Akutagawa's Life as a Savior

The ship in the darkness sailed forward silently, Akutagawa stood on the deck, looking at the surging waves under his feet.No matter which world you are in, the sea is as vast as ever, which makes people feel peaceful.

The sea water rises and falls regularly, as if hypnotic. In the sound of the waves, the noisy voice behind seems to be filtered, and it also appears a little quiet at night.

"Why don't you go eat and drink together?"

A voice suddenly sounded from behind, probably because of the habit of tracking animals, Jin's footsteps are always inaudible, but Akutagawa already knew that he was behind him, and knew that he had been staring at him from behind for a while.

"I don't like crowds."

"Me too," Jin walked over and shrugged. "Fortunately, there is no need to have a good relationship with others under normal circumstances. If I really need it, I can use money to buy cooperation."

Akutagawa couldn't help but look sideways, "You don't look like someone who can say such things."

"What kind of words, use money to buy cooperation?" Jin laughed, "Some people always think that I use money to insult people, but isn't this a kind of transaction? Simple and clear, there is no trouble, and many people like to be insulted by money of."

Akutagawa smiled, "You really are yourself."

"As a hunter, how can you not be selfish?" Jin didn't take it seriously, but winked proudly at Akutagawa.

After speaking, the two fell silent again, but this silence was a very pleasant one. There was no need to bother thinking about topics, and no need to care about the feelings of people around them. They were simply immersed in their own world, and their thoughts scattered aimlessly.

You will never get tired of looking at the sea.

The night makes everything hazy and beautiful, and the occasional hustle and bustle is just a foil to this eternal silence. No one disturbs, Akutagawa is finally willing to let himself recall everything that happened in Yokohama.

Probably because of the self-protection of the brain, the things that happened in the memory are a little strange, Mr. Dazai's face is also a little blurred, are those things real?Or confuse dream and reality.

Akutagawa waved away this idea, denying the reality would be too ugly, but the calmness in his heart is really surprising.Although he was always emotionally indifferent after waking up, he always thought it was the reason for deliberately sealing himself off.Akutagawa couldn't help thinking to himself, could it be that my obsession and feelings for Mr. Dazai no longer exist?

Akutagawa was a little puzzled, he was completely confused about his inner world, this was the first time in his life, he never knew what he wanted before.

It's strange that people can't fully understand themselves.

However, in the sound of the sea, the secular past is not worth mentioning. It is enough to watch the waves in silence, wave after wave, and never stop. The sea is enough to make people addicted.

The past is boring, just focus on the present.

The boat was passing through the sea, the bow sharply tore through the calm sea surface, and a large white flower appeared on the sea surface.From time to time, a few fish jumped out of the sea and made a dull sound of entering the water when they fell.

"By the way, have you been practicing mindfulness recently?" Jin suddenly turned his head and asked.

Akutagawa looked back in surprise, does his state look like a practice?Jin misunderstood Akutagawa's eyes, waved his hands and said, "I didn't mean to inquire about your ability, but I'm afraid you don't know what you need to pay attention to when practicing, so I just remind you."

"Many people think that mindfulness ability needs physical exercise the most, but in fact, the most important thing about mindfulness ability is the tempering of mind, constantly tempering one's heart, sublimating the mind, strengthening one's will, and making the heart pure and firm."

"This is the reason why mind ability is called mind ability."

Jin turned his head, "Maybe you already know this, but I think it's necessary to remind you."

He knows, Akutagawa thought, he probably sees through my current state, not just the ability to read, but the pursuit of all power requires a strong enough mind to persevere.The journey in the forest balances the precarious mental state, but the calmness is just the appearance of losing the support of the mind. After all, everything that has been insisted on has lost the reason to persist.Mr. Dazai showed me another possibility. Yin actually doesn’t need me, and the brother-sister relationship can be abandoned.

Akutagawa knows that his situation is very dangerous. The end of losing his obsession is that he may die somewhere or get lost in the world at any time, but after thinking about it, he feels that there is no need to care about his own ending. Death also loses its meaning.

The condition of his promise at the beginning was not for such boring things as strength and longevity, so let's live with the situation.

Kim was a good friend, though, and perceptive enough.

"I see, thank you." Akutagawa briefly thanked Jin, Jin smiled and stopped talking, and the two fell into silence again.

It seems that he already knows, so it is a bit annoying for me to say such things to people inexplicably, after all, no one likes others to know what is in their mind, but it seems that Akutagawa is not angry, he has a good temper, Jin thought.

He rested his chin on the railing of the boat, turned his head to look at Akutagawa, Akutagawa's hair is white, which stands out in the dark, and he prefers to wear black clothes, which is even more eye-catching.Kim recalled the scene of their first meeting.

When Jin saw Akutagawa, Akutagawa was fighting against the entangled branches with no expression on his face. After watching for a while, he volunteered to help. This person is very interesting.

Not to mention wearing formal clothes in the forest and having no common sense, Akutagawa and the group of telekinetics are really out of place.

The telekinetics that Jin knows are a group of very self-conscious guys, chasing unfettered freedom, and are very persistent in their own goals. Worldly moral concepts are definitely not applied to them, and their desires are frank and frightening. Unrestricted beasts.

But Akutagawa is very different. He has no desire for everything he sees, and the things he thinks are also very different. If he must be described, he seems to be a product of another world.

Not to mention that he is still very strong, very strong. Jin is very curious about how Akutagawa became so strong. He must have a reason to pursue persistently, at least once, otherwise he would not be able to obtain the current strength.And this is enough to match his pursuit of strength, why did he give up?

What a contradiction, this man, what is he thinking, what is he going to do next?What kind of path will he take in the future?It makes people curious, Akutagawa is really a mystery, unpredictable everywhere.

At this time, a gust of wind blew, and the smell of barbecue filled the air. Jin immediately forgot what he had just thought, and jumped up happily, "I'm going to eat barbecue, Akutagawa, do you want to come?"

"No, you go."

Recovering a person, the world seems to be quieter, Akutagawa simply sat on the guardrail, facing the sea, watching the swaying moon on the sea.Why didn't I notice how beautiful the sea in the middle of the night was before?

In the past, oh, yes, before going out at night was often for tasks, Akutagawa did not have the habit of admiring the beautiful scenery in the bloody storm.As for later, the night was equated with man-eating ghosts, and ghosts seldom haunted the seaside. At that time, the most impressive thing was the quiet and lonely moon in the mountains.

Growing up in Yokohama did not make Akutagawa fall in love with Shanghai. Instead, the sea has become very friendly and beautiful in other places.

He remembered that when he was a child, in order to change some food enough to satisfy his hunger, he and his companions went to ambush on the seaside path every day for a period of time. When encountering a big truck, one person would rush up to stop it first, and the others would panic after the car stopped. Rushing to the rear of the car, a group of children snatched whatever goods they wanted and ran away.

Danger is of course dangerous. If you are killed, no one will be held accountable. The death of a few orphans is not worth mentioning, but the taste of hunger can stimulate people's potential, so no one flinches.It wasn't until the nearby gangsters noticed the business that their robbery came to an end.In the slums at the time, it was a fluke to survive.

Now I actually still remember this past event, Akutagawa laughed. Ever since I followed Mr. Dazai to join the port of Mafia, I never thought about the past. I never thought that after such a long time, I still remember these little things clearly.

Maybe I was not as numb as I thought, maybe my life was actually meaningful to me.

Up to now, it doesn't matter whether Mr. Dazai lied to me or not. No one can save me. It is my own choice to get to this point.No one needs me to be responsible, and I am almost giving up on myself.

There is no reason to persist until now, but I am still continuing. It seems that I really didn't understand myself before.

Looking at the boundless sea, slightly undulating like in a cradle, Akutagawa sat on the rail of the boat shaking his legs, a thought suddenly appeared in his heart, could the scene in front of him be a dream?

Obviously not drinking, Akutagawa is a little bit drunk, maybe because of the intoxicating scenery, the sea and bright moon in front of me are like a dream, and I am so peaceful that it seems like I am in a dream.

Akutagawa suddenly laughed, would I have such a beautiful dream?Well, it is possible that I have gone crazy long ago, haha, the so-called books and journeys are just products of fantasy.

But is my imagination so rich?It doesn't matter, such a rare peace is good enough even if it is a dream, I want to be immersed in the dream and not wake up drunk.