Wu Xie, see you!

With an indescribable feeling, I silently turned and entered the room, suddenly very hungry... want to eat.But after I ate all the snacks I bought during the day and the apples from the fruit stall owner, I still felt that it was not enough.Anything is fine, as long as it fills my stomach.

Thinking of this, I looked through the drawer and saw the kaleidoscope given by the company on Children's Day.Facing the light, I lifted it up and looked at it.The kaleidoscope is gorgeous and colorful, but it is a broken world.When I put it down, I found that the direction facing the kaleidoscope happened to be Rilakkuma's box.I did one thing, one thing of great relief—bad or not, I pulled out a favorite piece of Gingerbread Man with a Grumpy Face, and without hesitation, I bit off its head.After that, it got out of control and ate up a box of biscuits, leaving no residue.

I downloaded a software, studied it carefully, and planned to engrave an accompaniment disc for the black glasses.But when he opened the notebook CD-ROM, he was stunned.There is a disk in the CD-ROM drive, what's going on?I stretched my neck to see, and then I understood.So, "Evil in the East and Poison in the West" is Poker's choice of movie?

I forgot what I was going to do, hesitated for a moment, then pushed the CD-ROM drive back, and watched the movie... However, the plot was not as cheerful as I had imagined. After the opening subtitles passed, it was Leslie Cheung and Liang Jiahui I was taken aback when I saw the sparring.Eh... shouldn't it be a comedy?Sausage mouth, cousins ​​and so on, how did they become martial arts movies?Think about it again, oh yes, that's not the name, it's just very similar.At this moment, the sparring ended, and a passage appeared on the screen-the Buddhist scriptures said: The flag is not moving, the wind is not blowing, it is the human heart that is moving by itself.

Such an old-fashioned statement, of course I have known it for a long time, and high school political philosophy and materialism have refuted it as a typical example.Once out of curiosity, I searched and found that the original text was actually from the "Sixth Patriarch Master's Dharma Treasure Altar Sutra", and found that the understanding in the textbook was too shallow.I don't have such a high attainment to fully comprehend the mystery, but I also have my own vulgar and shallow understanding: as long as you maintain a mentality that has nothing to do with me, it doesn't matter whether your flag moves or how strong the wind blows?It's none of my business, I don't care about you!But once you have a heart, whether it changes or remains the same will not be able to stop you from thinking about it.This is emotion.Love makes people dreamy, scientifically speaking, it is nothing more than dopamine.It's just that people are not grass and trees, and among all living beings, how many people can be as powerful and thorough as gods and Buddhas?Even the supreme, cold-blooded and ruthless emperor may not be able to escape the bondage of grievances and mortals.When love is moving, it is not impossible for the mountains and rivers to smile for you.

Whoever's mind is moved will lose his own world.

There is also a line in the movie. Later, when I thought everything was over, I suddenly remembered it. "When you can no longer have it, the only thing you can do is to make yourself not forget." Really, forgetting is hard, and letting go is even harder. Even if you want to, some people can't forget if they want to, or let go if they want to It's up to you to let it go.

That night, after watching the movie and burning the disk, I went to bed early.The cold medicine my aunt gave was like a sleeping pill, which made me feel at peace and my mind was heavy. I fell asleep quickly and had no dreams all night.

Early the next morning, I arrived at the company with my big bags and small bags. Like paying off my debts, I returned the Leslie Cheung movie collection to Xiuxiu, went to the black glasses, piled the suits and CDs on his desk, and put him on the keyboard. The typing hands were all buried.The black glasses froze, and raised his eyes to look at me: "Yo, little third master, you are so menacing, what's all this, you just threw it here all at once?"

I said, "I can't put it on the ground for you, can I? Just your clothes and the accompaniment you want are carved."

"Oh, so fast! Thank you. But didn't I say that I don't want the clothes? You can wear them. What if you need to go to a meeting someday?" He put away the tray, picked up the clothes and fortified Give me.

meeting?Hehehe, who wants to go to the meeting?I smiled wryly: "Thank you for your concern. If there is a real meeting, I will have clothes to wear. Your clothes are too inappropriate. I will clean them for you. Don't be too particular about it."

"I'm a clean freak, so washing it doesn't count." He grinned.

Cleanliness, your sister, you are just looking for trouble when you have nothing to do!I rolled my eyes in my heart and said, "Then you throw it away!"

"Help me throw it." He even acted like a baby.

piss off.How can a leader have such a skill that he can't make others respect him well!I breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Throw away your clothes yourself. I'll go back when it's okay." After I finished speaking, I turned to leave, but I heard another sentence imitating an advertisement in a particularly awkward tone: "No, it's yours." clothing."

Amidst the laughter around me, I twitched the corners of my mouth, feeling that I would never understand him in this life.Just like there's a good chance I won't be able to see the eyes under those sunglasses in my life.

The company has been calm for several days. Except for the need to complete the work, I am quite relieved that there are no extra problems happening, and the symptoms of the cold are gradually relieving.But there are also some unusual things. These days, I still can't help but look at my MSN. In the past week, I have never seen Poker Bottle online again.Logically speaking, shouldn't they be open at work?So is it a business trip, or a vacation?I don't know what's going on, anyway, that profile picture is always gray.

This phenomenon makes me very concerned.I don't want to pay attention to him, but I can't control myself.Maybe... I still feel indebted to him, and I also feel that I was too serious that day.Aren’t many people in the homosexual group sensitive and fragile? Did I disrespect him and hurt his self-esteem?

I have my own problems, not small ones.Although I don't want to face it, after all, I responded to him first, and then "ruthlessly" pressed the stop button, giving hope and pushing people to the bottom... All in all, I hope that he and I can continue to live normally, As if this incident had never happened, it would not have any negative impact on him and me.Although with my current neurotic nature, I know it's impossible to think about it with my toes, but I still hope so, I hope he can live a good life and don't be influenced by me...

In fact, as long as you ask, you may be able to know the answer very easily.Not to mention the black glasses, Ah Ning even went to a meeting these days.But I really couldn't allow myself to "gossip" about him naturally, and I couldn't even ask them the simple question "Do you have Mr. Zhang's MSN?"I don’t know why, but I feel like someone who has a secret love affair. That person suddenly turns around and disappears into the vast crowd, but I have a ghost in my heart. I’m afraid of being found out, so I can’t ask others with peace of mind, and I can’t ask him. .So, this became my own problems and concerns, and I directed and acted on my own. As a result, I thought more and more alone.

If you are not online during the day, what about at night?Except for commuting and sleeping time, my MSN is almost seamlessly logged in at work and at home, but even so, I didn't catch that avatar light up until before going to bed every day.

I analyzed that it might be because I was online and he didn't want to see me, so he was always invisible, so I tried to change the login method to "display as offline". If you don't know how to see if I'm not online, you will come up, but it still doesn't work.Later, even I myself discovered that this speculation was actually buggy.How does he know when I'm online? MSN does not have such a setting for its invisibility, it has been incognito... It can be understood at night, but it does not work during the day?No contact with others?I can't be the only one on his MSN.

Ever since, my speculation has changed direction.Poker-Face is actually not offline, not on vacation, on a business trip, or avoiding me, he is always online.I can't see him because he blocked me and dragged me into the blacklist like QQ.To be honest, this speculation made me very uncomfortable, it would be better for him to avoid me directly "You are here, then I will go".

I actually sincerely hope that he can live a good life without being influenced by me, hehe, Wu Xie, you really take yourself too seriously...I don't even fucking hate you anymore, it's absolutely wrong for you to do this Why!Damn it, the dead Scorpio man is so cruel...

Sometimes I think that I am so angry, and want to try if he really blocked me, but... I don't have the courage.What's more, so what if I try it, I can't wait for the reply message, or everything is reset to zero, back to the original point, and I can't confirm it at all.Call, text and ask!But picking up the phone a few times... what the hell am I doing!Is it necessary, does it make sense!Do what you like, I don't care!

Of course, I still have work to do besides keeping an eye on it.As the old saying goes: The year is afraid of the mid-autumn moon, and the week is afraid of Wednesday.During this week, I was on sick leave on Monday, fished on Tuesday, and found out on Wednesday that I am so fucking out of time!I hurried to completely burn my chicken-blooded superman's small universe. While catching up with old jobs, I never procrastinated when I received new tasks. If I couldn't finish it in a day, I would work overtime or take it home to do it.Finally, on Friday morning, I finished all the briefs whose deadline was before this weekend, sent the emails to Fatty and Aning one by one, and with their permission, I got off work half a day earlier.

I went home and packed up the simple daily necessities, rummaged through the box and chest to find out the driver's license that I had never used, and rented a small car with automatic transmission from the rental center near my home.I'm driving home!

Trembling on the road, when I exited the parking lot in the backyard of the rental shop, I almost missed the iron gate... But after driving for a while, I gradually found the feeling, and after getting on the Beijing-Tianjin Expressway, it was better than the one in the city. The road is better.I was completely relaxed, and adjusted at a rest stop on the way to resolve the internal urgency caused by the nervousness on the road.After that, with a cigarette in his mouth, he inserted the pre-engraved CD into the stereo, and started on the road again.Ignoring the voice of the navigation lady constantly reminding me to pay attention to the speed of the car, I speeded up to 120 and hummed along with the disc.I even boldly took a photo of the first green sign after entering the Beijing-Shanghai Expressway, then put my phone on the steering wheel, typed a few words carefully and slowly, and sent the picture to my circle of friends: "Go all the way to the south Drive, go home!" After posting, I curled my mouth, and I felt such emotions in my heart: Tsk, what's so great about driving, as long as you can drive well?

It probably has something to do with getting used to staying up late. I don't feel sleepy after driving late at night, but I've been listening to that CD for more than ten hours.After smoking a pack and a half of cigarettes, I finally saw the words on the sign indicating how many kilometers there are in Hangzhou.At this time, the sky was slightly bright, and the night sky and the morning light met, giving the sky a magnificent red color, but there were still stars above the head.I finally went home... The scenery is so beautiful, I feel like returning home.

I was a road idiot in Beijing, and I thought that I could turn off the navigation when I entered the urban area of ​​Hangzhou. However, I was a little dumbfounded.The hometown in my memory is somewhat "unrecognizable". Many familiar shops have changed their appearance, and I always feel in a trance. Is this the place it used to be?Why can't you recognize the corner?It turns out that home will become strange...

When the elevator door opened, I happened to meet my mother who was about to go out.

"Little evil?"

I was stunned, I forgot to call my mother, I deeply felt that she was old, and the time between the graduation photo in my wallet was less than a year, her complexion was darker, more wrinkles, and her temples were darker White.It seems that old age always comes suddenly. I felt uncomfortable for a while, and rushed to hug my mother who was also stunned. "Mom, why are you going? I'm starving to death. Is there anything to eat? Get me something to eat first." I said as I walked towards the house with my arms around her shoulders.

"You didn't say in advance what time you will arrive, there are only leftovers from yesterday." Mom complained, but smiled on her face.

"The leftovers are good, the leftovers are good, our leftovers and leftovers are the most delicious."

Unexpectedly, the so-called leftovers and leftovers turned out to be one of my mother's specialty dishes.Seeing the small bowl of braised pork that was cut squarely, I froze for a moment, and suddenly remembered something, and quickly forced it out of my mind.After drinking a bowl of egg wine, it was hot and sweet, and I felt that the ten-hour drive was worth it, no matter what, it was a good family.At this moment, I really don't want to go back, so I just stay with them at home.

Mom didn't go out anymore, she moved a chair, sat next to me to watch me eat, and asked some questions from time to time.And my dad, on the balcony, trimmed his flowers, seemingly carelessly, but in fact he often pinched the leaves and forgot to move, and listened attentively.When I entered the house, he was watering the flowers on the balcony. When he saw me coming in after my mother, he was also taken aback at the time, and only said, "Are you back?" unconsciously holding the watering can in his hand to spray water.

When I put the braised pork in my mouth, I was about to cry. The taste and texture definitely compare to the Hangzhou restaurant that Boyouping took me to eat that day!I paused, when did it start, I always thought of him when I saw certain things... I told him during the chat that day, there is a chance to let him try my mother's craft, right?What day was it?Why do you suddenly think about it, it seems like a lifetime ago, a long, long time ago?Forget it, it’s just a polite remark anyway, everyone understands it.Who doesn't understand that in life, many things and many words don't have to be taken seriously, just smile.

"You have to tell me the time in advance. Mom can go out early to buy a live fish and come back to make vinegar fish for you." My mother picked up a piece of meat and put it in my bowl.I wolfed down the pork and rice, and said, "I can't tell the time, I drove back, so I didn't tell you in advance because you were worried. The fish is good, good, I really want to eat it, at night!"

"Did you drive back?" My mother looked terrified, and even my father turned around and looked over.

"Well, I rented a car." I said lightly, and smiled at them with squinted eyes.

"How to drive back! How dangerous it is to drive alone!" My mother was obviously afraid, so I quickly comforted her and said, I am not doing well.

"Driving is a skill. If you don't drive after learning it, it doesn't hurt to learn what to do." Unexpectedly, my dad suddenly said this. Seeing that my mom obviously wanted to tell my dad something, I quickly put the empty bowl He held it up to her eyes: "Mom, I'm done eating, let's have another bowl."

Sure enough, my mother "forgot" my father, took the bowl, and quickly filled another bowl, then looked at me for a long time, and said: "Xiaoxie, you've lost weight, and your complexion is not good."

"Oh? Is there any? I guess I had diarrhea a while ago. It's good to lose weight. I've gained a lot of weight since I went to work, and my stomach almost bulged."

"It's always eaten outside. It's unhealthy and oily. Didn't the news say that it's all gutter oil?"

"Then are you worried about me getting fat or losing weight? Haha, I eat really well, really!" I made up a nonsense, "I have a colleague who prepares lunch for him every day and brings it to the company , will bring me an extra...Yesterday, um... Yesterday at noon, it was fried lotus root box, it was delicious, really, I also drank mung bean soup..."

My mother is especially good at focusing on the key points, and her eyes immediately shine: "Why is my colleague so good at bringing you food? Male or female?"

"..." I chewed the rice in my mouth and swallowed it with difficulty, "Male...male." For the first time, I felt that I had to struggle with gender, and I always felt that nothing was right.

My mother was a little disappointed and just said let me thank you well.I felt relieved, coughed, quickly changed the subject, and continued: "People often invite us to eat, and they are all delicious restaurants. Why don't you come to Beijing with my dad this year's eleventh, and I will take you Go eat." As I said that, I began to think about some places where I could take them to eat, maybe I was too sleepy, my head was foggy, I thought about it, and there was a figure of Poker Bottle in every place I could think of, as if in his It's like I haven't eaten anywhere else before...

"Let's talk about that, anyway, looking at you like this, my heart hurts, you see your face is earthy..." She said with red eye circles, and I hurriedly teased her: "Of course it is earthy, I haven't washed my face all day I haven’t shaved my beard yet, it looks old, haha, don’t worry, I’m just a little tired after driving all night, I’ll be fine after a night of sleep,” I raised my head and shouted to the balcony, “Dad will lend me a razor later use!"

"That's right, hurry up and let the child finish eating, wash, wash and go to sleep. You're so tired. Didn't you just go out to buy something?" My dad made a sound in time, and my mother gave him a glaring look.

I was really tired, my illness was just right, I had to catch up with work for a few days, and I even drove overnight.I didn't feel it when I entered the room just now, but now that I've almost eaten, I'm tired and sleepy, and I'm trying to cope with my mother's concern.It's not that I feel annoying, but I feel a little bit of pressure, which is inexplicable.

I can't blame my mother for making a fuss, the bathroom light is dim, and the face reflected in the mirror is really decadent.I took a picture with my phone in the mirror.After Weibo gained a lot of strange fans because of Xiaohua, she didn't dare to use it anymore.When I had a fever before, in order to sleep soundly, I turned off WeChat message notifications. Now that I opened Moments, I saw that there had been a lot of messages overnight.Regardless, I sent that photo and wrote: "I am such a vicissitudes man."

I couldn't take a shower anymore, so I climbed into my little bed and planned to sleep after washing my face.The sheets and bedding have a nice smell of washing powder, they are dry and hard, they are newly changed, they are very comfortable, the curtains are closed, and the light is just right.I found a comfortable position, and then I opened Moments to have a look.I didn't expect that after such a short time, there would be comments on the picture of the vicissitudes of life. It turned out to be black glasses...

"Little third master, you are finally home!"

I frowned, and replied: "Ah, it's early, why is it 'finally'..." Strange, I didn't seem to be on the road for too long?After I got back to him, I read the comments under the photo on the highway one by one.

Xie Yuchen: Playing with mobile phones while driving!

Ning: Super Wu Zhen is super, and he can drive.

Fat Master is cute and cute: I have grown my skills [in a daze]

Big Brother Hei: You've got a lot of skills [in a daze]

Brother Hei: Be safe and don’t play with your mobile phone while driving.

Brother Hei: Are you here?

Big Brother Hei: Not here yet?

Big Brother Hei: When we arrive, please report your safety.

"..." I couldn't care about anything else, I blinked, and thought to myself, are these black glasses okay?Hurry back to him: "It's here, it's here! Senior brother, don't you dare to finish talking at once!"

Soon he replied to me: "Blame me?"

I replied to him: "Is it my fault?"

He replied to me again: "It's all the fault of the moon!"

I replied to him: "Why abandon treatment..."

He replied to me again: "I didn't take any medicine today, I feel so cute~"

I replied: "I see it, I see it, I can't open my eyes."

He replied to me: "Yeah~"

"……"baffling.I threw the phone to the pillow and turned over to get ready to sleep.But the moment I closed my eyes, I suddenly felt that something was wrong, I couldn't tell, it was just an intuition.But it was too sleepy, and after drowsiness swept over, his consciousness was out of control.

Had a dream.It was pitch black in the dream, surrounded by the sound of rushing water, and I was lying on the ground, as if I was on the edge of a cliff. The surface was wet and rough like a rock, and my whole body hurt from the pain.But it’s nothing compared to my arm. My right hand has been tightly holding someone’s hand. I don’t know who is underneath, but I just know that I must never let go, and I don’t want him to die.Therefore, even though my arm was about to be broken, I still gritted my teeth and persisted.

A flash of lightning suddenly pierced the darkness. I saw his face, and I was startled. How could it be him... The thunder was rumbling, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and my hands were getting slippery. I was so anxious.But at this moment, I heard him say: "Wu Xie, it's okay." I became even more anxious when I heard it, but I couldn't speak anymore, so I could only hold my breath, and I squeezed that hand harder, and the nails were even tighter. Going to dig into his flesh.Then, with lightning lighting up a smiling face, he said, "Goodbye."

The feeling of that hand slowly slipping away from mine was so real that no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't stop it.I wanted to call his name, but I couldn't make a sound. In the end, I didn't know if I was crying, and my face was all wet.However, another lightning and thunder struck, and I clearly saw the person below, which turned into my own face!Immediately, my hands were empty...

I shivered and woke up suddenly.The surroundings were pitch black, and there was the sound of rushing water. I was sweating all over, and my face was wet. I didn't know whether it was sweat or tears, and I didn't feel anything in my right arm.I panted violently and waited for a long time before I heard muffled laughter, like some variety show.Suddenly, the room was lit up for a moment, and my eyes moved. I saw the curtained window beside the bed, heard the sound of rain, and smelled the aroma of food.

It was a dream and I was at home.I breathed a sigh of relief, and wanted to check the time with my phone, only to find that my right hand was completely numb from my pressure, like a prosthetic limb. 20:13... I woke up all at once, damn, how long did I sleep!I couldn't figure it out for a while.After finally going home, I wanted to use the limited time to spend more time with my parents, but I fell asleep at night. I hurriedly got up and wanted to get out of bed, but was numb by my arm that hadn’t recovered, and I went back to bed. The pain in my right hand also reminded me of something.I was stunned, and quickly clicked on WeChat, only to see several unread messages, among which there were... and black glasses.

Big Brother Hei: Little Third Master, you are finally home!

Wu Chaoren can't fly and replied to Senior Brother Hei: Ah, I'm here early, why is it 'finally'...

Brother Hei replied that Wu Chaoren couldn’t fly: Don’t yell when you arrive early, young master, you are trying to kill your obsessive-compulsive disorder!Sure enough, quite unusual, of all kinds.I flipped through and looked at the comments on the black glasses under the photo on the highway...Suddenly, a strange idea popped up, and I wanted to verify it, but I couldn't!Quickly click on Xiaohua for a private chat.

"Dahua!!! How to check the date and time of every comment in Moments!!! Waiting online!!! Very urgent!!!"

I copied three of them in a row, but instead of Xiaohua, I waited for my mother.I sat on the bed in the dark with my mobile phone in my hand, my face glowing faintly, which must have startled my mother who thought I was still asleep and wanted to wake me up for dinner.

There is a table for dinner, all of which I like to eat, but I can't help but look at my phone after eating for a while, unlock and check WeChat after talking to them.But our beloved little Jiuye has not responded for a long time... This can teach me how to eat with peace of mind!It's really obsessive-compulsive disorder.The mobile phone is placed next to the bowl, and I even turned on all the message notification functions of WeChat, which can be fully activated.

Variety shows are always noisy and playful, which makes me a little annoyed. I feel bored but laugh with my parents.Finally, I heard the familiar prompting sound.I quickly opened it to check, and saw that Xiaohua sent me a screenshot with a word "stupid" rather coldly.But I replied to him like a treasure: "Thank you!!!" Then I couldn't wait to study according to the screenshots.Until I saw... an involuntary burst of sadness in my heart, as if I had returned to a dream, eroded by that hopeless emotion.

Brother Hei: It’s time to learn

3:08pm yesterday

Brother Hei: Be safe and don’t play with your mobile phone while driving.

7:12pm yesterday

Brother Hei: Are you here?

4:00 am today

Big Brother Hei: Not here yet?

6:00 am today

Big Brother Hei: When we arrive, please report your safety.

8:00 am today

Even if the black glasses are full, no matter how sick they are, they will not be so sick.Who else could there be such a sick person besides...? !But I don't understand... I don't understand it no matter how I think about it.Outside the window, the rain is still falling, I hate rainy days.

My mother called me a few times before I came back to my senses and asked me why I kept playing with my phone.I wanted to laugh, but it turned into a wry smile, and told her it was about work... She asked me worriedly why her face was so ugly, and I said that it was really annoying not to let people live on weekends.After I finished speaking, I laughed, but it was probably uglier than crying.Seeing my mother's concerned look, I suddenly felt guilty.In front of them, I always feel that something is different.It seems that in the blink of an eye, I don't know if the world has changed or I have changed.

I got up early the next day, not because I deliberately got up early, but probably because I slept too much and didn't feel sleepy all night.I went to the morning market with my mother, and drove him to buy special products for Xiaohua.In the shopping mall, while walking, I suddenly heard someone calling my name.Looking back, it was a pregnant woman. I couldn't remember it, but it seemed familiar. It was she who took the initiative to say the name, so I completely remembered it.It was my first love that I never uttered in junior high school. I still remember that day when I rode a bicycle and crossed the broken bridge, I looked at her sideways. It was so beautiful that I almost said it.

The people who used to pay attention to each other so sincerely, have not grown old, but they can't recognize each other... They exchanged casual politeness, greeted each other a few words, and said goodbye to each other, and the time was only two or three minutes.It's really "that day, that night, I didn't realize it, but I went away"... How much time does this process take?Thinking about it, I suddenly felt a little confused, like "lost".But don't you think it's weird?I obviously never owned it, and where did the loss come from.

In the afternoon, I packed up and set off for Beijing.No way, I still have to go to work on Monday, and I have to go back overnight.Frantically driving, tired and sleepy, in the end I drove numbly, and finally got home to unload the package and return the car.

Let me thank you, give me empty joy, remember to forget...

The moment the engine was turned off, I suddenly realized that there was singing on the stereo. I forgot to take the CD, but before it was too late, I pulled out the car key.Forget it...don't want it.After thinking about it, when I walked to the entrance of the subway station, I took a photo of the station name and sent it to Moments.

"I, Wu Hansan, are back again."

In addition to buying a large bag of special products for Xiaohua, I also carried some to the company for my colleagues.Although some things happened this weekend that puzzled me, there is still no change in MSN. The gray profile picture is still gray, which makes me even more puzzled.So, I kept two bags of lotus root starch specially, and I struggled for a long time. I only put one bag on the table with black glasses, and gave the other bag to my aunt who has always been good to me.

Playful's activities are getting more and more lively day by day, and my days are repeated day by day as usual.Probably because of being busy, I don't seem to have any special expectations for the approaching trip to Japan.On the contrary, Xiao Hua contacted me more frequently than before. One reason is that he has some time recently, and the other reason is to watch the fun.His entry photo is currently the most popular. I don’t think it’s because it’s too sincere, too professional, comparable to a magazine blockbuster... It also caused me to be often teased by my colleagues, and I even gossip about black glasses when I’m smoking. Whether I explain "it's not like that" or make a joke and say "it's what you see", it doesn't feel right and I'm embarrassed.

Someone must have seen that too, right?How could you not know!The weekly event report is made by me holding my face in pain, and the rankings and popular works are all sorted out by me...

Explain a ball!What love thinks!Why miss him!