Akutagawa's Life as a Savior

When Akutagawa's anomaly was discovered for the first time, Osamu Dazai began to think about how to save Akutagawa Ryunosuke.

It was a difficult thing, possibly the most difficult thing he had ever encountered.After all, if Akutagawa Ryunosuke wasn't so stubborn, he wouldn't be Akutagawa Ryunosuke.

Osamu Dazai made a lot of preparations for this, but things always happened faster and more urgently than he thought, and he didn't expect another self to intervene.

Things are bad.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke is always looking at him, so of course he has to go to the front, otherwise if Akutagawa is walking and one day suddenly realizes that he can't see him, how dazed and overwhelmed will Akutagawa be? .

Therefore, Akutagawa is always very troublesome and requires a lot of thought from him.

From before, he always looked at him like that, like a puppy surrounded by you pitifully after being kicked away by you.

Dazai didn't want to live a long time ago, but Akutagawa kept watching him, watching him while walking on the road, and watching him while sleeping on the bed, so Dazai had no choice but to continue living.

But what should Akutagawa Ryunosuke do if he can't see him, how can Akutagawa survive?Without a goal, Akutagawa will die alone.

So why does Akutagawa always have so much trouble?

Osamu Dazai was very dissatisfied and bored, couldn't Akutagawa learn to handle his own affairs?Why should Osamu Dazai work so hard here, and there will be no benefit, Akutagawa will stare at him every day, or call "Mr. Dazai" with a blank face.

But even this kind of Akutagawa Ryunosuke belongs to his Akutagawa Ryunosuke, and not someone else can just step in.

Because I don't have Akutagawa Ryunosuke, I want to lose other Dazai Osamu, and it really is something that Dazai Osamu can do.If it wasn't for the impostor being dead, Osamu Dazai would be very willing to personally help that Osamu Dazai achieve his wish.

Akutagawa, Akutagawa, Akutagawa, what to do with Akutagawa?Sometimes I want to point him to a better path, and I want him to see more people; sometimes I just want him to continue like this, only for me to be paranoid.

Osamu Dazai is a coward, he can't do anything.In fact, he knows that Akutagawa-kun is very strong, no matter what he encounters, he will continue to go on, and the person who cannot lose the other party is actually himself.

The sky in the new world is no different, and the people are exactly the same dull and boring. As long as you are among the crowd, no matter which world you are in, it is impossible to get happiness.

Only Akutagawa is different, and when it brings joy, it is even more daunting.

I just didn't expect that the first night in the new world would be sleeping in the open.Dazai was lying on the ground in the open air, the stars in the sky were so bright, completely different from the air-polluted Yokohama, Akutagawa's breathing sound came from beside him, Dazai couldn't help turning over, facing him.

The haystack under him was warm and warm. Although Akutagawa looked indifferent, he still took care of him secretly and gave him the place where the fire had burned.

Alas, it's so sad, all the good things in the world will always be lost.There is no desire to persevere at all, but I still want to be with Ryunosuke.

I really regret it, if I knew this would happen, I would never be so hypocritical. I must have taken action early and tied Ryunosuke to me, whether it was a rope or a domesticated mind, so that he could only survive by my side .

Dazai Osamu was still thinking about it, but he didn't notice that Akutagawa, who was lying there with his eyes closed, suddenly sat up and asked, "Mr. Dazai, why are you here?"

This question was so abrupt that Osamu Dazai panicked for a moment, not knowing how to answer.Akutagawa's rejection of him is obvious, he thought it would take a lot of effort to talk to him, but he didn't expect Akutagawa to be the first to talk to him.

Akutagawa has really changed a lot.

How should I answer?Dazai's mind is running fast, book, or parallel world?Or the situation in Yokohama, the world crisis?Telling the truth is definitely not enough, no, another way of thinking, telling the truth may be the way to break the situation.

Be brave Dazai, don't forget what you are here for.

Osamu Dazai coughed twice, his voice was a little artificial, but also a little false calm.

"I'm here for Akutagawa."

"Mr. Dazai?"

"What happened to Akutagawa, something that is difficult to get out of by yourself." Osamu Dazai talked about it on his own, "I want to help Akutagawa."

Akutagawa looked over in surprise, the shadow of the flames covered Osamu Dazai's face, the light cast by the stars and the moon was intercepted by the leaves, but this could not hinder Akutagawa's vision, Osamu Dazai seemed to have given up all defenses and put all his emotions open On the face, even the heart whispered, "Trust me Ryunosuke", "I don't want to lose Ryunosuke".

Under the night sky, his eyes were downcast, and he was indescribably gentle and lonely.

The shock in Akutagawa's heart is beyond anyone's imagination.

Wishes cannot lie, and the Holy Grail's observation of people's hearts is absolutely correct.

So what is this man doing, what is he thinking?

Although he said "Mr. Dazai's thoughts are difficult for anyone to fathom", but only this time Akutagawa is completely and completely unable to understand Dazai Osamu.

What the hell is he doing?

Akutagawa can't help recalling the many times they spent together, Dazai's cold treatment, Dazai's scolding, Dazai's belittling without emotion, Dazai's defection without saying a word, Dazai's gentle treatment of him, In a blink of an eye, he jumped down from the roof of the building in front of him.

So, what the hell is Dazai doing?Does he know what he's doing?

"Actually, I like Akutagawa very much." Dazai Osamu said with difficulty, his throat rolled up and down before insisting on speaking, "Or, I love Akutagawa, very much, so I hope Akutagawa loves me too, and be with me, do not leave Me."

What is he saying? !Akutagawa glared at Osamu Dazai.

Who is Osamu Dazai?He tried every means to hide him, pretended not to see him when he finally met, liked to say some provocative words to him, laughed at him as a waste, praised his new apprentice, but belittled his ability, Akutagawa would never be able to hold his head up in front of him.

Such a person says he loves him?

Why does Osamu Dazai love him?Why did he make Osamu Dazai love him?What can he do?

Akutagawa stared at him for a while, then said coldly: "Mr. Dazai, please stop joking", then lay down and ignored him, and turned his back to Dazai.

Osamu Dazai was quiet for a while, then said softly, "I'm sorry, but what I said is true."

There was no answer, the night was really too quiet, insects were singing from a distant place, and there was no human voice within earshot, but Dazai did not have the loneliness that often haunted him and was enough to drown him in his heart, because There is a safe person by your side.

He smiled slightly in his heart, Akutagawa was shaken, although only a little, he was really gentle.

What he said is true, but he skillfully blurs the point. Of course he is here to help Akutagawa, but Akutagawa doesn’t really need help that much. He is the kind of person who can persevere even if he is alone. , Dazai completely believes that Akutagawa can overcome difficulties without himself.

But then what about Osamu Dazai?Akutagawa has been traumatized by Osamu Dazai, if Akutagawa is allowed to heal himself alone, what hope does Osamu Dazai have for getting a little attention from Akutagawa in the future?

It is important to help Akutagawa, but what is more important is to show yourself in the process, and to engrave Osamu Dazai in Akutagawa's heart again.

This is worthy of Dazai Osamu's unscrupulous means, even if he signs a contract with the book and loses his freedom, he is willing to do so.

What I just said is true, and the feelings I expressed are also true, Akutagawa, you must understand, how precious truth is to a person like me.

Of course Osamu Dazai discovered that Akutagawa now has the ability to read minds. He has been observing Akutagawa silently. When walking on the road, Akutagawa frowned slightly, the corners of his mouth curled down a little, and boredom sometimes appeared on his face.

It is no exaggeration to say that Dazai has already done the most detailed profile of Akutagawa, modeling any psychological changes of Akutagawa. He can say with certainty that no one in the world knows Akutagawa better than him.

These are things that Akutagawa does not need to know. What he needs to know is that he is actually very important and excellent, that Dazai actually cares about him very much, that he is not alone, etc.The most important thing is to rebuild Akutagawa's trust in others.

"Ryunosuke, I'm a very bad person. The more I like, the more I run away from, and the more important I want to destroy. It would be great if someone else picked you up at that time. He will definitely teach you to love yourself, but I No, I will only treat you badly."

Osamu Dazai smiled weakly, he knew that Akutagawa had turned around to look at him, "I'm sorry, it was not my intention to hurt you, I never thought of abandoning you, and during the time I left the mafia, I was always Follow you, I know you live in an apartment with your sister, you like to go to the beach after finishing your tasks, and you will go to the building to find me when you are free."

"I am bad to the person I like, I don't show my heart to you, I let you worry about gains and losses, I don't let you be happy, because I am not happy. But I really care about you, and sometimes I want you to leave me too Not much better, but I can't do it, and the thought of you not looking at me is unbearable."

"I have wanted to really leave this world countless times, but I struggled to survive thinking of you, and I couldn't bear not to be in the same world with you. I know that I am a complete villain and have done you unforgivable even though it's another me."

"Forgive me, please? I am willing to swear to you that I will never leave you again, whether it is life or death, I will always be by your side."

There was a crackling sound from the fire, and the flames soared high, allowing Osamu Dazai to see Akutagawa's expression clearly. He knew that the purpose of his trip was expected to be achieved. deportation.

Great, I'm sorry, Akutagawa, I know that setting you free is the best choice, you will transform into a free and fearless traveler, but I don't want to.Because I'm a very bad person, I'm sorry, I thought about letting you go, but I can't, I'm sorry, I'm really a very bad person.