gentle collapse

Zhang Ran sat on the window frame of the balcony of my bedroom, like a feline, quietly curling up his legs, basking in the sun.And the lame cat he adopted was even more lazy than him, and was lying quietly beside him at the moment, obediently letting Zhang Ran smooth its fur.His fingers gently stroked the cat's head, and he poked his head out to look outside from time to time, but there was only a concrete floor outside, and I knew who he was waiting for.

Chen Wei didn't come today, he straightened his legs, swayed a few times, and then jumped down nimbly.

My behavior of skipping class without authorization seems to have annoyed the school, and they refused to let me continue to go to school no matter what.The third year of high school requires students to calm down, they are afraid that I will take the lead in inciting the negative emotions of my classmates.If that doesn't work, I want to get a job.I lay on the bed and watched Zhang Ran take out a guitar from the corner.I know he went home and saw his parents from afar and brought this guitar with him.

He sat up again, against the light, and said that playing a song would relieve my boredom.

I accidentally glanced out the window, and saw He Yuchen standing outside the window.Zhang Ran followed my gaze and turned his head, put down the guitar, opened his mouth, and closed it hesitantly.He seemed a little helpless, and asked He Yuchen softly, "Are you Zhang Ran? I'm you at the age of 15."

He Yuchen stretched out his hand to him, Zhang Ran moved his knuckles closer and touched He Yuchen's, his expression seemed very happy, his eyes never left He Yuchen's face for a moment, it was three Years later his own face.

He Yuchen introduced himself: "My name is He Yuchen, and I am a time traveler who borrowed your body."

Zhang Ran nodded after understanding the situation, and said with a little regret: "Oh."

But He Yuchen didn't let go of his hand, and still held it tightly.I quietly got out of bed, wanting to leave here, but Zhang Ran turned his head around and looked at me nervously.

He Yuchen withdrew his hand, I stood awkwardly, feeling the wound on my body itch.I know what I have to say now: "He Yuchen, come in first, come in and we'll talk."

If He Yuchen doesn't know where to start, I'm afraid I'll have to be a commentator.

After Zhang Ran heard all this, he said with some understanding: "You mean I am a character in a novel?" He obviously couldn't accept it, but I couldn't accept it either. I always felt that there were other characters. He explained that the book He Yuchen read and his time travel may be woven together by countless coincidences, and there may be misunderstandings in it.

In fact, there is such a possibility that Zhang Ran wrote the book after Chen Wei's death. Zhang Ran ignored the background and only recorded the main plot of the story. After several years, He Yuchen saw it.

Thinking of this, I asked He Yuchen: "How many years did you travel through?"

"2020."

It is now 2019, three years have passed since the establishment of the system company, and only one year has passed since He Yuchen crossed, and one year later Zhang Ran was only 3 years old. At that time, Chen Wei must not have died. It seems that this inference cannot be established , but I still spoke my mind.Time and space can be reversed and reversed again and again. Zhang Ran, who is already in his 1s and 1s, may travel back to a longer time to write this book.

He Yuchen raised his head and said, "No matter what the truth is, anyway, I can be sure that those things really happened to Zhang Ran. I can't let everything repeat the same mistakes." He looked at Zhang Ran again, his eyes burning.

"I've heard from Chen Wei what will happen in the future. I think the future has changed, right? It's impossible for Chen Wei to do that to me. I believe him." Zhang Ran looked at He Yuchen anxiously. It was obvious that he Want to protect Chen Wei.

"You believe in everyone." I couldn't hold back anymore. Zhang Ran also said this to me two days ago.How could he be so credulous that I hadn't actually gotten any useful clues, but he believed me blindly?

"Because you are all worthy of my trust." Zhang Ran was a little stubborn, "The people I trust are not bad people."

He Yuchen approached him: "Chen Wei is a bad guy, he doesn't deserve you at all, you are so good."

"I'm not good." Zhang Ran looked a little annoyed, "You don't understand me."

He Yuchen said firmly, with some sobs: "I know you well, you are the best."

Zhang Ran froze in place, his ears were a little red, but he didn't say anything, and frowned again.I stood aside, and I didn't expect to hear He Yuchen's sudden confession.

He continued: "Although I have no money, I'm just a cement bearer, and I can't compare with Chen Wei's family background..."

Before He Yuchen finished speaking, Zhang Ran retorted: "It's not because of the money, I don't want anyone's money."

"I know you're not that kind of person." He Yuchen said in a nostalgic tone as if thinking of something, "I've read half your life, and I know your thoughts, your ambitions and your tolerance regardless of the past. .”

"You're not me." Zhang Ran didn't look at He Yuchen again, he was a little tired, "You don't know what I think."

But at this moment, I really want to know Zhang Ran's thoughts.Yes, I have heard Chen Wei and He Yuchen's version of Zhang Ran's story. According to them, Zhang Ran is perfect.Maybe it's because Zhang Ran's existence carries a sense of redemption and warmth to them.

After He Yuchen reluctantly left, Zhang Ran went to the kitchen and started cooking.I followed him, looking at my brother's body, imagining that it contained a soul that didn't match it.

I asked him, "Aren't you afraid?"

"What are you afraid of? Afraid of being treated as a plaything, afraid of being betrayed, afraid of still wanting to stay with the other party after being betrayed?" He actually knew what I was asking, and gave the answer, "I'm afraid, I'm very surprised why twenty At what age are you not afraid? Everyone has self-esteem, and below the bottom line of dignity is a dark area that I dare not even think about. I am not afraid of not being loved or accepted, and I can endure the pain of crushing love. But I am not Thinking of myself doing that."

He turned around and asked me: "If he didn't like me then, why would I still be willing to sleep with him?"

How would I know?The nature of this question is almost the same as Zheng Yi asking me why he hit me just now.If standing in front of me was Zhang Ran in his twenties, I would really like to ask him this question.Then maybe, everything has the answer.

He probably didn't expect me to give him any answers, but just wanted to express a question.He turned around and began to cut the meat, following the texture of the meat, cutting into long and thin strands.

His Adam's apple was moving up and down: "The me they like is the me I still can't understand."

I want to know: "Then what do you like about Chen Wei?"

"I don't like everything about him, I don't like his extravagance, I don't like his arrogance, I don't like his vanity, cowardice, irresponsibility. His way of doing things is the kind that I absolutely hate and despise , but I just like him." His voice was low, "I have liked him for many years."