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"My name is He Yuchen, male, and my sexual orientation is also male. I am 20 years old and from Hunan." He pointed at himself, observed my expression, and then added helplessly, "What I said is true, Don't believe it..."

"I don't believe it, you continue to talk." I nodded, wanting to hear what the world looks like in his eyes.

On the contrary, he was a little nervous, with a lot of small movements on his hands: "Although I have been aware of my sexual orientation since a long time ago, I have never been in a relationship. I just occasionally find a few books to read. Half a month ago, I I read a book called "Naked Pork", BE, and one of the main characters died. After reading it, I lay on the bed uncomfortable and couldn't sleep at all. I didn't want to cry, nor did I think this story touched me so much. Rather, the plot inside is simply revenge against society. I haven’t seen such a clichéd article for a long time, and I can’t understand why the author wrote the article..."

"I can understand your feelings, but I don't think the focus now is on your impressions of this book, right?" Although I felt that it was bad to interrupt other people's desire to talk, I looked out the window anxiously. may come.

"In short, I transmigrated into this book. But you said that this place has welcomed many transmigrators, so the background seems to be different from the book I read, and I don't know how it happened matter." He looked like he wanted to get to the bottom of it, but I couldn't explain it all.

"Okay, now put this contradiction aside, why did you come to me in the first place?"

"In the book, Chen Wei's behavior is really bad to a certain extent, and he is surrounded by cronies. I think you are the only...normal person around him. Once Zhang Ran was beaten by a group, or You went to save him. So my original intention of looking for you was actually to get to know Chen Wei from a side perspective, if you can establish a friendship with him, it must be that he is actually not so bad, right?"

"Wait, who is Zhang Ran?"

"It's the owner of this body. His father is the old housekeeper of Chen Wei's house. Zhang Ran lives in Chen Wei's house. After I traveled through time and basically understood the situation, I found an excuse to move out of his house. Do some odd jobs to make a living, but recently I always feel that I know the plot, Chen Wei will die at the age of 25, I wonder if I can save him, just use the identity of this body to infect him Let him go on the right path, stop promiscuous sex, and be more mature, so maybe he won't choose to commit suicide in the end."

"you like him?"

"No, no, no... I hate him very, very much. Let me tell you the outline of the story and you will understand. Chen Wei is bisexual, and his love life has been chaotic since high school. At that time, he thought Zhang Ran was not bad, so he I went to bed with him, and then continued to play with myself. Later, his family fell into ruin and his whole body collapsed. In fact, a skinny camel is bigger than a horse. He just couldn’t bear the psychological gap, so he gradually got mixed up. On the road. Zhang Ran has been following him all the time, but he has never looked at him directly, so he sleeps with him at night to solve his physical needs. Later, Chen Wei lost half of his leg in a shopping mall, and his life has always been He was very miserable, and his spirit was a little abnormal. When Zhang Ran went out to buy vegetables, he committed suicide."

It's hard for me to believe that Chen Wei is such a person. What I usually see him most is showing off his love with the girls in the class next door. I don't think he is too out of line, or how chaotic his private life is.In fact, if I exclude those inherent impressions and let me directly judge this story: "Chen Wei's death is not a pity, Zhang Ran is too stupid. And if you hate Chen Wei so much, why do you still want to save him? "

"After all...he's the one he likes." He smiled wryly, and clenched his hands tightly, "I really like Zhang Ran, I really don't know what to say to someone like Chen Wei Good. What he said was very romantic, especially when he was in bed, but he fell asleep by himself every time after finishing the work, leaving Zhang Ran to clean up in the bathroom alone, and Zhang Ran had to get up early the next morning to send him to school. He will never see the door he left for him, the curtains he newly arranged, and the flowers on the table that change every day."

"Then I think, now Chen Wei doesn't need you to save him, he has been reborn." I changed my mind, "You fell in love with the original owner of your body, it sounds a bit desolate."

"Reborn?" This sentence seemed to shock him so much that he didn't speak for a long time, and then he sighed softly, lowered his eyes, and said in a strange voice, "In this story , who is more pleasing is a very obvious thing, right? Anyway, I will take good care of this body. Sometimes I think, if I transmigrated to Chen Wei’s body, I would love him to death.”

I was suddenly a little nervous, with some resistance and some anticipation and asked: "Is my ending written in this book?"

"No, Chen Wei stopped living in this city after his family fell into ruin, and he didn't mention you again after that."

"Also... I should be an unimportant supporting role." Should I be glad that my future is in the blind spot of this book?How would I feel if he told me that my destiny was written and that I didn't get the life I wanted?Everything has been decided, and no matter how hard I struggle, it will be useless. Do I still need to work hard for my life?

I think, I still will, no matter where I live, whether in a book or in a walnut, even if I can't reach the best end, I can't live up to the process.If I live lazy, decadent and cold-blooded because of this, then I really have nothing and have no value in existence.

I suddenly had a thought: "He...Yu Chen?"

He bowed his head with a pensive look, and when he heard my name calling him, he was a little startled: "What's wrong?"

"Have you ever read the book-traveling novel? What if "Naked Duck" is just a book in the book? I mean...would it be possible that you are also a character in the book, and it is also the author's arrangement for you to travel into this book. The author The main reason is that the characters in his works read the book "Naked Ducks", and then traveled into this book. By accident, he traveled to the character he liked, and then he discovered that this world is not the same as The book he read was different...I, you, including all of these, are part of this story. You think you are a real person, but you, like me, are just characters in the book .Now maybe the original author is typing on the computer screen in the dark, preparing to write what you will say next."

"It's a bit confusing, you let me think about it..." He took a deep breath and continued, "You mean, I am the protagonist of a novel, and the content of that novel is that I travel to a book .You are a character in that book. What happened between me and you is the plot of that novel. I am not real? How is this possible? I remember things from when I was young, I had trouble with my deskmate The conflicts I had with my parents, the despair and pain I felt when I found out I was gay, none of this was real? So what was real? I could pick up this cup in front of me, I could swallow food, I need to go to the toilet every day, doesn't that speak to the authenticity of my existence?"

"If you insist on saying that, I can do the same. That's right, even the me who you think is living in the novel is actually living like this."

"Oh my god..." His back hunched all of a sudden.

"Oh my god, I finally found this place. I've been wandering around the community for a long time. Lin An, are you there? Open the door for me." It was Zheng Yi's voice.