards for nearly ten years!Hao Chun thought to himself mockingly.

Chen Jingming didn't seem to hear this sentence.He smiled instead, with a pale and delicate face, he smiled very nicely, with a dimple looming on the left corner of his mouth, just like back then.

"Yes, I'm a bitch, but I like you so much."

Chen Jingming smiled softly, but his obsidian-like eyes seemed to have been overfire, burning Hao Chun's limbs and bones.

"Ah Chun, even if you call me cheap, I will admit it. I beg you... just take it as I beg you, okay? Give me one more chance, don't be in such a hurry to get married."

These words, even in the loneliest dream, Hao Chun never dared to expect extravagantly.

He never thought that one day, such a proud Chen Jingming would cry and beg him, Ah Chun, let's not break up.

When he first broke up in the cafe, he had fantasized about it.

At that moment, he thought that he was reluctant to part with the relationship of these ten years, and Chen Jingming should also be reluctant, so he just tried this once.He, Hao Chun, was not that great either, sacrificing himself to be with such a trash with missing hands and disfigured appearance.He thought, just try this once, if Chen Jingming doesn't do it, then I won't do it either!

The big deal is to stay with him. He is in jail, and I will give him prison meals.

At that time, Hao Chun felt a secret despair in his heart.He wanted to catch Chen Jingming, using this rare flaw, to catch this person deeply and secretly.

In the past, Chen Jingming was a piece of flawless porcelain, high above the ground, and needed to be enshrined behind the crystal glass window.But after being disabled in a car accident, the porcelain was cracked and worthless, so he could finally take out the change in his pocket and take it home from behind the window.

That year, Hao Chun finally knew why such a terrible thing happened to his mother!It turned out that he was the same as his mother when it came to love.

Damn, nothing good was left to him, but this deformed possessive desire for love was passed on to him intact.

He liked Chen Jingming so much that he couldn't help himself.He loves Chen Jingming so much that he can't breathe.So when he couldn't prove whether he had the same weight in Chen Jingming's heart, he despicably proposed to break up.

Because I want to get it too much, the words I say are extra careless.The more eager, the more understated.

He was afraid of being seen through by Chen Jingming, but also wanted to be seen through by Chen Jingming.

After seeing through, he can speak out about the car accident with confidence, and say that I was trying to protect you.If you don't want it, let's carry it together.You, a prisoner of labor, and I, a family member of a prisoner of labor, are a perfect match!

At that time, he thought that someone as smart as Chen Jingming must be able to see through his intentions at a glance.And then...his love is free!It is also fulfilled.

Hao Chun couldn't control the extreme pleasure of falling from a high altitude.Having been with Chen Jingming for ten years, he is so happy!too happy to be real.

From the age of 15 to 25, his happy days seemed to be floating in the clouds.

Now that the cloud was broken, dirty, and blood-stained, he breathed a heavy sigh of relief.

The cracked porcelain and the soiled Chen Jingming are just perfect for Hao Chun.

The god in his heart fell down from the clouds and became tainted with the smell of mortal fireworks. He thought it was his luck.

But the moment he saw Chen Jingming fall to the ground, Hao Chun fell ill.His head exploded, he hugged his head and wailed, 25 years of chaos.

His world, deconstructed.

Hao Chun admitted that he was despicable.But he just wanted Chen Jingming to possess this person thoroughly, crazily, and perfectly.

However, he did not expect that when he broke up in the cafe that day, Chen Jingming fell to the ground and crawled back crying.

Chen Jingming cried.

But Chen Jingming didn't ask him.

Then they really broke up.there is none left.There is nothing left.

In the second year after the breakup, Hao Chun sat in the airtight consultation room, like a believer confessing in front of the priest's window, muttering to himself, at that time, I didn't want to break up.I just want to keep him.Break him, and then, keep him forever.

The doctor's brush scribbled across the medical certificate.

Through the reflection of the glass lens, the doctor's eyeballs bulged out behind the glass, like a shriveled old fish.

"Sir, you are sick," said the doctor.

14

"Achun," Chen Jingming called him. "Tell me something! What's so good about that person, is it worth spending your whole life with him?"

Hao Chun shook his head, realizing that what he was talking about should be money bum. "Why, he has a scar on his face and his right hand is missing, so I can't marry him?"

"Ugly." Chen Jingming frowned. "I thought you had a good eye for choosing a partner."

Hao Chun laughed. "Chen Jingming, are you naive? Just because I have a good time with you, I have to look for someone like you in the future?"

Chen Jingming pursed his thin lips into a straight line, and did not reply for a long time.

"Or, do you think that just like me, is there any man better than you who will wait in line for me and beg to marry me?"

"Don't talk about yourself like that!" Chen Jingming held him down, his long and curly eyelashes trembling. "I'm here, sad."

He grabbed Hao Chun's hand and pressed both hands together on his chest.

Hao Chun felt Chen Jingming's heartbeat, and it was healthy and powerful.

He's sick, but he's still the same as yesterday.

Hao Chun felt that if these two hands moved to his chest together, what he would hear would be the cracking sound of the black motor spinning wildly.

He cracked.He could no longer live in Chen Jingming's heart.

"It's all because of you, and you said I was naive!" Chen Jingming pursed his lips slightly. "If you say you are childish, then you are childish. Anyway, you have seen everything about me!"

Hao Chun couldn't answer this question.

He has indeed seen all of Chen Jingming's appearances, well-dressed, bare-bottomed, and even a rascal on the bed, he has seen them all.Countless times when Chen Jingming consulted with him in that begging tone, Ah Chun's screams were so ecstatic.Chen Jingming at that time was so fucking charming!

He couldn't answer this question, but he couldn't keep silent.If the ink continued like this, he was afraid that Chen Jingming would set up camp in his life from now on.

He wanted, but didn't dare to want such a result.

"Chen Jingming, wake up! 20 years have passed."

"20 years." Chen Jingming also sighed with him.

20 years.There are 360 ​​five days in a year, [-] days, fast and fast, slow but extremely slow.

At that time, they all thought that 20 years was a long time, and after 20 years, they must all be old.But now, 20 years later, Hao Chun was lying on the hospital bed, being beaten all over his body, and Chen Jingming was lying beside him, crying like a fool.

It seems that nothing has changed since then.

It seems that they have gone around in a big circle, but there are still only two of them in this world.The spring grass in the pond, the boy in the Shaohua window, the fan is blowing above his head.He sat side by side with him in the last row of the classroom.

He didn't have time to finish the stack of tutoring questions that Chen Jingming gave him that year.

Hao Chun closed his eyes and exhaled forcefully from his chest. "When did you come back?"

"It's been two or three years since I came back." Chen Jingming gradually stabilized his tone.

Speaking of the three-dimensional thing, he is always rational and a powerful adult.

"My dad's business field over there was almost cleaned up, and then I came back to find you. I also looked for you before, when you didn't know it."

"You really looking for me?" Hao Chun's lips trembled.

The trouble was so tragic back then, he thought that after Chen Jingming disappeared from the cafe crying that time, he would never mention him again, never take the initiative to think of him again, let alone the client looking for him everywhere.

Only Hao Chun, like a dog, searched for a man named Chen Jingming in every corner of the world in embarrassment and despair.

Hao Chun wanted to say, since you are looking for me, you are so skilled and rich, how come you haven't found me for so many years?How could there be no news for ten years?

But he didn't want to ask that.When he asked, the two of them would only be more embarrassed.Maybe the other party is just a rhetoric.

If Chen Jingming didn't really want to find him, but just coaxed him during the reunion, but he took it seriously... By then, he would not even lose his old background, it would be too embarrassing.

"I really can't find you!" Chen Jingming said seriously. "I went to Jinxing Middle School where we were studying to find you, and I funded all the student associations. Although I am in country A, I always ask people to ask about your recent situation at every gathering. They all say that you have been in Jibei City, but Do not communicate with anyone."

"At first, I thought you were still alive and doing well, so I was content." Chen Jingming lowered his eyelids. "But for some reason in the past two years, I have often dreamed that you were smiling at me back then. Hao Chun, you were such a rascal at that time!"

Hao Chun smiled.He saw himself in Chen Jingming's eyes, sitting on the railing of the roof, dangling his legs, spitting out bubble gum, and said to Chen Jingming nonchalantly, "I really can't pass the Ninth Middle School exam, so it's over for the two of us." ?

16-year-old Chen Jingming was standing below, wearing a white shirt and black trousers, the wind was blowing messily on his forehead.Ah Chun, you clearly promised me to be together forever.He said.

16-year-old Hao Chun laughed loudly and spit out a bubble.Lie to you, Chen Jingming, why do you believe everything I say!

Then he jumped down and grabbed Chen Jingming's shoulders.Even if we break up, we are still good brothers, okay?

Fuck you bro!Chen Jingming didn't smile that day.

That day Chen Jingming beat him up.

Hao Chun moved his fingers, as if the bridge of his nose that was crooked by Chen Jingming that day was still hurting.

The 35-year-old Chen Jingming stood in front of the hospital bed, handsome and upright, as high-end as the top porcelain with the seal of the imperial kiln.

"Achun, I can't sleep all night this year, and sometimes I can see you standing in front of me with my eyes open during the day. I think I'm probably crazy. I don't care about my career, my bottom line, or my man's self-esteem," Chen Jingming said. He said lightly: "What the hell are these things! I like you, I just like you."

"...So, I lost."

"...That's why I came back to find you. So I'm begging you now, Ah Chun, I'm begging you."