I'm not dating online anymore! [Gaming]

Three days later, Shen's father went for surgery.

The doctor said that the operation was a success, and that Father Shen is recovering very well. After three or four courses of treatment, he can try to stand up with the help of the equipment.

The stone that weighed on Shen Juan's heart was finally let go.

Everything seems to be slowly getting better.

Shen Juan took his father home and continued to live broadcast at home and make money by making orders.

Although Shang Xuan said that he was not in a hurry to spend the money, Shen Juan still wanted to return the money to him as soon as possible.

...More than 20 yuan is really not a small amount.

Shang Xuan gave it to him without hesitation.

It was like a traveler who was about to freeze to death in a world of ice and snow. There was no hope.

Some people are willing to step on the snow and light a fire for him with their own hands.

Shen Juan didn't know what to say, he looked down at the phone and murmured softly: "...Thank you, Shang Xuan."

Although Shang Xuan always played with Shen Juan on weekdays, they were basically playing games and rarely mentioned his own family affairs.

Shen Juan only found out recently that Shang Xuan's health is actually not very good, with big and small ailments.

Especially after living in school, his family can't see him anymore, so Shang Xuan will always be greedy.

It is said that some time ago, because of stealing ice cream at school, he had gastroenteritis in the middle of the night and was sent directly to the hospital.

So Shang Xuan hadn't been in school for a year, and his family suspended him from school again. His student status was suspended, and he only went back to take the exam, and then invited a tutor to come to his home.

Put people under your nose and watch.

When Shen Juan heard him talking about these things, he couldn't help laughing.

Shang Xuan is like a child who has been spoiled and grown up since he was a child. He is kind, gentle and romantic by nature, and has a little bit of innocuous willfulness.

...you can't help but like him.

Shen Juan often heard Shang Xuan complain to him, saying that the new tutor was too strict with him and always scolded him with a straight face.

Of course, Shen Juan thought that Shang Xuan was acting like a baby and exaggerating.

——How could anyone be willing to say a serious word to him.

The tutor left in the afternoon, but left a lot of homework.

Shang Xuan leaned on the table, resting his chin with one hand, while trying to solve the problem, he complained to Shen Juan, "The conic section is so difficult."

Shen Juan replied to him: "Show me the title."

Shang Xuan took a picture of him and sent it over.

Shen Juan looked at the question for a while, took out a blank sheet of paper from the drawer, and listed three different solutions to that question on it.

The ideas are very clear and clear at a glance from beginning to end.

Shang Xuan studied in a junior high school abroad and was not very used to domestic teaching methods. When he saw the "three different solutions to a problem" given to him by Shen Juan, he immediately admired him, "You are amazing! You will teach me mathematics in the future." OK!"

Shen Juan couldn't help laughing: "Okay."

Shang Xuan's tutor only comes four days a week, and he plays games at home when he is free.

Shen Juan also accompanied him.

In the past, Shang Xuan kept a lot of trumpets in order to play with Shen Juan, but since Diao Chan lost his horse that time, the trumpets were basically useless.

Now both of them use the boss's account, and Shang Xuan is in double row with him, and helps him make orders along the way.

Shang Xuan can only play mid laners, because mage models are usually very beautiful.

As a result, I was matched with another little girl who can only play mid laner. The commonly used heroes are three mages.

Shang Xuan typed to discuss with her: "Sister, I only know how to play mage QAQ, can you let me have a moment."

The man was unmoved, "I can only play mid laner too."

But because Shang Xuan chose the hero first, he played Xiao Qiao.

In the end, the fifth floor could only play support, and she chose Yao.

Yao - a must-have artifact for soft girls, and the favorite head accessory of wild king brothers.

Yao's ultimate move can be attached to the heads of other heroes, providing a shield effect. When the shield is knocked out, Yao will fall from the opponent's head, and the ultimate move will enter CD at the same time.

But because this hero has no hard control, no damage, and the crispy skin can't see the field of vision... Apart from adding a shield, there is no other use.

So it is also the hero at the bottom of the chain of contempt, similar to Daji Angela, a hero who will be ridiculed if taken out of the rankings, and was even banned in the ban position for a time.

Shen Xuan finished a group of wild areas, and went to the bottom lane to catch people after level four.

It could have been a solo kill.

But he just held the person in place and let Xiao Qiao take the head.

They were playing the Xingyao game, and Shen Juan took a wild core, which was directly a square jungler. The jungle area on the whole map was his, and he pulled the opponent's jungler by more than 10 gold in 2000 minutes.

Yao followed the shooter at first, but later found out that their jungler was the ultimate thigh, so she started following Shen Juan.

She walked to Shen Juan's side, jumped onto Jing's head with her big move, and followed him inseparably.

Xiao Qiao paused on the map.

Shang Xuan didn't say anything, turned around and went back to the clearing line in the middle.

Shen Yan frowned, and sent a "retreat".

Na Yao refused to leave, and stayed on top of his head.

Shen Juan and Shang Xuan seem to have a strange tacit understanding.

Shen Juan is not very good at interacting with people, he has always been slow to perceive people's emotional changes.

But even if Shang Xuan didn't say a word, he would know that Shang Xuan was unhappy.

Shen Juan glanced at the map, walked to the opposite defensive tower, and asked the defensive tower to knock down the shield, and the Yao on his body fell off.

Yao: "?"

Shen Juan typed: "Don't follow me."

Na Yao's position had already been robbed, and the support who had to make up for it had to be shown affection by Nakano, who scolded him on the spot: "Stupid couple dog."

Then he went to find the shooter without looking back.

Shen Juan's face was a little red, and he coughed lightly in the microphone: "Xuan... Do you want blue buff?"

……

The two of them waited in line for an unknown amount of time, from Xingyao all the way to the rank of King of Glory.

When the last round was played, the loading interface ended, and Shen Yan's hero suddenly stood still.

Like stuck.

Shang Xuan blinked, typed and asked: "What's wrong?"

After about three or four minutes, Nako Lulu hung up in the spring water.

Shang Xuan hesitated, turned on the microphone for the first time, and asked softly: "...Xiao Juan? Are you still there?"

His voice is light and sweet, his voice is melodious and soft, like the evening wind in summer.

In the dimly lit bedroom, the screen of the mobile phone Shen Juan held in his hand was still on, but he had fallen asleep with his eyes closed.

Shang Xuan glanced at the time, only to realize that it was early morning before he knew it, and Xiao Juan must be too sleepy.

He thought for a while and whispered into the microphone, "Good night."

Shang Xuan turned off the microphone, typed to explain the situation, asked his teammates to go out and not report Shen Juan, and then led them to fight four times and push down the opposite crystal.

·

In February of the new year, Shen Juan's live broadcast user received a private message: "I am the manager of the LCG team. If you are interested in playing the Kings Professional League, you can contact this email."

Seeing these words, Shen Juan slightly frowned.

As far as the current situation is concerned, the money earned by playing professionally should be a little more than doing live broadcasting.

But he couldn't be too far away from his father.

Shen Juan rejected LCG's invitation, "Sorry, I don't have this plan for now."

The other party probably didn't give up. After more than ten days, they contacted Shen Juan again and asked him why he didn't want to play the game.

The LCG team has been paying attention to Shen Juan, a rookie, for a long time. He has squatted in his live broadcast room for about three months. This boy's skills are definitely the current jungle ceiling, and his awareness is also top-notch. His style is calm and decisive, and he is very suitable for the professional arena—— The most important thing is that he is still very young, and the future is promising and promising.

Shen Juan simply replied: "Family reasons."

The third time, the general manager of LCG's king branch came to contact Shen Juan in person.

"Our team appreciates you very much. We must be people who can achieve each other."

"You can tell me all your needs."

"As long as the conditions are not too excessive, we can accept them."

Shen Juan really didn't want to play professionally at that time.

Back then, being the king's anchor...was just a stopgap measure. I had to do it to make money. When my father's illness got better and he no longer needed huge consumption, he gave up this job.

But being a professional player is different. Once he chooses this path, it may become a career he will pursue in the next ten years or even more years, and it is a major event that can affect his life.

Moreover, it may not be so convenient to take care of father when the time comes.

Shen Juan didn't directly reject him this time, but asked his father what he meant first.

Father Shen didn't like this job.

In the deep-rooted thinking of this generation, all things related to playing games are "doing nothing", and there will not be much future in the future.

... But Shen Juan has been trapped by his side for too long.

Dropped out of high school, dropped out and went home, working day and night to make money.

Other children may still be playing carefree, but Xiao Juan has grown up.

Xiao Juan...he is too bitter.

You should have the life you want.

Father Shen was silent for a long time, then smiled and said, "If you want to go, just go."

Shen Juan told Shang Xuan about it again.

Shang Xuan asked him: "Do you like this job? It's fine if you like it."

"Ah."

Shen Juan considered many things, and finally decided to talk to the team first.

He must bring his father with him, and he cannot leave a disabled old man at home alone.

If the club cannot accept this condition, he will continue to broadcast live.

In the end, the club rented a building for Shen Juan near the LCG base, and let Shen Juan bring his father to live there.

In addition to going to other teams' home courts for games, Shen Juan can do it at home during training games on weekdays. The club is very tolerant of Shen Juan.

In April of that year, Shen Juan signed a three-year contract with LCG Club.

——At that time, Shen Juan was far from worth tens of millions, and the signing fee was only 80.

But it was not a small sum for Shen Juan.

As soon as Shen Juan got the signing fee, he returned 20 to Shang Xuan.

But Shang Xuan didn't want it.

He said that Shen Juan was still in the early stages of his career, and his income might not be high when he was not famous enough, so he asked Shen Juan to keep the money first.

After Shen's father recovers from his illness and the family is not so short of money, ask Shen Juan to pay him back.

To Shen Juan at that time, Shang Xuan was like a beautiful angel.

Give him all hope and wholeness.

When Shen Juan first joined LCG, there was only one person in the team, and the results in the spring split were not very good. It was a low period.

At the end of the autumn competition that year, Li Li and Wen Yu transferred to LCG, and Beigo transferred to LCG in the next year. LCG finally became a complete puzzle.

In the second year, the LCG team won [-] consecutive games in the KPL spring competition, ranked first in the regular season, and refreshed the historical record set by ATG. , is also one of the most promising rookies, his popularity is skyrocketing, his fans are approaching millions, and there are an endless stream of brands looking for his endorsement and cooperation.

At the same time, Shen's father's treatment has obviously improved, his legs are no longer unconscious, and he can try to stand up with the help of external force.He no longer relies on expensive drug treatment, and the follow-up is mainly based on exercise recovery, which costs a lot less than at the beginning.

Shen Juan finally didn't need to be exhausted every day because of the treatment expenses.

... In summer, the peach blossoms are in full bloom one after another, as if all the misfortunes and hardships have passed.

Shen Juan returned 20 to Shang Xuan again.

This time Shang Xuan accepted it.

Shang Xuan said to him: "Xiao Juan, I am very happy to see you now."

Shen Juan also smiled, "Thank you, Shang Xuan."

...Thank you for being willing to accompany me through that barren road.

After sending the message, Shen Juan's smile subsided a little, he bit his lower lip lightly, and unconsciously rubbed his fingers on the phone case, and as if mustering up his courage again, he typed slowly: "I have something to tell you .”

Shang Xuan asked: "What?"

The other side was typing for a long time before sending a sentence.

"Yes... I like you."

While typing, Shen Juan's palms were sweating a little, and the roots of his ears were obviously red.

He asked a little greenly: "Can I ask you to be my girlfriend?"

Shen Juan knew very well how much he liked Shang Xuan.

It's just that he was not capable enough in the past, and he couldn't even take care of family affairs, fearing that Shang Xuan would be wronged if he was with him.

He didn't dare to say this until he had the ability to manage this relationship.

He knew that Shang Xuan's family might have very good conditions, and the elders might have higher requirements on Shang Xuan's choice of spouse, or maybe...he didn't take him seriously.

But... Shen Juan still wants to be with this person.

He likes Shang Xuan.

On the other side of the screen, Shang Xuan's expression froze slightly.

The two of them have actually known each other for two years. Although the relationship has not been clarified, those ambiguous and indistinct things have taken root in the hearts of the two of them, and there is no need to express it.

However, he never seemed to tell Shen Yan about his gender.

Yes.

Not once.

The only time Shang Xuan spoke to him was a few short words.

But Shen Juan was probably already asleep at that time and didn't hear his words.

At this time, Shang Xuan looked at the confession sent by Shen Juan, and his heart beat almost out of control.

... He realized that he dared not admit it.

That was probably the only wrong thing Shang Xuan did in their relationship.

He didn't confess to Shen Juan at that time.

——He was afraid that Shen Juan would not be able to accept his gender, and would push him away without hesitation after knowing the truth.

Shang Xuan held the phone, his fingers trembling slightly.

He replied with one word.

"it is good."

The playoffs are over, and the Summer World Champions Cup will begin soon.

LCG, as the strong team dominating the spring split this year, is the most favored favorite to win the championship. Some even say that this year's fmvp is because Shen Juan didn't run.

Shang Xuan's birthday was inserted in the middle of the World Championship match.

July 7st was the number that Shangxuan filled in at the beginning when he registered his account. Later, Shen Juan used the three numbers 21 as his professional ID.

Shen Juan didn't know what birthday gift to give to Shang Xuan.

Shangxuan's family has good conditions, and there seems to be no shortage of usual gifts.

After the first group match, several members of LCG returned to the club together.

Shen Juan was walking aimlessly on the street, when he passed by a pet shop, his heart suddenly moved.

... Shang Xuan said before that he likes fluffy things.

Shen Juan pushed open the door of the pet shop and walked in, and immediately heard the calls of various species.

Meowing and barking.

The owner of the pet shop said, "Do you want to buy something?"

"...I want to buy a pet." Shen Juan replied hesitantly.

But these kittens and puppies seem to be a little too lively, Shang Xuan may not like it.

"Are you going to buy a cat or a dog? Do you have a favorite breed?"

Shen Juan asked, "Is there anything a little quieter?"

The boss took him to the inner room, which was full of little rabbits.

Snow-white hair, jewel-like eyes, small, so cute.

Shen Juan finally bought a rabbit.

The rabbit was so small that it could be held by one hand, lying quietly in the cage.

Shen Juan sent the rabbit to the pet consignment side, prepared water and food for her on the way, and paid 800 yuan for shipping.The employee said that it could take off that evening, and it should be delivered the next afternoon.

Shang Xuan was very pleasantly surprised when he received Xiaoqi, "I like it very much!"

He took a photo of Shen Juan holding Xiao Qi.

Rabbits are cute, but...

Shen Juan's eyes were completely attracted by those hands.

Shang Xuan's fingers are very thin and slender, and his complexion is extremely fair, like beautiful jade.

Shen Juan kept that photo.

On the night of the World Champions Cup, LCG won the finals with an absolute advantage of 4-1.

fmvp, lcg721.

At that time, Shen Juan was really too strong, which coincided with the wild core version. At his peak, he was so strong that it was almost incomprehensible. , No player can compare with him.

Most Valuable Player, well deserved.

When holding up the trophy, what Shen Juan thought was that Shang Xuan would probably be very happy.

He couldn't help but smile slightly, and glanced in the direction of the camera.

——This look made Shen Juan countless fans overnight. Fans described it as "affectionate and gentle", and it must be the look in the eyes of a lover.

At the end of the finals, several people from LCG went to the backstage to rest for a while, preparing to leave the venue.

Li Li ran back from the outside in a frenzy, dancing and saying, "Ahhh! I saw a very beautiful young lady just now, but it's a pity that it's gone now!!"

Wen Yu asked inexplicably, "Didn't you go to the toilet?"

Li Li realized something later, and scratched her head in confusion: "That's right... Didn't I go to the bathroom...?"

·

Having won the world championship and season FMVP, Shen Juan's popularity has reached an unprecedented height.

It should have been a very busy summer, but Shen Juan asked the club for leave and went home.

He didn't have time to go home to take a look at the game for more than half a month. Now that there is no game, he wants to go home and be with his father.

Sitting in a wheelchair, Shen's father leisurely waved a small cattail fan, and began to comment on Shen Juan's working environment, "Your environment is not good, you are a group of old men, and it will be difficult to fall in love in the future."

Shen Juan's ears were a little red, he hesitated for a while, and said in a low voice, "I have a girl who I have liked for a long time."

"Although I haven't met her yet, I like her very much."

Father Shen let out a "yo" and said very curiously, "Son, how old are you? You are more promising than your father and I."

"What does it look like, do you have a picture? Show me."

Shen Juan thought of those hands as white as jade.

"—is a pretty girl."

At night, Shen Juan was lying on the bed in the bedroom, chatting with Shang Xuan.

"I told Dad about us."

Shang Xuan was taken aback when he saw the news.

He knew that with Shen Juan's character, if he was not sure that he would never change, it would be impossible to talk about it in front of his elders.

Shen Juan really liked him, so before they met, at this age, he decided to confess everything to his family.

...which should have been a very good thing.

But Shang Xuan's heart seemed to have fallen from a stone, and it became heavier and heavier as time went by.

"I have a girl I like."

That's probably what Shen Juan told his family.

Shang Xuan knows that lies will always be broken one day.

He and Shen Juan will meet sooner or later.

Maybe you can put all your eggs in one basket now and confess everything to Shen Juan.

But Shang Xuan... didn't dare to gamble.

Shang Xuan really didn't know what to do.

He suffered repeatedly from guilt and self-blame for deceiving Shen Juan, and was afraid of losing him so he dared not confess everything to him.

Every day is full of anxiety.

Shang Ye was the first to discover that Shang Xuan's mood was wrong.

Shang Xuan didn't eat much three meals a day, and recently he ate even less, as if he had a very bad appetite.

"What's the matter with you recently?" Shang Ye supported his shoulder, "The food doesn't taste good, and you're so skinny that your hands hurt."

Shang Xuan supported his forehead with the palm of his hand, and said in a nasal voice, "I don't know what to do...Little Yezi..."

Shang Ye frowned, "What's the matter, aren't you and your boyfriend inseparable all day long?"

Shang Xuan was silent for about half a minute, then sat on the bed and told Shang Ye the whole matter.

After hearing this, Shang Ye showed an unbelievable expression, "...What? You mean he thought you were a girl until now?"

Shang Xuan: "Yes."

"This is simply..." Shang Ye didn't know what to say, "How could you wait until then and not tell him your gender?"

Shang Xuan didn't know at the time that Shen Juan regarded him as a girl.

It was not explained at first.

Then I didn't dare.

Shang Ye thought for a while, and said, "Then you tell him directly, it's not an option to hide it like this."

Shang Xuan shook his head, it was the first time in his life that he uttered this sentence - Shang Xuan said: "...I dare not."

"But you can't lie to him forever." Shang Ye said mercilessly, "Don't tell me you will never meet him again?"

Shang Xuan knew all these truths.

He just wasn't ready to lose Shen Juan, even if there was only a slight possibility.

Shang Xuan murmured: "...give me some more time, give me some more time."

He knew that Shen Juan's personality was withdrawn and introverted, and he was unwilling to get close to others easily... and he would not easily fall in love with anyone.

But he lied to Shen Juan.

Now the consequences of this deception are too heavy for Shang Xuan to bear.

Shen Juan still treats him well without knowing it, and seems to be able to treat him with the love of his life in advance.

·

Before the official start of the autumn competition, Shang Xuan finally plucked up the courage to confess to Shen Juan.

"Xiao Juan, shall we meet?"

Of course Shen Juan would not refuse, he was always looking forward to meeting Shang Xuan.

Shen Juan originally wanted to go to Shang Xuan's city, but Shang Xuan insisted that he must come to him, and his attitude was very firm. Shen Juan had no choice but to buy him a plane ticket.

Shen Juan went to the mall ahead of time and bought a beautiful floral dress, planning to give it to Shang Xuan as a gift.

Then pick you up at the airport the next day.

After eleven o'clock at noon, Shang Xuan's plane should have landed.

People were coming and going at the airport, Shen Juan stood at the exit, waiting for Shang Xuan to come out.

After another 10 minutes, he sent Shang Xuan a message: "Have you got off the plane? I'll wait for you at the E pick-up gate."

Shen Xuan's phone vibrated a few times.

He saw Shang Xuan reply him some inexplicable words.

"When you see me...it may be very different from what you imagined."

"If you can't accept it, please... tell me."

"I'm behind you."

Shen Yan's eyes brightened slightly, and he turned around immediately

He saw a tall, slender man with soft chestnut curly hair that fell to his shoulders.

The person in front of him was very beautiful, so beautiful that it was shockingly beautiful, even a "snapshot" was not enough to describe his appearance.

His figure was reflected in those clear eyes.

...but a real man.

The surprise in Shen Xuan's eyes gradually faded, and an expression of disbelief slowly emerged.

"You are... Shang Xuan?"

Just looking at it like this, Shang Xuan's face even has an indistinguishable beauty.

Shen Juan looked at him without blinking, and didn't say a word for a long time.

Seems to be waiting for an answer from him.

"I'm sorry." Shang Xuan lowered his long eyelashes, "It's only now that I mustered up the courage to confess to you."

……

The gift bag in Shen Xuan's hand fell directly to the ground.

For a while, his entire mind was blank.

Shang Xuan is a boy?

This cognition is like a relentlessly shaking bell, ringing louder and louder in his ears, making his eardrums hurt.

But how is it possible...?

Seeing Shen Juan's face, Shang Xuan lost the courage to take a step forward. He stood still, his lips moved, and he lowered his eyes and said silently, "I'm sorry."

"At first, forgot to tell you about this."

"I dare not tell you later."

Shang Xuan's Adam's apple rolled, and he said softly, "Shen Juan, I like you."

Shen Xuan shook his head in disbelief, and took a step back, "This is simply..."

Shang Xuan's eyes dimmed as well.

"I never thought about it..." Shen Juan seemed to lose his ability to speak in an instant, he didn't know what to say, and it took him a long time to say another sentence, "Shang Xuan... I need a little time."

He glanced at Shang Xuan again, and said in a low voice, "Go back first."

Shen Juan really didn't know how to face this matter, he clenched his fingers, turned around and strode away.

Shang Xuan bent down slightly, and picked up the bag on the ground.

His silhouette is like a completely frozen stone statue, standing in place without saying a word for a long time.

Shen Juan didn't know how he got back to the club.

As if the shock and collision just now were just the first wave, the subsequent "aftershocks" wiped out all consciousness in his mind.

Shang Xuan is a boy.

This sentence is so incomprehensible that Shen Juan can't understand the meaning now.

However, after several hours, more than ten hours, or even the next morning, when Shen Juan finally accepted this fact—he found that he didn't have the slightest unwillingness or anger to be deceived, and he didn't have any feelings towards Shang Xuan. resentment.

...It seems that even if he knew that Shang Xuan was a boy, he still fell in love with him hopelessly.

Shen Juan's tinnitus was severe, he moved his completely stiff arm, and slowly stood up.

I don't know how long I have been lying on the bed, it seems that the sky outside is already bright.

The fact that Shang Xuan is a boy does not seem to be so difficult for Shen Juan to accept.

After all, he likes Shang Xuan, and what he likes is never gender.

... But what about the father?

How could people in their era accept that they were with a boy?

This idea flashed through Shen Juan's mind for a moment, like a sharp steel needle suddenly piercing into his brain, Shen Juan stretched out his hand to support the wall, and it took a long time for him to recover, not daring to think about it anymore.

Shen Juan had probably not had a drink or a meal all day, so he went down to find something to eat, and when he came back, he ran into Li Li.

Li Li was startled, "Captain, what's wrong with you?"

Shen Juan didn't know that his face was very ugly now, so he asked in a hoarse voice: "When is the game?"

Li Li was puzzled: "The day after... the day after tomorrow."

Shen Juan nodded, turned and went upstairs.

Li Li: "..."

Shen Juan hasn't contacted Shang Xuan these days.

He still doesn't know how to face him.

... Shang Xuan.

Shen Juan's heart throbbed in pain.

The results of the LCG training games in recent days have been unsatisfactory. Shen Juan's performance is too bad, and LCG is a team with Shen Juan as the core.

Everyone in the team knew that something happened to Shen Juan, but when they asked him what happened, Shen Juan didn't say anything.

Three days later, the fall regular season will officially begin.

Before the match, Shen Xuan went to the bathroom and washed his face with cold water, but his eyes were still light red.

Father Shen is fine.

...that's probably a loss of love.

Li Li stood beside her with her neck shrunk, not daring to speak.

After the first round of the first match, everyone in the live broadcast room saw that Shen Yan was completely out of shape.

Sleepwalking, dropping points, no rhythm at all.

Lost a mess.

Before the start of the second round, Shen Yan asked for a substitution.

Their substitute jungler took a temporary rotation, and coach Sanshui took Shen Juan to the backstage.

"What's going on with you recently?"

Shen Juan took a deep breath, he seemed unable to control his emotions, rubbed his eyelids hard, "I'm sorry, coach, I may not be able to play recently."

Coach Sanshui just looked at him.

"I……"

Shen Juan tried to explain something, but couldn't say anything.

The coach patted him, "Young man, you are still young, there is nothing you can't get through."

"Don't force yourself, go back and rest for a few days. Adjust your mentality as soon as possible, the team still needs you."

Shen Juan couldn't even say a word of thanks, and left the arena in a hurry.

Shen Juan has not dared to go home these days, he was afraid that his father would see something.

Shen Juan didn't know how to talk to his father.

He still likes Shang Xuan as always, and this love has not been diminished by half because he knows that Shang Xuan is a boy.

Shen Juan still wants... still wants to be with Shang Xuan.

After landing at the airport, Shen Juan went straight home.

What if I confess to my father now?

Will his father agree with him and Shang Xuan...

"Why do you look like you are going to die this time?" Father Shen squinted at him with some surprise, "Break in love?"

Shen Xuan trembled subconsciously.

It took a long time to let out a "hmm" from the nasal cavity.

"What's the matter? Tell Dad." Shen Dad moved to the side of the bed and reached out to touch his head, "Don't be sad son, Dad hasn't seen you cry for a long time."

Shen Xuan stood there with his head bowed.He didn't know how to speak.

Shen's father didn't think that the matter was so serious, he thought he was just quarreling with his girlfriend, and said: "It's inevitable for young couples to quarrel, if you really like other girls, we men, why don't we be shameless? Just make way for others, after all, it's rare to meet someone you like."

Shen Yan closed his eyes and moved his lips: "I..."

Father Shen suddenly said again:

"When your mother was still there, she always told me that in the future, you must find a girl you like to marry and live, and the children you have will be sensible——when you have a family, it will definitely be more complete than ours. "

"This is your mother's wish, and it is also your father's wish, you know?"

——This sentence is like the last lock, with an unbreakable spell, deeply nailed into Shen Xuan's bones.

"...Well." Shen Juan's voice stopped, and his Adam's apple rolled, as if he had swallowed something extremely heavy.

He whispered: "I know."

Shen Juan finally couldn't speak.

...This is something that cannot be chosen.

The car accident in the Shen family back then happened very suddenly.

Shen Juan, who is sixteen or seventeen years old, was pampered and grew up since he was a child. He has excellent academic performance.

It was a Saturday when the school was not closed, and Shen Juan was really homesick, so he called his father to drive to school to see him.

That's when the car accident happened.

On the way to school with Shen's father and Shen's mother, he collided head-on with a large truck running a red light, and the two of them lost consciousness on the spot.

Shen's mother was unable to be rescued that night, and Shen's father was declared paralyzed for the rest of his life.

……

Shen Juan had imagined countless times, if he hadn't made that phone call, if he hadn't asked his parents to visit him, everything would not have happened.

But it's too late.

He lost his family, and Papa Shen lost his legs.

Father Shen didn't blame him a word after waking up.

Later, he always said to Shen Juan that he hoped that he could live a good life.

Let him go back and continue his studies.

You can see him succeeding in his career, marrying a wife and having children.

——It can be fulfilled for him.

... Shen Juan had no choice.

He couldn't let his father down any longer.

He can't.

Shen Yan repeated again: "I know."

For him, Shang Xuan was a unique spectacle in his life.

It was the gleam of light that accompanied him through the darkness.

It was once placed in the softest place in his heart.

It's someone he likes.

...It's him, the person I like the most.

Before the start of the second match, Shen Juan sent two messages to Shang Xuan.

"When do you have time."

"I'm going to see you."

Too many things happened recently, and Shen Juan's mood was so bad that he couldn't play the game, so he rested at home for a while.

And when they met, Shang Xuan's mental state was also very bad.

His body is not in good shape, and recently he has become thinner and thinner, as if his bones are on the brink of death.

Shen Juan only dared to glance at him lightly, then hastily looked away.

His eyes fell elsewhere, and he said softly: "Let's break up, Shang Xuan."

Shang Xuan's body shook, his lips were pale and his face was bloodless.

"You should know the situation in my family." Shen Juan pinched his palm tightly, forcing himself to say every word: "My mother is no longer here."

"My father's leg doesn't know when it will get better. This is the only relative I have in the world. His biggest wish is that I can be like a normal boy, marry the girl I like, marry a wife and have children."

"...In the future, I will give my mother an explanation."

"I can't like boys."

Shen Juan finally said this sentence, with a trembling tone after forced restraint, he said again: "Shang Xuan, I'm sorry."