gentle collapse

"Zhang Ran?" I looked at the person standing in front of me in disbelief, "Why are you here?"

"What did you call me?" He squatted down, looking at my stomach and thighs.Blood trickled down from my abdomen, the smell of blood was so strong that I couldn't resist the pain.He held my shoulders, and my head, limp, leaned against him lightly.

He held my stomach and said softly, "Lin An, you shouldn't have come to this place for me."

"Brother?" I turned my head to look at his jaw, but my eyes started to lose focus, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't see clearly.

He leaned me gently against the wall, reached out, and started breaking the gears on my thighs.The exposed blade dug hard into his finger, and his blood flowed down, dripping wet on my leg.I lean forward, trying to stop him.

The gear was broken by him, he knelt down, took off the clothes on his upper body, wrapped it around my stomach, and tied it tightly. "It's okay, it's okay..." He hugged me again, warming my body temperature, "Trust me, you will be fine."

"I believe you." Of course I believe you.I reached out and grabbed his shoulder, and his palm lightly patted my back. I have never felt so at ease and at ease. My brain even stopped thinking, and I just wanted to hold him tightly, as if... ...I can hold him.

He slowly helped me up, and I gave him all the weight of my body, and slowly moved my trembling legs.

"Lin An, you shouldn't be here." A woman's voice.

I raised my head and looked at her: "Miss Xiaoyan."

I remembered that I had indeed heard the strange language spoken by those staff, and the reason it was so familiar was because I had listened to it for three full years.I used to think that Xiao Xiaoyan, who spoke that language, was from ancient times, and she did not deny it.But I have known her for so many years, and I have never heard of which dynasty she came from, and her speed of integrating into modern life is beyond my imagination.

I stepped back and leaned against the wall... Where is my brother?

My hand holding the wall left shocking bloodstains on it. There were blood holes stabbed by a knife on my hand, and it was not clothes wrapped around my waist, but my own pants.No wonder "my brother" broke off the gear first, and then wrapped my abdominal wound.

Because he doesn't exist at all.

All of this is done by myself, he is the spiritual support that I imagined.I hoarse my throat and laugh out.I looked at the densely packed staff standing behind Xiao Xiaoyan, and sat down along the wall.

I'm at the end of my rope.

It was that weird spoken language again, I opened my eyes and looked towards the source of the voice.Xiao Xiaoyan was talking to a staff member in uniform. He spoke fiercely, but the speed of the speech was too fast for me to understand.I pressed my abdomen with my hands and touched the gauze.My mouth was so parched that I felt a tear as soon as I opened it.

"Will you let me go?" I asked her.

"Not now." Xiao Xiaoyan turned around and walked to my side.She probed my forehead, her hands were cold, "We'll wait until you recover from your injury."

I sighed and closed my eyes again.

"I heard about Lin Jing."

I said to her in a begging tone, "Can you help me?"

She said to me, "Open your eyes and see what I look like. If I have this ability, why am I still trapped in this body?"

I looked at her pretty face and fell silent.

"Sometimes, we are powerless in many things." Her eyes were clear and her expression was sincere and sincere.Then, I looked at her inexplicably, she unbuttoned her coat and lifted the clothes inside.On her flat belly, there is a finger-length scar, "same as yours, if it closes."

I was utterly bewildered: "What the hell is going on here?"

"I can't tell you." She shook her head and put her clothes down, "but I can keep you safe, I swear."

Zheng Yi once said to me: "Why do you all look at the world with conspiracy theories? I only see its intentions and powerlessness." This is exactly the same as what Xiao Xiaoyan said.This reminds me that the only breakthrough I can find is actually not capable of solving my dilemma at all.why?Why do system companies have no ability to return people to their original bodies?

Her eyelids drooped and she pulled the quilt up over my chest, then sat down on the edge of the bed and gazed at me with tender eyes.

"I want to go back early, there are still people waiting for me at home."

"If you don't have a lot of bleeding, you can actually get out of bed today. Why don't you wait? As soon as I see your file, I will come to you immediately." Her tone was soft, "It's also... there In this case, you will definitely find a way to save yourself. Wait a few more days, and as long as your condition improves, I will send you home. However, you cannot violate the confidentiality agreement. For insurance purposes, they may implant it under your skin A bugging device, and I'll fight to keep them from doing that."

"Thank you." I thanked her with blunt alienation in my tone.I'm really grateful to her for saving me, but the sister Xiaoyan in my memory and her in front of me can no longer be equated in my heart.What lies between us is a great mystery.

When I got home, it was four days later.I went upstairs with a limp, bandages on my hands, and a haggard face.It was my dad who opened the door for me.He was in a daze for a long time after seeing me.I went in to change my slippers, his hand pressed my back, and walked inside with me.He didn't ask me where I've been the past few days, I turned my head and wanted to tell a lie to get the matter over with, and saw the tears streaming down his ravine-ridden face.

"I'm really afraid that you're gone too..." His hand rested weakly on my back, and I pulled his hand off, feeling guilty one after another. I've never seen him cry, or say , he never cries in my face.

I sat with him in the living room for a long time, watching him smoke uninterruptedly, I can only reiterate over and over again that I will never run out without permission again.There was a sound like "um" in his throat, and his cloudy eyeballs looked straight at me, afraid that I would disappear.He stood up, squatted in front of the coffee table, and took out a piece of rope from underneath.

I know what he wants to do.

He walked up to me and grabbed my wrists together, circling them round and round.I moved twice, frowning, but didn't resist.He squatted down again and tied my feet.

He moved me to my bedroom and covered me tightly with the quilt.He said, "Son, I'll ask the doctor to come back to see your injury."

He walked to the door, and a figure stood at the door, and walked in lightly.

"I'm waiting for you to come back." Zhang Ran sat down on the stool in front of my bed.

"yes……"

"Many people have come to see you these days."

I moved my body a little and asked him, "Including Chen Wei?"

He nodded: "he comes every day, but I never let him in once. As I said, I'm waiting for you to come back. "

I shook my head on the pillow and closed my eyes: "You go and find him."

Zhang Ran said, "You no longer believe that your brother will come back with your efforts?"

"I still believe that he will come back." I smiled, "I have only worked hard for a few days, and in my life, there is still a long way to go." I am not afraid.

The future is full of changes and unpredictable, but I firmly believe that that day will come and I can wait.But to be honest, life is not as long as imagined, and I can't use favors to kidnap Zhang Randa here.What Chen Wei said is right, the soul and the body, I can clearly distinguish which is more important, but I actually... can tell the difference.

I also suffered a loss from acting rashly, and I don't know which tissue in my body was cut off forever.I didn't tell the people around me what happened to me these days, and I couldn't tell them.I successfully removed the thread, stayed at home quietly, and watched my dad live in the smog.

"Dad, I know that after my brother leaves, I will be the only heir of the Lin family. You still need someone to take care of you, and I don't want my mother to lose her way completely. Even if she is bullied by her husband in the future, I can only endure it. I am impulsive and irritable, I do things regardless of the consequences, and I will change." I looked at his black and white hair, and then at the rope in my hand, "Before doing everything, I will put you at the top of my consideration status."

The disappearance of my brother made it clear to me that I had nothing more to lose.Everyone around me, including myself, could suddenly disappear in this city.My sorry to my brother was only one night late, and there was no way for him to hear it again.If my parents go away, or... I go, it will be another heavy blow to this family.I don't know how many such big blows a family can bear before it falls apart.However, in the softest place in our hearts, there must be a piece that has collapsed.I'm not blind. When Zhang Ran called my dad uncle, I could see my dad was at a loss.

He pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray: "Then you go back to study."

"it is good."

It was Zhang Ran who untied me.

He didn't go, I don't know why he didn't go.He is 15 years old, which is the beginning of puberty. Boys at this age are usually ignorant and reckless, with nowhere to vent their energy. Some go out to make trouble, some are keen on games, and some can’t sit still at home and go out by bicycle every day Play with brother.If I fell in love with someone at his age, I can imagine the degree of enthusiasm and self-sacrifice, but he is a bit too precocious.

I went into the bathroom and finally took a good shower.The bruises on my hands and feet are blue-purple, and there is a large dark scar on my right arm after being scratched. Some scabs have fallen off on the knuckles of my fingers, and the skin is slightly sunken. , saw a centipede-like scar.Further down, the thighs are not much better.

I quickly put on my clothes, walked into the living room, and saw Zhang Ran standing by the window sill.

The balcony of the hall did not know when so many plants were moved here, a piece of dark green, and Zhang Ran was pruning the branches.I took a few steps forward, and an animal huddled near the coffee table caught my attention. I squatted down to look at it. It raised its head vigilantly, stood up quickly, and ran into the kitchen with a hop. It was a big gray cat missing a leg.

There is no smell of cigarettes near the coffee table, and the ashtray has been wiped clean. I have lived with my dad for so many years, and I know this is not in line with his living habits. He doesn't even brush his teeth very much.

Zhang Ran turned around, saw me and walked over slowly, asking about my physical condition.

"I feel better and can go to school tomorrow."

"That's good. I made barley porridge for you and fried okra. I think it's better for you to eat light." He put down the big scissors in his hand and walked into the kitchen. "Uncle said that he would invite you tonight." Your school director eats, so we don't have to wait for him."

I followed him into the kitchen and said to him, "You should know that you don't really owe me anything."

"You don't know, I saw my uncle hiding from you and secretly wiped away tears a few times..." He washed his hands under the tap, opened the lid of the pot, and started to serve porridge, "If you don't let me stay here, I still can't settle down with peace of mind." To live my own life in this body."

"Then are you going to spend your whole life here?"

"You believe that your brother will come back, and I believe in you." He looked at my body, "and I think you must have found out."

I don't know how happy I would be if these scars on my body were the price of useful discoveries.