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Yu Chenyi looked at the paper with his own name written on it without leaving any gaps, and his fingers slid gently over the creases and ink on the paper, he could almost see Gu Ninglin's appearance when he wrote these names.

There must be a hot light in Gu Ninglin's eyes, and the paranoid love and fanaticism can almost overflow, just like the eyes that secretly bet on him every time he thought he didn't know.

Maybe the hand holding the pen is still unstable, and because of nervousness or excitement, the other hand will rub against the edge of the paper, wrinkling the flat white paper.

And probably whispering his name as he writes.

Through these words, Yu Chenyi's ears seemed to have cries at the same time.

There is a soft and sweet "Brother Chenyi", a gentle and nervous "Brother", and a low-pitched and obsessed "Brother". From childhood to now, Gu Ninglin has followed behind him, The persistent shouts made his heart beat faster and his eyes burned.

"Xiao Lin..." He gently responded to the calls he had missed in those years, "Xiao Lin..."

Yu Chenyi paused for a while, then put aside the half stack of materials he had read, and picked up the half stack he hadn't read yet, but before he could turn down a few pages, his hands suddenly shook, those materials were not Steady, it fell from the side of the bed to the ground, making a small sound.

His whole body was shocked, and he quickly reached out to fish, only in time to grab the few photos that made him suddenly lose control just now.

In those photos, Gu Ninglin's face was pale, his sweat-drenched black hair stuck to his face, and he was firmly tied to the hospital bed. His hands and feet were covered with hideous red marks, and there was even a bloodstain on his arm, which was very thin. It looks like it was left by a needle.

This is probably the photo taken when Gu Ninglin didn't cooperate with the treatment, but the days when no photo was taken, I don't know how many more.

Yu Chenyi thought of those few hospitalization records, clenched his fists tightly, the veins on the back of his hands were bulging, and his eyes were about to split open. At this moment, his cell phone rang.

His eyes were full of bloodshot eyes, he paused when he heard the voice, and turned his head stupidly to look, when he saw Gu Ninglin's name on the message notification, a trace of sadness flashed across his face.

Yu Chenyi unlocked it tremblingly, and clicked on the voice message sent by Gu Ninglin.

Gu Ninglin's voice was very relaxed and gentle, and it was completely impossible to tell that he had experienced those sufferings alone.

"Brother, what do you want to eat tonight? I'm going to buy vegetables after get off work, and there's a new roast goose restaurant near my house. May I buy some and go home?"

This was their daily chat, but only now did Yu Chenyi realize how hard-earned this kind of daily life was.

He sent a nodding emoticon, and finally couldn't help but stretched out his hand to cover his eyes, a strange sound came from his throat, he couldn't tell whether he was crying or laughing, and after a long time, tears slowly fell from his palm.

"I have...remembered something for all these years..."

Yu Chenyi was crying and laughing, his heart was in pain as if being pierced by thousands of needles at the same time, he recalled the first day when he and Gu Yulin met again, the feeling in his heart was even more indescribable, the memories Scenes flashed before his eyes, and he held onto the clothes in front of his chest tightly, not knowing whether to sigh or smile wryly.

On the day Gu Ninglin left, he didn't know what happened. He went to play with Gu Ninglin after breakfast, but he couldn't knock on the door no matter how hard he knocked.

He waited and waited, and stood at the door of Gu Zoulin's house for a whole day, watching the empty house shouting Gu Zoulin's name over and over again, until his voice became hoarse, and until it was completely dark, even the rest of the house... My mother couldn't pull it back even if she came to pull it.

He was about to stand outside that door all night, but was finally carried home by Father Yu forcefully.

From then on, he went to Gu Zoulin's house to knock on the door for half a day every day. This behavior lasted for more than a month. He didn't really know until the door was opened again and a stranger moved in. The sticky man who holds his hand every day is a big liar.

Lied to him about the agreement, but left without saying goodbye. Since then, it has become a thorn in his heart, and it hurts when he thinks about it.

He couldn't tell whether he was holding grudges or missing him, maybe it was a belated liking, anyway, when he went outside to the big world, the first thing he did was look for Gu Ninglin's whereabouts.

At the beginning, his mother said to him, "Xiao Lin left as soon as he left. He is not your property, so why are you angry?"

He forgot exactly how he answered, but he said firmly, "He is."

If Gu Ninglin was not, then he would also completely turn Gu Ninglin into his own.

So on the first day of their reunion, he tentatively asked Gu Zoulin if he was in a relationship, deliberately stuck out his tongue and licked the beef, and watched Gu Zoulin's sudden change of expression from the corner of his eye.

Then he used the sandwich photos with teeth marks and the non-existent ex-boyfriend to induce Gu Zoulin to make a move. When he saw the potted plant in the bathroom crooked, he knew he had successfully taken the first step.

Later, he deliberately mentioned others in front of Gu Zoulin, insisted on changing the perfume, and then unabashedly showed his most frightened and vulnerable side in front of Gu Zoulin, implicitly conveying his temptation for Gu Zoulin, and went back and forth several times. Approaching and leaving, bit by bit grasping the thread that controls Gu Zoulin's emotions, leading Gu Zoulin to fall into madness towards him.

From the very beginning, he was hiding, and in the next game, he had calculated countless times, put on pure sheepskin to pretend to be the prey, and waited for the real prey to approach him step by step, and grabbed his wrist.

Gu Zoulin may never know how much effort he had to put on the initial appearance of not being able to recognize anyone.

At that time, he didn't know that Gu Ninglin's feelings for him were a hundred times stronger than he imagined, and he was secretly happy that the progress was going well, but now that he thought about it, if Gu Ninglin didn't love him so paranoidly, his actions would It's not going to go that smoothly at all.

He once hesitated whether to appear directly in front of Gu Ninglin and talk about the matter frankly, but the failure to leave without saying goodbye was like a shadow cast over his heart, and he was afraid that Gu Ninglin would come back again. Again without a word he disappeared from his side.

He wanted to control the other party, he had to tie the string in his hand to the other party's body, so that he could control the other party at any time, control the other party's emotions, and make Gu Ninglin look like he couldn't do without him, so that he could feel at ease.

But he didn't expect that his thread had been tied to Gu Ninglin's body since he was a child.

He thought that he was the one who pressed and calculated step by step to force out Gu Ning Lin's madness, but as early as when he didn't know anything and was complaining about Gu Ning Lin, the other party had gone through all this for him. many.

Holding those photos, Yu Chenyi finally couldn't help crying.

If he had known earlier... If he had known about Gu Ninglin earlier because he had experienced this, he would have pounced on Gu Ninglin and kissed him the first moment he appeared in front of him.

He didn't need to calculate at all, and he got the sincerity of the other party's morbid love, just like his...

The author says:

It will end within this week, too busy to update regularly, everyone can stock up, there are not many chapters anyway!Love you, Chirp!